"WHY DID I HAVE TO BE THE END OF ALL MIGHT?!?"
That's what kept going through her mind. She never saw him like this and didn't want to. It hurt her to see him in agony.
All this time, he blames himself for what happened to All Might. That would explain the sudden change in him since that incident. Why didn't I put it together?! Now that I think about it, it would make sense that he would think that, b-but that's ridiculous. It's not his fault at all.
Bakugo was still on his knees with his face in his hands. Today, he finally exploded and let his true feelings show. He was slowly dying inside and couldn't take the guilt for much longer.
Why was I the one who ended All Might?
Momo kneeled down in front of Bakugo and tried to get his hands away from his face but he wouldn't budge.
"Just leave me alone."
"Bakugo, please. You don't want to be alone." She whispered to him.
That was true. He didn't want to be alone, he never did but he tried so hard to think that he didn't need people in his life. He tried so hard to be strong and fearless.
Momo realized that he was probably embarrassed that he was crying, so she got up and sat behind him, back to back. Bakugo didn't move or try to leave. They sat like that until Momo spoke out to him.
"It's not your fault Bakugo for what happened to All Might. You shouldn't blame yourself."
He tensed up, remembering everything that happened that day.
"You just don't get it! I was captured by those fucking villians! If I was stronger, if I hadn't been kidnapped then that wouldn't have happened, he would still be okay! He tried to protect me and fight at the same time, I was a burden to him! All Might tried to keep it a secret! And I exposed his greatest weakness! Even if I try not to think about it... i-it just comes to mind unexpectedly! IT'S ALL MY FAULT, DAMN IT!"
IM SO FUCKING WEAK! I wasn't strong enough to escape. Not to mention that Deku has inherited All Mights power, which makes everything worse! How can someone like Deku, a quirkiness idiot, inherit a power like that. He's catching up to me and one day he's going to pass me and I'm going to be the one who is unable to catch up to him! I hate him!
He grew more tense, anger building up within him thinking about Deku.
Momo started crying but he didn't hear or notice the tears that were running down her porcelain skin.
How dare he think that it's his fault and that he's weak. He's the first person I think of when I envision strength!
"YOU'RE THE STRONGEST PERSON I HAVE EVER MET BAKUGO!" Her hands were in a fist, nails digging into her palms.
Bakugo perked up, not knowing how to react to that statement. She continued talking.
"You're the strongest person I know Bakugo. Since the day I saw you, you had thi- this energy and dedication. I mean yeah, you were a little scary, crazy and hotheaded... you still are." He chuckled.
"But you've grown and not only in strength but as a person, whether you see it or not. You can't blame yourself for this. All Might was already very hurt and this battle between him and All for One would have happened anyways. It was his time. He won and he's still alive Bakugo, that's what's important!
Bakugo was holding back his tears. He knew what she said made sense but he couldn't stop blaming himself and doesn't think he ever will.
"I just speeded up the process." He finally said. "He could have been All Might just a little longer if I hadn't have been captured."
Momo turned her head slightly, looking at the back of his head.
"Bakugo what happened to All Might was inevitable. It wasn't your fault, you have to-"She paused for a second, knowing what she was about to say was almost impossible for him to do. "you have to let it go. You're hurting yourself by thinking like this and I hate seeing you do this to yourself. It breaks my heart", she broke out crying.
He turned his head, realizing that she was crying.
"W-Why are you crying?" He emphasized the 'you'.
"Because you're suffering! You've been suffering for so long and I didn't do anything to help you. I didn't have a clue about what you were feeling."
She fully turned around hugging him from behind. Bakugo shocked, had his arms mid-air not sure what to do or where to put them. He felt her tears sink into his shirt, her arms tightly grabbing him like she was afraid he was going to leave. He wanted to hug her annd protect her. He turned around to face her but Momo was still hugging him, refusing to let go. She had her face against his chest, tears still falling down her cheeks, staining his shirt. The only thing that Bakugo had to do was wrap his arms around her. She looked up to see that he was laying his head on top of hers. She let go of him and they both stood up to sit at a bench near by.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I didn't do anything to help. I knew something was wrong but I was too afraid that you were going to reject me. I tried to get closer to you and now I'm glad that I was able to wiggle myself into your life. A lot of people think you're a bad person, but I think you're so admirable. That's what I think of you Bakugo. A strong-willed, courageous and fearless hero. I just hope that you see it too."
She's saying all this crap about me but it changes nothing! Im not strong enough and I'll never be the number one hero!! Ever! Not with Deku and All Might. I hate to say it but how can I compete with a quirk like that!
