CHAPTER 9. SHOCKS AND SURPRISES.
A PICTURE TELLS A STORY: THE GREEN EYED MONSTER.
DISCLAIMER. BONES BELONGS TO FOX.
Brennan walked into the diner being careful to be discreet. She wanted to see what her friends were doing. Liar. You just want to spy on Booth. You just want to see how he is towards her. Brennan told the little devil on her shoulder to shut up.
Brennan saw Angela and Hodgins had rented a few tables to themselves; the manager of the diner had put huge red curtains separating the few tables from the others so they could have some semblance of privacy. Angela and Hodgins were chatting with Wendell while Cam and Michelle fawned over little Vinnie. Where was Booth? She looked towards the dance floor and saw Hannah and Booth dancing. Hannah was flirting with him outrageously, but Booth didn't seem to be that happy. He looked like his mind was a million miles away. She continued to watch him and then Booth looked up and caught her eye. He had to grin as he watched Angela walk over towards her and hug her tightly. Angela was happy and radiant, while Brennan was... She was unhappy. And as he looked closely he noticed for the first time that she looked a little pale and worried.
As if Hannah could sense Booth's distraction she turned around and saw Brennan. Hannah turned and looked at Booth's face. She saw love in his eyes. She saw how much he wanted to be with her. She sighed. She suddenly realized that there was no hope for the two of them. They were officially over. She had flirted with him, held him close, rubbing as much of her body over his as she could but Booth had continued to keep her at arms length. She didn't want to believe it was over.
She glanced at Booth and lightly said. 'You and Brennan huh?'
Booth sighed, and then nodded.
'Look, Booth. Temperance is my friend and as much as I like her... I still love you. I made a mistake. You and I had something once. What we had was good and I didnt appreciate that. I know I didnt appreciate it. I know that I hurt you when I turned down your proposal but I'm...
'Hannah. Booth interrupted. Stop please.'
'No, Booth. Let me finish. I love you and I would like to have another chance with you. I needed to ask you to give me another chance. Another chance for us to be happy. I've got tickets to go to a Led Zeppelin Concert. I know how much you love them. It's for next week. Are you available?'
Booth thought about everything they had been through together. He thought about the day when they had first met. The day he had saved her. He thought about how he had acted with her. He had run around with her like he had been a college kid without any responsibilities. He was 39 years old. He had a ten year old son. He had responsibilities. What he wanted most was a stable, long term , steady relationship. Something that he knew Hannah couldn't give him. Their relationship was purely physical and Booth wanted more than that. He looked behind Hannah and saw Brennan walk towards the ladies room. He looked down at Hannah and sighed in regret as he saw the hopeful expression on her face.
'Hannah. He said gently. I...No. No, I'm not available. Bones and I...I dont know what I have with her but I want to find out...I'm sorry.'
Hannah nodded. She felt numb. She took in a big breath and let it out loudly. She smiled.
'I appreciate how hard that was to say. Tell you what. If things don't work out the way you hope they will with Temperance. Look me up and give me a call; I might just give you another chance. Booth smiled at her and shook her hand as the song ended. He watched Hannah as she headed over towards the table and said something to Angela and Hodgins. He looked at the piece of paper in which Hannah had written her cell phone number and then he tore it up into little pieces. He knew that he would never take Hannah up on her offer.
Brennan looked at herself in the mirror. Despite the fact that she had just reapplied some more blush she still looked pale. She rubbed her stomach wishing that she didn't feel so nauseous. I thought they called it morning sickness not night sickness. Thought Brennan humourlessly. Brennan took a deep breath trying to settle her stomach but it didnt help. She practically ran to the stall and retched. She coughed and then listened to the sound of the toilet flushing. She slid to the ground breathing heavily, her legs feeling weak. She couldn't handle this alone anymore as she wiped the sweat off her forehead. She wished she didn't feel so alone. She sobbed as silently as she could, she felt broken. Get up Brennan. You've lived through harder things than this.
She got up and wiped the tears away from her face. And then she walked out of the bathroom stall and reapplied her blush, eyeliner and mascara which had rubbed off because of her crying fit. She thought about the conversation she had had with Angela not ten minutes ago.
Angela walked over to her and hugged Brennan. Brennan leaned into her friend, feeling grateful for the hug. Angela handed her an alcoholic drink and Brennan pretended to have a sip when Angela insisted that a drink was exactly what she needed. Angela noticed where Brennan was looking and she looked at Brennan sympathetically.
'So what's going on with the two of you, lately?' Asked Angela leading her away from hearing range of the others.
'I'm so confused Angela. Booth and I slept together; that night was amazing and it meant everything to me. But i'm not sure if it meant anything to him. I'm not sure how he feels about me, anymore. I just feel so angry. It's like as soon as Hannah shows up again he falls all over himself for her. I just wish I knew if he feels something for me.'
Angela smiled a little impishly. There's only one way to find out how he feels. Sex.'
'Sex?' Repeated, Brennan dumbly. What?... You mean we should have sex again?'
'Yes. I dont think having sex on the night Vincent Nigel Murray was shot was a very great idea; you were both extremely emotional; no wonder you're confused. If Vincent Nigel Murray hadn't been killed would it have still happened?'
'Angela, I dont understand. It did happen..'
'Just answer my question, Bren.'
Brennan sighed. 'I dont know. I dont know whether I would have slept with him if Vincent Nigel Murray had never been killed. Maybe it would have just been another night for us...'
'Well there's a saying in these situations, Bren. One time might be a mistake, but twice, twice matters.'
'Do you think Booth and I having sex was a mistake?'
'No Sweetie, of course not. I think you and Booth care about each other very much, but you've been running away from those feelings for a long time. I think the two of you should stop avoiding your feelings for each other. Just think about it, okay?'
'So if I have sex with him again I won't be confused?'Asked Brennan...
She sighed as she lifted up her red top glancing at her stomach; she turned to the left. And then to the right. She knew her body didnt look any different and that nobody would be able to tell she was pregnant. She knew she wouldn't start to show till at least the fourth month but she still felt a little paranoid. She had been so distracted staring at her stomach in the mirror that she hadn't noticed Hannah had walked in. Hannah. She was the last person she wanted to see or talk to.
Hannah and Brennan's eyes met as Brennan hurriedly pulled her shirt down. Hannah saw vulnerability in Brennan's eyes and she knew.
'Oh, Temperance. You're pregnant aren't you? Booth's the father?'
Brennan closed her eyes. And then a few more tears leaked out and she brushed them away frustrated with herself. She never cried. She nodded.
'Have you told Booth, yet?'
'Not yet. And i'd appreciate it if you wouldn't tell him. Or anyone else. I'll tell them when I'm ready. I think I should go home; I'm really not feeling that well...'
Hannah watched in shock as Temperance left. Temperance Brennan pregnant. Wow. I never saw that one coming. If I know Booth he's going to be overjoyed...Hannah thought bitterly. She watched as Temperance walked over to the table and said her goodbye's, Booth looking at her with a concerned expression on his face as she told them she was leaving. Hannah saw a look pass between Brennan and Booth and Hannah turned away. She couldn't bear to see him looking at her in that way, when just four months ago Booth had been the one looking at her in that special way. Hannah wanted to leave for New York again that night but she decided against it. Angela had invited her to come to the christening after party and she decided to take her up on the invitation...
