In the end I accepted the fact that Haruka didn't want to send me a response. I really wanted to know what color of dress to wear but now I don't even know if he is still my partner. Since I have to go there anyway I will ask him about it. Maybe I read too much in what he said and he backed off surprised. It is not like I have feelings for him or anything but my chest still hurts. He is only a friend but I was so happy when he asked me to be his partner. It never crossed my mind that things will end up like this. I should have only said 'yes' and nothing more. My bad mouth is always making me lose things.
Nana arranged carefully the edge of the dress. The red material rested very nicely over my thighs. I feel nervous. It is my first time wearing a tight dress. In the beginning I had second thoughts about it but after I put it on, I liked it. I don't have breasts but it makes my middle look very thin. The color is somehow making me shine. Until now I preferred to wear white, blue or black when it came to dresses. I have no confidence in the way my body looks. Father also said that there are even more beautiful women out there so the competition is tight.
I sat on the chair and let Nana play a little with my hair. She carefully brushed it two times then looked at it from many angles. Before she began to dress me I told her to cut it. Her eyes are teary because of it. It cannot be helped. My hair is just too long and I want a change. Ever since I was little I had long hair and now I want something new. She is supposed to cut it until it rests above my shoulders. It is not that hard but since she is used with my long hair now is a problem for her. I smiled warmly at her. She looked at my reflection and nodded. There is no reason to be scared of it. My hair will grow very fast. Before she knows it, it will once again reach my knees. She took the scissors and with one fast movement the hair fell on the floor. Suddenly my head feels so light. It is something new. This girl from the mirror looks prettier. Her face is brighter.
Nana turned my chair to look better at my face. Her fingers raised my chin and she looked all over me. Some tears appeared in her eyes as she nodded. After all I look better with short hair than long. She caressed my cheeks. Nana has been like a mother for me. She helped me walk, speak and enjoy life although I was kept in the house. She taught me many things about the vampire society and what I represent in it. Nana made my life look important although I never knew what living your life really meant. I had her next to me and it was enough at that time. Now I need more than a mother's love. I want a man to love me and protect me from the hardships of life. Nana grabbed once again the scissors to make my bangs shorter. Even though I have no partner I want to be beautiful this night. I want people to see me not smell my delicious blood. Maybe I will make Haruka regret that he changed his mind. Nana nodded one more time before beginning to gather the hair from the floor. She is such a hard worker. When I go to school in the day she waits for me with food and asks me how my day was. I really love Nana.
I stood up from the chair and walked to my desk. This desk is important for two reasons: 1. I have a picture with Akira-sensei; 2. Letters from Haruka. These three things are as important as my own life. This is the first time I have something this important. I pulled the drawer revealing a gross book. My fingers brushed it carefully. There was no day in which I didn't look at them. My two most important men left me only this. I put the book on the desk and opened it at page 246. The first letter that Haruka sent me is right here. 'Please be my partner on that day. K.H.' I really wanted to but you didn't say a word since then. It is a shame. This was a chance for us to grow even closer but maybe it is better like this. You are closer to that woman than me. It destroys me when I think it over. Why did she have to give her disgusting blood to him? Haruka is my most important man right now. I don't want to think about them being together. From what I heard Rido has no intentions in marrying her and she hates him from the bottom of her heart. Which means that there could be something between them… Haruka… MY fangs grew out of the sudden. I put my fingers on my neck. My fangs want to badly to pierce that white and strong neck of his. I thirst after his blood. It is so wrong to want his blood but I cannot stop this anymore. I think more often about wanting to taste him. I want his blood to boil inside me. Ah… I closed the book and put it back in the drawer.
My feet entered into the yellow stilettoes. They are kind of high but I will try my best to not fall in front of others. Since I am not that tall I need heels. I rested my hand on the wall for support. It is harder than I thought. Feels like my feet are made out of stone and I cannot control them at all. How can models and actresses walk in these things? I made up my mind about wearing them but I need more than will to actually do it. Sigh…
Mother stopped in front of me and smiled. Her eyes are glistening. She is also amused by my trembling legs and way of hugging the wall. She reached me with her hand. I grabbed it and slowly walked away from the wall. With my mother's support it is easier to walk. She kept tight my hand and waited for each of my steps. I licked my lips with satisfaction when I finally stopped trembling and could walk properly.
