CHAPTER 10: WHY NOT? I WANT TO TRY.
A week has passed since my mother allowed Sanzo Party to stay home, anyway, she has been phoning me more often than before, and each time she does it I can't other than smile.
And today, as is a sunny day and outside is warm I planned to go out to have a walk to a swamp near home.
That reason I was wearing a pair of elastic shorts and a shirt tied to show part of my belly area. Ah, and my pair of trainers with short shocks.
"Hey!" I said from the bathroom as I ended tying my hair up on two pigtails. "Still aren't ready?"
"Goku doesn't want to put on his cap." Hakkai said.
"Well, then don't make him wear it." I said shrugging. "The rest of you?"
"Nearly done." Gojyo said going out to the corridor wearing just his trousers on while he tried to put on his t-shirt. "A cap or a cloth?" He then asked me when he put his head out by the head hole of the top.
"Whatever you prefer." I said trying to put my head cloth on. "The one you feel better with. OK, I'm done. I'll get the things ready down, right?"
"Yes." All said at once.
Then I walked down to the storage room of the flat to begin taking the three bikes out and the pair of roller blades.
Hakkai was the one in charge of getting the meal ready and Sanzo had to take care of Goku while Gojyo had to take care of the rest of the things.
"So, still mounting those things?" Sanzo asked me as roughly as always.
"Well, considering they have not been used on ages…" I said ending checking the last bike. "You know how to use them, don't you?"
"Yes, yes." They said.
"Ok, then… try taking the things." I said. "Ah, the one with the basket for Hakkai."
"Then I take it and I put all in it." He said.
"Anyway… it's just 4 vehicles." Gojyo said. "Who is the one running after us?"
"Nobody is running behind." I said ending with the wretch and rubbing my forehead. "I'm carrying Goku on my back."
"And why has to be him?!" Gojyo asked bothered.
"Maybe because he is the lighter one and I'm sure you will none carry him." I said standing up.
"Fine." The rest said.
"I also am light!" He said. "Why don't you carry me at your back?"
"I feel safer with Goku." I just said. "Guess who the one rollerblading is?"
Nobody said a thing but they looked at him.
"Oh, no." He said.
"I'll be carrying Goku." Hakkai said smiling. "You can carry the meal that is lighter."
"Oh, ok. Fine." I said then. "If Sanzo doesn't mind carrying the rest."
"I'll carry it…" He said angry but giving up.
"Ok, then…" I began.
"How do those work?" Gojyo asked me.
I then sighed and counted to ten before answering.
"All right, get the bike, I'll rollerblade." I said taking the rollerblades and handing him the bike by the handle.
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Finally we managed to depart and we were half of the way there, they cycling and I rollerblading with graceful movements. It was funny seeing Goku chattering happily at Hakkai's back holding tight to him while the rest of us just enjoyed the sightseeing.
Anyway, I didn't count on the long ramp we had to climb to get in the natural park around the swamp.
They took it easy to climb it, but I found it a bit harder.
"Hey." Gojyo said realising I was missing from their side and coming back to my side after turning around with the bike and seeing me a bit back them so he returned to me. "Why don't you sit back me and I take you up the hill?"
"I weigh a bit so you will find hard to get to the top yourself." I answered him.
"Ok, then get hold to the back and I pull from you." He said beginning to cycle in front of me.
He was so persistent that I ended by holding to the back of the bike and allow him to pull me up to he very top where the rest were waiting.
"You couldn't get to the top?" Sanzo asked me bothered. "Why did you want to come then?"
Then why did I want to get there? It was obvious I wanted to enjoy a bit of a sunny day like that one!
"Never mind." I said. "I know a good place for resting a bit. Follow me."
Then I began rollerblading down the hill fast till I reached the second ramp to climb up and I got over it with ease as I had some speed from the down one.
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"Ah!" Hakkai said while I ended putting on my trainers again. "This place is heaven!"
