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Just to let everyone know, no romance ever goes this way. I am entitled to make this guy a hopeless romantic. Plus he's trying hard for a good reason. This fic is rated T for a reason, so…bit of risqué themes in this one.

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Chapter 9 Plans Revealing


Once Sideswipe heard the door close he waited for five minutes just to make sure that the coast was clear. Taking the chance the 'bot stood up and opened the bathroom cabinet. He peeked out of the musty cabinet with an optic before listening for any sounds of humans or anything else.

"Alright…" He said opening it fully and climbing out. He gripped the cabinet door as he stepped out. But he was not ready for the large step to the floor. His wheeled foot slipped, made him fall on the edge of the cabinet, and fall on his face. The door closed with a bang.

He groaned dramatically before flexing his wings in aggravation-one lagging more than the other. "So much for subtle." He said with a pout. Immediately he got on his feet and skated out of the bathroom and into the living room.

As the mech looked around he placed his sensors on high, scanning for any other Cybertronain life forms.

As he skated slowly around the room, the 'bot sang a tune he heard in the background of a spy movie he once saw with Brittney.

"Dun, dun, do da dun," He sang in a whisper making sure to keep his stealth.

"Did you find anything?"

The 'bot didn't notice that his twin had opened the bond and started to speak with him making him jump in fear.

"Primus almighty, Sunny! A little warning!" He said clearly sending his annoyed emotions over the bond.

"Didn't you notice the bond-ugh never mind. Did you find anything?" His voice sounded worried.

Sideswipe narrowed his optics and smiled. "Now don't tell me ol' 'screamer's getting on your soft side." He said with a smirk as he kept his back to the wall pausing to look around again.

"Frag no it's just the 'cons not looking too good-you know…like he's suffering."

Sideswipe rolled his optics. He somewhat cared for the Decepticon only because he had known him for some time. Sure the mech's voice got a little too high to be considered a mech when he went on a tangent and his temper was beyond drama queen but somewhere under all that 'con was a loyal and devoted mech- especially to Brittney. Something he appreciated even from a Decepticon.

Sideswipe shook his helm. He couldn't worry about him now he had to focus on finding Starscream's trinemates. "Of course bro." His voice was soft along with uncomfortable emotions. "He's suffering from bond withdrawal. You know how long he's been away from TC and Skywarp? A long time. I'm surprised he made it this far."

Sunstreaker immediately soothed his twins' discomfort with emotions similar to a short but meaningful hug. "Me too. He's always been a tough slagger." He said with a huff.

Sideswipe momentarily felt Sunstreaker's bond withdraw. He knew that Sideswipe needed to focus now. It was only a matter of time before Brittney and that low life of a human came back.


You know, when I had the perfect kind of idea of a romantic getaway this wasn't really the first thing that came to mind. Oh, sure, yeah, the island was very nice and could be turned into a romantic kind of thing but I guess I was on edge because I didn't know what would happen.

As Richard guided me over the bridge the pepper spray that Sideswipe forced me to bring seemed more and more assuring that I would be alright if he tried to do anything. Our steps echoed with muffle thuds as we crossed the wooden curved bridge.

I could see that he smiled. He was excited, maybe because of the fact that I agreed to come along. Whatever, this was for Starscream. Nothing else.

We both stepped off the bridge and onto the pine needled ground. Suddenly he stopped and I waited for him to do something. He slowly got out of my way and revealed his 'surprise'.

I didn't really react because I wasn't expecting much from him. Despite how romantic he was, is- he kept it simple. A blanket was spread out on the ground and lanterns were spread at the edges giving a light white hue everywhere.

I managed to smile. "This is so nice Richard." I said turning to him.

I didn't try hard enough to convince him. "Is something wrong?" He asked furrowing his brow in confusion.

Maybe I was too quick to answer. "No!" So I panicked. I stepped forward and quickly sat down on the blanket. I made myself cozy by crossing my legs and smiling up to him. "Not at all it's just been awhile since someone has done something for me so nice." Once again half truth half lie.

He stood in front of me with a pleased look on his face. "I didn't want to do anything too extreme."

I placed a lock of my curly hair behind my ear in embarrassment. To only make the situation worse I pressed my glasses further up the bridge of my nose. Another habit that formed whenever I felt uncomfortable.

"What's next?" I said clearing my throat. "A bottle of wine?"

"Only sparkling." He joked back.

Internally I cringed. He never really had a good sense of humor. He was dashing but lacking in the humor department.

"What I was thinking was a little romance."

