AN

I just wanted to say thank you to all who reviewed you guys inspired me to keep going. These next few chapters are going to be kind of hard. There wont be no more fluff for now. This part is going to be kind of sad but this is were the story was meant to be. Please keep reviewing and an Emmett POV will be coming up soon. He will have a few chapters. Also I don't know how the whole Military thing works so just kind of go with it. Thank you again I love you guys.

We ate in silence today. Emmett kept looking up at me but I couldn't find any words to say to him. There was a lump in my throat that threatened tears if I spoke. He was leaving me today, and we still weren't sure when he was coming back. I thought I would be able to go throw with this with out tears but now that's its staring me in the face I wasn't sure I would even make it with out trying to kid nap him.

"Izzy, are you going to talk to me today or are you going to stay mute." Emmett's voice made the lump grow bigger. I looked at him, he became blurry. I tried to keep my tears at bay. My eyes betrayed me letting them fall. Emmett Stood up Coming and knelling down in front of me.

"Honey, please don't cry. Im going to be back before you know it." His Voice was soft and loving. I wiped my tears but the tears just kept falling. "Baby your stronger then this, I need you to be stronger then this." His eyes burned into mine. I knew my tears were ripping him apart inside but I couldn't stop them, Jasper and Alice were standing in the kitchen watching. Alice walked away I wasn't sure but I think I seen a few tears in her eyes as well. I slid out my chair and down into Emmett's arms.

"Don't go please, don't leave me, I need you here." I cried into his neck pulling him closer. He held on tight to me.

"Baby, this is my job, I have to go. I promises ill be back before you know it. Plus you have a wedding to plan and with work. You will be so busy you hardly notice im gone." He said still holding me close.

"Emmett stop it! Stop acting like your going on a vacation, Your going to war were people die everyday!" I cried out thought my sobs.

"Baby, its not that bad out there anymore. Plus im a Marine I live for this kind of stuff" I know he was trying his hardest to cheer me up but today it wasn't working.

"No Em you live for me. You better live for me or ill kill you myself" I said pushing him back. He looked at me with a crooked half smile. Realizing what I just said I started to laugh. Jasper Was laughing with his back turned towards us.

"You got it babe if I die out there which I wont, you can kill me" Emmett said though a lit chuckle. He helped me up.

"im sorry, I just love you and I wouldn't know how to live with out you" I said fixing my shirt and hair.

"I know baby, I feel the same way. Go take a shower we got to head out soon" HE said after giving me a kiss. I went up stairs and started to get ready. I felt heavy. I didn't want to lift my arms to even brush my hair. I cried some more in the shower, How am I going to do this. I wont be able to do anything until he comes back home to me. Today is truly the darkest day of my life.

When I was ready I went down stairs I herd Emmett and Jasper in the family room talking.

"Emmett stop worrying about her, I will take care of my sister, you need to focus on you and getting back home. She will be fine, Alice and I already have a plan." Jasper's voice was pleading but calm.

"Jazz man, did you see how she freaked out. How is she going to react if I cant call her everyday. Im so fucking stressed about it already. This is the hardest time I ever had with a deployment. I have these nightmares she fucking kills her self cause she hasn't herd from me and I come home to find her. Fuckin shit im losing my mind over here" Emmett's voice was more panicked then Jaspers.

"Look, she is going to cry, she is going to plea with you to stay, that's all normal. Once your gone and she lets it out she will come around and will be ok. She gots all of us to hang out with. You just let me take care of my little sister, and you take care of yourself for her." Jasper was still calm.

"Yea your right man, I know she will be ok, I know she is strong enough to handle this, I just want to be the one to help her with it. I'm supposed to protect her, I cant do that half way around the world." Emmett's voice cracked at the end of his sentence, I couldn't take anymore. I decided right then and there that I needed to stop being selfish and Make sure Emmett was leaving in the right mind set. I can cry after he is gone.

"Babe!" I called out pretending I didn't hear them.

"yea!" Emmett called back jumping up.

"Hey sorry I didn't mean to freak out. Im good now. I just needed to get it out." I said throwing my arms around him.

"That's good to hear ma. So you ready then?" He kissed my forehead.

"Yea is everyone else ready?" I asked looking around for Alice.

"Yea, im ready," We looked up to see Alice coming down the stairs.

"ok then lets get out of here" Emmett said eyeing me suspiciously. The car ride to the base airport wasn't as long as I had hoped it would be. For the most part I was kissing Emmett, getting as many kisses as I could be before he was gone. I had to keep pushing the lump in my throat down. I was surprised to see so many other marines and there families. It actually helped me. It made me feel like he wasn't alone. There were hundreds of others. I walked with him over to check in. We went over to were his unit was to meet up. There were about 20 other Marines standing with there families.

"LT McCarty" A man saluted him followed by the others.

"At easy soldiers." Once Emmett said that they all relaxed there stance and shock his hand. I stood in back of him with Alice and Jasper watching him. Watching the others. They seemed to look up to him. One man walked over to him and with out noticed they hugged.

"Its ganna be a pleasure working with you again Emmett or should I say LT" The guy said patting Emmett on the shoulder. Emmett turned to look for me taking my hand into his.

