Long detailed lemon in this chapter! This is my first lemon! Hope you enjoy! Feedback is appreciated and motivates me to write more!
I felt sadness, the deepest sadness I had ever felt swell within my chest. I would wait until we returned to Wammy House so we could have a private conversation. I dreaded the thought of waiting so long, sitting beside her on an eight hour flight only to return home and break her heart. But...I couldn't live with what I was doing to her any longer.
I turned slowly and walked back into her room and stopped staring at Tsuki asleep, pain swelling in my chest as I gazed at her with a sad smile. From this moment on, my life would be an existence; I wouldn't know the joys of living after this moment. My heart and head were battling for who was right, something I wasn't used to experiencing. However, in my head and my heart I believed what I was doing was right. I couldn't hurt her anymore.
I walked over to the bed slowly, my eyes never moving from her sleeping form. She looked so peaceful...so happy...so...full of life. What I was doing to her was slowly robbing her of that life. I wasn't sure about what my future would be and I couldn't let her follow me into the vortex of uncertainty that was my future. She deserved to know all the joys she's dreamt about since childhood. Real love, happiness, a home, a family, dreams, and most importantly...a life away from me and the harsh evil that surrounded my existence. Someone so warm shouldn't have to face the evils she has been.
I stared down at her sleeping form and reached out to lightly shake her then stopped myself. I should tell Watari my decision so I can have some privacy with her when we return home. I quietly shuffled to the door and closed it behind me as I left the room. Watari was sitting in the living room reading the morning paper finishing his coffee and looked at me slowly, his kind face warm and concerned.
"L what's wrong?" He asked me quietly.
I silently debated for a moment if I should sit or not but I didn't want this to be turned into a large discussion now. I looked at him staring at him for a few moments before I spoke, "I am going to leave Wammy House after we arrive back in England." My tone came out even, with no hint of the pains that statement caused me.
He looked at me surprised and his face melted into one of sadness and understanding, "I understand L. Before we set anything in stone talk it over with Tsuki first..." He said in his usual gentle voice. I stared at him for a moment and nodded silently. I turned and started shuffling to her room once more, stopping in my tracks hearing his voice once more. "She deserves a say in the matter too L. Just because you believe you are doing her a favor by making this decision does not mean you are actually doing so."
I felt my eyes widen as I let out a small gasp, he knew about us. I had deduced based on how secretive and intellectually bright we both were that we could hide our relationship entirely, the probability anyone would find out was under 5%, Watari alone however, his chances of knowing were around 10%; seems I underestimated him. I said nothing and continued into the room. I closed the door behind me once more and looked at Tsuki sleeping. I slowly made my way over to her again watching her face, her beautiful, peaceful, smiling face.
I sat beside her with my feet flat on the floor watching her sleep for a few more moments. It was only 8:29 now; I still had time to watch her sleep, possibly for the last time. I felt annoyance pulse through my body at my lingering selfishness and put a gentle hand on her shoulder lightly shaking her. "Rise and shine Moonbeam." I uttered the phrase that was at a 98% success rate for producing a smile from her, more than likely for the last time, the odds of this being a correct assumption were just over 94%, the flight home was not included in this calculation.
She made a small sound of protest and mumbled something intangible. I felt a small smile cross my face as I shifted to face her more. Her gems slowly fluttered open and she smiled at me, I slightly returned it. The moment she sat up I pulled her to me hugging her close burying my nose in the crock of her neck breathing in her scent. She smelled like old books, chocolate, flowers and a hint of spice; I loved her smell more than any other. I felt saddened again at how much I would miss it. I felt her shift in my embrace and slowly hug me back, she gave my cheek a gentle kiss and leaned against me heavily as she slowly peeled away the remains of sleep. I relished in the feel of her body so close to mine for one of the last times. This was getting harder by the moment and I had only come to the conclusion minutes ago.
"What's wrong Panda?" She asked gently as she moved a hand up to massage the nape of my neck. I let out a small sigh as I slightly relaxed, closing my eyes as she continued her actions. The simple action had a great calming effect on me and it calmed me 62% of the way.
"It's how I was yesterday..." I said, technically a half-truth. I couldn't tell her the truth right now, I looked at her slowly and she gave me a small smile.
Thankfully she wasn't completely awake yet so she gave a little nod, "I understand, but keep in mind I said I was alright with everything and that we would figure it out together." She said sweetly.
I no longer felt the relaxation of her affectionate action. Together. That word hit me very hard. I gave her a small smile and nodded slightly. "We leave for the airport at 10." I said quietly.
