So because of my however long hiatus with this story, here's another chapter for sticking with me so long. Please feel free to review, the people who have reviewed recently have kicked my butt into gear.

It took a couple of months before Jace and I could be comfy around each other. There was a hell of a lot of awkward pauses and tension and everyone tried their best to help with it. Telling jokes, never leaving us alone with each other. Eventually it got easier, the awkwardness disappeared and well it was supposedly easier. So everyone thought.

I couldn't sleep much, I'd sleep about four maybe five hours a night, sleeping pills didn't work and I just couldn't stop my mind from running away with itself. I tried to act normal eventually, but I honestly don't think they believe that I'm doing okay. How can you be okay when you have to watch the one person you love and want to spend the rest of your life with, be with someone else. When they don't want them. I have to watch Aline growing bigger and bigger and having Jace running around after her because she demands it, because he got her in this situation, her words not mine. Doesn't she get it takes two to tango? That it is her fault as much as Jace's and now they are having to deal with their actions. It's hard, you never realise how hard it is until you have to go through it yourself.

That is how I had missed half my lessons, I was laying outside under a tree having inner musing, head phones in ignoring the world. It wasn't a bad day to be outside, hot with a nice breeze so it didn't really bother me that I was out here. I felt footsteps coming towards me, I turned my head to see who it was. It was Jace, he looked well tired. He didn't say anything, he just sat next to where I was laying. I took and earphone out if he decided to talk and hummed along to the song I was listening to.

"You look tired." he stated to me.

"Could say the same about you, Aline had you running about doing god knows what because you got her in this situation?" I questioned

He sighed at me and ran his fingers through his hair, my fingers itched to run themselves through it, like they used to.

"She does know it takes two to tango as they say, she got herself into it as well and shouldn't blame you for it." I continued.

"I know. I know. I'm just trying to be a good Dad okay?"

"That's the thing, you're going to be a good dad, no doubt about it. You're not him as much as you tell yourself you are. You aren't, you're better than him. Better than all this self doubting. You're going to be the best dad to that child." I go to touch his hand, he watches my hand as it hovers over his and place it on top. His body relaxes, like all the tension he's had, had just disappeared.

He lays down next to me, I offer him an earphone and we stay like that for an hour in silence listening to music. It's times like this that make me happy, that I hold onto because for one short moment we're back to when everything was simple when it was just me and him and no one else in the world, we could do anything, be anyone without any worries. Life was simple before everything went to hell.

It was Saturday and I did intend on getting myself lost in the world of books since I could no longer get lost in the world of art. I'd just stare at the blank canvas for hours hoping that some kind of inspiration would come. I guess my inspiration left the same day Jace did and whatever I try to paint just reflects pain, suffering and heart ache, but at least with a book I can pretend for a short while that I'm in a different world, that nothing is going on around me and I can live through the wonderful characters adventures. Izzy had other ideas. She'd somehow let herself into my house, god knows how but it's Izzy so you can't really question it. She pushed me into my bathroom demanding that I was going to shower and we where going to pandemonium. An hour and a half later after my shower, I was scrubbed, waxed, plucked, burnt and attacked with make up and I was deemed ready to go get changed into something suitable. I'd decided on a cute blue lace dress with a pair of black lace shoe boot things. My hair was in soft curls down my back and my make up minimal eye liner and mascara. Izzy well Izzy always looked stunning in whatever she was wearing. Six inch spiked heels, a plain black dress that made you wonder how long her legs were. We put our things into our bags and then hailed a taxi, supposedly everyone was meeting us there and we was gonna hook me up with some hottie, Izzy's words not mine. The fact was, the only hottie I wanted, I couldn't have.

The filled me up with my favourite alcohol, Jack Daniels. I had a happy buzz. I sat sipping on my recent drink watching Magnus and Alec dance together. Well it was more Alec awkwardly swaying and Magnus being the more flamboyant of the both of them and trying to make Alec come out of his shell. Alec was laughing at Magnus and his attempts. I smiled a genuine smile at them. Izzy and Simon where somewhere in the crowds of people either dancing away or getting drinks. Izzy eventually came back and I excused myself to go to the toilets.

I pulled out my phone as I was walking I'd had a text from Jace.

This is utter torture, I'm reading about birth and stuff. - Jace

It's a wonderful world isn't it, women go through that. - Clary

I walked into the bathroom into a stall. I heard some girls enter the bathroom. I thought nothing of it until I heard Aline's voice. I gripped my phone, what was she doing here? I mean she's what 5 months pregnant or something and she's out in a bar at 1am. Something seems crazy to me. I quickly loaded my phone onto voice record. I honestly don't know what I was expecting to hear from her.

"I have that tool where I want him, the idiot thinks I'm pregnant with his child." she sneered.

"What are you going to do when you're eventually meant to have the child?" her minion slurred.

"That's the genius part. I can pay off the doctor and make him think the child is a still born. That way I can keep him all to myself without that stupid ginger getting in the way. Me and Jace, we're meant to be together. It is nature, the best go for the best and we are the best. He will come around to it eventually."

She eventually left the bathroom, I stopped recording it. I was furious with her, I wanted blood. I wanted to hurt her because it was all a game to her, to play with our feelings, to get her own way. I hated Aline. I hated her. I wanted to hurt her, the way she would hurt Jace when he found out. Jace.. he's going to be so heart-broken. Silent tears slipped down my face. Jace didn't want her, but he wanted the child. He wanted to prove that he could be a good dad, he wanted to bring that child up. He told me so many things he thought the child would be, things he thought the child would turn out to be. He'd have his hair and his wit. He'd charm his way with the ladies but Jace would teach him never to break a girl's heart so willingly like he had done before me. I had to go tell him right? I had to go tell him the truth even though it would break him?

I dashed out the toilets, only stopping to tell Izzy that I had to go do something and it was important. She looked at me like she was trying to figure out what I was going to do. I guess she thought I was going to go cry to Jace because she grabbed my arm. I pulled my arm out of her grasp and mouthed sorry as I dashed through the club to the exit into the night. If Jace was going to be told this by anyone, it had to be me. Well it should be Aline, but he wouldn't let anyone else see him break down. I hailed and cab and told the driver that if he got me there in 10 minutes he'd have an extra twenty bucks.

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