"Romance?" I said uneasily trying to keep the smile.

He sensed it. "No, no, no, not that. Brittney not that. I would never do that to you" He said placing a hand on my thigh. I froze at the touch. I was relieved but his gentle hold felt like an iron cast. Primus help me…I'm so weak.

"Just to get things going again." He said sounding unsure of himself all of a sudden. I couldn't help but to smile. He also was a hopeless romantic.

"Looked and sounded a lot better in your mind right?" I guessed.

Richard looked up shock written on his face momentarily. "Well, yea, sort of." He said lifting his hand off of my thigh to rub the back of his neck.

I sighed shaking my head and looking out to the lake. The half-moon shone behind the misty clods making an eerie yet calming light shine upon the water. The sound of the water lapping to the rocks nearby and the frogs croaking sounded so soothing-something you would see out of a movie.

"I have to say, though, you had the scene cut out nicely." I said. I was always a sucker for romantic nature get always. Maybe that's why we were here right now-because he knew I enjoyed a good cheesy getaway.

"Well, I don't mean to sound like I know everything but all the girls like the moon shining on the lake scene."

And then there was that dashing smile. The way his lips curved around his perfect teeth made me writhe inside. I hated how I wanted to get a taste. Just a small nip or two. Maybe just once…it wouldn't hurt right?

It was then I realize I was leaning towards him. "No, no, abort! Cancel. Escape button! Mission failed! Abort!" I was screaming internally but somehow I didn't stop and this time I wouldn't.


Sideswipe was stumped. "If I were a crazy, romantic, sociopath where would I hide my Transformers?" The bot said not really much caring for the name the humans titled them. Truthfully he liked to be called a Cybertronian. But that was his pride talking.

The silver twin managed to search every cabinet, corner, crack, bag, and crevice but found not a single trace of seekers.

"Scanners indicate no signs of life." He said mocking an astronaut's voice. He then let out a dramatic and frustrated sigh titling his helm back. "This is a pain in my-"

There was clicking noise that made the silver 'bot pause and tilt his helm. Another click but it was louder making Sideswipe go onto all fours. "Hello?" He said timidly.

He looked around again this time on higher points in the living room. The Autobot stayed still not daring to make anymore movements. Another click but this time it was slow and lagging. Immediately Sideswipe recognized the sound and back flipped. Not a second later the sound of a small report was heard.

Putting aside his foolery and joking nature, Sideswipe looked back where he was standing. He wasn't shocked when he saw a small plasma burn on the wooded floor. He narrowed his optics, battle protocols taking over his body and mind. Quickly Sideswipes' blades hissed out of their hiding. "Show yourself!" He yelled out now carefully moving keeping his audio receptors on high alert. He hated when he couldn't see the enemy.

His optics rapidly darted about searching for whoever just tried to shoot his helm off. Then the thought finally hit him. His sensors weren't picking up anything because they were purposely hiding.

And doing too much good of the job.

"C'mon you cowards! Face me already!" He yelled panning his voice around the kitchen now.

With a small smile of victory two sounds of transformations were heard. "Found ya."


His eyes spoke so many levels. They spoke so many words. They were asking for permission as he too, leaned forward. My lips moved but no sound came from them as I tried to form a sentence-no words. He shook his head and just like that our lips met. A tiny squeak came from my throat as he seized them gently.

I closed my eyes giving into the slow and passionate kiss. His hand cupped my cheek and his other trailed through my curly hair. My curls welcomed and wrapped around his fingers like they knew their place.

Slowly I lowered myself on my back and he followed somehow we never broke apart and I admired that. I didn't want to.

As soon as he was on top of me he used both of his hands to keep himself up-either one of them beside my head.

For further support, his knee was placed between my legs. He slowly broke away. I followed pulling my head up not wanting to end anytime soon.

I know we weren't.

A hand from beside my head traced my cheek, my neck, my collar bone. Carefully he pulled the sweater away from my neck. I tilted it placing a hand on the back of his head as he started to kiss and then bit down on the sensitive muscles.

I couldn't help but huff at his tender and yet harsh movements. "This is new…" I said starting to suddenly get uncomfortable.

A laugh came from his throat making me smile. "Hush." He said before biting down hard.

A surprised peep came from my mouth as he did so. It hurt but for some reason it felt good at the same time. My hand that was behind his head was keeping steady as he traveled down to my collarbone. I tilted my head further to let him nip at it.

I bit my lip. He knew where to go.