Father was in front of the door arranging his jacket. He turned and saw me. For a second his eyes narrowed as he saw my short hair. If I think a little about it father is the reason I had my hair long. He said that women should differ from men in all ways.
"Isn't she beautiful?" Mother asked him. He turned and walked outside. "He just doesn't want to admit it." Mather panted my shoulder. 'You are beautiful my child, but there are even more beautiful women.' I know that but today I feel more beautiful than ever. I see myself as a true beauty.
"I am the pureblood princess, right? I have to be beautiful," I said quietly. Mother is unusually nice. She hardly ever cares about me and never bothers to protect me. I know that she does not want to fight with father but she could at least come to me and speak with me from time to time…
We walked outside the house. My feet are getting used to the feeling of being above the earth. With very slow movements I climbed down the stairs. If I walk like this the party will be over by the time I get there. Father sighed and grabbed my middle. Mother made us space as he took me bridal style and put me inside the car. It felt unreal. Father never did something like this before. Not even when I was a baby. I am happy to be carried by father.
The car started moving. My legs are starting to tremble again. Soon I will meet up with Haruka and he might be there with another woman. He will enjoy the night together with her in front of me. Bangs covered my eyes as I clenched my fists over my knees. Haruka is my best friend so I should be happy for him but I just cannot do that. Why? He is such a great guy. He…Haruka deserves the best woman in the world. I should support him yet I pray so that he is alone. Why am I like this? Best friends support each other in such moments. I know that but it is frustrating! He was right next to me three weeks ago and now he is next to another woman. Why do you care? You will still be friends. But what if we won't?! What will I do if he were to push me away? That letter is the beginning of our end. I should have never asked anything. Wrong. You are scared that he was playing with you and you feel for it. Yeah… I am scared that it was a game from the beginning. You are a child. I know… You don't have what to speak about. It is true. I only bad mouth him and he smiles back. He rarely spoke. Friends are not affected about other women. But I am because Haruka is an important friend I don't want to lose. What does it have to do with other women? I don't know. But my chest hurts when I think about him holding another woman. I bit my lower lip. It is a sin to betray a friend. I know. Wouldn't it have been better to be kept in the house forever? You would have never known what betrayalor happiness is. Just like a little doll. Yes. It would have been great. I am scared of facing reality. I don't want to get hurt.
"Juri, we need to get out of the car," mother put her warm hand on my bare shoulder. I was feeling as if I was brought back from darkness. Mum was looking surprised at me. It was as if they spoke with me the whole time but I didn't hear them. Did they? Did I lose something important?
"Yeah…" I nodded and slowly stepped down. It doesn't feel strange anymore. I can walk on my heels now. Why? I am so discouraged yet I walk so freely. After I climb these stairs my real nightmare will wait for me.
My heart is about to burst out. It beats so fast and irregular. It feels like it will stop after I enter inside the restaurant. I need to calm down. What if he is with another woman? Even so, I need to calm down. Everyone can hear my loud heart. My hair is short now. If he is with another woman and he happens to see me then maybe he won't recognize me. You think so? No, but there is nothing else better to think of. This is the only way I can protect myself. I licked my lips before stepping inside the palace like restaurant.
The place is filled with vampires. They drink and have a great time while speaking about politics. Some teenagers are dancing while others are flirting. Everyone seems to be happy doing whatever they want. It is like they don't care that this is a wedding party. The bride and groom should be the center of attraction but everyone makes use of this occasion to meet and chatter.
While mother and father walked to Himika's parents I went to her. She is the one who needs to be congratulated. Her long and golden dress looks stunning on her. Himika is indeed a beautiful woman. No matter how I look at her she is perfect. Her black hair is nicely caught in a ponytail.
"You are a real beauty." I said approaching her.
Her eyes got big as she saw me. It has been a while since the last time we met so she is kind of surprised to see me. "Juri…" She stepped in front of me putting her palm over my cheek. "Where have you been? I tried calling you but everyone from your house said that you are currently away." Her voice is trembling.
