Chapter 9- Take Me Away

Anakin's Pov.

I made to Padme's apartment. The storm had stopped just alittle while ago and it was just wet around the city. I walked through the puddles and entered the building. I headed for Padme's apartment and saw yellow tape on the door. I ripped it off and opened the door with the key card I had recieved from her when I fell in love. Love was a strange word to me now and I wasn't sure what it was anymore. I kinda despised love.. I hated it. I didn't understand what I felt for my Padawan and I couldn't know for sure what she felt for me. I needed the time to figure this out, There was so many reasons that Ahsoka would never feel the way I have been feeling and I was scared to admit it.

I closed the door behind me and sat on the couch. That was the first real moment when I cried for Padme. I wanted her here to help me figure this out, I needed her to help me get through this. I loved her so much... well I did love her... when I knew what love was or what it meant to love. I didn't want to be weak but it hurt. I was a mess and I needed to fix it. I had to support Ahsoka though this and being a mess wouldn't really help her.

I got up and walked over to the kitchen. I reached into the drawer and pulled out a wine bottle. I poured it into a glass and held it in my hand. I looked down at it and took a breath. I suddenly swallowed it down and put the cup on the counter. I was about to pour another glass when Padme appeared.

"Your supposed to be helping her" She whispered.

"I can't... I don't understand this madness anymore." I replied and filled up the glass.

"So what? your gonna just become a slave to that bottle, your gonna drink away your pain?" She asked.. there was a hint of annoyance in her voice and I thought her words over. I looked down at the glass in my hand.

"No, I'm not" I said putting the glass down. I put on my cloak and left the room. I left the building and ran my way to the temple. I shouldn't have went back there. It was time to move on and I was gonna be with Ahsoka for as long as I could. I felt myself feeling angry at myself for doing what I did. I wasn't gonna become a slave to alcohol.. not again. Padme helped me walk away from that and now Ahsoka was gonna be there to help me. I hoped.

I had been running for long until I saw the temple come into view was when I decided to slow down. I casually made it to the temple and all was quiet. I headed for the med bay once I got there and I walked into Ahsoka's quiet room. The lighting was dim and I sat in the chair in the corner of the room. I kinda felt the alcohol and every moment I stayed with Ahsoka made me start to feel something again. I watched Ahsoka sleep for an hour or so when a nurse came by and said it was time to leave. She said she'd give me a few minutes and left the room.

I walked over to my Padawan and put my hand on hers. "I can't admit this yet, But I love you, Snips... I hate seeing you like this and I need you here with me. I can't go through this anymore." I said and placed my lips over hers. I wasn't really sure what I was doing and I pulled away. I looked at her, realizing the alcohol was getting to me. I took off abruptly feeling like an idiot for what I did. It was wrong and I could get expelled for something so utterly stupid as that, I would never hurt Ahsoka like that. Not ever but I couldn't help but feel...love. I felt like I was falling in love all over again and I wasn't really sure what to do about it.

This entire situation was messed up.

(A/N) Kay so it was short but I have no more time to write for a bit so I'd like to thank all you reviwers. I will do m,y best to update when I can and to tell you the truth about this story... It's inspired by true events that happened in my own life. My life is just like this story but in Star Wars.

I am pleased to say that I will hopefully be starting a new story. It will also be based on true events. My life is a real adventure and I like writing it in Star wars view because I do love the clone wars and I do love writing. There really isn't anything I would rather do more than write.

Reviews will be greatly appreciated and everytime I see some more I will be purswaded into writing more. It might just take alittle time and I hope you can wait. oh and I'd like to thank the people who stayed with me through the beggining and I wish to see what you all have to say for this chapter... and of course. Be honest. :)