Chapter Nine: Listen To Your Heart
Lucas walked into his room, decided he needed the girls to know, he was finally going to figure it out. He picked up his cell and dialed Peyton's home number. Hoping they were together.
"Hello," Peyton answered.
"Hey Peyt," Lucas said.
"Oh, hey, what do you want?" Peyton asked.
"I need you and Brooke to come to my house, I need to talk to you guys," Lucas said.
"I need to ask Brooke if she wants to," Peyton said.
She turned to Brooke and mouthed the word Luke.
"What does he want?" Brooke asked in a hushed voice.
"He said, he needs to talk to us," Peyton said.
"Well, tell him if he wants to talk to us that bad, that he needs to come over here," Brooke said, looking very agiated.
Peyton shook her head, and took her hand off the receiver.
"Luke, we'll listen to what you have to say, but you have to come here," Peyton said.
"Fine, I'm on my way," Lucas said, hanging up the phone.
Lucas got up, and grabbed his keys and ran out the door.
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"I can't believe that I actually gave into him," Brooke sneered.
"Brooke, maybe we should just hear him out," Peyton said.
"P.Sawyer, your my best friend, but your to forgiving with that boy," Brooke said.
"I'm not so sure, he is as bad as your making him out to be, maybe he really is just confused," Peyton said.
"Yeah maybe, but does that give him the right to string us both along, like little pawns in his game," Brooke asked, straightfaced.
"No, but I don't know, I don't think Luke would purposely do it," Peyton said.
They're conversation got cut short, when they heard a knock at the door.
"It's probably Luke," Peyton got up, and went downstairs.
She opened the door, and was shocked to see, a man she saw as strong and tough, battered and broken in front of her. She motioned for Luke to come in. They made they're way upstairs, and into Peyton's room.
"Look, I know either of you, probably don't want to see me," Lucas said.
"You hit the nail on the head, with that," Brooke said, with a hurtful look in her eyes.
"I just need you two to hear me out, then I'm gone," Lucas said.
"Fine," Brooke said.
Peyton couldn't believe how hateful Brooke was being. She could have swore she saw tears in Luke's eyes. She felt bad for him.
"I am going to be doing so deep soul searching, in doing so I'm hoping to figure out who I'm in love with," Lucas said.
Just as fast as he was there he was gone. Seeing them, and hearing Brooke saying those hateful words. Well it made him like he didn't deserve either one of them, in fact he wasn't even sure if he did deserve either of them, but he was hoping they would give him one last chance.
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Lucas got home, and felt as if he could cry. He didn't like crying, and he tried to not do it, but those two girls made him cry more than anything else in the world. Lucas picked up his phone, and dialed Haley's number.
"Hello," Haley answered.
"I'm sorry, Hales I am," Lucas said, tears streaming fast down his face.
"Luke, what is the matter," Haley asked really concerned for him.
"It's not fair, it's not fair for them, and it's not fair for me," Lucas said.
"Luke, I'm coming over," Haley said.
"No need, I won't be here, I'm leaving Hales, I'm going far away from here," Lucas said.
"Luke, you can't keep running from them, or your feelings, fight through it," Haley said.
"I'm sorry Hales, I'm sorry I just couldn't be stronger," Lucas said, and then hung up the phone.
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Lucas decided to leave a letter, to let everyone know that he was alright, that it was his choice to leave, and why.
To Anyone who read this,
I have decided to leave Tree Hill for good, to part ways with a life that I have regretable lived for far to long. I can't stand the fact that I am hurting everyone close to me, and I can't stand this person I have become. I'm not running Hales, just starting over, starting a new. I can't live a life where I hurt people, thats just not who I am. I will not be returning this time, and I will only tell a couple of people where I'm going. That will only happen once I get there, because at this time I'm not quite sure where it is I'm headed. Except for the fact that it is going to be far away from here, from this place. Mom, I love you, I will be in contact, I swear. Nate, Hales, I love you guys to, call if you need anything. Brooke and Peyton, I'm sorry I couldn't be a better guy for either of you, and I'm sorry I've hurt you both so bad. I have figured out who I love, but I can't stand to hurt that person anymore, if you really want to know, you'll find a way to contact me.
Love always,
Luke
Lucas left the letter in clear view, and grabbed his bag he had packed, and his keys and headed out the door. He stopped a few feet outside the door, turned toward the house, and said his goodbyes. He got in the car and left.
Lucas had been driving for a couple of hours, when his mind went back to the girl. The girl that could have been his had he not been so stupid, the girl he loved with his whole heart. That girl was Peyton Sawyer, and she was the most beautiful girl.
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