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Tris(POV):
I don't even look at what Christina bought me when I finally get back home. I just plop down onto the bed, ignoring my hungry stomach. Argh, I can barely
move! I've been standing for... like what five hours? My whole body feels sore from the waxing as well. I hear the door open slightly, but I don't move.
"Tris?" I hear Tobias's voice. I decide to move my lazy head to look at him.
"Yeah?" I say.
"Are you ok? You look really tired"
"Just went shopping with Christina" He smirks.
"That explains it"
"Yeah, I'm really tired," my stomach grumbles, "and hungry."
"Well lucky for you, I happen to be the best boyfriend in the world and got you some food!"
"You did?" My head perks up and I look to see he is holding a tray. It holds steak, water, peas, fries, and a piece of dauntless cake.
"Yup!" He says, sitting next to me on the bed.
"Oh my god! Thank you so so so much!" I say hugging him, before grabbing the plate and devouring all of its contents. Tobias watches me in awe as I manage to shove every morsel into my mouth, leaving one bite of dauntless cake for him. I gently feed It to him.
"Mmmm, delicious! He states before grabbing the tray and leaving the room. I hear him putting it on the counter, and then walking back. We sit in bed for a while, in silence with him just running his head through my hair, sometimes pausing to play with it.
"Tris?" He says.
"Hmm?"
"I love you"
"I love you more" He thinks for a while.
"Well I love you the most" He declares. I gently snuggle into him, wrapping my small arms around his large frame. I don't even realize how calm I feel in his arms.
"Tris, will you come through my fears again?" He asks me. I look at him, he almost seems... nervous.
"Sure, any particular reason" I ask.
"No, but I haven't been in them for a long time, and I think one of my fears has changed" He confesses. We walk to the simulations room. He gently injects us and we wait. Suddenly, we are on top a roof, almost falling. Tobias seems to be breathing heavily, almost hyperventilating.
"Tobias, look at me" I order. He quickly looks at me, his face green.
"Together," I say. He nods and I grab his hand before we jump off the building. Suddenly the walls are closing in, this fear still hasn't changed. I gently sit down and Tobias does too. The walls sink down as I crawl over to Tobias. The walls close in even more, and although Tobias doesn't say it, I know he's freaking out.
"Shhh! Try to calm yourself down, four on my heartbeat" I say, slowly crouching into him. I gently put his hand on my heart.
"Your heart is beating fast..." He says gently.
"That still has nothing to do with the box," I reply. Suddenly, the fear changes and we both slowly get up. I look at the girl in the chair, in her baggy Abnegation clothes, and her grey-blue eyes, and long blond hair. I then realize it's me. I see Tobias too, but I can't get to him. He's reluctantly holding up the gun, but he won't shoot.
Tobias(POV):
It's not real. It's not real. It's not real! I tell myself over and over again. I raise the gun, aiming at the girl's head, but this isn't any girl, it's Tris. When she first came, when she jumped onto the net. My finger is on the trigger, ready to move past the fear. I try countless times, but I can't move. Why won't my finger move?! Realization hits me like a rock. I care too much.
Tris(POV):
Tobias won't shoot. I wish I could tell him it's not real. Then something happens, it only takes a split second, but he swiftly forces the gun in his direction and shoots. I watch as he crumples to the floor. It's not real. I tell myself. The fear quickly switches, I know what to expect next. I'm slightly confused when we aren't in Abnegation. What's going on? I then see Tobias, he's looking at something. I look closer, he's looking at the simulation me. I'm smiling and eating pretty normal until I hear a loud sound, a gunshot, but not one, many of them. I see myself fall to the floor, blood falling everywhere. I then see Tobias loosing it, trying to break through the invisible barrier between them.
"Tobias! Help" Says the simulation Tris weakly.
"Tris! TRIS! I'm coming!" Says Tobias sobbing.
"You promised to keep me safe!"
"I'm trying! Please! Hang in there!" Tobias is ramming himself into the invisible barrier, trying to break it in any way possible.
"Tobias..." I see simulation me die, in a pool of blood. Tobias looks like he's loosing it completely. I need him to calm down!
"TOBIAS! CALM DOWN! IT'S NOT REAL!" I yell as loud as I can.
Tobias(POV):
I've lost her again. I had one damn chance to save her! I'm sobbing uncontrollably. I hear a faint voice over my sobbing,
"Tobias! Calm down! It's not real!" The voice sounds urgent. I need to slow my heart rate. I need to get through this.
Tris(POV):
Tobias starts taking deep breaths in and out. Phew! After what seems like a few minutes we are out of the simulation. As soon as we are out, Tobias crushes me with a hug, sobbing.
"It's fine," I say soothingly, "I'm still here"
"It's so real" He sobs. It hurts me to se him like this, so... broken. He quickly wipes his tears.
"Do I look like I've been crying?" He asks me. I smile playfully.
"Hmmm," I lean in close, as if inspecting his face, smiling, "No Tobias, you look as tough as nails"
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