A/N: I'm so sorry, I can't apologize enough. This update is so late and I was gonna put the story on hiatus but then I changed my mind so you're probably crazy confused with me right now, but just know I am TERRIBLY sorry!

On a side note: Thank you to whoever is still with me. I PROMISE to try and update regularly from now on. I always get my writing jazz back around the holidays. REMEBER REVIEWS KEEP ME MOTIVATED TO WRITE THE STORY AND ARE GREATLY APPRECIATED.

I think you guys will like this chapter, there is a HUGE LEMON in it ;) See you at the bottom!

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If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
Amazed how I somehow managed to,
Sweep you off of your feet girl,
Your perfect little feet girl,
I took for granted what you do,
But I'll do better.
I know, baby I can do better.
Stay Close, Don't Go; Secondhand Serenade

Spring Break Love Confessions

BPOV

"Alice are you sure my dad is going to be okay with this? You've gotten him to do some pretty crazy things...but I really don't think he'll want me out in California for an entire week without him." I tell Alice with a wince. I can just imagine him holding his breath and looking constipated at the thought of it.

"Bella, Esme and Carlisle will be there, its not like we'll be completely alone. He doesn't have to know that we're using Rose's beachhouse on the other side of the beach. Esme will totally cover for you." She tells me, leaning back onto her pillows. We're sitting on her bed, the midday sun shining through her pink curtains. She looks lazy in a pair of matching pajamas and her long hair tyed into a messy bun on top of her head. There are two days left of school until Spring Break, which is when Alice wants me to go to Rose's beachhouse for the week.

"Fine." I decide on a compromise. "If you somehow convince my dad to let me go, then we have to bring Lauren." Her eyes scrunch in confusion and she gives a cute little cock of her head to the side.

"Thats fine..." She says, "Even if I don't understand why." She smiles and stands up. "I'm gonna go talk to Esme, tell her the plan." she smiles. I nod at her as she walks out of the house.

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"You have to call us every morning when you wake up, and don't forget to take your credit card in case of emergencies!" Charlie tells me the morning of the day we leave. I roll my eyes as I throw my red high top converse on. I felt really comfortable in my yoga pants and graphic tee. I look in the mirror at my wild mane of hair. I tie it into a side fishtail and smile. Last week Carmen and Rose were over, and we decided I needed a change with my hair. So now I have blonde ombre'd into the bottom of my dark locks. I really liked it, and it seemed most of the people at school did too since I got so many compliments. Edward's reaction popped through my mind and I tried my best to block it out.

Edward and I went to sleep not to long after our confrontation on Valentines Day. The next morning Alice came and woke us up, pulling me out of the room before Edward and I could have a chance to talk. We haven't talked about it since and it seems we were both avoiding the conversation all together. But its going to be hard now since I'll be with him for an entire week in California.

"When's Alice coming to get you?" Phil asks when I walk into the kitchen to grab some breakfast.

"Actually Rose is driving us girls in her jeep. And in about 15 minutes." I smile. He nods and takes a sip of his coffee. I take a really good look at Phil, and can't help noticing exactly what my dad sees in him. He's sweet, and caring, and attractive. He works out everyday so he stays toned, which I'm sure my dad likes. A year ago I never would have suspected my dad would be with a man, especially not such a manly man, but I can't really think of it being any other way now.

I hear a car horn outside and jump up. I say my goodbyes to my dad and Phil and run out to the jeep. The only seat available is the passenger seat since Rose picked up all the other girls first. I throw my bag in the back and jump into the car.

"You bitches ready to roll?" Rose yells cheerfully. We all 'wooh'! Really loudly and she takes off down the road. She's looking incredibly cute and comfy in her pink crop top and yoga shorties. She has very little makeup on so she looks more naturally pretty than usual. Tanya,Carmen, Lauren, and Alice are all in the backseat talking about something. I'm glad to see the girls getting along with Lauren.

The ride isn't super long, but it takes up most of the day. We spend our entire time on the road listening to each of the music we brought and eating snacks we bought at the gas station. Pretty soon we're at Rose's beachhouse picking rooms.

"Edward, Bella, you guys probably already realized this, but since you guys are single you have the awkward task of having to share a room. Lauren called the futon in the living room. Sorry." Rose tells us, but the smirk on her face tells me she's not really sorry.

Rose was the only one I told about having sex with Edward. She has always been rooting for him and I to get together and now more than ever she still was. So this little stunt doesn't surprise me.

