I slowly backed up, seeing PJ walking towards me like a lion stalking its prey. "What do you want?" I asked, the horror clearly showing in my voice. "You know I love it when you are scared. It makes it much more exciting for me. And I am here to have some quality time with you again, I wouldn't want you to forget me." There was nowhere for me to go anymore. I was against the wall and PJ was right in front of me. He enjoyed the terror in my eyes, I could see it. I couldn't help a tear from falling. "Don't cry. I am not going to scar you again, at least not in a way that can be seen from the outside." He gently pushed me towards the bed and I laid down, not knowing what he wanted me to do. All I knew is that if I didn't let him do what he wanted, I would end up at the bottom of those stairs again. "Don't move." He said. He started to take off my pajamas. "You… no. You can't do this! Get off of me!" I tried to turn to get him to fall off of me, but his weight was too much. I was trapped. I couldn't use my arms to push him off and he knew it. He laid my arms above my head and sat on my legs. I was terrified. I was laying there in just my underwear and he was studying me. I started crying. "What did I ever do to you to deserve this?" I said through my tears. He just stared at me. "You made me love you." He said. He started unbuckling his belt.

I couldn't believe what had just happened. It was as if I was watching from a distance. I was still on the bed, feeling numb, empty, tears not falling anymore. PJ was putting on his clothes again. "Remember those camera's I had placed here? It has all been recorded. Dan will see it eventually." He said. It felt as if my world just crumbled to pieces. How could he do this to me? I couldn't do anything but look at him with my empty eyes. I saw sympathy looking back at me. I didn't understand why he felt that way, he was the one who had done this to me. He couldn't feel sympathy, he enjoyed what he had done. He didn't feel sorry for me. For all I know he'd do it again. "You will steal money from him and give it to me. If you do not, there will be consequences. If you do not steal enough, well… I'll find a way to get it myself." I couldn't say anything. I was just waiting for all of this to be over. For him to leave. He walked over to me and put a hand on my leg. I flinched at the touch, scared he might start all over again, but he pulled back instantly. "I do not like doing this to you, if that is what you think. But you are the first girlfriend who has been able to take my tormenting for this long. The others broke up with Dan after the first time I visited them. There must be a way to get you to break up with him. I only have one more thing in mind, and that will get him to break up with you just to put you out of your misery." I didn't even want to think about what that might be. He grabbed my pajamas and put them on me. He knew Dan would start asking questions if he saw me out of my pajamas. He got up and left me. Left me in my room, too numb and empty to get up.

I couldn't sleep anymore, and I waited for the night to end and for Dan to come and take care of me. It seemed to take forever, but eventually the sun had risen and I got up. It had not sunken in yet what had happened, and I hoped it wouldn't when Dan was here. It was still 6 a.m., so Dan wouldn't be here for two more hours. I went downstairs and sat down on the couch, trying not to think about what had happened. Time flew by and soon I heard the front door opening. I was trying to get some emotion into my eyes, but I didn't think it was working. When Dan saw me I immediately knew he was worried. "I had a nightmare." I told him. I saw most of the worry fade, but I knew he didn't trust it completely. He helped me shower. It felt good, washing PJ off of me. I closed my eyes, enjoying the warm water, but images flashed through my mind. My eyes flew open, terrified of the person touching me. "It was just a nightmare." Dan told me, hugging me. I was shaking all over, suddenly the warm water felt like ice.

The next week went right by me. The only thing that got my mind off of what PJ had done, was that I could move my arms again. During one of my exercises with Dan, I could finally lift a cup. Dan was ecstatic, and I was happy he wouldn't have to be around me 24/7 anymore. Normally I would love all the attention I got from him, but right now all I wanted was some time alone with my thoughts. PJ hadn't given me a deadline on when I needed the money and he didn't say how much I needed to give to him. I had to figure out how I would get Dan's money and how much I had to steal. And above all, how I would get it without him noticing. I visited the doctor and he told me I didn't have to come anymore. I was relieved, because that meant I could stay home without Dan there. I told him he could go home with some lame excuse I made up right on the spot and went to my room. I sat down on my bed and started thinking. I decided I would need to steal 10 euro's from Dan. That would be enough for the first time, right? An idea flashed across my mind. I didn't need to steal the money, I could give PJ my own! After that I fell asleep quickly. I wasn't worried anymore, I didn't have to steal from Dan.

