CHAPTER NINE- NO IDEA

I woke up slowly and opened my eyes. To my left I saw my window, which I still couldn't see out of, it was still dark out. I turned to my right and my anxious eyes met his.

He grabbed my hand and was stroking the back of it with his cold thumb, and I gasped. The events of the previous night came flooding back into my memory. I wanted so badly to ask him so many things but I couldn't find my voice.

His eyes swept over me like I'd never seen them do before. His eyes took in my face and I realized he was trying to memorize it. Memorize every detail of my body.

"Sorry, I should go. I just wanted to make sure you were okay," He said quietly and he was standing meters away from my bed by the time I blinked.

He walked quickly to my window and opened it and I briefly wondered how he thought he was going to get down two stories.

Wait!" I yelled at the last minute finally finding my voice.

"No, I'm making this harder than it should be, I have to go Gabs." He said in a whisper. Surely this wouldn't be the last time I saw him?

I stood up and grabbed his wrist, literally dragging him back to my bed. I sat him down and sat beside him, throwing my arms around him. I knew he needed me now more than ever.

His arms were limp at his side and I grabbed his wrists, throwing them around my waist.

"Please," I begged, not sure what I was asking. He seemed to know and I felt him hug me back, bringing me closer to his cool body.

I finally pulled back and looked at his cobalt eyes. "You're not scared of me." He asked but it turned into more of a statement than a question.

"Why would I be?" I asked. He looked at me like I was insane.

"Because you know what I am- or do you not remember that after you passed out?"

"No I remember," I stated staring into his eyes hard. I wasn't scared of him.

"Tell me about-well about you." I said wondering what was going on in his head.

He smiled a little, it seemed like I hadn't seen him smile my favourite smile in ages. "You really want to know?" He asked. "You won't be scared?"

"No." I said firmly grabbing his hands to urge him on.

"What do you want to know?" He asked and my mind ran over the thousands of questions in my mind.

'So you're a vampire?" I said trying to keep my voice even.

"Yes."

"So do you like eat people? Do you want to kill me right now?" I asked and my heart raced a little.

He laughed, which eased my anxieties just a bit. "I don't eat people anymore, I only eat animals these days. And yes, I really want to kill you right now." He stated casually.

My heart nearly stopped beating. "Y-you want to kill me?" I stuttered.

"Well obviously, I want to drink all human blood, but I refrain. It's really hard for me when humans get too close though."

I stared down at the distance between us, which wasn't much, and back to his eyes.

He laughed again, "Don't worry, I'm used to you being so close. You're the only human I've gotten this close with." He said before adding. "Sorry am I scaring you?"

"No," I said at once, "It's just a lot to take in. So you eat animals then, but you have killed people?"

"Yeah, when I was younger, and couldn't control myself, I killed a couple people. But all vampires do when their young, but I've worked really hard at the control I have now."

"I go out every few weeks for a couple of days, when I get really hungry." He stopped suddenly and looked right into my eyes. "That's why I keep disappearing for days and I'm not at school." He said and I understood his hesitancy.

"Oh." I said and I tried to figure out something else to say. "So you said when you were young-when did you become a vampire?"

"It happened a couple years ago, it's different for every vampire, they can turn at any time of their life. Mine happened relatively early, I think it was when I was around fourteen."

I realized I knew Troy then, how did I not realize the change in him? "So you're parent's they're vampires too?"

"Yeah, they are, but they didn't turn until they were in their forties. They got to live more of a normal life than I did."

"But aren't they in their forties now?"

"Yeah.." Troy said breaking his gaze.

"So does that mean-?"

"They will never age, yeah." Troy said sadly.

"So they're immortal?" I questioned and realization dawned on me. Troy was immortal too.

"Yeah." He said quietly, his answer had a double meaning, for his parents, and him.

"So that means you'll never get any older than you are now? You'll always look this way."

Troy sighed, "It's kind of complicated Gabs, but I'll keep looking older until I'm eighteen and then I stop from there, it's kind of a rule. Unless you don't turn until you're older than eighteen, then you stay whatever age that is, in personality and appearance."

All of this was so confusing to me. I couldn't linger on what he had just told me, I had to ask more questions.

"So how did you all become vampires?" I asked.

