~Pushing Me Away~

After our first date, Niall and I kept meeting each other a few nights whenever we could find the time. I definitely liked him better in each passing day, and I finally allowed myself to open up my heart to him. He knew me, and respected me but most importantly, he cared for me. He looked at me like no other guy had ever looked at me before. We were still hiding our relationship from people so we had fun sneaking around. Zayn and Pixie are still clueless about us and I wasn't ready to tell them anyways. Niall didn't feel the need to publicise our relationship and he seemed to be okay with the sneaking around. I did find the urge to just blurt out the secret to them sometimes, because I was excited. It was my first relationship with a boy, and to add to that excitement, the boy is Niall freaking Horan. Everyday, I screamed inside just thinking about how lucky I was.

I shared a tour bus with Pixie and the rest of the dancers. One of the dancers was Liam's girlfriend. And everyday, I would see them hanging out together so openly, and I would just imagined that that was Niall and I. I did get to hang out with him during the day, but we just had to act like we're just friends. I'll joined their tour bus, and played some games with them and just hang out, then if we get the chance, we'll just sneak in a little touch of the hands or make some eye-contact with him. We do sometimes get some alone time, like when we're grabbing lunch together or just taking a walk, although we had to be careful of our actions because you never know when a paparazzi would pop out. But most of the time, I just hang out with Zayn because he is still my best friend, plus it helps to avoid any suspicion.

A few weeks passed by, and after a continuous run of shows, we finally had a small break coming up. The boys were allowed to roam around the city and enjoy themselves. I thought finally, a day where I could spent my time with Niall alone! So I went up excitedly to him to suggest the idea. He was on his laptop on his bed.

"Hey, wanna hang out together later?" I said excitedly.

"Yeah sure, hey listen..there's already rumors going around about us, did you know about that?"he said, distractedly.

"Hmm, nope..I haven't been checking the gossip sites recently. What'd they say?" I peeked over his shoulder.

"You know..'IS NIALL HORAN DATING?', 'A LOOK INSIDE LILA SIMMONS, AKA NIALL'S NEW LADY'...they're kinda funny actually," he laughed.

"Oh look at this one..'NIALL STOLE ZAYN'S GIRL!' Hahaha, that's funny! Hey! Wait, there's so many pictures of us! Cmon, where did they even get that?" I got distracted when I saw some of the pictures.

There were some pictures of when we were grabbing lunch together, and they picked the right moments to shoot because we were smiling into each other's eyes then. I looked at Niall to see his reaction.

"We've got to be more careful when we're out there."he mumbled.

I nodded understandably. To be honest, I didn't want to be more careful, I wanted us to be able to walk around hand in hand without needing to explain ourselves. I mean, isn't that what a couple should do? But he's been catering to my needs for so long, I felt it's only right for me to cater to his demands from time to time. I was lost in my thoughts for a while, when suddenly Niall shouted out loud.

"NO WAY!"

"What?"

"Look at this! Harry and Pixie hooking up? Is that for real?"

"What? No, it can't be! Why would they even put them together in the first place? They're not even close..."and I trailed off.

Come to think of it, Pixie had been hanging around Harry more than a few times, and Harry was immediately by her side when Joe dumped her. Could it be? Is that who she had been with that first day at Wolverhampton?

Niall and I seemed to be thinking the same thing because we both immediately stood up and went around looking for Pixie or Harry. And surprise surprise, we found both of them..together. Pixie was leaning against the bus, smiling and blushing, and Harry was staring into her eyes, one hand on the bus, one hand stroking her, obviously flirting with her. Niall and I looked at each other with horrid faces, so shocked at what we're seeing.

"Pixie!" I shouted at the same time as Niall shouted,"Harry!"

Both of them jumped at our voices, knew that they were caught in the act so they both looked down awkwardly.

"So the rumors are true then!" I exclaimed. "You guys together? When? How? Oh my god, I feel sick."