"Sorry for making you worry. I wasn't gone anywhere. Unlike you I refused to marry a stranger so I was punished for that."
"Did he hit you?" her voice got higher.
"Baka. Of course he didn't. I was obliged to stay in my room." She smiled. I really made her worry. "Congratulations. You are a married woman now."
She blushed. "Yeah… Have you met Hitoshi?" She looked at her husband. He was staying a little behind, watching us. His amber eyes are calm. "Come here and meet my best friend." She said flapping her hand.
He came to us and made a deep bow. "It is a pleasure to meet you, pureblood princess Juri-sama."
"Don't treat her like some kind of celebrity," she shouted jealous. I giggled. It was unexpected what he did just now. This is the first time someone actually calls me by that name. I don't know if I should be happy or not. "She is only Juri."
I forced a smile. "Yeah, don't worry about such things. Calling me by my name is the best."
"I am sorry then. I am Hitoshi Kain. It is a pleasure." He reached me with his right arm. I looked at it for a second then we shook hands. Now I feel a lot better. His voice is low but kind. Himika sure found herself a cool husband. Well, her father did. He does not seem to be a bad man and the aura around him tells me that he is peaceful.
"Himika, Hitoshi. Both names begin the same. Maybe it was destiny?" I looked at her. She once again blushed and looked away.
"You cut your hair. It is so short," she changed the subject.
Hitoshi and I parted our hands. I travelled my fingers through the hair. "That is because I wanted a change. Do I look bad now?"
"No you are…"
"Juri!" In one second Saya was hugging me with power. I stopped breathing out of shock. "I was so worried. When I couldn't reach you no matter what I did I realized that your father was mean to you. Are you ok? He cut you hair as punishment?" she kept on asking. A drip of sweat rested on my face. For a worried person she sure can say a lot of things.
"Baka, I cut it myself."
"I have so many things to tell you. Where should I start from?" she asked impatient. Once again a drip of sweat rested on my face. So that was the problem. She had nobody to torment while I was locked in my room. Since Himika was busy with the wedding no wander that she is exploding now.
"Don't kill me."
"Juri, we have guests so…" I nodded to Himika. She grabbed her husband's elbow and walked to my parents. They look good together.
"Saya, try breathing. Nobody will take me away." She nodded and put herself back on her feet. I was about to fall when she jumped like that. I am still trying to get used to my new shoes. "So? Did anyone die while I was gone?"
"Not really. I glued myself to Ryu but he doesn't seem to be interested in me. Oh, and two or three times we ate together with Haruka-sama." My heart skipped a beat. Haruka… "You said that I am beautiful but he doesn't give a damn about me. No matter what I do he just…"
"Is he here?" I don't want to face Haruka right now.
"Yes. I stayed with Ryu until some second ago." I smiled mischievously. I am not interested in him right now. The thing that I want to know is if Haruka is here or not. "Juri…what should I do? This is the very first time I have such a hard time with a man."
I looked at her sad eyes. For some reasons she looks very small right now. Saya was always superior to me in many things. She was a girl that only had to smile to get things. Ryu-san is a difficult person when it comes to girls. At least this is what I can tell from what I hear from her. I rested my hands over her shoulders. Saya never suffered in love. Men are crazy about her yet Ryu-san just won't give in. I will have to speak with him. "Saya. Everything will be great. Just wait a little. He isn't the kind of man to fall for looks, which is good. If he keeps it like this then he needs more proof , like truth and fidelity."
"How do I show such things?" She looks at me with hope in her eyes.
"Right now I have no idea." I looked around. I cannot see Haruka. "Is he here?" I kept on looking away. I really want to see him. I don't have to speak with him or anything. It is enough to only see him.
"Yes. He is here," she nodded wildly. My stomach knotted. So there is a big chance to meet up with him.
"What should I do?" I looked back at her.
"What do you mean? Just say hello and have a great time at his place after the party," she ironized me. When it comes to me she has no idea but when it is about her she must be helped. Who knows what will happen if I don't. I walked away. "Hey, Juri. What about me?"
My feet are moving in only one direction: to the table where drinks are served. For some reasons I feel like he will be there. Vampires grinned at me and made deep bows as I was walking past them.