"It just runs my blood," Troy said and laughed at what he'd just said, and I finally got his joke. He didn't have any blood.

"So do you like-have fangs?" I asked still trying to understand him fully; I realized I must have sounded stupid.

"No," he laughed at me, "Just these," he said flashing his brilliant white teeth.

"And you don't sleep in a coffin?" I asked smiling now too.

"No! Of course not, I sleep in a bed." He stated and I laughed. "Well technically I don't sleep. It would be hard for you to understand, my body falls asleep, but my mind never loses consciousness. I'm still aware of what's going on, but my body is resting." He looked at my confused face, "Yeah it's kind of hard to explain."

"So," I said realizing something. "You could like lose control one day and just kill me?" I said but it didn't seem realistic to me.

"Yeah, I guess, but I would never let that happen, you mean too much to me."

I smiled and hugged him again, "Is this hard for you?" I asked suddenly.

"Not at all anymore, it was at first when we I first met you," he said and I thought back briefly to the first time I met him.

"So nothing is hard for you around me then?" I asked.

"Well I wouldn't say nothing, there would be some things," he said breaking eye contact. I realized what he meant. He wouldn't know if he could keep control if he kissed me, or did more than that.

"Oh," I said. I'd truly never thought about kissing Troy before, he'd always just been my best friend. Most of the time I overlooked the fact that he is breathtaking.

"Yeah," Troy said awkwardly.

"So have you ever had a girlfriend then?" I asked and realized all the time I'd known Troy, the only girl he'd been with was me.

"No, not a human one, well or a vampire either." He said and looked down embarrassed.

"Well I guess it would be kind of hard, you know you being a vampire and everything." I laughed.

"So the only girlfriend you could ever have would be a vampire then? Because it's easier?" I questioned and for some reason my heart gave an involuntary flutter.

"Well that's what my parents say anyways. Vampires have only married vampires so far, it's not really a rule, but it's just the way it happens. There aren't that many in the States these days so usually when you find one around you're age you end up getting married to them."

"That's horrible!" I said, "What if you don't even like the person-well er vampire?" I asked shocked.

"Well I guess you learn to, there is only about five other families in the states that we know of that are like us. It's kind of funny, they even have this whole ceremony thing where they introduce their sons and daughters to other families when they become eighteen to try and pair them up and send them off."

"Troy that's not funny! I don't want that happening to you!" I said in disbelief. This whole thing was crazy.

"I know, I don't really like the idea either, luckily my parents were both in love when they got married, but these days the same probably won't happen to me. Our numbers have decreased a lot over the last 25 years."

"Why?" I asked.

"Well not a lot of them get married because they're not attracted to the person-well vampire, so they don't end up having children to carry on well –us."

"I guess I'd always thought I'd fall in love with someone someday, that was until I heard what happens when vampires grow up." He grew less serious and smiled at me.

"So you're always cold," I asked, the fact popping back into my head.

"Yeah, I guess it's cause the no blood thing." He laughed.

"So there's no way for you to get warm?" I asked still intrigued.

"Well my skin can kind of heat up from other people's body heat but that's about it." He smiled shyly. He was so cute when he did that.

I basically pounced on him, he fell back onto my bed in surprise and I landed on top of him.

"Woah," he said laughing.

"I'm warming you up," I said smirking as I lay my head down on his chest. My ear was against where his heart should be beating.

"You should go back to sleep, it's still late." He said turning his head towards the window. I did too, before looking at my clock. 4:36.

I groaned; I had completely lost track of time. He pulled my blankets up around us and I lay myself back down on him.

"Am I warming you?" I asked my eyelids feeling extremely heavy.

"You have no idea." He said, I could tell he was savouring the moment. I closed my eyes completely, and let sleep wash over my body.

I trusted Troy with my life.


So there you go, lots of explanation, but there's still a lot for you guys to find out. I'm going to be going away tomorrow, and I won't be back until the end of the week, but hopefully the next chap will be up then.

I don't want to seem like I'm nagging, but could you guys please review? I'd like to know that at least some of you are interested in my story. It's kind of discouraging with all the time and thought I put into this story, and I get little to no feedback.

Thanks guys.

PS- this chap is longgg! (well for me)