"Not surprised." I mutter, looking up at Edward, who was standing in the doorway. We're all sitting in the kitchen, us girls at the table, Emmett looking in the fridge and Jasper sitting on the counter. Mike is crouching down next to Carmen and whispering something in her ear.

"It wont be that bad Bella, unless you decide to hog all the covers again." He smirks at me that devillishly handsome smirk. I give him a playful glare and stick my tongue out.

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"I've got Four Lokos, Mike's hard, I have a little bit of whiskey in the bottom of the cooler and some beer. There's also tea in here, but thats mostly for mixing." We all tell her what we want to drink. We're sitting on the sand around a bonfire next to her beachhouse, looking out at the ocean. Its a bit chilly outside actually, and I have a sudden urge to snuggle into Edward, but I don't want him to feel weird. But when he sees me shivering, he opens his arms as if to invite me, and we sip on our four lokos as we snuggle.

"I'll just have a tea." Alice says quietly when Rose asks her what she wants.

"A tea mixed with what, Alice?" Rose asks impatiently. Alice gives her a dumbfounded look.

"I just want a tea, no alcohol." Rose gives her the most insane look ever but hands it over without a word. Its not like Alice to pass up an opportunity to get really drunk.

"Same." Jasper says quickly, giving Alice a worried look. Alice smiles at him as she sips on her Arizona.

We sit around and talk for hours. Emmett starts telling cheesey ghost stories and we all laugh at how ridiculously corny they are. At around 4 in the morning I decide its time for bed.

"Im heading in guys." I say as I disentangle myself from Edwards arms.

"You too?" Rosalie pouts. Alice and Jasper went to bed around 2:30. I shrug and wave to all of them before heading inside the house.

I walk to mine and Edward's bathroom, which is in our room. That was the plus to getting stuck together, we got to pick which room we got, so of course we picked the one with the bathroom.

I take off my sweatshirt and shorts and boots so I'm only in my underwear and bra. I look at myself in the mirror for a moment before turning toward the sink. I grab my toothbrush and brush my teeth really quickly before using mouth wash. I'm so engrossed in what I'm doing I don't hear the door open and close behind me. I get slightly startled but don't jump when I feel a familiar body pressed against mine from behind.

"You've been avoiding me." Edward whispers breathily in my ear. He takes my hair and pushes it to the other side, placing slow kisses from my earlobe to my shoulder.

"You've been avoiding me too." I whisper back. I can feel the alcohol in me as I talk. "We're drunk."

"Drunk and in love." He murmurs. His lips become more rough, I can practically feel the hickeys forming already but I dont care. Heat begins to pulse through my body and I grab the back of his bronze head, gripping his hair tightly. His hands move from where they are placed on my hips to my bra-claded breasts and they begin to squeeze tightly. I buck my ass into his front and he moans.

"Mmmmm Edward." I moan when one hand moves down to rub me through my underwear. I'm getting wetter by the second and I'm almost positive he can feel it. "I want you so much." I gasp.

"Oh you do?" He growls in my ear. He takes a light bite into my neck but its enough to have me pulsing with need. "Tell me exactly what you want Bella." He takes my earlobe into his mouth and I make a gaspy moan. He's turning me into a horny mess.

"Fuck me, Edward!" I yell and even I'm surprised at my bravery. "Take me anyway you want me just get inside me now!" In the back of my mind I know that anybody who might be in the house could probably hear me, but I'm drunk and really don't give a shit.

"Bella," He growls into my ear. His fingers start moving even faster. "Do you realize just how fucking sexy you are? I think of you so much." His mouth goes even closer to my ear. "I even jack off to images of you sometimes. Does that creep you out?" He asks. Oh. My. God. He doesn't sound like he actually thinks its creepy, and its honestly not.

"Oh god thats so hot." I moan. My hand moves and covers his, helping him out.

The hand that was gripping my chest leaves and grips the back of my hair almost painfully. He rips my head back so that I'm looking into his eyes. They're so dark and filled with lust. His mouth attatches to mine roughly. His tongue is everywhere and its sloppy and I fucking love it. His teeth bite my lip and it bleeds, but he doesn't apologize. And I'm glad because some weird part of me enjoys it.

"Go into the room and lock the door. Then bend over the edge of the bed and wait for me." I nod and do as he tells me. I wait for him, ass stuck in the air and still pulsing with need.