Father told me to stay away from Haruka but I still want to be close to him. The only thing I don't want to lose is our friendship. As I was expecting Haruka was in front of the table. I stopped. That woman is also there. For some reasons she is looking down and he is holding her hand. I am getting sick. Long ago I told him to stay away from her but it seems that it is impossible. What exactly is that woman for him? She is Rido's fiancée so why bothering with her? Haruka, I really don't understand you. Is she the reason for changing his mind?
Haruka sensed me and looked into my direction. I kept a straight face. The only thing I can really see is him holding her hand. Why is he holding it so gentle, as if she is some kind of weak flower that must be protected. I took one step back and turned on my heels. This is it. I've seen enough of this. If Haruka wants her that badly then I will have to let him be. Anyway, there is nothing that I can say. He loves her for sure. Haruka even drank her blood. They have an important bond that cannot be cut this easily.
"Ara, Juri," Ryu-san flapped his hand at me. He has so much energy. Right now he looks so bright.
"I have to say that I am in a really bad mood so don't make me any angrier. Saya is an important friend of mine so you better not make her cry. But I guess it would be an honor to have your balls crashed by a pureblood." I looked coldly at him before walking past him. This is the only thing I can say right now. Haruka made me so angry that I cannot even control my vocabulary. I said something more than vulgar right now.
I walked outside, on the balcony. The wind is blowing, shaking my short hair. Damn! Do you want to cry? Of course I do! Haruka never held my hand like that. We held hands and hugged once, but it didn't feel gentle at all. Not to say that on one of the occasions I was about to die… You are just a friend. Oh, shut up! You are so annoying. I rested my elbows on the edge of the balcony. Only seeing his face would have been so great. Why did I have to also see her and him holding her? That woman is destroying my life! I hate her! She is nothing but a bitch and enjoys the way things are. "But I am…" just a friend… I closed my eyes. I don't want to be more than a friend. I have no right to get angry over him having another…
"It has been a while."
I opened my puffy eyes. "Shut up. Don't speak with me." Why did he come after me? I was suffering enough without speaking with him. I must not look into his eyes. He always controls me when I do.
"How have you been?" he rested his back against the balcony.
"Are you deaf?" Go away… I hate myself for how I feel right now. There is something wrong with me. Maybe I should see a doctor. In a way, I am aware that he did nothing wrong and that he is free to speak with whomever he wants but I… I simply don't want him near the woman who keeps me in her shadow…
"You cut your hair," he reached some strands.
My heart skipped a beat. Haruka is casually touching my hair. I frowned and slapped his hand away. "Don't!" I threatened. You make me feel awful so look away. Please stop staring at me with your kind eyes.
"It looks good but I prefer the version with long hair." My eyes got big. What is he saying? I looked in the opposite direction. Haruka is a very persistent person. The way he never gives up annoys me. My feet are getting weak again. "I was hoping that you would wear white." The wind seems stronger than before. In a twinkle of an eye I looked at him. My lips are parted out of surprise. "The letter…didn't it reach you?"
'The letter?' What letter is he speaking about? He smiled back at me. Why is he always smiling? He reached his pocket and took out a blue rose that looks the same with the one from his chest. He stepped closer to me and caught it on my dress. I could only look at him with my lips parted in surprise. Realization begins to hit me. Haruka is the kind of man that speaks few words. We hardly speak when we are together because he isn't the kind of person to have long conversations. Ah, now I remember just how much I really know about him. Haruka isn't the kind to do pranks or hurt someone's feelings. He protected me so many times and smiled gently at me. All the bad things always run away when he is around. Next to him is the safest place. I was so mean to him some seconds ago. Looking away is the best thing I can do. If I open my mouth now I will once again say rude things.
"You already accepted to be my partner so look only at me this night. No other man is allowed to get near you."
"Idiot. This is a party. People socialize here." I am happy. Haruka is the man I always thought he is. I don't know what happened to the letter but maybe Nana didn't want to give it to me….
"That rose makes you mine for the night so don't dance with other men." He is so calm while saying embarrassing things. Haruka is an adult so it is normal to not think too much about his words but I do. Haruka is the first man to look at me for what I am not for what I have. He smiles and says words meant only for me. He made me feel special. Sensei never returned my feelings so I was disappointed. If a human doesn't fall for me then a vampire won't even look at me. But Haruka is looking at what I am.
