Dear Karma,
Hey Karma. I'm so so sorry, I'm sorry you have to put up with me.
I'm fed up with feeling so useless and stupid all the time, I hate it so much.
If I was to die what would you do? Would you cry? Shrug it off? Or sigh in relief?
I feel like I get in everyone's nerves and that everyone talks about me behind my back, I guess I'm being paranoid again..
God, I hate this.
I'm just sitting here feeling sorry for myself while you get to do god knows what.
Sometimes I want to die, I'm not doing it for attention I just feel
Like it. If I was to leave this place and never come back I wouldn't mind.
Some days I want to curl up and die, but other days I refuse to think of it.
Almost like someone crying themselves to sleep and the next day pretend that nothing happened.
I guess i am alright when it comes to acting. I pretend to be that nice and comforting friend who loves to laugh and be stupid, when really I want someone else to do it.
I want someone to make me laugh and forget about the sadness and always do their best to include me when no ones talking to me.
But that will never happen will it Karma? Because your the kind of guy who leaves me alone or makes me feel like sh*t.
I wonder if you really like me, or just using me like everyone else.
I want you to read this and tell me what you really think of me.
But guess what, You never will.
Sincerely, Nagisa Shiota