Suddenly I opened my eyes feeling a sick and twisted thought in my mind. I was actually enjoying this. "Um, Richard hold on…" I said pushing his head away gently.

"Is something wrong? Did I hurt you?" He asked sincerely as he hovered over my face making the air in front of him turn into mist and then disappear. I hadn't noticed how cold it got.

His question made me cringe inside. He seemed hurt and concerned that he wasn't giving me the 'pleasure' of making up.

"No, no, it's-it's not that-just. I don't feel comfortable going this far…yet." I added with an embarrassed smile. I could see the small and understanding smile come to his lips.

"It's fine really, I just thought you would enjoy this. We can go back now if you like."

My heart skipped a beat. "No!" I said a little too quickly making him widen his eyes in shock. "I mean no, what I mean is, I don't want it to end like this-just I don't mind doing this but just take it slow."

I continued when he tilted his head in question. I had to kill time. Sideswipe might not have found them by now. "Richard you have to look at in my view. You were the one that hurt me. And by being together like this it brings back the pain I felt when you left me. Not only that it brings up guilt for ever hating you." The last sentence came out by accident.

"But I'm here now and I am willing to move on. Despite how rude I sound you have to too. We can forget the past and start new again."

"Can we?" I asked truthfully. I hid my distaste to the best of my ability.

He brushed the back of his hand against my cheek. "Just trust me." He asked.

There was that word again. He never had a good reputation with it.

Richard seemed to be getting hopeless now. He sighed dipping to my lips brushing them teasingly against his. "Please Brittney just…trust me." He said kissing them once and then again-each one being longer than the last.

Reluctantly I gave in. And this time when I tell you it was to stall. It really was. I found no pleasure in this. Honestly I felt like he was using me just begging for me again.


"Sideswipe? What the slag is going on?"

Sideswipe's smile was long gone as soon as he saw the two seekers swoop down and start showering him with bullets. "Seekers-That's what's going on!" He said urgency flowing over the bond freely.

Sideswipe could feel his twin's slight panic and urgency to protect him and assist him in the battle. It was by natural instinct to do so and right now the yellow twin was an angry caged lion.

"Well try to get them to stop!"

"What do you think I am doing!?" He huffed loudly dodging another round of bullets from the mechs. "Hey, would you quit it!" Forcibly he closed the bond off from his brother. He was only distracting him and that he would get an audiofull when he returned. "I'm here to talk!" He said sheathing his blades again and stopping dead in his tracks. He outstretched his arms. "See! No weapons!"

This got both seekers' attentions as they dove down. Now their enemy was completely defenseless.

Sideswipe saw this and cursed. He dove behind a leg of a chair just in time only for a plasma round to shave his shoulder armor. "Getting' real tired of this slag…" He mumbled watching them bank around the living room. But upon further realization he saw they were lagging.

Thundercracker the most. Sideswipe came out of hiding seeing as they were diving dangerously fast to the floor. "Whoa, hey! Pull up!" Sideswipe said running in their direction as Skywarp also started to dive. Not knowing what else to do, the mech ran to where Thundercracker was about to crash and braced himself to catch the mech. The Decepticon transformed and started to fall limply to the ground.

Sideswipe cringed preparing for the pain to come. With a loud clatter the two mechs collided and slid a good two feet before coming to a stop. Skywarp fell just a little further.

With a groan Sideswipe pulled himself from under the larger mech minding his door wing. "Ow, ow, ow I should have thought this through…"

Finally free Sideswipe stood up and glanced from Thundercracker to Skywarp. What Sideswipe saw merely broke his spark. The youngest of the trine, Skywarp, was clawing his way to his brother. Sideswipe, overtaken by determination, marched his way over to the weak mech.

Skywarp immediately saw this and growled. "Get away from me Autobot scum!" By being with Starscream for so long he knew the threat was empty and never going to happen. Tossing a smart remark aside to prevent them from using more energy, Sideswipe took the mech from under his arms and started to drag him backwards. Out of weakness the purple seeker didn't fight back.

Once he was close to Thundercracker he made sure his words were heard by both of them. "Look, I know how your bond works and I know that you know that the Starscream you saw is the real Starscream hence your bond withdrawal." He said gently lowering the mech next to Thundercracker who immediately placed an arm around his brother to pull him closer to his spark.

"You mechs need to tell me why you're here with ol' duchebag and tell me why you fired on your own leader." Sideswipe said crouching on his hinges in front of them. He tried to sound as stern as possible but the way the two most fearsome Decepticon warriors were now reduced to sparkling-like weakness made his spark writhe in pity. He promised himself he would use a softer tone.