"You have the most scrumptous ass ever. I just want to take a picture of it so I have something for when you're not around." Edward says when he walks into the room. The comment sounds insensitve but its Edward and I know he doesn't mean it the way it sounds.

In some odd moment of bravery I take a deep breath and say "Do it." I can't see him, but I can practically feel him tense up. I see his cell phone not to far from my head on the bed, so I grab it and lift it in the air for him to take. He grabs it from my hand and I hear the "click" of the camera.

"Edward," I growl a second later. "I'm getting impatient." I wiggle my ass a little, hoping he got the idea.

"Your wish my command, princess." He tells with his rough-sex-voice. He rips my panties off and throws them across the room. They land on top of one of the lamps. His hands shove my shoulders against the bed and he thrusts into me before I can think.

"My fucking god!" I scream as he thrusts in and out roughly. "Fuck me, Edward! Ahhh!" With each yell he thrusts faster and harder.

"Bella, oh god, Bella." He moans. "Fuck. Me. Oh my god." I bite my busted lip but I cant feel the pain through all of the pleasure. At some point he takes off my bra but I can't recall when.

"Scream my name, Bella." He commands.

"Edward!" I scream. His hands loosen off my shoulders and go to my hips instead, seemingly helping him thrust into me even harder. He pulls all the way out and slams back in fast. "Edward fucking Cullen!"

He pulls out again but this time he flips me around. He pushes my legs wide open and I'm suddenly thankful that I'm flexible. He grips me right under my tits and thrusts back in. He moves in and out of me so quickly and I feel so fucking good. I feel myself tighten around him and my breathing becomes heavier.

I scream his name at the top of my lungs as I reach my orgasm around him. He's not there yet though. He slows down for some reason, and I wonder if maybe he did, but I didn't feel it.

"Come closer," He whispers as he pulls out of me. I comply, pulling myself towards him. His eyes lock onto my tits and I suddenly get what he wants. I take my hands and push them together, looking up at him lovingly. His eyes glaze over with even more lust. "Bella that is so fucking sexy. You are a goddess." He tells me. I bite my lip and nod, giving him a tiny smile.

He takes a step forward, placing his cock in between my tits from underneath. I'm still surprised at how openly sexual I'm being. I blame it on the alcohol and go back to focusing on Edward.

He begins to thrust, the tip of his cock reaching my mouth each time. His mouth is open wide and the entire time he keeps repeating, "yes, fuck yes, oh my fucking god you feel good!" My tits are jiggling like crazy and I feel like maybe I should be embarassed, but Edward's obviously not caring so I decide not to either.

Eventually he comes all over my tits. I stay there, holding my tits so that it doesn't fall all over the ground even though thats a stupid reason, it could easily be cleaned up. He stares at me and gulps, a wide smile on his face.

"Well," He says, grabbing a napkin off of the night stand. "That was fun." I giggle as he wipes it off my chest.

"Here's my shirt." He smiles, handing it to me. "You can wear it to bed if you want." I nod and smile at him shyly.

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"I like spooning with you..." Edward murmurs to me the next morning when we wake up. I'm wearing nothing but his t-shirt, and some cotton underwear I threw on last night. Our legs are intertwined and I'm faced away from him. He's flushed against my back and I can feel his warm breath on my neck. His hand wiggles in between my legs, resting there. He nuzzles his nose into my neck. I slowly open my eyes to the bright California sun shining through the blinds in our room. I can slightly hear a child yelling about seashells outside on the beach, and the birds are singing a beautiful song.

But the raging headache that is pounding in my forehead overtakes all of that, making me regret drinking the night before. To top it off I have a slight ache in between my legs from Edward's massive dick. I'm slightly dreading looking in a mirror because I just know my hair is gonna be a mess.

"I like waking up next to you..." I breathe out as I sit up, swinging my legs over the edge of the bed.

"Coming in!" Rose yells as she opens the door, a hand over her eyes. I notice Emmett behind her in a similar position, only he's peeking through. I roll my eyes at them as Edward throws a pillow over his head with a groan.

"Were covered, Rose." I sigh. Emmett shuts the door behind him, and they both remove their hands from their eyes.

"So, I'm just going to be honest." Rose says. I gasp in fear of what everyone must be thinking, I knew we should've quieted down. "You guys were really loud last night. Emmett and I covered for you, but you two need to figure your shit out. Soon. Because Alice is very suspicious. And take Edward's shirt off, that just makes it obvious."

"Oh lord!" Edward yelps. He's now sitting up and looking at me. I try to hold his stare, but we both just end up giggling.

