Author's Note: Hello everyone! Sorry to keep you waiting on this chapter, life has gotten a little complicated. I stayed home from school yesterday and today because I was sick, so I found some time to write. I guess that's all I have to say, so here's the next chapter!

-Elise (Daisydot227)

DISCLAIMER: I do NOT own Divergent or any of the characters. All credit goes to Veronica Roth.

Chapter 9: Fully Abnegation

Tris's POV:

When my alarm went off the next morning, I shut it off with a groan and slunk back under the covers. I was thoroughly exhausted, due to the fact that I went to bed late, and that today was the initiation ceremony. I could scarcely fall asleep, and when I did have brief moments of sleep throughout the night, they were littered with bad dreams.

I finally coaxed myself out from underneath my comforter and padded gently down the stairs. The early morning sun began to penetrate the curtains in the house and gently illuminated the kitchen. I opened the fridge leaned my head into the chilly air searching for my breakfast. I decided on cold oatmeal, again, and milk.

As I ate my breakfast my mind wandered, wondering what I would be doing on this morning, if I had chosen differently. What I would be doing if I had chosen a life of black, over a life of gray.

Someone knocked on my door after I got dressed, and I opened the door to find Susan standing there.

"Sorry," she apologized instantly. "I know it's early. I just needed someone to talk to."

I moved out of the way to allow her access in to the house, wondering how I got into the position of being Susan's confidant. It was weird, having someone rely on you for support. I didn't know if I liked it.

I led Susan to the kitchen table, and offered her a bowl of oatmeal, which she politely refused.

"What did you want to talk about?" I asked after getting settled.

"I'm nervous," Susan divulged her voice a low whisper. She glanced over her shoulder as if someone was spying on our conversation. "What if I chose wrong? What if I wasn't meant to be in Abnegation?"

I was speechless for a moment, before finding my bearings. Susan, who had always done everything for someone else, who fit in with the quiet demeanor of Abnegation perfectly. Who everyone had always assumed would be in Abnegation, and was as naturally selfless as… as Caleb. Who changed to Erudite.

"Susan," I began. "I know you're nervous, and that's a natural part of making a big commitment. But if I know you, and I have since we were little, you have always fit well with Abnegation. So did Caleb, and he chose differently, but that doesn't make his choice wrong either."

She nodded, but I could see her eyes tearing up. "I just don't understand why he left. I thought he and I were right for each other, and now I don't know. I never even knew that he had even considered Erudite. And then he chose them as his faction? If we were so perfect, why did he pick one and I chose the other?"

I reached out a hand to pat her shoulder, but it felt weird, so I withdrew it. "Susan, I was Caleb's sister and even I didn't know a thing about his secret life. He was just good at hiding it, and just because two people fit well together, doesn't mean that they always agree one hundred percent."

She nodded again, and I could tell that she felt guilty for even doubting Abnegation. She felt like I did. She felt like a traitor.

"We should leave for the ceremony now," she said finally.

We both stood up and pushed our chairs in, and headed outside. I watched as all of my soon-to-be faction trickled out of matching houses and pooled in to a large crowd that slowly pushed its way down the street, headed towards the headquarters.

Susan and I hurried down my walk and into the middle of the street, falling into step amongst the group. We ambled slowly down the worn pavement, moving around the large cracks and potholes in the road. Finally we arrived at the headquarters, and followed the crowd around the back on to a large grassy area with a long row of fold-up chairs.

From prior years of watching the ceremony, I knew that the initiates sat in the chairs, and the audience stood in front. I found a chair in between Robert and a transfer whose name I didn't know. Once all the initiates were seated and the crowd had quieted, Marcus stepped forward to deliver a speech.

Once he finished, all of the eldest Abnegation members kneeled down at our feet, and began the washing our feet, the final part of the ceremony.

An old woman knelt down at my feet, and I tried not to squirm as she scrubbed the sensitive skin on the bottom of my foot. Once she finished she stood and bowed her head slightly then receded back in to the crowd. Marcus said his closing statements, and the ceremony was over.

It all happened so quickly. The crowd applauded and I was swept along with everyone else trying to leave the grassy lawn. Somehow I found my way over to my parents, and their faces shone with pride as they congratulated me.

"Good job Beatrice," my father choked out, his voice cracking with emotion. "You did well, kid."

My mother reached forwards and pulled me into a tight hug, before releasing me and saying, "I know Caleb is proud of you as well, no matter where he is."

I said goodbye to my parents and began walking home, but soon Robert was walking next to me.

"So Beatrice, remember how you said you would like to go out sometime? I was wondering if you were free tonight," he inquired hesitantly as we turned on to my street.