She nodded and slowly pulled herself from me, giving me a gentle kiss as she did. She got up smiling and went to her bag to get prepared for the flight home. I got up and headed out of the room sitting in the living room on the couch across form the chair Watari was sitting in. He looked at me silently and I stared at him blankly. He gave me a small nod and got up calling room service ordering Tsuki's preferred breakfast since we had started the case, French toast with hot chocolate and extra little things so she could "make it real hot chocolate" as she preferred to word it. He also ordered a multitude of sweets for me to scarf down as my first of many meals of the day.
A few minutes later Tsuki came out of the room much more awake, dressed and with her packed bag that she set down beside Watari's and mine. Watari gave her a warm smile as he bid her good morning and took his place in the chair once more reading the paper. She smiled and plopped herself down next to me, leaning on me silently as she often did after she woke up. I felt nothing but sadness at the normally comforting action. I had a feeling today was going to be exceedingly painful. I couldn't imagine how horrid the conversation would be later. I dreaded the pain I would feel once I could talk to her once we arrived home, but I agonized over the pain Tsuki would feel.
Our food came and we ate quietly. Soon after we finished we departed from the hotel to the airport. We boarded the plane in the first class section with her sitting by the window, her preferred place on a plane and me sitting on the opposite side of her. Watari was seated further ahead of us. It was a last minute flight so our three seats couldn't be together.
I wrapped an arm around her to help prevent her aviatophobia, or flight anxiety from starting. No matter how many times we fly she still has a strong fear of it. I couldn't blame her, a bad first experience on a plane when only four years old, even though it's been 11 years, it is still with her and mostly likely would always be. She gave me a small grateful smile and moved to curl to me, I held her closer and when the plane began preparing for takeoff I began to lowly hum Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata, for the last time. She gripped my shirt slightly and gave my neck a light grateful kiss. I felt a small bittersweet smile form on my face as I held her close to me. I was going to break her heart just like I was breaking mine.
But isn't this what you do when you love someone? No matter how much it pains you to let them go, you do it for their betterment?...wait...love...do I love Tsuki?
What does it mean to love someone exactly? Of this I remained unsure despite memorizing the definition of love. The definitions I found confused me immensely:
-Love (verb form): [definition one]: to feel tender affection for someone such as I close relative or friend, even an animal, place, ideal, etc. [definition two]: to feel romantic and sexual desire and longing for someone.
-Love (noun form): [definition one] a passionate feeling of romantic desire and sexual attraction. [definition two] very strong affection i.e. an intense feeling of tender affection and compassion.
I tried to research the amount of time it takes people to fall in love along with ages to determine the probability that I was actually in love with Tsuki. My research and deductions had left me unsure of the result, with how selfish I've been with her; I can't definitely say I do love her.
She made a small sound as the plane hit some turbulence. I felt her body tense as she gripped my shirt tightly, slightly shaking in fear. I held her tightly to me and ran my hands soothingly along her back. "It will be alright Tsuki." I said firmly, she shakily nodded and clung to me tightly. I felt sadness hit me again, harder than it had yet as the front of my shirt started to get slightly wet.
She's so frightened she's crying.
I felt enraged that I could do nothing to comfort her and calm her nerves, my anger only amplified as the turbulence increased. Her breathing started moving into short nervous gasps as she made a pained sound holding me tightly with one hand and gripped her chest with the other; she was starting to have a panic attack. I removed one hand from her back and grabbed her hand on my shirt following suit with my other hand moving it to the one on her chest holding both tightly.
"Tsuki you need to clam down." I said gently, I got her to let go of her and my shirts and placed her hands gently to her face. "Slow breaths." I said as I exaggerated my breathing slightly so she could follow my breathing pattern. She gave me a scared nod, with her eyes full of tense fear, and slowly followed my breaths until she calmed down. I gave her a small smile and kissed her face gently a few times, finally kissing her lips as she removed her hands.
She gave me a small grateful smile and hugged me tightly. I hugged her closer and lightly nuzzled her cheek and neck. She let out a slight giggle at my actions and it made me smile a little more. She relaxed in my arms and I resumed my humming. She lightly gripped my shirt and quickly fell asleep against me, exhausted from the extreme panic she was in.
I continued to hum and hold her to me as she slept peacefully. Watari came to check on us as soon as it was safe for him to move about the plane. I told him what happened and he was relieved she was alright, this wasn't the first panic attack she had had on a plane and the pervious one was much worse... He stayed for a few moments then returned to his seat leaving us be. I rested my head on Tsuki's gently stroking her hair as I held her.