Sideswipe was never the one to pity 'cons. But only this once he felt it because he had been in the same position. No one deserved to suffer through bond withdrawal. The strongest of the mechs could fall to such a painful experience just like the Decepticon trine.

"We-we were forced…" Thundercracker started but he gave up laying back down his optics momentarily going dark.

"Okay, to do what?" Sideswipe urged.

The blue mech raised his helm again to look the mech straight in the optics. "To fire upon Starscream."

"Why?" He said doing a quick scan of both seekers. The result only made him cringe further. They were both deprived of energon not helping the fact that they were also through withdrawal.

"We came alive only to see our human master. We do not know his name. He always goes on about-about some other human girl-Brittney was her designation- gah!" Thundercracker's words were taken away by another wave of pain.

Sideswipe nodded his helm trying his best to ignore his cries. He was getting somewhere and he had to keep him focused. "What does scum ball want with the human?" He wasn't going to give away his human's safety. He didn't know if they could be trusted just yet.

"He wants to use us supposedly for a bargain. If she does not give into his demands we will be forced to offline slowly but he knows that she has Starscream-"

"Making her give into the demands easily." Sideswipe finish with a grunt. "Bastard." He said looking away. If one trine mate or bonded offline the other's would follow.

The blue mech turned his attention to Skywarp and creased his optic ridges in worry. Desperately, Thundercracker leaned closer to his brother's chest feeding off his spark energy to Skywarp. "He is the youngest of us. His bond is younger and not as well developed as ours. Only I have been keeping him strong…"

Sideswipe stared at the purple seeker barely hanging onto consciousness but then shook his helm trying to focus and push his pity aside. "Look, we need to get you out of here and get you back with Starscream- who knows how long you guys have left." He said standing up and bending down to pick Thundercracker up.

"No! Are you a fool? He would surely find out that we are gone and who would be the first to blame?" He said knowingly.

"You know Brittney's my owner? How?" He said not helping to become defensive.

Thundercracker grunted. "I have no intentions of harming your human. I know she is only a victim as we. You must leave us here tonight and warn your human of his plan, if not, Starscream and we will offline."

"But-you can't hang on forever! The withdrawal has been going on for a week! You can't last any longer!" Sideswipe said shaking his helm clenching his fist in aggravation.

Thundercracker was quick to soothe his worry. "Only for tonight, Autobot. Create a plan and do as you did tonight for tomorrow. Then you can reunite us with our leader." Thundercracker said trying to stand.

Without hesitance Sideswipe stepped forward and helped him up.

The blue mech accepted it as they both dragged Skywarp onto his weak legs. "We have to hide again and same to you. They will be back any moment."

The silver 'bot forced his shoulders under Skywarp's arm and Thundercrackers' so that he was in the middle of the two. Only then did Thundercracker look at Sideswipe straight in the optics. "Why are you helping us?" He asked truly confused.

Sideswipe shook his head concentrating on the extra weight on his shoulders as they started to walk. Seekers were much larger than the mech making it more difficult to stay balanced on his wheeled feet. "I asked myself the same question 'cracker but you know what? I'm doing this for Brittney. We are still Autobot and Decepticon- enemies but I'm putting that aside for her. She would be devastated if Starscream ever left her."

The blue mech stared at him slightly amazed. "You have deep loyalty to your human…"

Sideswipe grounded out his denta. "Brittney takes care of us like no one else had ever done. She treats us like were alive not toys-pun intended. She has done everything to bring me and my brother together and now she is doing the same for Starscream by getting back with that scum of a human. Just ought to let you know." He said quietly.

Thundercracker managed a smile. "She is kind, but a fool for doing so."

Sideswipe shrugged to his best ability despite the seeker's weight upon them. "She's like that. She likes to sacrifice herself for others. Usefully it bites her back in the aft but she's a strong femme."

Sideswipe led the seekers to the kitchen cabinet along the floor and struggled a bit before opening it. "I'm going to hide you here for now so that Brittney or ol' bolt head won't see you and suspect anything." He grunted as he rolled each seeker off his shoulder and guided them into the empty cabinet,

"What about you, Autobot?" Thundercracker asked pulling Skywarp closer to him as they lay down, tired from simply walking.

Sideswipe sighed and worked out both his shoulders. "I'll be fine. Brittney will find me in the bathroom. Tonight I'll tell her what he's planning and we'll get you out of here." He said as an after thought.

Thundercracker stared at the mech for a long moment before nodding his helm once. "Thank you…Sideswipe."

