Chapter 9 - Trying to heal a broken heart
EPOV
Well That Was Unexpected
Bella had been gone a year. A year. I was still in shock, it was totally out of the blue. I mean, I knew that her parents were arguing and everything, I just didn't think it was that bad. Sometimes Alice would cry when she heard 'Club Tropicana' come on the radio because her and Bella would always sing to it because they thought it was the best song 'Wham' ever did. Rosalie didn't really show any emotion but when we talked about Bella she would stare into space and switch off completely until somebody tapped her or called her name. Jasper and Emmett always tried to think about the funny times we had with Bella, but sometimes Emmett would excuse himself from the room when we talked about her. Emmett and Bella were really close friends. We always said that Jasper and Emmett should have been Bella's big brothers. I always thought about Bella, their was never a moment since the day that she had left that I never thought about her. Every night I would have the nightmare where I could see her in the distance but I couldn't run fast enough to catch up with her and no sound would come put of my mouth, then she would wave and disappear. Then I'd wake up crying. I needed my Bella back in my arms.
It was Saturday afternoon, two o'clock in the afternoon. I never went out of my room on a Saturday or Sunday when Bella had left, I barely had a social life after she left. I was staring at the ceiling when I heard a light knock on my bedroom door.
"What?" I shouted harshly
"It's only me, just wanted to talk." Esme said in her usual soft voice.
"Oh Ok" I could never be angry or rude to my mom, you really couldn't get angry with her. If you did you would feel really guilty about it afterwards. She walked into the room and sat on the end of the bed.
"Edward, I know since Bella left life has been tough on you -"
"Tough is an understatement Mom" I cut her off and then immediately felt guilty for it. "Sorry, carry on." She smiled sweetly and continued.
"But what you have to understand is that, and don't get angry when I say this, Bella isn't coming back, It is something we all have to deal with Edward. Bella was a big part of all our lives and her leaving was tragic, especially for you. None of us will ever forget her -"
"Your talking about her like she is dead" I spat the last word, then felt guilty for cutting her off. "Sorry, carry on."
"None of us will ever forget her but we have to move on with our lives, you can't just stay in the house like this."
"Your right, I know you are, but, I love her so much I can't begin to explain it."
"I know sweetie and I feel so sorry for you, we all do, but you haven't come out of your room on the weekends since she left."
"Ok, I will go and hang out with a few friends today mom, promise."
"Thank you." She walked out the room and I lay their for a few more minutes and then got up and sorted out some clothes. Had a shower and then rang some of my friends.
I decided to meet Jasper, Demetri and Marcus by the local park.
"Dude, haven't seen you outside of school in months man, why decide to come out now?" Demetri asked
"Just thought I would hang out with some pals that's all."
The day dragged on and I was beginning to wish that I was back in my bed thinking about Bella and the good times we shared.
"Us three are going to Vibe tonight, you and Emmett wanna come" Marcus asked. Vibe was a new nightclub that everybody said was really good. I decided to go since I had nothing better to do so I went home got changed and met the rest of them at the nightclub, when I got their Marcus and Demetri we making out with these other girls so I decided to make my way over to Jasper. Me, Emmett and Jasper talked for a while, they both went off to do some dancing but I didn't want to so I just sat their drinking when I felt someone tap my shoulder. I turned round.
"Fancy seeing you here." It was Tanya Denali from school, oh joy.
"Oh, erm, Hi Tanya."
"Wanna dance?"
"Not really up for it to be honest."
"Fine, I'll just sit here then." She sat next to me and looked me in the eyes and pouted her lips slightly, she had had a crush on me ever since the day I had first met her but I never felt anything for her back. There was only one girl I had ever wanted. "Seen Bella lately?"
"No" I answered back quickly
"Ever think about dating anyone at all?"
"No, thought has never and will never cross my mind."
"Well if it does, call me…" And then she placed her hand on my thigh and immediately shoved it off aggressively.
"Get away from me Tanya." I left the nightclub and got back to my house as quickly as I could. When I got back I saw Rose and Alice in
the living room painting each others toe nails.
"You're back early." Rose said "Where are Jasper and Emmett."
"I left early because Tanya was hitting on me and it was grossing me out."
"Ewww, that girl is so desperate it's unbelievable."
I ran up the stairs and straight into my room, I stared at the ceiling again as I thought to myself.
Bella is the only one who can mend my broken heart…
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Eleanor x
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