I went inside the mansion as Sebastian followed me, and as I stepped inside, I saw Ciel get down from the staircase to see if I was alright.
"Aunt Lucille! Are you alright? Did they really take you?" He asked worried.
"They actually did, gladly there was this mysterious man who appeared and helped me. I am alright now so you don't have to worry." I said to Ciel with a smile. I knew he was concerned with my well-being, so I had to make sure he wouldn't worry too much.
"You're not fine, you're bleeding." Ciel said as he noticed a stain of blood on the skirt of my dress.
"Oh..." I said, looking at my skirt surprised. I didn't know that I got injuries while fighting my way out earlier.
"Sebastian, take care of Aunt's Lucille's injuries." Ciel said, looking from Sebastian to me, "For the moment, I'll try to find out who did this, so please do get well."
"Thanks, Ciel." I replied with a smile. After that, Sebastian helped me to the staircase. He leaded me to the guest room where he'll help me with my injuries.
Halfway through the guest room, I was really having a hard time walking especially now that the pain was slowly creeping in. My muscles were also tired of all the stuff I did today, and Sebastian seemed to notice my struggles.
"Do you want me to carry you, my lady?" He asked, concerned with my current state.
"Oh no, no thank you. I can still walk." I replied immediately, although I would really want that as it will make my life easier, I felt somewhat embarrassed at the thought of being carried by a man, most especially by Sebastian.
"Are you certain? You usually say yes to that back then..." Sebastian replied, but I couldn't quite hear the last part of what he said.
"Excuse me?" I asked, wanting him to repeat what he said.
"Oh, I mean usually, when I ask women to carry them, they say yes." He said, giving a smile.
I giggled a little knowing what he meant, or at least what I think he mean and replied, "For sure they would, I don't know if you notice this but, you are a very handsome man Sebastian, so its no wonder why women would ever deny such offer from you."
"You flatter me, my lady. However, if you say women would never deny such an offer from me then why did you? Is my good looks not that appealing to you?" He asked, looking at me with those blood red eyes.
"Silly man, of course not, it's just that...you're actually too appealing for me..." I said, lowering my voice on the last part so he wouldn't hear.
"Excuse me, my lady?" He asked looking very curious, and I just gave a smile.
"Nothing, this is the guest room right?" I suddenly said, trying to distract him from wanting to know what I said.
"Ah yes, were here." Sebastian said as he opened the door while still holding me.
The two of us got inside and he leaded towards the bed, gently helping me sit down on it while placing pillows in my back so I could lean comfortably against the bed's headboard. "Thank you Sebastian. You think Ciel will be fine alone for a while?" I then asked, I was a bit bothered to know Sebastian isn't with Ciel especially when some bad guys just came here in the mansion. I'm afraid some of them are still around the area and we don't even know.
"Up until now you're still worried about the Young Master's well being than yours." Sebastian replied while he pulled the drawer from the cabinet next to the bed and took a towel inside. "Do not worry my lady, he will be alright as long as he's inside the house. I'm sure Mey-Rin, Baldroy, or Finnian are already annoying him right now." He added, assuring me that Ciel will be fine, and he seemed to be really trusting the three to care for Ciel for the meantime.
"I see, that's good." I said, finally feeling relaxed knowing everything will be fine. Just then, a jolt of pain came from my wound, and I reflexively bit my lip to ease it a bit.
"My apologies, I should have tend to your wound immediately. Now if you'd allow me..." He said, as he begins to lift my skirt up because the wound was on my right thigh, and I felt very awkward with every second of it. "Goodness me, that is a very nasty wound..." He said the moment he saw the wound as there was a small shard stuck on it.
"I didn't expect my wound was this bad." I stated as I observed the wound myself.
Just then, the door opened revealing Mey-Rin while carrying a bowl. "E-excuse m-e! The Young Master said for me to bring this to you." she said.
"Ah, the Young Master really knows what to do. Mey-Rin, please bring it over here." Sebastian said as Mey-Rin nodded and walked towards us, however, as she got closer, she suddenly tripped and accidentally let go of the bowl.
I was certain that the contents of that bowl will inevitably spill out but to my surprise, Sebastian caught the bowl just in the nick time.
"Whooaa..." I said, surprised with his reflexes that I couldn't help but clap my hands lightly.
"Ahh! I'm so sorry! I'm such clumsy person, I'm sorry Sebastian!" Mey-Rin said while she covered her face in shame.
"Just be careful next time, understood?" Sebastian said.
"Yes, I will! I'm sorry again!" Mey-Rin replied, still covering her face as she ran away crying, dramatically.
"My apologies about that, Mey-Rin is still kind of getting used to do house hold work." Sebastian said as he placed the bowl on his side, dipping the towel he had into it.
"It's fine, I'm sure she's trying really hard." I said.
"She is." Sebastian replied as he begins to wipe the blood on the sides of the wound, "Please tell me if you feel any sort of pain."