This was all going to be over. It would be best if I never saw her again. There was a 6% chance she would hate me after our conversation. I almost hoped she would... Tsuki slept a fourth of the flight and the last three fourths we spent conversing about trivial things. I hung on her every word and made her do most of the talking. I was going to miss her voice, her thoughts, especially how she would rationalize her conclusions, the slight rambling she did when I pushed a subject enough, the way her eyes would slightly sparkle as she laughed, the way she managed to sound perfectly mature and childish at the same time, everything was relevant and more important than any knowledge I would ever come across.
Kahlil Gibran once said, "If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."
I silently evaluated my feelings and thoughts toward and about Tsuki during the rest of the flight home. It kept coming back to the same base point and the knowledge only caused me greater pains:
I love Tsuki.
I wanted her to be happy.
I had to let her go.
We returned to Wammy House early the next morning, roughly 1:34 am, due to the time conversion. Tsuki and I departed to our rooms, after Tsuki bit Watari goodnight, and she went into her room dropping off her things, I did the same then knocked on her door slowly after a few minutes reminding myself how crucial this was, for her. She called for me to come in and after hesitating for a moment I went into her room closing and locking the door behind me.
She gave me a perplexed and concerned look as I wordlessly went over to her and sat in my preferred position on her desk chair. She moved to sit on the edge of her bed and looked at me in worry. I only locked her door when it was a very serious matter.
"L...what's wrong?" She said in concern.
I looked at her slowly trying to keep my emotions at bay; they would only compromise the situation at hand. I needed all my strength if I was going to do this right. "I am going to leave Wammy House." I said finally. She stared at me silently, mixtures of emotions passed through her eyes as she continued to stare at me. I could see her eyes starting to shine more, she was close to crying.
"Take me with you." She said firmly, her voice slightly cracking.
"I can't do that." I said in my usual monotone, I couldn't let my emotions betray me.
"Why?" She demanded doing her best to stay calm with her eyes shining more and her tone cracking again.
"It would be best if we ended things between us and got on with our lives separately." I said after a moment of silence, my tone not betraying the heartache I felt saying that or seeing her expression.
She looked at me with a hard, pained look, a few tears falling before she stood glaring at me in anger. "What the hell are you saying?!" She cried in anger finally losing her temper. "Best for who L?!"
I looked at her with a calm expression using every ounce of will I had to not mirror her obvious heartache. It had to be done, "You want things for your life I could never have because of who I am." I said simply.
She looked at me, she was instantly calm, her eyes watery but calculating as she quickly pieced together what I was really saying. Her expression became one of aged sadness. "L...why not just talk to me? Why...just leave?" She said as she heavily sat down overwhelmed.
I looked at her for a long moment before I spoke again, "I'm not sure..." I admitted finally. I did know but...I felt as if I hadn't thought the matter through.
She looked at me and slightly smiled, "L...just because I talk about things I want doesn't mean they're going to happen. They're fantasies, hopes, and dreams. Those change all the time. Just because I talked for a week I wanted a pet Tyrannosaurus Rex when I was 11 didn't mean I actually wanted it. It was just a nice idea at the time."
I looked at her thoughtfully for a long while. She was correct. However, "Tsuki...what if you continue to want those things later in life? My life is as the detective L; I cannot make time for anything else. I hardly can devote any time to you now as it is."
She gave me a small smile with her eyes shining, though not with tears, with determination. "L, nothing is for sure in life. If I do end up wanting those things later on." She shrugged slightly, "I'll figure them out as I go." She finished with a smile.
I looked at her in confusion, was she brushing aside the subject not fully grasping what I was saying after all? "Tsuki..." I felt some of the pain I had been struggling with enter my expression for a moment. I needed to let her go. "When you love someone, you let them go." I said finally trying my best to maintain all emotion.
Her eyes widened hearing me, "You...love me?" She whispered.
I looked at her and felt a small smile cross my face, "Yes." More than I could adequately express or voice.
She smiled at me with a few tears threatening to fall; a small laugh escaped her letting the dam holding her tears break. She grabbed my arm and pulled me lightly; I followed her silent command and sat next to her on the bed not in my preferred position. "If they return, they were always yours. If they don't they never were." She recited reaching a hand out to cup my face. "No matter what happens to us in life L...I will always return to you."
I slightly leaned into her touch and looked at her in slight surprise. She loved me as well? I felt a strange burning sensation in my eyes and blinked once trying to rid the feeling, this did nothing and I stared at her in confusion trying to understand what was happening. She gave me a small smile as she wiped away a wet substance from my cheek. It was a tear...I had cried?
"I love you L Lawliet." She whispered leaning close to me capturing my lips, I eagerly responded feeling the immense emotion I had been suppressing for almost an entire day taking over my senses. I needed her.
