"What are we going to do?" He squeezed my hand and put on a fake smile.
"I'm not losing you." I looked away and he quickly pulled my face back to his. "I can't lose you Beth. Because I know what it's like…to not have you." He got closer and sat on the edge of the bed. "You are my everything. My entire world revolves around you. You are the reason I wake up every morning. And I know…I know that she will be fine." One of his hands moved to my belly and I closed my eyes. "She will be healthy, happy and very lucky…but she will be fine because just like me she gets her strength from you." He kissed my forehead and I surge of energy rushed through me.
We stayed quiet for a few minutes until the curtain moved. I opened my eyes and he pulled away and turned. The doctor came walking in, with another doctor behind him.
"Sorry to interrupt. I asked a colleague to come in and maybe help with a decision." Kendall turned away from them and closed his eyes. I saw him for the very first time look vulnerable.
"That won't be necessary." Everyone turned to me and I sighed. "I want to have a C section. As soon as possible." The doctors nodded and my doctor, Dr. White walked to the side of my bed.
"We can do it tonight…in a few hours. We'll need to get you prepped." I nodded and he smiled down at me. "I think you should talk with Doctor Michaels. He deals with premature. He'll help." I nodded and Doctor Michaels walked over to him.
"Hello Elizabeth." I smiled and he extended his hand to Kendall. Kendall took it.
"Kendall." The doctor nodded and motioned for Kendall to sit. They both sat down and I sat up a little.
"Well Elizabeth, Kendall…this process isn't going to be easy. But in my expert opinion it is the safest. For you and the baby. The way your body is reacting right now, who knows what the next months would bring for your baby. So once the baby is born, she will be immediately taken to a special area where, depending on how her breathing is, will have air being pushed through her body by a tube." I squeezed Kendall's hand and he rubbed my belly. "I know it sounds scary and it is, but she will be in the best care in town. I promise."
"What can happen…I mean besides having trouble breathing?"
"The biggest concern always for any baby is infection." Kendall nodded and the doctor smiled at him. "She's going to be fine. We won't let anything happen to her once she's out. From you're chart I can tell the baby is healthy as of now. Her heartbeat is strong but again we're worried about infection once she is out." I nod still not comfortable or happy about the whole thing, but Doctor Michaels beeper goes off and he stand su reading. "Excuse me. One of my other expecting mothers is going into labor and I need to get there. I will be back in couple hours after you've been prepped." He runs out after giving us a friendly smile and Doctor White runs out after him. I sighed and turned to see Kendall staring at my stomach.
"You alright?" He snaps towardsme and nods.
"Let me go get your sister and call James." I nod and he kisses my lips softly. As he's walking away I remember the blood on his shirt.
"Wait." He stops and turns. "Why is there blood on your shirt?" He sighs and looks down wiping at it, but it's already dried. It isn't a lot but it's there and that's what worries me.
"Ally." I raise my eyebrows and he walks over slowly. "We were leaving…to come here. James knocked some sense into me, and then I literally knocked into him. Hit his jaw pretty hard." I sigh and cross my arms over my chest. He laughs and shakes his head. "Anyway as we were leaving Ally and Jeff were on our lawn. I guess he thinks Carlos lives there, mostly because he's always there. But he brought Ally up on the porch, some words were thrown around and then…he shot her. In the neck. She died in the ambulance on the way over." He stops and looks up like he was remembering something. "Shit I have to find Carlos. The poor guy is a wreck."
"I can only imagine." He looks down and kisses my head once again.
"I'll have Katie and Abbey come in and sit with you." I nod and this time I let him walk out.
It doesn't take long for the girls to come in, and with the expressions on their faces I know Kendall told them what's going on. We make small talk, both sitting on either side of me, for about 20 minutes. It's then the curtain is pulled back, and James and Logan walk in. Abbey jumps up and runs into Logan's arms. James comes over and takes her spot, hugging around me and kissing my cheek.
"You doing okay?" I nod and he straightens out, but is still close to me. He reaches down and picks up the little cross on the silver necklace. "She's going to be fine,. Better then fine. She's going to be fantastic." I laugh and he thumbed over the cross. "She is going to come into this world, full of love, and hope. She's going to have an awesome uncle. Two beautiful and lovingly sweet aunts. A mother who would literally die for from what i heard from Kendall…" We lock eyes and I smile. "And a dad who will give up everything and do everything to protect and see her." I reach up and pull him down for a hug.
"Hey what about me…" We both turn and Logan has an eyebrow raised and arm around Abbey's waist she shakes her head and I laugh.
"Well you put a ring on my sister you get to be called uncle." His face turns to stone and Abbey laughs. "Until then…and Kendall and I were going to wait for a while, and we were going to do it together but…no time like the present." He moves forward with Abbey and I smile. "We want you to be her God father." Abbey smiled wider and hugged around him. "You know…like the movie?" He lunges forward and hugs around me tight. I hug back and Abbey moves over to James, hugging him. As the room is quite, Logan still holding me, I hear more footsteps coming into the room. I turn my head slightly and see Kendall, holding up Carlos, who has his head down, blood all over his shirt. Katie walks over quickly grabbing his other side and holding him up too.
