The next morning when Dr Phillips entered Nikki's room early she just glanced up at him then looked back at the curtains she was staring at.
"Have you slept Nikki?" he asked as he walked over to the drip but she didn't reply "Nikki?"
"Yes?"
"Have you slept?"
"A bit" came another short reply
"Harry is here to see you"
"Tell him to piss off" Nikki spat "and that I don't want to see him"
"Nikki please" came a voice from behind her and Nikki sighed. Turning slightly she saw Harry standing inside the doorway with a sad look on his face "I'm sorry"
"No you're not" Nikki told him as she turned her back on him again "You are meant to be my best friend but you wont help me and tell me what the hell happened to me now either tell me or you can piss off"
"Nikki" Harry sighed as he walked over to the bed and sat on the chair Nikki had her back to, he didn't even attempt to touch her "Have you remembered anything else?"
"I.." Nikki paused "I..don't know if it's what happened but last night I dreamt…that there was a man, and a small room but that was it"
Harry nodded from behind Nikki even though she couldn't see. He turned around to make sure Dr Phillips had gone then turned back to Nikki who still had her back to him.
"Okay I'll tell you but I was told not to by Dr Phillips"
"Why?" Nikki asked quietly
"He said it may do more harm than good and you should remember on your own" Harry replied as he leant forward in the chair
"Please help me Harry" Nikki sobbed and Harry's heart broke again as he heard this. Making a split second decision he started talking.
"Nikki you were kidnapped from outside of your car on the way to the crime scene you were called to" Harry started and looked down at his hands "You were gone for just over four days, in which time you were beaten and" he paused "raped"
A sob came from the bed and he looked up to see Nikki's fragile body shaking as she cried. He reached over to grasp her hand in his but she flinched away.
"Don't touch me" she hissed as she wiped her face but more tears slipped from her eyes "Just..don't touch me"
"Nikki I'm sorry…" Harry started and Nikki shook her head
"It wasn't your fault" she whispered and gave him a sad smile as she turned over in the bed to face him "Can you stay with me please Harry?"
Harry nodded and made no attempt to reach for her, content at the moment to just sit with her.
"Were there others?" Nikki asked after a few seconds of silence "Other women I mean?"
"Yes, over the past few months, none were as lucky as you though"
Nikki drew in a sharp breath and Harry looked away from her
"I..we nearly lost you Nikki" he whispered and had to hold back his tears at the thought, he didn't want Nikki thinking he was getting more emotional than necessary "I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't…"
"Who would you tease at the lab?" Nikki asked, a small sad smile on her face, she felt at ease with Harry now that he had admitted what had happened.
"No seriously Nikki I don't know what I would do without you" Harry told her seriously and Nikki felt her eyes glazing over with tears "I'm sorry I didn't mean to make…"
"It's okay Harry" Nikki whispered "I'm sorry I told you to piss off"
"That's alright" Harry smiled "I think you were entitled to really, I was a bit of an arse yesterday"
"Then we're even don't you think?" Nikki asked and Harry nodded "Where's Leo?"
Harry just shrugged
"Work probably"
"What's happened between you two?" Nikki enquired and Harry started to wonder if she was only talking like this to take her mind off what happened.
"We had an argument on the way home from the hospital yesterday, I shouted at him he shouted at me, I got out of the car miles from the lab and just went home" Harry answered as Nikki looked surprised "I haven't talked to him since"
"What did you argue about?" Nikki asked
"Nikki are you sure you're okay?" Harry interrupted her question thoroughly confused "I mean women who have been in your position should be…"
"Screaming? Crying? Being inconsolable?" Nikki asked scathingly and shook her head "To be honest I think it will all sink in properly when…if I can remember what happened for myself so I'm just enjoying not being able to remember it" Nikki replied "If I do can I…can you…"
"Can I what Nikki?" Harry asked
"Can you help me when I remember it?" she enquired quietly "Help me get through it because you're right Harry I think I will be inconsolable and need some sort of help..not psychiatry or some psychologist who think she knows me, but a friend"
"Of course I will Nikki" Harry laughed quietly despite the lump in his throat "I'll always be there for you even if you call me in the middle of the night and demand that I come to you just for a cuddle I'll be there"
Nikki giggled tearfully as he said this and she tentatively reached out and entwined Harry's hand with her own, suddenly aware at how perfectly they fitted together.
Sorry I haven't uploaded in a while..had my Chemistry test yesterday...ha! How much have I failed it? lol! Anyway hope you enjoyed this chapter...will be more angst next chapter I think. :D
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