I moved to push her down on the bed, which she did not object, and kissed her feverishly. This feeling, I never thought I could need her touch so...badly. I trailed my hands over her curves trying to memorize the feel of her body. She slightly shivered under my touch and let out a soft sigh as our tongues battled in the warm caverns that were currently smashed together. I felt an intense need for everything about her. I needed all of her.
She surrendered control and let me do as I pleased, to which I greedily took advantage of the situation. I let my tongue explore every detail of her mouth in agonizing detail; she gripped my back holding me firm to her. I pulled my mouth from hers and attacked her neck as I had done the day before. She gasped slightly and moaned slightly arching her back as I teased her neck slowly. I felt a great satisfaction hearing her soft sounds of pleasure as I began the slow process of worshiping her body.
I kissed along her neck slowly working my way to her ear kissing around it a few times I paused my motions to whisper to her. "I love you Takara Hirukashita."
She let out a slight emotional sound and hugged me tightly to her not allowing any space between our bodies. I complied and laid myself carefully on her, as I did she began kissing my neck slowly causing me to shutter slightly. I closed my eyes enjoying the sensations she was stirring within me. Is this how I was making her feel when I did this?
She surprised me by flipping us over pinning me to her bed. I looked at her with wide eyes, wider than my eyes normally were, and she gave me a playful smile in return. Seems she wants to make this more fair. She kissed me gently as her hands slowly traced over my chest through my shirt. I slightly shivered at her actions feeling my body arch slightly into her tough. I hated to lose but letting her be in control felt like I was winning.
I could hear a faint breath of a giggle emerge from her as I arched into her, her fingers continuing to dance along my chest slowly. I tried to kiss her back wanting desperately to make clear just how badly I needed her. She smirked against my lips, she knew. I felt a slight growl emerge from my throat, only causing her to giggle more. She enjoyed my torture, making me completely compliant to her.
Tsuki took her time slowly kissing me, never increasing the intensity or deepening the kiss. I fruitlessly tried to change that but to no avail. She broke the kiss and slowly kissed down to my neck lightly nipping and licking it as she went stopping at the collar of my shirt. I slightly jerked and shuttered under her touch, arching more to her as she continued.
"Tsuki." I breathed wanting to feel more of her skin, her touch, her.
She slightly giggled and slid her hands down my chest to the base of my shirt causing me to slightly groan. She moved my shirt up slightly and lightly teased my lower abdomen with delicate touches. I clamped my mouth shut tightly to keep quiet. Her touches were making me lose all self-control. I closed my eyes feeling my pleasure increasing along with a slight familiar aching in my groin area. She continued her torture on my neck as her hands teased my stomach slowly.
I looked at her in desperation and seeming to take pity on me she leaned back enough to push my shirt up more. I took the opportunity and sat up enough to pull it off myself and kissed her demandingly. She let out a small gasp of surprise and kissed me back sliding her hands up my chest. I felt a small groan building and fought to keep it back. She broke the kiss and pulled her shirt over her head. I gave her a small shy smile, which she returned, and claimed her lips again.
I pushed her against the bed once more and shuttered feeling my chest against hers, of course her bra was in the way but it wouldn't be a problem for long. I ended our kiss and moved to a kneeling position over her so I could look at her exposed flesh letting my eyes drink her in slowly. She was wearing a sports style bra that was green with zebra print on it. It was quite cute on her; however I was displeased with how modest it was; it covered the entirety of her breasts. It came down about two inches on her abdomen and went roughly an inch above her breasts. I felt both happy and aroused as my eyes were more free to wonder over her form. I noticed she was slightly blushing as I looked her over, I smiled at this.
She let her eyes wonder over my exposed upper body and hesitantly reached a hand up to touch my chest but stopped short with an unsure and shy expression. I felt myself smile more as I gently took her hand and placed it against my chest giving her a small reassuring look. She smiled shyly and placed her other hand on my chest lightly running her fingers along the faint muscle tone I had. I closed my eyes shivering slightly at her touch. Each visible dip or line my torso possessed she traced slowly, seeming to try and memorize my body as I had been trying with hers.
I shivered with my breath slightly catching as she ran her fingers over my lower abdomen stopping just short of my waistline. I lightly grabbed her hands pushing them over her head as I leaned down careful to not touch my chest to hers as I apprehended her lips once more in a demanding kiss. She slightly shivered as I kissed her, fidgeting her arms trying to get free and slightly arched herself pushing her body against mine. I let out a small groan feeling her hips slightly rubbing against my clothed, aching member. She slightly gasped feeling it brushing against her since I was painfully erect.