"Go Eddie!" Emmett yells unexpectedly. "Eddie got laaaiiiiddd." he drags out the word. We both roll our eyes and Rose smacks him upside the head. They leave after that to let us get in order.

We don't say much as we get dressed. I put on my swimsuit, a light blue bikini with a floral pattern over it. I put a crop tank that says "swaggy." on over it with a pair of high-waisted, anchor-patterned shorts. I throw on my sandels and leave my hair down in its natural waves.

Edward and I look at each other when we're dressed, without a word said. I don't know how to start this conversation. I don't know how to tell him that I really just want a normal relationship with him. Maybe I'm just too scared that even after all we've been through, he still has those same views on love and commitment and how its all a waste.

"Bella," Edward interrupts my thoughts. "I don't know how to be someones boyfriend." He tells me. I feel my heart deflate like a popped balloon. "I don't know how it works." I sigh sadly, looking down and nodding.

"Its okay, Edward." I whisper. "I get it. You can't give me what I want, and I understand that." He looks confused after this.

"What? Bella, I love you." My heart breaks a bit at the honest words. "And I want to try and make this work." I look up in surprise. "But I want you to show me how, because I've never been in a relationship befo-" I cut him off with my mouth crashing to his.

"Thank you." I whisper. He smiles but doesn't reply.

"We should head out there. Do you want to tell them, or wait?" I can tell by his expression he wants to wait.

"We'll wait a couple days." I tell him much to his relief.

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"Alice, why are you wearing a one piece? You've got a rockin bod." Tanya asks later on that day. All of the girls are laying out on the beach attempting to get a tan, while the boys are running around and throwing sand at each other like children. Alice's swimsuit is black with a similar floral print to mine, only it completely covers her stomach and back.

"I was wondering the same thing," Lauren says, her bitch brow going up, "I've seen you at La Push beach every year since I was 6, and this is the first time I've ever seen you wear a one piece."

"I've gained some weight, I just felt self-concious." She says. We all look at her like she's crazy, but her lack of words lets us know she doesn't want to talk about it anymore.

"Hey babe!" Mike yells to Carmen. She lifts her head, which is a darker purple now and tyed into a Lady-Gaga bow on top of her head. She smiles at him as he does some weird dance for her.

"Emmett!" Rosalie suddenly yells.

"Yeah?" He calls back,

"Come lotion me!" Emmett was over to us before the words were even completely out of her mouth, practically salivating. The other girls one by one also call their boyfriends over to lotion them. Lauren says shes tired and goes back in to take a nap. I feel a little left out, not being able to call my boyfriend to come lotion me.

"Hey Edward," Rosalie says with a wink when she notices my upset expression. "Get off your lazy ass and lotion Bella, she needs it." He mouths a 'thank you' to her before rushing over to me.

He lotions up his hands and starts on my legs, rubbing my shins and then up to my thighs with the lotion. Very discreetly his finger pushed into my lady parts, making me shudder in surprise. His snicker as he skipped over my ass and went to my back let me know he very much did it on purpose. I would get him back for that later. His fingers kneed into my back and I start to relax more and more, almost falling asleep. I'm aware that everyone believes I actually am asleep, but I don't correct them 'cause I'm far too tired. I hear something about Tanya, Carmen, Mike and Levi going to get some food. I'm not paying a lot of attention until I hear Alice say my name.

"Okay, now that everyones gone, Edward, please explain to me what you and Bella were doing last night that I woke up at 4 in the morning with the sound of Bella screaming your name." I almost gasp but I really am half-asleep and for all I know this could be a dream...

"Don't even try to cover again Rose," she snaps at her best friend, "Their room is right next to mine."

"We're dating, Alice." Edward tells her. "We weren't going to say anything till later in the week so we could sort out everything with eachother. I told Emmett and he told Rose," He obviously lied on the last part, although why I do not know, maybe to protect Alice from getting mad at me.

"Oh my god I knew it!" She claimed loudly, "I knew it!"

"How?" Edward asked.

"Because I came home early Valentines Day night and I heard you!" She growled accusingly.

Well, shit.

A/N: So! Edward and Bella finally decided to date. Don't worry, they still have a while to go before the stories finished. And anybody notice anything weird going on with Alice? I wonder what it is! I'd love to hear your theory's! Reviews keep me motivated to write so the more you review the faster the updates! Reviewers get a sneak peek of next chapter!