"Only this night though. There won't be another night like this." Father told me to stay away from him. I am getting the feeling that he knows things that I should not know… "You understand that I am not like others, right? I am not beautiful and have a normal body. Nobody will approach me in that way."
"I like you just the way you are. But let your hair grow again." My cheeks flushed.
This atmosphere is strange. It is as if we are lovers or something like that. No! This is so wrong! It will be terrible if people were to misunderstand! "I thought that you like me the way I am. From now on I will have only short hair so get used to it." Hump! I had to destroy that lovely air. It was making my skin shiver. Haruka reached me with his palm.
"Can I hold your middle? Or at least hold hands?" his voice is like always: calm, mature. I am like a child that changes all the time. Now I am nice and sweet and two second later I am cold and mean. I looked at his hand. That is the hand that held that woman. I don't want to be the same as her.
"Because it is a special night you can hold my middle." He looks so happy. My words made him so bright. Why? I said nothing special. I was simply jealous of that woman… Without hesitation he grabbed my hips. My lips got dry. "Hey, that isn't the middle, you know?" I growled. It is too much for me. The night is still young and we can progress slowly. Grabbing me by such an intimate place is making me stiff. I am not used to be touched like this. Haruka is a man with experience but I am only a child that learns how to walk on high heels.
He didn't even look at me. Haruka looked ahead with a bright smile on his face. My face is getting blue. For a vampire he sure looks like a rainbow. He took one step ahead pushing me after him. "Walk slowly or I will break my neck. I am still testing my shoes." I like the way it feels to be lead. There is no way for me to make a mistake like this. I can support my body on his and if anything happens he will hold me tight. This is the feeling of having a partner. No…this is a feeling of being stick close to Haruka. Although his hands are cold and make me shiver I still like it. But what makes me happy is the fact that Haruka remembers that I like blue roses. He bought mine artificial so it won't die. I really am happy.
People looked at us as we walked past them. It is unusual to see us this close together. Haruka doesn't seem to mind the attention but I am starting to lose balance. He is used to being watched after so many years but I am not. People usually look at my neck and crave for blood but now they see more than that. They watch me walking. Haruka's grip got tighter around my hip. I looked at him then at the people watching us. On their faces is written 'she is his meal'. It is not like I am hurt by such things. I've gotten used to it a long time ago but I am not his meal. We are friends.
"How nice. One second ago you were so scary Juri-chan," Ryu smiled.
"I was telling the truth. Saya is important to me so be careful about what you do." I kept my cold temper. Ryu-san should know as well as everyone that although lately I smile and seem kind I am pretty rough. I don't remember a time when I ran away from a fight. "That is all I can say because it depends only on the two of you. Reject her kindly at least."
"Although you were gone for so long you sure know a lot," he giggled. Ryu-san doesn't know when to be serious and when to be playful. He is an interesting man.
It feels like the whole society is looking at my back. This can mean only one thing: father saw us and he is more than angry. After all he told me I am still playing with fire. Somehow I anticipate a new punishment. Since I told him that we have no relationship he should be more than angry to see the contrary. Ah…it will hurt this time. I swallowed harshly.
"That is right Juri-chan. Dance with me," he reached me with his opened palm.
"I promised Haruka that I won't," I responded simply. It is so embarrassing to say such things. I feel like I am his property or something like that. What should I do? I just said something strange.
"With Ryu is fine." Haruka let go of my hip. I feel abandoned by him. My hip is getting cold, lonely. His body feels far away now. I looked at him before Ryu-san grabbed my hand and pulled me after him. It feels as if I am taken away from him.
"Don't get close to that woman, Haruka." I shouted and some people began to giggle. Not all vampires are bad, I know that. Many really respect us and want to protect us. They wish for a world where humans and vampires can live together. I want the same thing and I will do anything. As long as there is hope things can actually work.