He was at a dead end. He felt like he was losing his mind.
"I don't know what to do! I feel like everything is spiraling out of control and there's nothing I can do about it. I feel like I can't catch my breath. I feel like I'm drowning and there's no one there to help." whispered Bakugo.
"I'm here" she said softly, holding his hand and squeezing it, not knowing if he heard her or not.
"I know I can't take away what you're feeling no matter how much I want to. I can't stop you from thinking about what happened. I don't know if you'll ever stop blaming yourself but I do know that it wasn't your fault and it's a huge burden to put on yourself, Bakugo. I know that you have respect and admiration for All Might. You view yourself as having to be tough all the time, without any chance of showing weakness or emotion and that's why it hit you so hard but nothing can change what happened to him. It was his time to retire and you had nothing to do with it. You stayed brave and strong through the entire thing. I was scared for my life and I didn't even face a villain but you-you we're surrounded by them and you were ready to give it your all. You never backed down once."
I don't know if I will ever be able to live with something like this, eating away at my conscious."Let's go ponytail, I'm frickin tired." He really wanted to leave and try to forget that this ever happened.
She wanted him to say something to her about how he was feeling but she knew he wouldn't. They walked back to Momo's room ready to go to sleep since it was pretty late. Bakugo opened the door and found Kaminari and Kirishima passed out on her bed.
"What the fuck are they doing here?!" He whispered loudly at her.
"Oh I forgot they were still here. We were just hanging out together and they fell asleep then I went to look for you." She said to Bakugo, trying to calm him down.
"I still don't understand why you didn't just kick them out!"
"Because that's rude Bakugo!" She gasped.
"I'll wake their asses up!"
Momo stopped Bakugo before he could do anything irrational. She shaked her head and told Bakugo that they'll just sleep next to them. There was room for all of them. Also the two boys weren't laying vertically like people usually do but they were laying down horizontally on the bed.
"Whatever, I just don't want them near you" he harshly said.
Momo curiously looked at Bakugo, wondering something very important.
"Are you jealous Bakugo?" She asked. He turned red. Flustered that he didn't know how to respond.
Wow this is probably the first time where he's speechless
Momo was about to lay down next to Kaminari but Bakugo grabbed her and took her place, so she could only be next to him. "No, I'm not jealous, got it! There is no reason why I would be jealous, especially of those two dumbasses! What the hell kind of a question is that?" Bakugo continued to blabber on.
"Okay okay sorry I asked... you're definitely not jealous."
He eventually shut up and she took this opportunity to turn towards Bakugo, who was already looking at her but quickly averted his gaze somewhere else. She continued to stare, she could still see his suffering.
"What are you looking at ponytail?! Stop staring!"
She reached out to him and put her hand on his face. Bakugo didn't expect her to do that but found himself not caring. She caressed his cheek and moved her hand up to his head. She ran her fingers though his spiky, blonde hair. She smiled and said "your hair is a mess Bakugo."
He was a little confused at first to why she would say that. He was about to argue with her about how his hair was like that naturally, but then she carelessly ruffled his hair.
He immediately glared at her and yelled "Yeah! Cause you just messed it up!"
Hehe he gets so worked up for everything.
She was fighting back her laughter.
"Bakugo, shhh you're going to wake up Kirishima and Kaminari."
"Like I care!"
"Stop yelling, you're so loud"
"Don't tell me what to do!"
She put her hand on his mouth and with her other hand, she raised her finger to her mouth, signaling him to be quiet. "I've never met someone so loud and stubborn as you."
She moved her hand away. Bakugo surprisingly didn't say anything but he was giving her a death glare. She ignored it as always and moved close to Bakugo, hugging him.
Momo sighed "You may never believe it, but with time your pain is going to slowly fade away and I'm going to be there with you until you no longer feel the distress and heartbreak that you've been holding in." She held him tighter.
He didn't say a word, processing everything she had said.
"I promise that you'll be okay, everything will be okay" she whispered to him.
He looked at her face, admiring and looking at every detail. He simply nodded.
Fuck! She's got me trapped! I-I think I like her. He pondered about what he should do about those feelings. He didn't care anymore, he wasn't holding back his emotions anymore. He wrapped his arms around her and held her close. Fuck it.
She's perfect.
Bakugo didn't want to believe Momo but yet, somehow he still did. He believed that everything would be fine.
I don't know how but... I'll be okay
She fell asleep and soon after, so did Bakugo. He didn't feel like the world was looking down on him anymore.