Crap. Did I say that? Then I remembered our conversation last night. I did say that.

"Oh, I um," I fumbled, trying to make words form. "I guess so?"

He grinned and exclaimed, "Oh perfect! Oh, wow, I'll pick you up at 6, ok?"

I nodded quickly and Robert rushed away down the street, nearly skipping. Oh why did I do that? I didn't want to hurt his feelings, and I had known him forever. And he was Susan's brother, and as strange and foreign to me as it was, I sort of liked being her friend.

Six o'clock rolled around sooner than I had expected, and no sooner had my clock begun to strike six, did the door bell ring.

I opened it to see Robert standing there with a bouquet of roses, his pale blonde hair freshly Abnegation trimmed.

"Robert, those roses look lovely," I said, taking them from his hands and setting them on the table next to the door.

"Are you ready to go?" He asked, holding out his hand. I took his hand, but it felt awkward to hold, so I released it and just walked beside him.

"So where are we going?" I inquired, trying to make some sort of conversation.

"I was thinking we could go to the park," he said.

"Yes, the park is fine."

We had precisely one park in the Abnegation sector. There were several parks all over the city, but most of them were in the other faction's sectors. All the parks were kept clean and healthy by the Abnegation volunteer crew, but our park was mainly used by young couples for dates, and children to play. The adults were too busy to spend time strolling about in the wooded areas.

When we arrived, the park was generally empty except for a few people talking on the benches. Robert led me off of the gravel path in to a clearing where there was a blanket set up with a basket full of food. Robert sat down and I followed his lead, stretching out my legs on the plaid fabric.

"A picnic," I said, looking over the scene Robert had set up. "How… nice."

He smiled and we began talking while eating some sandwiches. The sky began to darken a bit as the sun started to set. Maybe I could get through the night without incident.

But as we stopped speaking for a moment, Robert closed his eyes and leaned in, and I stared wide eyed with panic before scrambling backwards to my feet. Robert opened his eyes and his face grew red with embarrassment.

"I uh… I have to use the bathroom," I stammered backing away before speed walking into the woods.

I am such a horrible person, I thought to myself as I navigated back towards the trail. You just left him there all alone, in his shame. Would it have really hurt to kiss him? All of a sudden I was knocked to the ground by something moving quickly through the woods. It fell on top of me, but shifted off me and got to it's feet.

"I feel like I'm always picking you off the ground," noted a familiar voice. I looked up to see the mischievous smile on Four's face looking down at me.

"Hey, this time was your fault," I grumbled, taking his hand and getting to my feet.

"Yeah but last time I was saving you from getting run over by a train," he shot back, brushing leaves off his black t-shirt. He turned back towards the trail and began following it.

"What are you doing in the Abnegation park anyways," I asked, walking beside him.

"I was coming to see you, but instead I ended up on top of you. What are you doing in the park?"

I squinted up at him. "What? Am I not allowed to exercise my free will and be all alone in a park at night?"

But we both knew that wasn't the case. "I'm actually here… on a date," I revealed.

Four stopped walking and looked at me. "You're what?"

I glanced down at the ground. "It's kind of complicated."

He placed his hand underneath my chin and lifted my face so I was looking up at him. "Well I would like to know. I don't like the thought of anyone else seeing my Tris."

"So you own me?" I asked, smirking and placing my hands on my hips.

He sighed, exasperated and ran his hand through his short hair. "You know what I mean. As in I'm the only one who is allowed to kiss you. So why are you on a date?"

I smiled at the thought of Four being jealous and replied, "It actually happened on accident. I was upset that you had ignored me and I accidentally agreed to go on a date with him. I just didn't want to hurt his feelings."

He nodded, and I knew that only Four would understand a situation like this.

"But since you're walking alone I take it you're free now?" He inquired.

I glanced back behind my shoulder towards the direction of the clearing. My date was already in ruins. It couldn't hurt if I left now. "Yeah, I guess so."

Four laced his fingers through mine, and I knew that he belonged to me, because my hand fit perfectly with his.

So there was chapter 9! Just so you all know, yes, Robert actually is a real Divergent character (he was mentioned in book 1) but he's never been really used in fanfiction and I thought he should have a part in this. There should be ALOT more Four/Tris action in the next chapter *excessive eyebrow wiggle* but I wanted to take it slow because, you know, its forbidden love (like Romeo and Juliet. Except I'm not planning to kill anyone. Most likely.) So as always, thanks for reading and PLEASE REVIEW. (Like seriously guys, I want to hear from you)

-Elise (Daisydot227)