Duan Xiu Zhi Pi
My Past V: Discovered (Li Jiangyu)
It's been two years since we started our relationship. We've managed only to love each other more. We're careful, no-one else knows, no-one else suspects. We only meet in the park as a couple, we're friends everywhere else.
...I know my Father would never approve. Not in a million years. Mitsuo knows this, too. We...avoid being around him entirely. If he even suspected us... ...I'd never see Mitsuo again.
Mitsuo and I are in our tree, Kiichi. I'm in Mitsuo's arms, he's leaning against the trunk. We've just been sitting like this, quietly and happily. It's...all we need.
Mitsuo gives me a kiss on the forehead, smiling, "I love you, Ja-"
"Y-YOU!"
...Oh Gods, no...
Mitsuo's eyes widen, he looks down at the base of Kiichi. I...I don't have to. "Oh, shit!"
My father is below us, furious. "GET YOUR HANDS OFF MY SON!"
"D-Dad..." I...I look down at him. "Th-This...isn't what it looks like-"
"I SAW HIM KISS YOU! JIANGYU! Get down here, now!" He screams. "Get away from that pervert! I-I'll help you get over this, you...still have hope, son. I know it."
"D-Dad...No..." I shake my head. "M-Mitsuo and I...We're not perverts. It's... ...Dad, I love him." The loud groan I hear is not a good sign...
"No, you don't! Jiangyu, I've always told you...It's lust. They make you think they love you, but it's just lust! Once he gets tired of you, he'll toss you aside! That's if you're lucky!" ...I hate how he believes this. I-I can't...even fathom where he heard all this.
"P-please, Mr. Li, hear us out-"
"No! Get away from my son!" My Dad shouts. "If I have to come up there, you'll regret it, pervert!"
"...Yama-chan, for your sake...I-I'm going to try...to reason with him at home," I whisper.
Mitsuo shakes his head. "Jan-chan, no!"
"DON'T CALL HIM JAN-CHAN!"
Mitsuo looks down. "I love him, Mr. Li. This isn't lust! I. Love. Janyuu. WO. AI. JIANGYU!"
My Father screams, he starts to climb up. I quickly jump down. "D-Dad! Don't! I'm down! I'm down! Leave...Leave Mitsuo alone, please!" I shout. Thankfully, he starts back down.
"Jiangyu...We'll deal with this at home. It's okay, I'll help you," my Father says. "You're still my son, you-"
"Jan-chan!" Mitsuo...Please, don't...
Mitsuo stands behind my Father. "Mr. Li, please, understand. This isn't some-" My Father turns and strikes him, hard in the gut. Mitsuo goes down, coughing.
"M-MITSUO!" My Father holds me back.
"Stay away from my son." My Father says. "Jiangyu, come with me."
"...Dad-"
"I said come with me! You'll be all right...Once he's out of your life, you'll be normal again. I'm not mad...At you." My Father turns with a glare to Mitsuo. He's still on the ground. "How...How dare you try to do this to my son!"
I try again to go to Mitsuo, my Father holds me back. He smacks me in the back of the head with his palm. "Aiya!"
"Jiangyu, this is for your own good. Believe me."
"J-Jan-chan..." Mitsuo looks up at me. "...It's okay...I'll...see you later..."
"The hell you will!" My Father snaps. He drags me off, I only put up so much of a fight. Once I saw Mitsuo get up, I...thought I could reason with him later at home.
I was wrong. So very, very wrong...
That was...just the start of things.
For weeks, my Father would actually wait by the school gate for me. He'd walk me home, he'd hurt Mitsuo if he tried to follow or defend our relationship. I...I have to put up with long lectures on "perverts," what they're "really like."
...I...I can't take much more of this. The lectures, the embarrassment are one thing...But...
He hurts Mitsuo. Mitsuo is covered in bruises and cuts from his encounters with my Father. He...He tells me every day at school, he won't give up. He said he'd die first...
...I'm afraid that he will die first.
I've switched schools. I didn't tell Mitsuo...I couldn't bring myself to. The last day I was at my old school, I kissed him for the last time. In a secluded part of the hall... ...I told him I'd always love him. I think...he knew that I wouldn't see him the next day.
It's been two months since that kiss. I...still think about him. Always.
It's the start of Winter break. I'm reading Three Kingdoms for winter homework.
"JAN!"
...Impossible... He...he wouldn't so stupid...
I look out the window of my apartment building, we live on the second floor. Overlooking the street...
...Mitsuo. He's waving up at me. "JAN! PLEASE! ...I-I need to see you!"
"...Is it that pervert?" ...My Father stands behind me, looking out the window. "I'll make sure he doesn't come back."
"W-Wait!"
"What?"
"...Let me, please," I say.
My Father gives me a stern look. "...If I see anything-"
"Dad, just...Let me handle him. Wait here... ...I'll make sure... ...he doesn't come back. Please, just...wait here."
"...All right. But if he comes back-"
"He won't." I go to the door, putting on my shoes. I go down to the sidewalk.
It's snowing. Mitsuo sees me walk out of the building. "JAN! Thank the Gods! I-I know...You've switched schools...Your father did it, right? I-I understand-"
"Mitsuo." I...I can't look up at him. I keep my head down, staring at the sidewalk. I don't want to see his face, not with what I'm about to do to him. "We...We can't see each other anymore. I'm sorry."
"J-Jan-chan?"
"...My Father won't allow it. He's...doing everything in his power to keep us apart. He's hurting you. I can't stand to watch it."
"J-Jan..." Mitsuo approaches me. "Please...Don't do this."
"...I'm sorry, Mitsuo. Please. Forget about me. Don't...Don't come back." I...I feel tears in my eyes. I do my best to hold them back.
Mitsuo...isn't holding his back. "Jan-chan! No! I-I love you, I-I don't care how much he hits me-"
"I do. Mitsuo...He'll never accept this and I can't fight him. He...He's won. I'm sorry. Please...Just forget about me. Go home. Don't...come back."
"J-Jan..." Mitsuo cries. "Jan, please, don't do this to me...I-I-"
"Goodbye. Mitsuo." I turn and go back into the building...I finally shed tears as I hear Mitsuo cry behind me. He calls my name again and again. Jan. Jiangyu. Jan-chan. Jiangyu-airen. ...I... just keep walking. ...If he comes back, I'll ignore him...For his own sake.
...I love you, Mitsuo. I love you so much, more than you can possibly imagine. That's why I can't see you anymore.
Please, forgive me...Yama-chan.
Ori's Notes:
...Sorry, Yamaki...
R.I.P
Sugar-High Yamaki
My Past I - My Past V
"ICE CREAM! ICE CREAM! ICE CREAM! Wheeeeeeeeee...!"
...And from Sugar-High Yamaki's ashes arises...Yamaki-Shitsuchou of Hypnos.
I will forever miss you, Sugar-High Yamaki...I shall now eat this giant bowl of ice cream in your honor!
Taiki's Notes:
I-I need a tissue.
This chapter made me so sad. Especially since Janyuu was the one who ended things! Ori, why? Why did you have to do that? That was harsh, even for you!
I can safely say that I hate Jiyan for this. I felt so bad for Yamaki!
-Taiki Matsuki
