Hello everyone, warning this chapter is nothing but depressing.
Last time I check I don't own anything except Ryan
Beta read by Sabrina06
Ryan's POV
Several days have passed since I pushed Katie and ran. That day is still fresh in my mind especially now, since I've been suspended from school. I wish I could undo everything, a fresh start but that's never going to happen now. I stayed in my room for the majority of the time wanting to be alone. My mother knew when I need to be alone; but this time she should have been here. What do I do now with my life now? I thought. I haven't felt this way since my sister died.
I decided to do it. To end my life. I'm tired of feeling pain all the time I just have to go and join my sister. I left a note on the kitchen table and grabbed a knife. I went to the park to get some fresh air and be somewhere peaceful when I end it all.
As I walked, I passed by the lodge again my mind starting to replay that day. I hung my head in shame and my eyes began to water. Katie hates me for shoving her and she'll never forgive me. I thought as I entered the park.
I found a tree to sit under and relax. I took a deep breath as I stared at the lake. I could hear the birds chirping and moving through the branches of the tree. I closed my eyes thinking about how my sister and I would identify the birds by their song, I remembered how she would enjoy climbing into the branches to be near them.
"Sis," I began talking to myself, "you may be gone but, somehow… it feels like your still here with me." I sighed and continued, "Get ready for some company sis I'm coming."
I rolled up my sleeve and took the knife in my hand, just as the steel touched my skin I heard someone call my name.
"Ryan, don't!" Someone yelled.
I opened my eyes and noticed Katie and Isabella standing near me looking fearful.
Normal POV
"Why shouldn't I, at least I'll be at peace." Ryan said.
"Ryan, please put the knife down, let's talk about this." Katie pleaded.
He laughed as he got up and said, "Talk, talk, everyone that I have talked to has betrayed me. This is my final option."
Katie looked at him and said, "Ryan, I can see that something is eating at you. Your actions don't explain the real you. Why do you insist that you face your problems alone, why don't you let anyone in?"
"Because, everyone that I have let get close to me; have always betrayed me. I face my problems alone it's the only way I cope. Yesterday you saw what happens when I get mad and later, why I avoid being friends with people. I attack anyone who touches me." He sadly stated.
"That's not the reason Ryan; you're doing this because of something else. Why are you doing this Ryan?" Isabella asked.
He hung his head in shame, began to cry and said, "I want to see someone again and this is the only way."
"Would this someone be Shannon?" Katie stated.
"How do you know that name?" He asked surprised, yet angry.
She pulled his locket out of her pocket and said, "Your locket was lying on the ground after the fight with Alex, I saw it and picked it up. I'm sorry my curiosity got the better of me so… I looked inside and saw the picture and writing."
"I want to see her again and this is the only way, I'm sorry but… it has to end today." He said as he lifted the knife to his throat, but as he moved the knife up someone grabbed his arm and pinned him to the ground. This person was Buford.
"Please, please!" Ryan begged, "Let me end my life, let me be with my sister!" He struggled against Buford but to no avail. He then just sobbed.
"Call an ambulance!" Buford exclaimed.
Isabella immediately called 911 on her cell phone while Katie just stood dumbstruck while still holding Ryan's locket.
lmL.