"It's so big!!" Goku said then running from a place to another.
"Hey, stop bothering around!!" Sanzo then shouted at him.
"This is a natural reserve, so it would be thanked you didn't shout as you are doing." I told them. "Shall we begin laying the table over that one?" I added pointing to one of the picnic ones laid next to the fireplaces there while I carried the basket with a hand.
"Oh, fine." Hakkai said. "I'll begin heating the meat a bit."
"Fine, then… Goku and Gojyo can begin laying the table while I go and get some water." I said then. "Cause we are going to need some and you don't know where to find it, do you?"
"Ok, go and bring that water." Sanzo said sitting down at the grass over a blanket we brought for laying after meal.
I then smiled and left walking slowly to get to the water spring next to the lake. While I went there I crossed some people that went there on the same thoughts than us.
"I don't think this is good enough." Sanzo said. "It's too sunny for having meal here."
"Well, the table is beginning to get under the shade of the trees." Hakkai said turning the meat around to get it done by the two sides. "I bet she knew of it."
"And where is she?" Goku asked. "Why has she taken so long to get back here?"
"I bet the water was not so close to us." Gojyo said. "But if you want I could go to look for her."
"There's no need of." Hakkai said. "There she comes."
It was true, I was going back carrying two big 5 litres bottles full of water. As soon as they saw me both Gojyo and Goku came to take them.
"I could have carried them." I said rubbing the back of my head. "I took them here."
"No, no." They said. "Well, it's better we carry them." Gojyo added. "It would not be men like."
Smiling I sat on the table bench taking the salad to me and adding salt, oil and vinegar.
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It was after meal that they were all laying down at the blanket with the head under the shadow of the trees. I tried to sleep but I couldn't so I stood up to leave.
"You can't sleep?" Hakkai asked me.
"No, but don't worry." I said smiling. "I'll go on a little walk near here, so… you can sleep peacefully, I'll not bother you."
"If you want to chat…" He said.
"Nah, you deserve to sleep as much as they do." I answered him smiling as the rest were sleeping deeply. "Don't worry, there's a lot of people around, if I'm bored I could chat with any of them."
I went walking around till I reached my favourite spot, a little calmed spot where people didn't went due to the hard access there but was calm and sunny despite of the shade of the trees and bushes.
The sights there was just wonderful and it was hidden from sight yet from there you could here all the chats at the sight-seeing point about 20 metres over your head and the other way round yet they could not see me.
I then smiled as I saw the sights there. Anyway, the peace was not all the time I would have wanted. Soon some movements were head near me and coming towards where I was hiding. Soon I had no doubt that whoever it was coming it was coming towards me.
"Tag." Gojyo said kidding. "I found you."
"Weren't you sleeping with the rest?" I asked him.
"Well, not really." He said sitting next to me. "I was woke up by you leaving so as soon as I heard the rest snoring I stood up and went to met you. I think this place is better than the other one."
"Well, yes." I said lying backwards to face the sky. "The sights are as good as the other ones but this is more silent and calm. At least it was until you reached here."
"Do you mind sharing the place?" He asked me still as pulling my leg.
"Obviously not, the spot is everyone's yet not everyone is aware of its existence." I answered closing my eyes. "If everyone knew about this place then it would not be such a relaxing place, don't you think?"
"I think this place is perfect for couples." He said laying his hand at my belly.
"Stop it." I said going pink.
"May I ask you why do you get so nervous when a guy is interested on you as woman?" He then asked me.
"Because they are not interested on me as that." I answered him. "They just want to pass time, to get fun and then don't get tie to you." I added making him silent.
He stayed there silent for a while.
"I see…" he finally said. "What is the name of that prat that hurt you so badly?"
"What prat?" I asked sitting back up. "Who are you talking about?"
"The guy that touched your heart and hurt you." He told me looking straight at my eyes.