The red 'bot smiled a bit. "Make's jet judo look like a walk in the park, huh?" He said with a tiny laugh.

The blue seeker gave him a deadpanned look. "If you put it that way, yes. Now go, before they come back."

Sideswipe didn't do as he was told at first making sure that they were going to be alright. Another reassuring nod from Thundercracker was all he needed before he quietly and gently closed the cabinet door.


By now I was tired of him. I didn't even bother to speak to him as we walked back to his cabin. Richard also kept quiet. He knew better than to get me upset again.

Right now I was focusing on hoping that Sideswipe found anything out and was hiding. Seeing my unease he tried to wrap his arm around mine but I moved away from him. I shook my head slowly and made an effort to smile just to ease the situation a little.

At a faster pace than normal we made to Richard's cabin. We both walked up the stairs and onto the porch where I waited for him to unlock the cabin door. With a short halfhearted smile Richard opened the door and waved his hand indicating me to go in first. I did looking behind me not really trusting him.

He frowned but I paid no mind to him I was too focused on going into the bathroom getting back Sideswipe. He didn't question me when he saw me close the door. I bent down and opened the counter. Sure enough sideswipe was there sitting against the inside of the wall with his legs bent in front of him. He was humming a tune to himself which was cut off as soon as he saw me. We spent no time talking but a smile and a nod was all I need to find out that the seekers were defiantly here.

Outstretching a hand he hopped onto it. I raise my hand to my hood of my hoodie and stood up closing the counter quietly. I flushed the toilet and washed my hands for effect.

With a sigh I came out of the bathroom with a smile.

"Are you all set now?" He asked trying to keep a lighter tone.

"Yeah, sorry I drank a lot of water today." I said lamely. Inside I slapped myself. I was a terrible liar.

"Of course, it was a hot day." He laughed seemingly to buy my excuse. To this I thanked my lucky stars. I wasn't sure if I could keep this façade up anymore.

"So I guess goodbye then. Yeah?" He asked with a shrug moving closer to me.

I made every muscle in my body to not flinch away. As he hugged me though, my body relaxed to the touch. I was still puzzled how I was trying so hard to deny my feelings for him but my mind automatically said that it was fine. I wrapped one arm around him and patted his back.

I moved away before the hug turned into something more uncomfortable. "Alright so I'll see you tomorrow night?"

"Fine with me." He said watching me as I went out the front door. He stood in the doorway watching me as I went off the porch and walked away. Turning around I gave him a tiny wave. He returned it and went back into his cabin. I heard him close the door and lock it. A sigh of relief came from my mouth a little too loudly.


Quietly I made my way up the front porch and opened the screen door. My dad was sleeping on the couch. The TV was still on playing those late night re-runs. I opened the screen door as quietly as possible and stepped inside. I closed it guiding the door back shut. Tip toeing to my bedroom I opened the door more hastily than I wanted to. I winced. I didn't want to wake up my mom and two brothers next to my room.

Quickly I scooted into my bedroom and closed the door locking it just to sooth my need for secrecy. Quickly I took Sideswipe out of my hoodie and placed him on the dresser next to Sunstreaker. I watched as the golden twin immediately rushed over to him, fury in his stride. "Don't you ever cut me off when you're in the middle of a battle. You slaggin' 2-bit you could've gotten off-lined." He said making his brother lift his arms up and twist his helm to the side seeing if Sideswipe had any damage.

Sideswipe kept the smile on his face all the while his brother was fuming. "Glad to see your safe too, bro." He said placing a gentle hand on his shoulder immediately making Sunstreaker freeze and calm down.

The yellow twin stared at his brother relief now in his optics. After a moment he nodded his helm and backed away. Sideswipe turned to face me but I was already checking on Starscream. I placed my finger on his tiny chest making sure his spark was still beating.

"He's getting weaker, dunno how long he has…" Sunny said crossing his arms. I knew he didn't care for the mech at all but he said it in a quiet voice. He was making an effort of keeping the hate and 'good riddance' tone out of his voice.

"Sideswipe you did find the seekers?" I asked turning to face him slowly. Truthfully I was scared to hear the answer.

The silver twin saw this, creasing his optic ridges in worry. "Yeah, I did." He sat down at the edge of the dresser and started to swing his legs out of nervous habit. He clasped his hands together and looked at the ground.

I sat there surprised, disgusted, and appalled. "How-how are they coping with the withdrawal?" I asked nervously.

