Chapter 9
Warning: This chapter has sexy Ross doing sexy things with Ali. There is no sex but there is a conversation of it and a little bit of touching. Hopefully it's not too much. My apologies if it is!
It was the day after Elizabeth came over. Last night when Ross came home, he explained to me that Verity and some guy named Captain Blamey was to meet here. Apparently, Blamey and his wife had got into a fight one day. She got in his face and attacked him. He pushed her off and she hit her head. She ended up dying and he paid for his crime of murdering his wife.
"Do you believe what Verity says about him to be true?" I had asked him that night.
"I don't know what to believe…" Ross mumbled out.
I bit my bottom lip, thinking for a couple of seconds before I decided on what to say to him.
"I think that you feel for her. You know what it's like to love someone and it's forbidden." I ran a hand over my arm, nervous of what to say next. "I'm not saying you pity her. I'm saying that you have an understanding and wish to ease her pain."
"Perhaps that's my reasoning." Ross responded and looked over to me. "Can we talk about our discussion in the study room?"
"Later tomorrow…I wish to go to bed." I said before standing up from the table.
He grabbed my hand and ran his thumb over it. I felt my heart sink and melt as he gazed up at me. Slowly he let go of my hand.
"I'm sorry, I should let you sleep." He stated.
"Can…I lay…." I stopped myself.
I hated sleeping alone in this house. I felt so frightened by the noises. I knew I was safe. I knew Ross was in the room next to me, but I still felt this way. Because I felt like this, I have been getting little sleep.
"You wish to lay where?" He asked and stood up.
"No, never mind." I looked down at the ground. "I should go. Goodnight."
I quickly fled to my bedroom before he could speak to me. Why am I so stupid? How could I let myself even think about sleeping with him?
I laid in my bed that night, not being able to stop cursing at myself. I heard a knock on my bedroom door. Sitting up in my bed, I called out to whoever it was.
"Yes?"
"It's me…" Ross said softly. "May I come in?"
I covered myself with the blanket. I wasn't wearing anything under my night dress. The night coldness had made my body react to it. In other words, my nipples were poking up under my night dress.
He came in and I could tell he was trying to avoid looking at me, in case if I wasn't decent.
"Forgive me if I woke you…I just can't stop wondering what you wanted." He said as if he was unsure of himself.
"Ross, it's nothing." I said and then sighed. "Just, I haven't slept well. I was wondering if it was because I am scared of the noises. Back in my world, I have a cat to cuddle with. Here I just have myself."
Ross looked at me as I spoke about having myself. He shook his head and made his way over to me. He sat on my bed and lightly touched my cheek.
"You don't just have yourself. You have me." He spoke and I felt like I believed him.
"How do I have you when you love another woman?" I asked but then I covered my mouth with my hand. "I'm sorry…" I mumbled against my hand.
"I know what you must think of me. Loving one woman who I can't have and talking to another like…" He slowly took my chin into his hand. "This…"
"Please don't…" I begged.
Ross removed his hand from my face. Unable to decide on something, he just looked away from me.
"It's not that I don't have feelings for you, Ross." I began to talk. "I'm just scared because you could hurt me at the snap of your fingers. I've never loved someone like this and I don't know if I'd survive a heartbreak. When you didn't return that one night, I feared the worst. I felt sick and frightened. I never want to feel that way again."
"You won't have to." He said and scooted closer to me.
"Ross, please…it's late." I tried to make an excuse.
I was terrified of how much this man meant to me. I was too afraid to lose him. What if he and I didn't work out? Where would I go? Who would I be with?
"Come to bed with me…" His whispered but I shook my head.
"You and I both know what that would lead to." I replied but Ross just chuckled.
"I promise you that it won't." Ross placed his forehead on my own. "I just would like to sleep next to you. I won't kiss you or touch you. Not unless you tell me."
I started to give in to his tempting words. Oh what the hell, it was only a dream right? I keep forgetting about that.
"Alright, I'll sleep with you." I agreed and stood up from my bed.
Ross stood up as well and held out his hand for me to take. I trust that he wouldn't do anything unless he had my consent to. Frankly, I wouldn't mind if he did kiss me, but I wasn't going to admit that.
We made it to his bedroom and he let go of my hand so I could get on the other side. Once he closed the door, he joined me in his bed. I could tell by his breathing that he was nervous.
"Ross, don't be nervous. I trust you." I assured him and laid my head on the pillow.
He laid on his side and we both stared at each other in the darkness. My heart pounded hard and fast as we watched each other. I wondered what he was thinking.
"Penny for your thoughts?" Ross asked.
I shook my head. "Just thinking about how much time I have left with you until I go back."
"Well, you said that the last time you were here, a week had gone by in this world. Since you came back it has only been…" He started to count. "Eleven days. So a week and four days."
"Yes, and it was only one hour that went by. So, it's been one hour and some minutes in my world." I rubbed my head as I tried to do the math. "Hopefully I will be sleeping the hours I normally sleep."