Ryu-san stepped closer to me and put his palm over my lower back. Saya is boiling somewhere near us. Gulp. "It is my first time…"
"Hm?" he looked at me closer. I don't feel stiff when he does such things. Also, the fact that he put his hand on my lower back is fine. If Haruka were to do that I would have probably died. Why does it feel so different? Both of them are males but only one can make my skin shiver; only one can fill my head with thoughts about him.
"…dancing. I've never danced before," my voice is like a whisper. I feel so embarrassed about this. I've attended many parties but I've never danced before. Nobody has ever invited me. Not even father.
"So you are a virgin," he smirked.
"What?!" my heart almost stopped.
"At dancing I mean." He released my hand and grabbed my chin. "Don't worry. I will be gentle."
"Stop sexual harassing me… I know how to dance but I never did it at a party."
"Ah, so this is your first time in public. I am honored."
"I've already asked you to stop doing this!" If I wasn't feeling embarrassed I would have smacked him. This is the worst moment of my life. Ryu-san is a total pervert. "Can't I just call you Ryu?" I asked as we began to dance. The feeling is so strange. Although I wear heels he is still taller than me and supports me very well. Unlike Haruka, Ryu-san has really warm hands. But the irony is that I feel much hotter when Haruka touches me.
"No, but you can call me honey," he said playful. I looked at him normally. He is a real bastard but I will pretend that I didn't understand what he meant. From time to time it is good to play around with men. Saya was right when she said it. I am at the age when I also want to do many things with men but I never had a chance. This is one chance.
We kept on dancing. I like the way my hair moves in the air. The way my body is pressed against him for better balance, making things so easy. Ryu-san is a great dancer. I find it a pleasure. Now I understand why Himika says that dancing is so much fun. I forget about everything and concentrate only on hearing the music. Still, I need to ask something. I wanted to do it long ago but I never had a chance to. If I ask Haruka I feel like this time he wouldn't answer me sincerely. He said he drank her blood but is that all? Is there still something that I don't know? "Say honey. What kind of relationship does Haruka have with his brother's fiancée?" I looked deep into his eyes. If he looks away then he will lie.
His cheeks kind of changed colors for one second. He didn't expect to hear me calling him honey. "Nothing…" he looked away for a second. I pretended that I slipped and stepped over his foot. "AH!"
"One more lie and I told you: your balls are mine, honey," I roared.
"Juri-chan, I won't answer such a question. It is not my place to do that. If you really want to know you have to ask Haruka. I am sorry." The music stopped. "Shall we go back to him?"
"So, there is something big, huh?" I smiled. From the very beginning I knew that something was between those two but I just couldn't say what. He said that he drank her blood but what if there was more than that? Ryu smiled and pushed me away from ring. "It is fine."
"I am really sorry Juri-chan. But I cannot betray his trust."
As we walked back to Haruka I noticed my father looking long at me. He doesn't seem angry but he surely isn't pleased. Ryu seems to be so pure. He will never betray his best friend. Not even if another pureblood asks and threatens. But after this I really want to know what happened between those two. Even if you will regret after? Yes. I will find out but not tonight. I want to enjoy my friend's wedding party.
"Listen, listen, Haruka. This was her first time dancing. Aren't I lucky?" Ryu is more than excited about it. Like always Haruka only smiled back. "Then I will go and find another partner." He released my middle and flapped his hand before leaving while singing.
"You two had a little fight there."
"Not really. We are fine." Will he invite Saya to dance with him? There are too many people and I lost him. Why do I have the feeling that he is a playboy? Somehow, things are kind of strange. The air is kind of sad here. "Say Haruka: is your brother here?"
"Onii-sama didn't want to attend."
"So that woman is alone." Rido has no intentions in marrying her. I know that for sure. She doesn't want to do it either so there will be no wedding.
"Why do you hate her that much?"
I frowned. "Why do you protect her?" I looked coldly at him. "When you answer me that, I will do the same." He kept on smiling. "Since I know that you will never answer me then I won't either." Staring at him I noticed that his eyes were seeing through me. He clearly was not paying attention to our discussion. The aura around him has somehow changed. He was like this when we first met some years ago. He tries to keep me close but he also tries to keep the distance between us. "I…" his eyes are examining my neck, "…don't mind. You can have my blood." From my neck he looked at my face as if he saw me for the first time that night. "But not here. I don't want people to see us like this."