"They attacked me full throttle but as soon as they hit the air they transformed and crashed landed. Skywarp was practically dragging his body to Thundercracker just to feed off of his spark." Sideswipes' voice was stressed. "They were practically chest to chest…they don't have much time, Britt. You have to do something!" He said looking back up and spreading his arms out in a pleading manner.

I watched as Sunstreaker placed a reassuring hand on his brother's shoulder. Sideswipe relaxed, his tense door wings lowering from the touch.

"That son of a bitch. How the hell did he get his hands on alive Transformers?" I hissed with pure hatred. "Who the hell does he think he is? He has to know that they are in pain!" I said realizing my voice got a little loud stirring Starscream in his recharge.

I tiled my head and twisted my face in pain as I brushed my fingertip along his wing.

"Thundercracker says he's using them to get to you. He said that if you don't give into that slaggers 'demands', what ever the frag they are, they will offline because of you." Sideswipe whispered. I could tell he didn't want to share the details.

"What?" I snapped my attention to him. I shook my head in disbelief before making my hands go into fist. I snarled pressing my fist to my face. "I'm so fucking weak and stupid! Here I though he was a changed person. Jesus he really had me tricked. Oh God…" I said feeling the tears coming to my eyes as I fell to my knees.

I immediately heard Sideswipe climb down the dresser and hastily skate towards me. "Britt?" He asked concerned.

"A little part of me hoped he changed and that I would be loved again." I whispered my voice cracking. "I told myself I was doing this for Starscream but I wasn't I was selfish. Oh God…"

"Brittney? Brittney, listen to me." Sideswipe said climbing onto my lap and holding my arm. I looked down at him his soft blue optics looking into mine. "It's alright. I known you for a long time and you are not selfish."

I appreciated his reassurance but deep inside of me I felt sick. Sideswipe continued on.

"I hate that slagger for ever hurting you and I still do. Maybe I had some hope that he was changed too-very small hope-because I wanted to see you smile again but now I know he's not worth even a moment of your time or forgiveness. He's twisted and only using you for whatever slag he has up his sleeve. Yeah, he's smooth with the words and you fell for it because you hoped you would find love again." He rolled his optics at the last part but became serious all over again.

"Brittney…the only love you will find that you deserve is in this room." He said his tone serious bringing the momentary doubt if Sideswipe was really the one standing before me. "We love you Britt. You treat us with kindness like-like we're humans and not some six inch piece of metal. You prove this because you're working your heart out to save that mech right there who depends on you more than ever. Don't give up yet-do it for him." He said strongly pointing to Starscream without taking his optics off of me.

I couldn't help but smile. A big part of me thanked Primus and God that Sideswipe was my friend. Now did I only see that Richard was a good for nothing human. He's trying to use me for something and God damn it I will find out what. I glanced back at Sideswipe. I lifted him up gently and brought him to my chest. The best hug I could give to him without crushing his body.

I brought him away and creased my eyebrows in determination. "We have to get them. No matter what." I said looking up at Starscream as he shifted in his recharge.


A little afterward we decided to hit the hay. The twins had no trouble falling into recharge-Especially Sideswipe from what he went through today. Right now they were sleeping next to each other snoring quietly with their mouths open. Starscream was already in a light recharge. Me on the other hand-I couldn't sleep.

I know you're getting tired of me taking about how I can't sleep but truthfully I can't-not when one of my boys are suffering, in pain. I have learned and taught myself to take care of my bot's like they were well, children because they are. They were so exposed to a larger world they didn't know and I was their guider-parent-mother whatever. Someone had to take care of them.

I mean they make me smile, laugh, and want to pull my hair out but truthfully I couldn't live without them. It was a miracle that they ever came alive in the first place. Somehow it was me. Why not another person? I'm not complaining at all. It's just there are millions of other people, why me?

Right now I was sitting cross-legged on my bed with Starscream in my lap. A low moan grabbed my attention immediately as Starscream clawed at the plating to his chest. "Shh, don't do that sweetspark." I said placing my finger between his clawed hands. I inhaled making a hissing noise as his claws painfully dug into my skin. I would rather bear the pain than Starscream causing himself damage.

I heard a click and then glanced up at Sideswipe and Sunstreaker. You know how sparklings make clicking noises in their sleep? I couldn't help but let a faint smile cross my lips seeing the twins clicking in their sleep to each other. I smiled bringing it down to Starscream as I stroked his wings trying to sooth him the best I could.

I closed my eyes hearing another painful moan from Starscream as he clutched my finger. I had to get the mechs together somehow. What made it painful was I didn't know how.


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