*This chapter had to be told in JJ's Point of view and you'll find out why :) MAJOR PLOT TWIST! And don't forget to read ending note! :) Enjoy**
J.J's P.O.V
Henry and I had been staying in our house again but, I have been sleeping with him in his room. Even looking at the once master bedroom it keeps reminding me of something you love being torn from your life. I hate Will for doing what he did that day, being a hero. I keep getting calls from Hotch. He must be concerned, but I need a few more days.
Finally the phone calls got to me, he had been calling for two days and I finally answered.
"Hello?" I tentatively asked.
"J.J are you ok? I've been calling and you haven't been answering, anyways, I'm worried about Reid?" he continued to tell me he was worried about his mental state and his blow up. "Do you now what could have caused him to act like this?"
I knew he was was aware that something had happened between us, but had I really caused all of this? Was I really the one to be blamed for all of us?
"Not sure," trying not to sound timid because I was lying. "but I'll checkup on him tonight."
"OK, let me know if you need anything or keep me updated on any progress."
"Will do" I said hanging up
Turning around to face Henry I asked, "Ready to go see Spencer?"
Taking the spare key from the secret compartment located behind the siding of his doorway, I went to unlock the door, I inserted the key, but it didn't click. It was unlocked already. Every since the Tobias Hankel he has always been adamant on having his door locked, his shield against ever having to go through pain like that again. My heart dropped and I immediately ran through his doorway leaving the door ajar.
"Reid!" my voice was desperate and I was trembling uncontrollably. He wasn't in his living room or Kitchen so I ran into his bedroom and saw the bathroom light on underneath the door. I was paralyzed with fear, fear that whatever I saw was my fault.
"REID!" I screamed again on the verge of tears opening the door and seeing his pale limp body. I gasped and leaned down to cradle his head. "Reid?!" I said panicking quickly leaning down towards his lips. Oh thank GOD, he's breathing. Suddenly it hit me underneath his arm lies a needle. Dilaudid... and this was all my fault. I sat and sobbed into his pale purple dress shirt and cradled his head. "I'm so sorry... I'm sorry."
"Mommy?" my head snapped towards the door and I saw Henry's silhouette rounding the corner. He can't see this.
"Henry honey, mommy will be out in a minute. Why don't you turn on the TV until then?" I held my breath anticipating an argument but to my relief he said ok and left. I quickly closed the door and sat holding Reid for what seemed like hours. After 5 minutes of my arriving he began to mumble things, he was clearly having flashbacks from his kidnapping.
"No...no... stop I don't want it." His head began rolling from side to side. "I'm not weak..." now his hands were balled into fists, his knuckles white. Almost instantaneously his body language completely changed. It went limp again and he whimpered, his voice cracking with fear. "No please don't, No!" his body shook, sweat coated his skin. His drugs were supposed help him escape, not bring back painful memories. All I could possibly do was stay with him which I should have done from the start. He had done anything and everything in his power to make us comfortable and feel at home , but all I had done is made this happen. Suddenly his body began convulsing.
"No no NO!" He screamed suddenly bolting awake. I grabbed his arms instinctively to try to hold him down to prevent himself from hurting himself in his delirium. He was breathing hard and desperately trying to pry my hands away from him. His panicked eyes turned towards me and violently ripped my hands off, crawling away from me. His heaving chest was a sure sign I came as a huge shock to him. He still seemed lost.
"Reid, Please it's me JJ" Still startled he chocked out a answer. "I-I-I I know! What the heck are you doing here?!"
"Reid I'm so sorry..." I said as tears began to fall again. I carefully began to stand up and approach him like a shy animal.
"No stay away from me!" His words were harsh but I could understand where they were coming from.
"Reid, please I know what you've been doing-"
"I-It's not what it looks like!" He shouted disparately. I looked him in the eyes and all tension in his body seemed to fade. "Please don't tell Morgan..." his head fell to the floor in shame.
"I'm just so sorry I put you through this." My lip quivered while saying this when he didn't look up.
"Where's Henry?" he asked.
"Living room... he doesn't know anything."
"Listen JJ I don't need to help you If you don't want me to. I was just trying to help you know... ever since the Godfather thing. I took an oath that day, I promised to step in and protect you if Will ever... you know. I'm sorry. It's your decision and I should have asked."
The sincerity in his voice melted my heart, he really did care. Even after what I had done to him. I could probably never make it up to him. I leaned forward and grabbed his chin lifting it up to meet my eyes. All at once I leaned forward and kissed him.
*HOLY BARNACLES HOWS THAT FOR AN ENDING TO A CHAPTER?! Now here's the deal, I'm taking a review vote. weather to write a chapter on when Reid woke up or just continue with the story in Reid's P.O.V I'll be tallying up the votes and doing whatever one wins for next week. Thank you so much to aartisticmusician for helping with this story and most of all thank you to you guys. Sorry if it sounds cheesy but I really appreciate every bit of your input. See you guys next week! Pebbles7a :D