"Are you fine with this?" he asked with lust hoping I won't change my answer. He is so hungry that his voice is trembling. This is the first time he is this obvious about his thirst.
"For you it is." Haruka, I don't know if you realize but you just licked your lips.
He put his hand on my hip and we began to climb down the stairs to the garden. I am not scared. Although I might not make it back to the part I know that he will make sure I get back home safely. By the way he pushes me he seems to be eager to drink my blood. I looked over my shoulder. Did father see us leaving the balcony? I know he does not like the idea of me being with Haruka. I am sure that he knows what we are about to do as he knows that this is not the first time. But I do not understand why father won't say anything. He must have something he wants to say but he won't take me away from Haruka… It feels like although he wants me away from him he cannot step between us. Haruka's hands seem colder than before. Where are we going? I feel like I am being kidnaped. He knows exactly where to go as if this is not the first time he does this.
Beyond the parking lot and behind some thuja was a lonely bench waiting for someone to notice it. I looked around. There is nobody to see us here. I took the initiative and sat comfortable on it, looking up at him. He kept on looking back at me. His eyes are neither sad nor worried. He is very serious. He waits for a sign. "I didn't change my mind." Although the road was long I feel the same. I want this person to drink my blood. He sat right next to me. His hip is touching mine. My heart almost stopped when he grabbed my left thigh and pulled it over his legs. This position is a little… His hands slipped over my back and he leaned over me. I think that I am going crazy. This is just too much. His hair is brushing my cheek. He put his left leg over my right one. "Hey…" Stop this! I feel like we are about to do something else. His smooth tongue travelled over my neck. "Ah…" My skin is shivering with anticipation. I bit my lip. His rough fangs touched my neck. "Just be gentle." He stopped for a second and nodded. His fangs slowly pierced my neck. With low movements he is going deeper and deeper inside my skin. It hurts a little but I can take this pain. Suddenly the position doesn't matter anymore. My mind is going crazy as he is gently sucking my blood. He breathes heavily. He swallowed loudly my blood. "The…ah…pureblood you killed two years ago… remember him, right?" He didn't respond. He probably does. "Father said that he was my fiancée…" It is so hard to breath. The way he sucks is making me want to do strange noises. His left arm grabbed my back tighter while the other travelled over my left thigh. It is not enough that he is practically over me but now he is even touching me there… I closed my eyes. Haruka is doing too much already. If father sees me like this my life will be over. "Too much…" Everything is too much. He swallowed. I can feel his fangs coming out. This time he has control over the situation. He took his hand from my thigh to wipe the blood that was flowing over his chin. After licking it he also licked the blood from around my neck. I feel weak. His head feel over my shoulder while his hand returned to my lonely thigh. I can feel his breath warming up my chest.
"Drink my blood," he whispered almost begging me.
"I don't need yours." I will be fine if I just rest a little.
"Then whose blood do you want?"
"Lately I have been craving for your blood but I refuse to drink it." It is not a lie. The day my father punished me I began to feel strange in the bathroom. My eyes were looking at the water that was filling in the tub. I was thinking that it looks like blood. I wanted it to be Haruka's blood.
"Why?"
"Because I do." One day I will for sure drink your blood but until then we will remain like this.
"Juri…"
"Don't try to change my mind," I said promptly.
"From now on can I…drink your blood when I'm thirsty?"
I can feel his heart beating fast. Or maybe that is my heart. "It might not be a good idea..." If I keep on losing blood every week I will eventually die. My body can give and never receive but not for too long.
"Then I won't." He rubbed his cheek over my shoulder. It feels good.
"You can have another's blood." It kind of pains me to say this but I cannot restrain him. It is normal to crave for blood.
"Yes but it won't satisfy me. No matter how much I drink it will never be enough."
"Is my blood that tasty?"
"Yes but taste has nothing to do with it. Since you are special to me only your blood will be enough."
I looked at the sky. There are so many stars witnessing this scene. "Say Haruka, how many people's blood did you drink since you had mine?" I want, need to know. Please tell me.
"Since I met you I never touched another person."
I smiled. "Liar. But I will take it this time." I really want to believe you.