"Which are…?" Ross asked.
"Around eight hours." I answered.
"So you have six or seven more weeks with me." Ross stated and I moved closer to him.
"Yeah, something like that." I ran my hand over his jawline. "Why must you be so ridiculously handsome?" I teased and he chuckled.
"Why must you be so talkative why I am trying to sleep." He stated simply as he took my hand, kissing it.
"Because, now I'm no longer tired." I answered back.
"I can make you tired." Ross said with a big smirk.
I couldn't help but find it adorable how he and I teased each other. Shaking my head, I turned around so I could be the little spoon.
"Do you know what spooning is?" I asked
"I have never heard of this term before." Ross answered.
"It's another way of saying cuddling. You would be up behind me, your arm around me like this." I took his arm and wrapped it on top of my waist. "And I'd be this close to you…" I scooted into his body, molding with him.
I heard his breathing shift a bit. Maybe I was being too much?
"Is this too much?" I asked.
He tugged me closer to him, if possible. "No…" He breathed against my neck. "I won't lie, you are very tempting. I wish to make love to you right now, but I won't."
"Make love?" I asked and smiled at the words he used. "Perhaps we can another time, Ross. Right now I don't feel like losing my virginity."
There was a long pause before Ross returned words. "You're a virgin?"
"Yes…" I said very confusingly.
"I'm sorry, I had no idea." I could tell he was frowning.
"Don't worry, I never expected you to be one." I admitted and shifted in his hold. "Goodnight, Ross…" I said and I felt him smile.
"Goodnight."
It was amazing when I woke up to him. Ross Poldark's sleeping face is very angelic. He barely snores; it's more like a breathing noise.
I was downstairs, in my regular dress. I was making food for our guests with Demelza. She had this big grin on her face like she knew a secret.
"What?" I asked her.
"I went upstairs this mornin'. I was goin' to go to yer room to wake ye and the door was open. You weren' in there." She stated.
I felt my cheeks flush red. "Oh yeah?"
"Where did ye sleep last night?" She asked and gave me a light nudge.
I kept quiet and then let a huge grin settle on my face. I was about to tell her when I heard Ross coming down the stairs. His hair was a bit messy, like always. He was buttoning up his vest and smiled towards me.
I gave a shy smile back at him before looking over at Demelza. She and I started to giggle like teenage girls. Ross made his way over to me and lightly touched my waist.
"May I ask what is so funny?" He asked.
"It's a girl thing. You wouldn't understand." I said and stuck my tongue out at him playfully.
"Careful…" He warned and then whispered into my ear so only I could hear. "I'll make sure that tongue of yours is punished if you do that again."
I shivered and turned my head slightly to look at him. I poked my tongue out of my mouth, just very slightly. I was testing the waters, I know.
He gave me this cocky look that made me almost kneel before him. Ross Poldark was a man of power and he knew he had some command over me. He knew how to use it to his advantage too.
"I'll be right back." Demelza said as she made her way out of the house.
I had no idea where she was going but I knew that I was alone with tall, smoldering, and handsome. I turned to look at what Ross was doing and he smiled down at me.
"You are really pushing me. Lucky for you…I won't punish you." Ross said in his dark tone.
"Maybe you should, so I could learn my lesson…Sir." I said and bumped his hip with my booty.
His hands were on my waist in an instant. I immediately went back to thinking about when he woke up this morning.
I was staring at him, admiring how beautiful he looked. He shifted a bit and I saw something poking up from his bedding. I had no idea what it was until I poked at it. Morning wood, it was morning wood.
I took a glance at the tent he was pitching. When I poked it, it didn't feel all that hard. I was going to lightly touch it again, out of curiosity of course, until I heard a light chuckle.
I glanced up and met the smoldering eyes of Ross looking at me. I immediately blushed and hid my face in his chest. I regretted my curiosity.
"It's alright, I'm not mad at you. I found it rather amusing." He admitted. "Have you never touched or seen one before?"
"I've saw one, not in real life. I've seen drawings and pictures, like in school when they were teaching us about sex and stuff. I've just recently lost my touching a penis virginity." I mumbled into his chest.
"I have never woken up to someone touching or examining it." He chuckled out before kissing the top of my head. "I won't make you do anything that you're not ready to do. If you wish to become friends with it then I can set up a date for you two to get friendly." Ross was teasing me of course.
"Jerk…" I muttered and looked up at him. "I didn't know what it was at first."
"I had an idea." Ross thought for a moment. "I have to tell you something."
I tilted my head a bit, inching closer because I knew he wanted to be serious.
"I have sex in two ways. One, I make love. The other…I get this hunger inside." He contemplated on his words a bit.
"I know what you mean." I said. "I mean, I have an idea of what you mean. I've read erotic books with that kind of stuff."
He rolled on top of me and I looked up at him, ready for what he wanted to do. Damn him.
