Chapter nine "I believe in nothing but the beating of our hearts. I believe in nothing One hundred suns until we part." (100 Suns; 30 Seconds to Mars)
Matt turned this on speaker, staring directly at me. "Jon Good is fucking right, Matt. I'm not afraid to go down there and kick your ass."
Matt chuckles. "So many guys would do the same to you right now, Jon. So many people actually who know you and Violet's history. So don't even fucking start, Jonathan."
"He changed," I pled. "Matt, please understand."
Matt shook his head. "I can't understand, Violet."
"Why," I shrieked out. "Why can't you get it?"
"Because god dammit, I like you still!" I stood in silence. I took the phone from Matt's hands. It wasn't hard since he loosen the grip. I turn Jon off speaker and ran upstairs. I slammed the door shut and locked it. The last thing I wanted was Matt.
"Violet," Jon made sure I was still there. "Are you okay?"
"No," I said. "I feel numb, Jon."
Jon took a deep breath. "I'm sorry, Violet. I'm sorry I can't be there right now." I sniffed, trying not to cry. "Don't do this to me."
"I just…" I started to cry. "I just really wish it was easier."
"Me too, Vi, me too. Trust me; I want to show you off to everyone." I couldn't stop crying. "Violet," he chokes on his words. "Please, you're making this harder."
"I just want you to be here. I've never felt more alone. I'm not clicking with it like I used to. I want to be back there." I lay down on the bed. "I just want you here, now."
"I can't do that."
"I know," silence took over for a little bit. It was just me crying.
"I'll try. I'll come down there before we have to leave for the weekend. Maybe we can have you stay with Sam instead…"
"You really would…"
"My girl needs me right now." I smiled. "I'm coming down to check on you. I'll take Colby and Joe with me. Hell, Joe gets to see his family for a little bit. I'll call you in the morning, okay? Stay strong."
"I love you," I choked out.
"I love you, too, Violet." He hung up on me. I heard a knock on the door.
I dragged myself out of the bed when Matt knocked a few times. I unlocked the door. "Come on," I said. I lay back on the bed as Matt came in.
He sat near me. "I-I just need to understand."
"I need you to understand a couple things." Matt nods. "You don't tell anyone what has been said in this house. I've exposed a lot to you, Matt."
"Orton, I won't tell anyone about you and Jon. I just need to understand why."
I sat up. "Can you bear with me?" He nods. "I and Jon were engaged. We were going to get married. Jon left me, thinking I went through a drug overdosed, not a suicide attempt." I look down. "I cheated on Colby during the time we dated."
"What…?"
"With Jon," I look at Matt. "You're the only one who knows this outside of Colby, Joe, and Jon. I think Jon may have told Sam and our friend, Chrissy, but that's it." I took a breath in. "I just love Jon so much, I risked anything."
"So, you guys are together. Does Randy know?" I shook my head. "You're scared." I nodded. "Well, you're like 30. He can't control for that much longer."
"It's not that," I spoke up. "It's just our relationship. I don't want to lose Randy's relationship because I'm with Jon. Randy's the only family member left in my life. The only other great relationship I had was with my grandfather, and he's gone. My father and I will never be on nice terms. I rarely see my mother or my brother… or my sister. No one really talks to me unless it's about me being on WWE. Randy just has always been on my side always… Even when we were younger. Randy was always the supportive older brother. To lose him will be the worse."
"I'm sorry," Matt said. I began to yawn. "I'll let you sleep, Orton."
"Thanks, see you in the morning, Matt."
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What woke me up was someone's arms wrapped around me. I took their hand, hoping it was who it was. "Jon?"
"Told you I was coming," I smiled as he kissed my head. "It's still early you can fall asleep."
I turn to him. "I don't want to." He chuckles. "Jon…"
"I'm here now; you're safe." He kisses the top of my head. "You want to get up? Colby's downstairs. Joe went to see his daughter and fiancé." I open my eyes finally and nod. "Get change and meet me down there. Matt told me training isn't until later on tonight."
Jon and I got up. Before he left, I lean in to kiss him. He chuckles and kisses me. "This proves we can't be separate for a second." Jon smiles and leaves the room. I took a quick shower, did my hair and make up, and threw on Escape the Fate shirt and black skinny jeans.
I went downstairs to see Jon on the phone. Colby and Matt were at the table talking. Jon started speaking to the other person on the phone. "Sami? Yeah, it's Mox."
I chuckled. Colby looks over. He smiles. "I love it how they still call him Moxley."
I laughed. "It's the CZW gang. They love it. It's fun when we go to visit-"
"Yeah, do you at all have an extra room," Matt ducked down, hearing this conversation. "I'm going to stay in Florida for a while with Vi." There was a pause. "Well, I mean, we could share a room. I won't be there like everyday. I would be there on Wednesday and Thursday and leave Friday. Violet would be there until Monday." Another pause. "Alright, you're always the best. I'll give you Matt's address, so you can help us with Vi's shit. Alright, see you soon."
Jon put his phone in his back pocket. "You guys don't need to do this." Matt spoke up.
"I want to do this." Jon said. "Last night wasn't your best night, wasn't it, Matt?" He bit his lip. "I'm doing what's right for my girlfriend." Remember how I mentioned Jon can be overprotected? Today showed it. Colby pulled my arm to go outside with him. He whispered something to Jon, and Jon nodded.
We walked around corner. "There's a deli here. We can grab something to eat and talk. I just want to talk to you, Vi." I nodded as we got to the place. We order our food and sat down. "Jon's being way too overprotective with you, Violet."
A/N: So I had to post this to answer DeeMarie426's review. There's one reason really why Violet wants it to be kept hidden. Well, hope you guys are loving.