Pixie felt offended and defended herself. "Hey! I..we like each other..he's nice to me.."

"But..but..But I don't know what else to say," I really didn't know what to say. Because I knew that what she was doing is pretty much the same as what Niall and I are doing.

"Congratulations?"Niall piped in.

I looked at him weirdly, like of all things to say, he had to say 'Congratulations'? But my heart melted and I laughed as soon as I saw his face, and went to hug Pixie and Harry to show that I supported them, "I can't believe we had to find out through some gossip site!"

It wasn't long though since more pictures of Harry and Pixie together were up on the internet, and gossip sites are going crazy with all the assumptions. Even interviewers for the sites couldn't help but ask Harry about Pixie. Harry managed to give most of them the political answer by saying they're just having fun and hanging out. But one night, when Pixie and I joined the boys in their bus, Harry spoke out to us.

"Hey guys, I just wanna tell you guys that Pixie and I, we thought about it, and we feel like it's better if we just tell the public about us..you know, that we're pretty much official. Saves us all the trouble, and I'm pretty sure the fans would feel okay with me dating her."

Well, that's what he thought. The next day, Harry tweeted that he was indeed dating Pixie. And all hell break loose. The fans went berzerk over the news. Pixie received so much hate mails over her twitter, and Harry was asked the same question over and over again: Why her? It was even a trending topic for a while. Pixie came to me crying, so I offered her a shoulder to cry on. She was freaking out!

"I've never felt so much hate in my life before!" she cried to me.

She showed me her timeline, and all the mentions she got on her twitter. See, as much as the fans know who Pixie was, and how close she was with Zayn, she was a very beautiful girl. And she's considered sexy, because as a dancer, it was her job to maintain her body shape. So when fans knew that she was dating their favourite band member, some of the jealous fans turned their back on her and started calling her out, calling her dirty names like slut and whore. Plus, Harry was only 17, and Pixie was 19. So the age difference was somehow a big deal to the fans, seeing how Pixie's older. So more names were called out to her. It was so hard for me not to cry along with her. Some of the tweets were really harsh! The boys came to comfort her too.

"Hey, it'll die down soon, I promise you"Liam said.

"Yeah, just give them time to register the news inside their heads yeah?"Louis added.

Harry sat beside Pixie and hugged her all the way, whispering some comforting words to her. Zayn, who was holding her hand, released it to give them some space. I must have looked so shocked and appalled because he went to me, and hugged me by the side rubbing my arms to comfort me as well. I looked at the sight of Pixie, then I glanced at Niall. I needed him to give me a sign, just a nod or a convincing eye-contact, to assure me that that won't ever happen to me, to us.

But when we made contact, he quickly looked away from me. I continued staring at him, but it was obvious he was trying to avoid my gaze. My eyes teared up and it was the most difficult thing to do to not break down right there. What is wrong with him? I had to get out of there, so I made an excuse and left. Outside, I leaned on the bus trying to breathe in fresh air. A few minutes later, Niall popped out and when he saw me, he hesitated to talk to me. He fidgeted around, and I just kept observing him. He wanted to tell me something, but I'm guessing it was bad news and he didn't know how to. I stood there, hoping he would say something good.

But he just walked away soon after.


A/N:

Oh my god, what just happened with Niall? Why'd he suddenly avoiding Lila? Oooh, mystery..

Okay no, Gahh, I'm so sorry if this wasn't a good chapter! :(
Did you guys get the chapter? I've spent one whole day trying to think of how to write this, and I'm sorry if it didn't quite measure up. Had no inspiration at all, like I know the main plot but I couldn't find a way to convey it well, so obviously to let my imagination run loose, I had to watch many many 1D videos..which took me a while hehe..lovely boys:)

But it didn't really help with the story, although it did made me smile and laugh so much hehe. So I mean, from the very cheesy chapter to this..erm..apologies! Hope you still enjoyed it!

In all seriousness though, there's more coming up so jyeah.. :D