I released her lips and kissed over her face slowly. I loved this woman beneath me, and for some reason she felt the same for me. How had I ended up so lucky? The odds I would ever have found love if it not for Tsuki were under 2%. I had never believed a god existed, but in the depths of my mind I was thanking any form of a god there was.
I returned to my slow torture of her neck and shoulders eventually moving down to kiss her exposed torso. Each time I licked a small area of flesh she shuttered and moaned under me. I felt quite the ego boost hearing her reactions to my light touches. I wanted more but I was unsure if this was more than she wanted.
Looking at her finally I whispered as I released her hands still hovering over her, "Tsuki...would you rather we stopped? I don't...have a condom." I admitted regretting I was not prepared for this.
She looked at me slightly dazed from the pleasure she was in and then gave me a perplexed look. She said nothing but instead pushed me back on the bed once more. She started a quick assault of kisses, lickss and nips down my chest working her way to my stomach slowly as her hands wondered over my upper body shamelessly. She stopped once she reached my stomach then trailed her tongue along every line of muscle I had working her way to my chest once more stopping only to lightly lick my nipples, causing me to shiver and moved up to my neck. "Does this answer your question?" She whispered to me as she lightly bit my neck.
I let out a small groan and shivered beneath her. "Y-Yes." I said a little uneven. Tsuki let out a small giggle and slowly pleased my neck as she moved her hands down to the button of my jeans undoing it. She pulled down the zipper and gave my jeans a small tug.
"Don't forget that I'm on birth control to regulate my menstrual cycle, it will prevent pregnancy as well." She whispered as she worked.
I looked at her slightly surprised but felt a small grin making its way to my face. There was a 99% chance she was enjoying this as much as me. I flipped us over pinning her arms down once more and she pouted at me when she realized what I did. I gave her a small grin, which she blushed at and moved kissing over the top of her bra and on her shoulders, arms and maneuvered myself so I could kiss her stomach, completely ignoring her bra. She shivered and slightly arched into me. I smiled slightly against her skin and moved my hands from restraining her to her jeans unfashioning them as well. I gave them a small tug and she picked up her hips slightly so I could remove them. I moved momentarily getting off the bed pulling off my jeans quickly leaving me only in my blue plaid boxers. I pulled Tsuki's jeans off the rest of the way and looked at her slowly. She was in matching green zebra print underwear; I noted the wet spot on them when she shifted her hips again. She leaned up slightly looking at me, her eyes traveling downward to the bulge in my boxers, causing her to blush slightly.
I got back on the bed leaning over her, a knee on each side of her hips and kissed her, she wrapped her arms around me as I slid my hands down her sides. I stopped their travels and moved them to her chest, lightly groping her through her bra. Tsuki gasped and moaned breaking the kiss at my actions. I moved to her neck sucking on it lightly and I slowly abused the spot with my tongue. She shifted her hips and made a sound of protest that she couldn't move, I felt a small smirk tugging at my lips. I shifted so I had a knee in-between her legs so she could move and she moved her free leg to wrap it slightly around my lower back pulling me closer. I groaned slightly in the kiss feeling my clothed member brush against her warmth, she moaned at the action arching more to me and pulling me closer.
She broke the kiss holding me close, "Please L..." She said breathlessly. I smiled slightly and gave her a quick kiss. I moved to let her up enough and she quickly removed her bra, her beautiful full breasts falling free from its evil constraints and laid back down on the bed. I felt my member twitch slightly as I gazed at her. She quickly pulled me back down to her in a heated kiss, both of us shuddering at the contact of our upper bodies pressing together. I moved my hands to her chest once more and groped her gently as we kissed, she moaned softly and pulled me closer with her leg around me. I let out a soft groan and she gasped as my member brushed her again. I took the opportunity and kissed her deeply, my nibble fingers exploring and pleasuring her breasts.
Her nipples were very sensitive I discovered. Each time I gave one of the bundle of nerves direct attention with my fingers she moaned lowly into my mouth and pulled me a little closer. I pulled away slightly from her and kissed quickly down her neck causing her to slightly shiver at my actions. When I reached her breasts I gave each one a light kiss then I softly nuzzled them earning a giggle from her. I grabbed her hands restraining her and licked around her breasts slowly giving the flesh light nips as I went carefully avoiding the nipple. She made a slight begging sound and I took one of the buds in my mouth gently suckling on it. She gasped in surprise and clamped her mouth shut doing everything she could to be quiet. I watched her slightly as I tortured the bud with my tongue and teeth, her leg's hold around me strengthened considerably.