"Isabella, this is Jason Anderson, we severed together my last two deployments. Jason this is my fiancé Isabella" He Introduced us.

"This guy right here saved my life twice last deployment. If it wasn't for him I would be dead or have no legs. don't you worry about him cause I owe him my life and will be keeping an eye on his crazy ass." Jason said to me. I was overwhelmed with a sense of pride. I looked at Emmett and finally realized what he was say all along, He knew what he was doing out there. I was still worried but not as much.

"Good I feel better knowing he isn't alone out there" I said with a smile to Jason.

"With all do respect Miss but take a look around. We might all have different units but we are all out there together. He isn't alone." Jason's words made me feel more at ease. Emmett put an arm around me.

"Ill see you later Marine." Emmett sent Jason on his way. "See baby, you don't have to worry, we all have each others backs" He said giving me another kiss. Someone announced a 15 minute warning. Emmett gave me a big hug.

"Emmett don't do anything stupid out there you stay safe. Don't try to be a hero." I said with a panicked tone.

"Don't worry, I got this in a bag. You just start planning our dream wedding, and take care of yourself." he said rubbing my stomach. We didn't know if I had actually gotten pregnant yet but I know he felt better thinking I was. Jasper came up to us.

"Emmett, take care of your self out there, have some fun" Jasper shook his hand but Emmett pulled him into a hug. Jasper pulled back laughing. Alice jumped into his arms. She was fighting tears. I decided not to look that way I wouldn't start to cry to. They said their good byes. They walked away to give us some privacy.

"Isabella, you are my everything, please don't do anything stupid if you don't hear from me for awhile, it gets hard sometimes getting to a phone or getting stuff to write with." Emmett now sounded worried.

"Em, I promises I wont do anything stupid. You promised you would come home so im ok. As long as I know the first chance you get your coming home then im good" I smiled at him. Truly feeling ok with the whole situation.

"See that's why I love you." He said bending down giving me a kiss. This kiss, was slow and patent filled with love and passion. It was our goodbye kiss. Who knew you could feel someone's love throw a kiss. I felt exactly what he felt for me by the way he kissed me. We broke our kiss putting our foreheads together.

"Nothing will keep me away, just remember that." He said in a whisper. I nodded my head. Some one stood behind Emmett and cleared his throat, It was the Major I met the day we were at the base filling out paper work.

"Lt, im sorry to brake up your goodbyes but you have a until to account for" The major said to Emmett then smiled at me.

"Yes sir, ill be right there." Emmett looked annoyed but fought back to not let it show. "ok baby this is it, I got to go but im not saying goodbye im ganna say, see you soon" He tried to smile. I faked smiled back.

"OK, be safe I love you Emmett" I was surprised at how calm I sounded. Even though I was falling apart inside. He gave me one more kiss before turning around and walking away. I watched me as he walked up to the unit. They all stood in a straight line as him and the major walked up and down talking to them. I felt someone put an arm on my shoulder. I looked up to see a lady I never seen before.

"McCarty is a great Marine you should be proud, im Jason Andersons wife, he said maybe I should come and talk to you. He said this was your first time" I looked at her kind of confused but nodded my head.

"Im Isabella" I introduced myself and held out my hand.

"Hello Isabella, My name is Sara" She seemed nice enough.

"Its nice to meet you." I was trying to make small talk.

"Well Isabella, a group of us wife's get together every other week, not quite a support group but close enough. Your welcome to come, its easier to talk to others who are going though the same things as you. My number is on this card call me anytime. By the way Marines have the highest survival rate then any other division." I took the card from try to listen to what she was saying.

"Thank you I appreciate it" I didn't know what else to say to her. My mind was else were as it was. She gave me a warm smile and walked away. I looked back to were Emmett was last at but they were already gone. I sighed and turned around looking for Alice and Jasper. They were already walking to me.

"you ok sis?" jasper said pulling me in for a hug. I nodded. I was somewhere else in my head. I herd them talking but I didn't processes it, I just kept nodding. As soon as we got in the car I closed my eyes trying to find myself again. I really felt lost with out Emmett. He was leaving with a piece heart.

"you hungry or something Bella?" Alice asked looking back at me from the front seat.

"No I but I don't want to go home just yet either" I Said with my eyes closed. I opened one and looked at Jasper he was looking at me from the review mirror.

"Were do you wanna go Bells?" He asked sounding concern.

"Anywhere that doesn't remind me of Emmett" My voice cracked as I spoke. I closed my eyes again.

"Bella This is the hardest part of this. After you get his first letter then you will be able to relax some." Alice once dated a guy from the army, she was with him when he got deployed so she knew a little bit of what I felt like.

"Thanks Alice. I know ill be ok I just need to get used to him being gone. I miss him so much already" I said to her watching her like she was a crazy person because she climbed over the seat to sit with me. I had to laugh at her. She was so weird sometimes.

We ended up going to Edwards. That was the only places I never been so it wouldn't remind me of Emmett to much. We ordered pizza and watched a movie. The first night away from Emmett was hard but not the hardest one.