A/N: Hey guys, well you all know that my friend wrote this fic right? Well she wrote a GREAT fic before, it's up on my profile, it's called "Vicious Cycle", if you haven't read it, I suggest you read it now, because you're missing out. Oh and the Lindsey/Sara hookup is going to be in the next chap, anyways, enjoy!

-Tegan's POV—

--Present day—

I'm going to do this! Am I going to do this?! Yes I'm going to do this. I'm walking so fast down the street to my apartment my sides hurt. I reach over to the right inside pocket for what feels like the millionth time to make sure the precious cargo hasn't flown out my jacket during my flight down the street. It's safe. Dear God …I'm really going to do this.

--Lindsey's POV—

I can't just sit here and wait for my world to fall apart! I need a drink, no I need coffee it's too early to drink. Then again who made that rule, that cruel judgment that I can't drink before noon? I can do what I want. No I don't need alcohol I need coffee. No…I need Tegan. I can't handle this uncertainty. If we had a normal relationship maybe I wouldn't freak out over a text message. Tegan's just usually so straight forward about…everything. I never have to wonder what's going on in her mind. So you can imagine my shock when I receive the most cryptic text ever from her. And I mean 'we need to talk' really?! Everyone knows you just don't say that! Well I have no idea when she's coming home and I do have to work so at least I can keep myself busy. With a new sense of purpose I rush out the door.

*crash*

"Geez watch where you're-Tegan?!"

"Wha..ow my fucking arm! Ah! Lindsey! Where are you…what are you doing?"

"I'm going to …work or…something-don't question me where have you been?! And why do we need to talk? What do we need to talk about? I thought we were fine! After all it took for us to finally commit to each other I can't believe you want to just give up now! This is insane! And another thin-

"Shut up! Lindsey…stop talking!" Tegan demands she's now standing. And in full, unblurry, view I see she's dressed up, as dressed up as Tegan gets, hair combed and all. I feel like I woke up in the twilight zone…did she just tell me to shut up?

"Hey!"

"Sorry, you just…you're saying a lot and saying it really fast and also…I have no idea why the fuck you're even saying it at all!"

"Because you weren't here! It was 10am and you were nowhere to be found. I didn't know what to think and if that's not bad enough you send a text saying we need to talk"

"Oh"

"Oh!?"

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you. All that stuff you were saying…no no total opposite"

We clumsily made our way back into the apartment. We head straight for the living room and sit on opposite sides of the table, in what we both declared to be themost comfortable recliner chairs in both Canada and America, in case you ever wanted to know who had them.

"The opposite of-"

"Breaking up"

"Tegan what…that doesn't even make sense what is the opposite of breaking up…staying together-"

"Forever"

Did she just…is she… and she's now sitting on her knees in front of me…and I think I may pass out.

"Forever?...as in…like you want me to…you wanna get…"

"Yes! I just….god I love you so fucking much! You saved me I was drowning in this sick obsession with Sara. It has nothing to do with her being my sister…I mean that wasn't not not sick exactly but it was our relationship so it was normal to us. The sick part was her hold over me. This thing we had…so intense and the sex was just power and it made us both weak and-"

"Dear god, back to me"

"Sorry! Shit…fuck I'm just saying that for the first time ever I don't need it anymore. I say "no" now. I walk away. I sleep alone on the road. I choose to sleep alone for 3 months cause I can't risk not sleeping with you for 2 weeks when I get home"

"Ok…I just…before you say-"

"Lindsey"

"Tegan..."

"Will you marry me?"

"Te-"

"No wait! I have a ring shit! Knew I would fuck this up um…" She reaches into her pocket and pulls out the ring box. I'm so scared. I should be happy. But I can't breathe and…she just pulled out the most beautiful princess cut I've ever seen! Oh Tegan!

"Ok, try this again, Lindsey, will you marry me?"

"I just I-"

"I know this is scary. But it is right! God, I know you feel it too! You have to!"

"I love you more than I could ever tell you, but…you need to know something…something that will almost certainly make you regret…everything"

"What are you sa…saying?" We're both crying too hard to speak properly…I have tell her now.

"I…I slept with Sara"

"You what?!"

"I was confused and…freaked out and..and..-"

"And and you fucked my sister?! Wait…confused and freaked out…when was this?!"

Tegan's eyes are red, not from crying…it's just pure anger. I'm scared for different reasons than I was just a few seconds ago…I better choose my words carefully.

"It was two years ago"

"Two years ago…you slept with my sister two years ago and you think that I would break up with you over it…and you were confused and freaked out…" she says, beginning to put 'two and two' together "… so all this has to mean…damn, wow all this has to mean this happened right after our first time?!"

"I'm so sorry, it was stupid, I just I didn't know-"

"Save the excuses! Right now I think you should just tell me what happened. Go ahead, while I'm on my knees in love with you asking for your hand in marriage why don't you tell me about the time you fucked my sister LB!"

"Tegan, don't get like this please! If I'm going to do this I need you to be you I need you to listen"

She get's up and her expression softens a bit. Through her anger I can sense her compassion for what I'm about to do…and maybe even for how I was feeling when I did….what I did way back then. She's amazing. So amazing I hope I can still spend the rest of my life with her.

"Fine, Lindsey, I'm listening" she says with a deep sigh.

As soon as I start to speak Tegan places the ring back into the box and sits it on the table. That ring is the key to my future and it's not on my finger, it's in a box on a table. So close to being mine, yet…so far from it. The mood is seriously intense now and Tegan's listening intently…not sure what the intention is at this point…not sure of anything at this point, but intently is how I would describe this peircing stare.