She softly moaned my name and I shivered at the sound of it rolling off her tongue. It sounded better than I had imagined just this morning. I switched to her other breast and maneuvered her arms so I could restrain her by the wrists with one hand moving my now free hand to her breast I was just pleasing. I lightly pinched and twisted the sensitive nub while I tortured the other with my tongue. I glanced up at her again and was very pleased and content with the sight before me. Her eyes were closed in the bliss of pleasure she was experiencing, her face was slightly flushed and she was panting hard, her chest heaving under me. Tsuki's leg suddenly pulled me closer to her and I groaned against her breast as my hips ground into hers, I could faintly hear Tsuki's moan, I felt as if I had momentarily been knocked senseless. I froze my actions for a minute as I recovered from the pleasure of that movement.
No words could adequately describe how good that felt but I knew I wanted much more. I let her hands go and straitened myself indicating I wanted to be let up but I was not permitted to. Thinking quickly Tsuki removed her leg from me and pinned me beneath her, she held my arms down and was straddling my hips. I slightly bucked to her feeling her warmth against my pained erection; she slightly moaned and grinded her hips against mine. I gasped in pleasure and my eyes instantly shut in surprise.
She let out a slightly evil giggle as she repeated the action, causing herself to slightly moan again. I bit my lip and moaned out in my mouth. She leaned down, her chest brushing mine, and lightly licked my lips. I kissed her instantly engaging her in a fierce tongue war as she proceeded to grind me once more, slowly working her way to riding my clothed member. I could feel her juices through my boxers and it made my member slightly jerk knowing how incredibly wet she was. I helplessly bucked up to her meeting her hips movements as we kissed. She let my arms go to slide her hands up my chest; I took the newfound freedom of my arms and placed my hands on her hips gripping them tightly. I pulled her down harder on me as she rode me and she moaned out in the kiss, her pace becoming more erratic and desperate.
She made a needy sound as we continued our tongue war and I gripped her hips tighter, she pulled her mouth from mine and moaned my name with complete desperation. I used my underestimated strength to once again have her beneath me. She slightly gasped in surprise and shifted her hips in obvious need. I moved and kissed down her chest slowly stopping at the base of her underwear. She shuddered under the feel of my lips against her lower abdomen. I looked at her with a questioning look, she nodded lifting her hips for me and I pulled her underwear down removing them from her body quickly. I looked at her completely exposed form and felt a groan form from my throat.
She was breathtaking.
She looked at me then glared at my boxers. I removed them with a slight groan as my member gained its freedom. She looked at me and blushed seeing my exposed member. I had very little hair around my very aroused member, though this made sense, I didn't have much body hair. I looked at her again and slowly absorbed the sight of her bare skin before me. She had a small tussle of hair around her vulva and it was soaking wet with her juices.
She gave me a shy smile and I gave her a small sweet one. I moved and leaned over her slightly to where my face was over her stomach. I gave her feather light kisses working my way down slowly adding little licks and nips as I went. I paid great attention to her hips and the sensitive flesh above her womanhood. As I teased her with my mouth I slid my hands along her hips to her thighs lightly rubbing them as I went. She shivered under me and arched into my touches softly moaning my name. I worked my way to her thighs and I started sucking, licking and nipping them a little rougher than I had been doing to the rest of her body. She let out a slightly loud gasp and covered her mouth tightly with both hands. I felt myself smirk at her response, I was causing her this much pleasure.
I continued my assault on her thighs and she slightly spread her legs wider revealing more of herself to me. The smell of her arousal finally hit me and it sent a shiver through my body. She smelled so sweet with a slight bitterness, her body's natural fragrance, very slightly of musk and something else I wasn't able to identify. I licked my way up her thighs slowly, causing her to let out whimpering moans that were music to my ears and tortuous pleasure to my aching member. I stopped just short of tasting her and looked at her once form more. She was so stunning.
I looked at her swollen lower lips that gleamed with her juices and leaned forward enough to lightly lick them. She gasped behind her hands and her entire body jerked and simultaneously she spread her legs wider for me, I shivered at the taste of her on my tongue. She tasted better than she smelled. I leaned closer and slowly ran my tongue from her clit to her entrance. She writhed under my tongue's actions and I couldn't stop myself from indulging in her warmth. She tasted divine and I wanted more. I dragged my tongue along her outer lips slowly tracing her warmth. She made a slight sound as well as moved her hips in a begging gesture. I decided I wouldn't torture her further and slid my tongue to her warmth instantly going for her clit. She moaned behind her hands bucking her hips to me, I moved my hands to her hips holding them down as I continued my tongue's abuse on her clit before I moved a little lower. My tongue came to her entrance and I slowly slid my tongue inside it. She gasped and I could feel her breathing halt for a moment. She shuddered and moaned as I slowly started thrusting my tongue into her slowly. Each time my tongue entered her opening she gasped out, I started to quicken my pace and her breathing got erratic and shallow, she was close to her release. I increased my tongue's pace as I slowly massaged her hips with slights moans from myself making my tongue vibrate slightly. She finally reached her peak shuddering violently with her orgasm as she released into my greedy mouth.