"Why do you think…?" I asked to fall silent when I realised how deep his sight was over my eyes as if he knew what I was thinking and bringing back to my mind. "Who cares?" I said laying back down with my arms back my head. "It's no use remembering it."
"Well, I think it is." He said. "Cause I want to go and beat him up till he is hardly recognisable for having hurt you so badly you can't give the rest of us a chance."
That left me gobsmacked.
"Well, I… I would go out with a guy… yes. If… If he showed me he was not like the rest." I said knowing I was going red with my eyes closed again.
Then I felt how sun hided and opened my eyes to see Gojyo was hiding it by laying forward over me face to face.
"Then allow me to show you can trust me." He said. "That I'm not as any men you have ever known."
"You already are different from any men I have ever known." I said turning my face away to avoid his look. "You come from a cartoon series."
"You know what I mean…" He said holding my chin softly and making me look at him. "I want to go out with you."
"I…" I said.
Then he laid his face against mine and kissed me softly. It caught me completely unaware; especially when he put his tongue in my mouth to caress mine and I tried to get free from him again.
"No… no… don't…" I began muttering as I could.
Anyway, even when I tried to stop it, all of sudden I felt he had stolen my will. I held tight to his back with my arms.
"Don't stop." I thought. "Please, don't stop."
He then stopped and smiled at me with our foreheads and noses together but our mouths separated.
"Can I be your guy and you my girl?" He then whispered at me.
"Why not?" I whispered him back. "It could…"
He then kissed me again and then he stopped to look again at me with the same inches of separation between our mouths.
"Then you want to try?" He asked on the same whispering tone before going down to my neck and beginning kissing it.
"Yeah, yeah." I nodded softly feeling I could touch the sky. "I want to… try…"
"Cool…" He answered smiling sexily and going back to kiss me.
I lost sense of time while he played with his tongue and mine while he laid over me without smashing me between the ground and his body.
Nobody could have said so, but he certainly weighs and I could check it when he protected me at the bus while he had that piece sank at his back.
I then felt one of his hands sliding in my clothes to get to my abdominals and I went a bit nervous. He must have felt it because he stopped kissing me for a second and lowered his face to my ear.
"Don't worry." He said. "I'm going easy on you." He said before licking my ear softly making me nearly faint on weakness and pleasure. "I'll not go any higher or lower until you are ready…" he added before licking it again and putting the end in his mouth among his lips to suck it.
"And what if I'm never ready for it?" I whispered then feeling something hard in his pants and going even more nervous.
"You will." He whispered again licking my ear slowly. "And then I will know the time has come." He added before biting my ear softly.
That was the end of the point and I let out a moan feeling a wave going up and down my spine making him nearly laugh before moving slightly to face me again with our foreheads glued and our noses one by the other while I felt as about fainting and he smiled.
He then kissed me again as he moved his tongue in my mouth as if it was filled with honey. It was really wonderful being there with him, then he moved his hand a bit upper and then around there not raising it any inch.
"Take it easy…" He said as if he was pulling my leg. "I know what I'm doing…"
I did suppose he knew what he was doing, the problem is I didn't know what I wanted or was doing.
I was there lying against the floor with him nearly over me, and this time there was no bus caging us.
I wanted that to end, I didn't want him to get any further, I was afraid of him and what could happen if we kept on like that, but… I didn't want him to stop it either.
"Can't you stop?" I asked him when his hand was so close to my breast that he could caress it slightly with a finger if he outstretched it.
"You don't want it to happen." He said softly at my ear before licking it.
"Of course I want it to..!" I exclaimed to then go back to whispers as I realised there was people at the sightseeing terrace over us. "I do want you to stop it all."
"Then… why are you holding me so tight?" He whispered at my ear.
I then realised on it and outstretched them looking aside. But he held my wrists and made me laid again into his back looking deeply into my eyes.
"You don't need to remove them." He told me on a soft voice. "As I said, I'm going easy on you…" He said whispering before kissing me again.