The next few weeks flew by. I had expected PJ to visit me, but he didn't. Dan and I had done loads of fun stuff together, celebrating the fact that I could use my arms again. He had given me the most beautiful necklace I had ever seen for our 6 month anniversary. He was so sweet. And he didn't have to worry about PJ. Dan still thought PJ had left him alone. I wish I could say the same. It was Saturday night, and I had to sleep in my parents' house tonight. Dan was at home, he had begun working again, and he had a nightshift. I was trying to fall asleep, but I had some trouble in doing so. I couldn't shake the feeling of someone watching me. I walked over to the open window. It was way too cold in my room, it wasn't comfortable. When I looked outside, I saw a guy standing there. At first I thought it was PJ, but this guy wasn't as tall, and he didn't have the curls PJ had. I closed my window and the curtains quickly. I was sure the guy outside my window was staring at me. Somehow I recognized him. I went back to bed, vaguely trying to remember where I had seen this guy before. In my dream I was back in the alley, my way being blocked by someone. I didn't know his name, but I was sure it was the same guy that was outside my window.

I woke up to Dan coming to bed. He was going to sleep, but I was getting out of bed. It was 9 a.m. and I was hungry. While I was eating my cereal I was thinking about the guy I had seen that night. Why was he outside my window? Maybe he'd be here tonight. If he was, I was going to ask him what he wanted of me. The rest of the day was quiet. I was allowed to go to school tomorrow. School had begun three weeks ago, but because of my "accident" I wasn't able to go. I just sat at home the entire day, watching tv and reading some books. It started getting dark. I was so surprised by how the days flew past nowadays. I got ready for bed. When I was done I walked over to the window and peeked out. He was there again. I quickly went downstairs, but when I was at the door I got thinking. Would this be a smart thing to do? He had helped PJ get to me. I decided to take a pocketknife with me and I went outside. The guy was still standing right where I saw him. I could see his features more clearly now, and I remembered him. He had the same hair as Dan. I walked over to him. "What are you…" I was in the middle of my sentence but he interrupted me. "I don't have much time, you have to listen to me. What PJ is about to do to you, you can't even imagine. Please, just give him the money. He knows you haven't stolen from Dan yet, and that you are going to give him your own money." Shit, I had forgotten about the cameras. "What is PJ going to do? Kill me? Rape me again?" I was starting to get angry, but judging by the look on his face he didn't know PJ had done that. "He… he raped you? I swear, Kyra, he told me he was only going to visit you once or twice, otherwise I would never have helped him." Like it wasn't bad he helped PJ in the first place. "Who are you anyway?" "Phil. But I need to go now, if PJ finds out I was ever here… you know what he is capable of." I gave him a look of understanding and watched him run off.

I slammed my alarm clock to turn it off. Today is a school day! Finally, I had really missed my friends. I was getting dressed when I saw a small envelope on my nightstand. It said "Kyra, I will tell you more at school. Be in the girls bathroom, last period. P." great, I could use some explanation. Maybe Phil could tell me how much money I needed to get before… I didn't want to think about what PJ might do. I ran downstairs. I had taken too long to get dressed, and I had to be at school in 5 minutes. I skipped breakfast and ran out the door. I knew I wasn't going to be on time, but every muscle in my body urged me to run for it. I ran and ran until I finally saw the school building. 1 minute left, I had made it. I ran into chemistry and sat down, out of breath. The day never seemed to end. All I could think about was the explanation Phil would give me today. When finally my last hour had ended, I went to the vacant bathroom. I knew Phil wanted to meet here, it was the only bathroom no one ever used or cleaned, so we could talk without being interrupted. I entered, immediately disturbed by the horrible smell. As I analyzed the bathroom I noticed no one was here. I checked all the stalls, making sure there was no one there. I waited for about half an hour, but then I left. The entire school was empty, apart from some cleaners. It was already dark outside. Last period ended at five, do it was already getting dark outside. I walked over to my bike and got on. It was weird Phil hadn't turned up. I was slightly worried about him, afraid PJ might have found out he went to my house. I entered a small tunnel. Just as I was at the exit I felt someone pull me off of my bike. I was disoriented for a moment before I got up and looked around.