I licked her juices up not letting a single drop go to waste. She was the best sweet I had ever tasted and to let her fluids be wasted was the worst crime committable. She lay there limp and panting as I licked her lower lips. She moaned softly still very aroused at my tongue's continued actions. This made me smirk in satisfaction as I continued to thrust my tongue into her until she got wet enough again for me to stop. I removed my tongue from her and she made a whimpering sound at the loss of the pleasure. I licked my lips slowly as I traced her womanhood with agile fingers causing her to shiver and moan softly. I teased her lips slowly and cupped her warmth using two fingers to tease her clit. She moaned and bucked to my hand as I pleasured her. My member throbbed painfully desperately wanting to be relieved.
I moved my fingers lower to her entrance and teased it slowly; she shivered at my touch and slightly bucked her hips to my hand. I slid one finger into her very slowly; she only made a slight face as she shifted her hips to get used to the sensation. After a moment she moved her hips slightly and I carefully moved my finger in and out of her. She slightly moaned and before long I was thrusting my finger into her warmth, I gradually added another finger then a third as she grew used to the sensation of something inside of her. Either she pleasured herself often or I had managed to arouse her enough for her to experience little pain. She began to pant desperately as she reached her peak once more and I pulled my fingers from her quickly replacing them with my tongue. She hadn't even had time to make a sound of protest as I thrust my tongue inside her working her closer to her next orgasm.
Not long after I switched my fingers for my tongue did she release and I greedily drank her juices again. I shivered and felt desperate for my own release as my member jerked in its silent protest for attention. She recovered from her orgasm faster than she had her first and looked at me with a seductive smile that made my mouth water and my body shiver in anticipation.
"Come here L." She softly purred to me and I quickly climbed on top of her pressing my body to hers, groaning at the contact. She felt wonderful.
Tsuki claimed my lips in a kiss, only making a slight face as she tasted the remains of her juices on my tongue and gripped me close. I balanced on my hands and knees over her, the need for my release making it too painful for me to balance solely on my knees. She bucked up into me slightly and I let out a needy groan in the kiss. Her hands lightly gripped my back in an almost painful way as she lightly dug her nails into my back. I slightly bucked into her at the action and she softly moaned as I groaned out in the kiss. I couldn't take much more.
She seemed to realize this and once more I found myself underneath her. Seems we both enjoy being in control while in bed, future encounters with her would be fun.
She broke the kiss and held my arms down as she kissed my neck slowly. At the first desperate sound I made she quickly released me as she worked her way lower. I shivered and moaned softly under her touch tilting my head back in pleasure. She stopped at my member and looked at it slowly, just as I had done with her. She lightly touched it and it jerked as I moaned at the touch. She gave it a light lick from the base to the tip. She stopped for a minute then licked the head of my member; I gasped and arched off the bed in surprise and pleasure. She paused for only a moment longer before she lightly cupped my balls massaging them while she licked my member holding my hips down slightly with her free hand. It twitched and jerked under her touch I clamped my lips tightly shut to keep from moaning out.
Without notice she took me into her mouth causing me to gasp in pleasure. She slowly teased the head with her tongue and I was lost in the sensation of her tongue teasing me. I felt my release fast approaching and I tried to warn her but all I could do was moan behind closed lips. My entire body shook with my release as she continued to suck on my member, slowly drinking my essence. I felt my body relax slightly as I finally had some relief; however I wasn't completely satisfied yet. Though I had just released I could feel my member quickly growing hard again still in its imprisonment of her mouth. I shivered as she continued to pleasure me as she had quickly getting me aroused once more.
I enjoyed that I was helpless and at her mercy, my body shivering in pleasure. I felt her mouth release my member and she pulled her hands away from me as well. For a moment I couldn't feel her touch and I slowly gained some sense back and opened my eyes to see her moving to straddle my hips. I blinked at her once and she gave me a slow smile. I watched her move to slide my member inside her and I made a small sound causing her to look at me. She gave me a smile and nodded, I gave her a small smile and my member jerked under her touch once more. I felt my member rubbing against her lips and I shivered in pleasure and anticipation. She let out a soft moan as she slowly slid me inside of her, stopping only for a moment before I felt a slight pressure inside of her, her hymen. She took a slow
breath relaxing herself and forced me all the way inside of her, I moaned out at the sensation quickly biting it off. She gasped and moaned in pleasure hastily cutting it off as well. From what she allowed to escape her I could detect no signs of pain.