He began by going soft for the first four ones and then he went deeper. It was as if I had lost against him, as if he was always a step in front of me… He stole my will…
Even when I was terrified on what could happened, I couldn't stop him; anyway, he did it himself after a while, with my shirt fully unbuttoned and spread showing my bare skin just covered at the breast by the bra.
He then kissed my at the neck and rolled to lay next to me, with his arm under my neck on a soft and trustful way as if us shared a lot of things.
"You… you stopped…" I then whispered.
"As I said, I prefer taking things easy on you." He said on a soft way turning to face me. "As a first time that was more than enough."
"I thought you were not that kind of men, that you would…" I said lowering my voice tone.
"That I would take it to the very end?" He said next to my ear as laughing. "Don't believe all TV says. I'm not that kind of guy. I know when a girl's limit is and I prefer not forcing things up."
"Well, I… you took advantage that day in the bus, and…" I said as he hugged me while I buttoned my shirt again.
"That was a personal prize for saving your neck." He told me. "And I bet it was the furthest you have reached with a guy."
"No, this is the furthest a guy has taken me." I said going red.
That made him laugh and I went angry so I hit him at the ribs and sat to stand up while I ended buttoning up the shirt.
Then he held me by the wrist and made me fall over him smiling sexily.
"I didn't mean to make you angry dear." He said as he hugged me with my arms folded against his chest. "But it was really funny; I thought you would have gone further than that with a guy."
"Well, not me, never ever." I said trying to break free from his without success. "I want to return with the rest. They must be already awakened."
He then smiled rolling his head and then moved his arm to lay his hand over my back of the head and made it lower to kiss me deep before releasing me that slapped his face before jumping up and standing my own feet.
And again he laughed and I was angry. I tried to run away from him but he reached me easily.
"Hey dear." He said. "That was level one."
"And?" I asked. "I don't want to repeat."
"We will review it some times before getting to the second one." He said smiling as he held my hand softly.
I then released my hand on a rather angry movement as he kept on appearing it was just a game for him.
"You are just having a laugh with me." I then said. "You don't care about how I feel."
"Of course I do care." He answered while we walked back into the path. "How do you feel?"
"Mad!" I said. "You are just pulling my leg all the time!!"
"I'm not." He said shaking his head. "And I think you know men worse than I thought."
"Why?" I asked. "Cause I think you are playing?"
"No, I know you know I'm not playing." He said smiling. "You've got lot of male friends so you can read through our gestures better than maybe us ourselves. I mean... about love bussiness, you are like a baby on them."
"I can't undestand you." I just said. "What do you mean with that?"
"I mean a baby as Goku and you have the same point of view." He said. "I have found really hard to control myself to prevent reaching any further with you before. Just cause I love you and I want to do things well to help you too." He said. "You can read guy's minds and understand them when it's not about love."
"Can men love?" I asked as jocking.
"Yes." He said caging me against a tree of the side. "You can't see it, do you?" He said then smiling as he released me and we went back to the path to then hold my hand again softly. "When a man loves a woman, he wants to feel her; all of her I mean." He said looking straight in my eyes. "If it was for me, I would spend a full week with you in the bedroom, not going out for anything, just there you and me. I see you know what I mean..." He said caressing my cheek softly with a finger.
Of course I knew what he meant, and I knew he knew I knew cause I was pink in my cheeks again.
He then sighed smiling as we reached next to the place where the rest were taking the nap and pulled from my hand to hide behind a fallen tree log making me fall down at his lap with a leg at each side of me, hugging me from my back with his hands at my stomach with my hands crossed over his arms.
"Maybe this is a bit hard for you." He whispered at me with his face next to mine. "I bet it's first time it happends to you, and someone hurt you before so things are not easy for neither you nor me. But I'm going to be here for you, don't forget it, right?"