"I can barely feel your hand to be honest, you have a very gentle touch." I said as I watched while he cleaned the sides of the wound.
"Thank you for your compliment, my lady." He replied as he continues to make sure the sides were clean. "I will be pulling out the shard now, are you ready my lady?" He said, and I got kinda nervous.
"Uuhh to be honest, not really? But...I don't want that thing to stay inside my wound for long. Just...just please do pull it out gently." I said looking pretty nervous, but then, Sebastian suddenly giggled.
"That's quite a sad thing to say in bed, my lady." He said as he held out a laugh, and I didn't really get his point.
"Eeehh?" I said, still thinking about what I said wrong.
"Don't mind it, my lady. Please breathe deep, I will pull it out now." He said, still trying to hold out a laugh. He took a second to clear his thoughts and pulled the shard gently. My thigh felt extremely painful on the process, so I closed my eyes in pain. When I felt that the shard was finally pulled out, I opened my eyes and exhaled all the air I had and somewhat finally felt free.
"Phew...that was bloody painful. I'm so glad it's done. Thank you again Sebastian." I said as took deep breathes to forget the pain.
"Please don't mind it. We'll just clean up the wound then I'll bind it with a bandage." He said as he once again tend to the wound.
As I watch every inch of his move, my mind couldn't avoid remembering my old butler once again. "How is this even possible? The color of his hair, the length of his eyelashes, the paleness of his skin, the bloodshot color of his eyes. How can he be so similar to my old butler? The way he moves, his amazing reflexes, it's so much like my Sebastian. I hate you Sebastian, why do you have to make me remember about my Sebastian? It's so unfair..." I said to my mind when Sebastian looked at me in the corner of his eyes.
"Is there anything you'd like to say, my lady? You can tell me anything, I'm good at keeping secrets." He said, smiling at me. Probably trying to make me feel comfortable around him.
"Nothing, don't mind me, it's nothing..." I said, somehow still shy in opening up to Sebastian.
"Oh I'm certain it's not nothing. Am I reminding you of your old butler again?" He said, and I was surprised at how he accurately guessed what I was thinking. Maybe I was just too obvious. As much as I want to keep my thoughts to myself, I somewhat had a feeling that it's okay to tell Sebastian what I was feeling right now, so I decided to finally say something.
"Heh, you guessed right. Sebastian, I...I don't mean to hurt your feelings but...I really hate you for looking so much like my old butler. Every time I see you, the pain of his loss always returns to me. It took me years to feel numb from this feeling but, when I met you, all I can see in you is him. I feel so...messed up...like somewhere someway, there's this small voice saying...hoping, that you are my Sebastian even though its impossible." I said, finally saying all the stuff my mind keeps saying.
"My lady...if I may ask, how may years had passed since your butler died?" Sebastian asked me as he takes some bandages on the second drawer of the cabinet near the bed.
"15 years." I replied silently.
"Then you must have really loved him so much that he could still haunt you after 15 years." He said, raising my leg a little so he could wrap the bandages around my thighs.
"I- I think so. I...never loved anyone else as much as I loved that person." I said smiling a little as I remember him, "He's basically everything in my life...my family, my teacher, my guardian, my best friend..." I continued, then somehow felt angry all of a sudden, "...and how did he repay that love I gave him? By shooting himself in front of me, not even saying why." I said, finally turning sad as I remember that haunting day once again.
"'Lucille..." Sebastian said, and I looked at him surprised for calling me by my name. "...I'm sorry." He added as he gave me the most warmest smile I've seen from him so far, "I'm sure that's what you're butler would say if he was here."
The small feeling of anger and sadness vanished with that simple action of Sebastian. I had this strange feeling that his words were actually coming from my Sebastian, and that alone made me so enlightened. "Thank you...I needed that." I said smiling back, a smile that came from my heart.
"There we go, all fixed and cleaned. All you need now is to change your clothes. Would you also want me to help you with that?" He said, breaking the serious aura around us and teasing me.
"Silly, no thank you, I think I can manage from here. Go ahead and go back to Ciel, I'm sure he needs you." I replied to him.
"Very well, my lady." He said he cleans up the mess, "I hope I helped you in some way." He added as he bowed before leaving the room, closing it behind him.
I couldn't help but smile the moment I was alone at the room. For the first time in 15 years, I felt no pain while remembering my old butler, as I know in some way or another, he sent that message through Sebastian to apologize, and that was all I needed.
I was about to close my eyes and sleep when I remembered what happened earlier:
"...I don't want that thing to stay inside my wound for long. Just...just please do pull it out gently."
"That's quite a sad thing to say in bed, my lady."
"You naughty butler!" I said as I finally understood what he mean, and I couldn't stop laughing at it.
Author's Note: Thank you so much for the continued love everyone! will now be updating weekly so I hope you continue to support the future chapters! A lot of things is still going to happen so stay tuned! 3 Thank you again! :)