"It didn't hurt." She answered my silent concern after a few silent moments of adjusting. I smiled at that and she slightly moved her hips adjusting further.
I bucked very slightly to her causing us both to moan softly. I gripped her hips when she started to ride me and helped her stay balanced. She braced herself with her hands on my chest, slightly digging her nails into my flesh as she did so. I grunted slightly at the feeling of her riding me, the exceeding pleasure I was feeling having her tight, wet walls around me, watching as her beautiful body rocked against mine, how her breasts bounced with each movement either of us made. She gasped in pleasure as she continued to ride me and I could quickly feel my release coming once more, I gripped her hips stopping her movements and she looked at me baffled.
"My turn." I voiced my husky demand and she nodded quickly.
I released my hold on her hips and she got off of me quickly, both of us making sounds of protest as we separated. She quickly lay on her back and I stood off the bed pulling her hips to me so her bottom was at the edge of the bed, her legs spread wide for me to take her. I teased her entrance with my member and pushed in her slowly, earning a sound of protest at my slow movements. She wrapped her legs around me trying to get me to move more and to go deeper. I let out a small grunt as I slowly started thrusting into her. She gasped in pleasure and covered her mouth tightly as she began to whimper and moan in pleasure, mostly staying quiet.
"Harder." She begged me trying to pull me deeper, I let out a grunt and quickened my pace. I could feel we were both close to our releases. She gasped as my thrusts became quicker with a clumsy roughness to them. I grunted out randomly feeling her walls slowly gripping my member, she softly moaned my name and bucked her hips to meet my thrusts still having her hands clamped over her mouth.
I felt my body shudder as her walls clenched around me at her orgasm, it being much stronger than her first two. She moaned my name behind her hands remaining justly quiet, thankfully the residence around us were fairly heavy sleepers. My thrusts became more desperate as her orgasm brought me closer to mine. I groaned out slightly, fighting to keep most of it held back, as I reached my peak. I felt my member jerking as it pumped out my essence into her.
We both panted staying as we were for some time, I felt my member return to its limp form and I slowly pulled out of her. Her legs dropped from me lazily making her body slightly jerk. I gave her a small tired smile and slowly she sat up. Once she got her bearings she stood and hugged me tightly, my body slightly shivered at the effort needed to return the embrace.
"I love you Panda." She whispered against my chest.
I felt myself smile widely, though tired, hearing her. "I love you Moonbeam." I said kissing her forehead gently.
We stood in silence holding each other for some time. I glanced at the clock and saw it was 3:46 am, just how long had we been fraternizing? I loosened my grip on her slightly and looked at her when she spoke.
"We should shower..." She said quietly. I nodded and she let me go shifting slightly as she moved to get her shower possessions. She peaked out into the hall and motioned for me to exit the room. I did so and quickly took my clothes with me to my room. I tossed them in my hamper and grabbed a fresh change of clothes along with a towel and my toothbrush. I went to the bathroom to see Tsuki already putting her things aside and she smiled at me as I closed and locked the door.
We got in the shower and embraced under the warm water, I smiled feeling her flesh against mine once more. The intimacy we shared was more than I could have imagined. Each second made my heart swell with happiness. I had one of the most intimate acts imaginable with someone that meant everything to me. I was a fool to think of leaving without her.
"Come with me...when I leave here." I whispered to her, I couldn't live without her. That was impossible, the chances I would survive a year were at 0%.
She looked at me and smiled, "I was already planning on it L." She kissed me gently causing me to smile more.
We quickly cleaned each other and got changed into fresh clothes, for her pajamas similar to the ones she had been wearing this morning and I was in my usual jeans and white long sleeved shirt. We erased any evidence we had been in the bathroom and I helped her bring her things back into her room after I put up my things. I helped her crack her window open to let the air freshener she had sprayed escape, she lit a few scented candles and left the door cracked as we moved to my room. She often forgot about leaving candles lit in her room so this was nothing new, along with the fact her door was cracked, an indication she was in my room, again nothing new.
She laid down in my bed under the covers and I laid down next to her hugging her close to me. I kissed her forehead and she cuddled to me with a sleepy sigh. I closed my eyes in contentment as I held her to me.
Tsuki mumbled something and quickly fell asleep in my arms holding to me tightly, a small smile on her face. I kissed her forehead letting my lips linger against her skin for a moment as I breathed in her scent. I love you. I smiled at the thought as sleep slowly claimed me. I knew I would sleep well this night, a panda bathed in the moonlight's warm embrace.