I then nodded softly while he buried his face at my neck skin as if he was smelling it before kissing it softly and raise his face to laid it against mine.
"If you want we can talk about whatever you can think about..." He said then to kiss my ear softly.
"I was thinking... maybe it's true you like me..." I wishpered. "And sorry for..."
"Nevermind." He told me. "I knew what I was facing when I asked you out. It's going to be a long path but..."
"Gojyo, that hard thing at my back..." I wishpered.
"It's normal, dear." He just said. "Maybe you don't know, but right now I've got the girl I most like against there, I can feel her well despite of the clothes so that's a reaction I have."
"Well, I'm feeling a bit... uneasy about it." I said. "But if you say it's normal..."
"Then we can do it the other way round and I sit against you." He said.
"No, no." I said holding his arms that now were one across my chest and the other acorss my belly to keep them there. "I feel well about this position... Protected, could we stay there a bit more?"
I saw him smile as I had laid my head backwards to end my speech.
"Of course." He said moving his head to the front to put it close to me and then kiss me. "We can be like this forever if you want."
Then we heard how Sanzo began shouting near us angry cause we were both missing.
"Ok, time to go back." I said standing up smothly and being held by him by the back pocket making me fall again and kissing me before allowing me to stand up.
"We have to keep appearances, don't we?" Gojyo asked reading my mind while he took off some little grass leaves form my hair.
"For the moment... I feel less preasured and more confident if we just hid it when we are with them or at the university." I said smiling and removing the elastic bands to change my style into just a high ponytail.
"Sure." He said letting my hand go from his while we walked. "I'm through as long as we act normal on private."
"Done, as long as you keep on going easy on me." I said pink.
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"Where the hell did you went?!" Sanzo asked when he saw us arriving back.
"I couldn't sleep so I left to train a bit." I said. "Suddenly he came and saw me so he gave me a hand."
"So you Gojyo left and then helped her?" Goku asked confused.
"Yes." Gojyo said. "Well, in fact I left for peeing away from here and sight and then I found her cause I heard her and... well, I saw she was training and offered to give a hand."
"I don't believe you." Sanzo said.
"Well, the truth is it sounds a bit weird." Hakkai recognised rubbing his head. "But the truth is it can be."
"And how is possible he heard her from among all those trees?" Sanzo asked.
"Well, you know I'm not too silent when I train." I said scratching my cheek feeling hot at it. "When I fall down or mistake my movements you know I tend to... say nasty words expressing my anger."
"And you should have heard her patting when she has been punching and kicking air for a while non-stop." Goku said then giving a hand.
"Yeah, well... that's true." Sanzo said. "She is not on her best."
"What are you..?" I began saying angry but being covered my mouth by Gojyo smiling.
"Ok, do we pick things up and go back home?" Sanzo asked. "I hate mosquitoes and they are begining to appear from wherever they were hidden."
"Oh, sure." I said. "Just allow me to pack things back up and I'll be ready."
"Ok, but this time allow me to just carry you at the back of the bike." Gojyo said. "Cause it will be easier than just pulling from you along the whole ramp."
"Well, for once I have to agree with him." Hakkai said. "Furthermore, if you were training your legs would hurt a bit if you keep on exercising them."
"Ok, ok." I said raising my hands up to the sides of my head. "I got the idea. I'll allow him to take me back him at the bike."
So we did, as soon as we ended picking things up and left the place clean as we found it we mounted on the bikes and left after having tied everything to the basket and the back of the bikes while I sat behind Gojyo at the bike.
"Don't be afraid of holding tight." He said as pulling my leg.
"I bet you can't imagine how many motorbikes I have got hold to." I said kidding too.
"Gojyo, don't try to get advantage of it all!" Goku said.
"I'm the one back him." I said. "I'm the one with the hands free to move, but don't worry. I'm not doing it."
We then speed and had some fun while we went back home. There I went to put all the things at their right place before going up again to the flat.