"I have this urge inside to fuck you until you can't walk anymore. I want to spank your ass, pleasure you until your heart's content, taste you…and…" He swallowed. "I want to make you mine, only mine."
My heart was beating out a samba. I felt like I was melting under his gaze and his words. How could he have so much effect over me?
"I want you to do all those things." I parted my lips. "Not right now, okay? I'm not ready…"
It seemed like he just came out of his own little world, seeing what position we were in. As he got off of me, I felt his morning wood brush against my leg. Yep, that really almost had me get on top of him.
"Where did you go?" Ross whispered into my ear as he brushed his lips against the rim.
"Sorry, I was lost in my memories of this morning." I said and slightly turned my head.
He smiled at me before he removed his hands that were on my waist. "I need to go now. I'm going to be busy today. I'll speak later with you." Ross walked over to his study room and slowly shut the door. I guess that was the end of our sexual adventure for now.
"Captain Poldark, most generous to have us meet here. In view of your concerns…" Blamey said as he walked into the dining room.
"Verity trusts you, I trust Verity." Ross replied with a serious look.
"She is my redemption. You'll have no cause to regret it." Blamey looked over to Verity, admiring her face.
"I believe you." Ross said and looked over at me.
I came up to the three, Verity, Ross, and Blamey, offering each of them a drink. They all declined politely.
"I see that dress fits you well, Ali." Verity said with a sweet smile.
"Thank you…" I said with a bashful smile. "I promise I will pay you back."
"No need…think of the dresses and other things as gifts." She said and placed a hand on my shoulder.
"I'm sorry; I do not believe we have met." Blamey said and bowed. "I am Captain Blamey."
I curtsied before speaking. "I am Alianna Shields."
He smiled very kindly at me. "I wish you two the best."
"Oh, Sir-" I began to speak.
"We thank you for your wish. Now, excuse us." Ross said and took me by the back of my waist, leading me out of the room.
"You basically just said we are together." I whispered to Ross.
"I didn't want you to speak with him anymore. I don't know…something doesn't feel right. Maybe I shouldn't have them meet here anymore." Ross frowned as he started to think.
I tapped his forehead with my index finger. "Let the two lovers love each other. I would hate it if someone didn't approve of us and we couldn't speak or see each other."
I could tell that Ross wanted to smile. I leaned up and kissed his jaw line.
"We need to get to work if we want the house to be in top shape." I reminded him.
Ross was with Jimmy, helping him unload the hay. I was drying laundry and Demelza was out picking flowers, I think. Prudie and Jud, I had no idea where and what they were doing.
I forgot to ask Ross what he wanted for super tonight. It slipped my mind. I know I'm not his maid, but I wanted to care for him as much as I could.
I walked over to where I thought Ross and Jimmy were but Ross wasn't there. I looked at Jimmy and frowned at him.
"Ross is with two ladies." He answered my unspoken question.
"What?" I asked and walked over to where Jimmy pointed.
He was right. Ross was talking to an older woman, the mother I presume, and her daughter. I think that the mother was trying to set up a date with Ross. I know he wouldn't be too harsh, but I also didn't want him to agree on coming over for tea. I don't know what they did in the olden days. I was just guessing.
I made my way over to Ross and the two women. I had no idea what I was going to say to explain my reasons to interrupt them. Ross turned to me, a look of relief showing on his face. The two women were already watching me.
"This must be the woman you adopted." The older woman said.
"I have adopted no one." Ross stated and moved over to stand next to me. "This is Alianna Shields." He pointed in the direction behind them. "That woman's name is Demelza. She is the one you've probably heard about. Demelza is my kitchen maid."
"And who is this lady to you?" The younger one asked.
"She is a dear friend of mine. I have offered her a place to stay." Ross explained.
I added more to his explanation. "My parents have passed away. I ended up here in Cornwall and I had nowhere else to go. Ross found me and took me in."
"Well, you're taking everyone in." The older woman said with a judging tone. "Since you are not courting her, I do not see why she has interrupted our conversation."
"Mother please, it's fine. She probably just wanted to see if Ross needed something." The younger one said.
I saw an invisible string pop over Ross's head, like it was his last straw. He looked irritated. Kindly he started to kiss the women's hands.
"I'm sorry, I must leave now. I have duties to attend to." Ross said and turned to leave.
"Oh please, you must come over for tea." The older woman announced.
I knew it!
"My apologies but I am afraid that you would be wasting your time." He said with a slight bow, taking my arm around his and walking me up to the house.
"Well, aren't you a gentleman." I teased.
"I have no interest in her daughter. She approached me at the ball, I declined then too." Ross said and removed his arm on mine. "I really do have duties to attend to though. I will speak with you later." He kissed my hand and smiled warmly at me. "Don't work too hard…I would like you to save your energy for tonight so you can talk my ears off in bed."
I lightly slapped his arm. "Jerk…" I mumbled with a smile.
A/N: I hope that it wasn't too out of character…
