A.N. Like I promised here's chapter 8 of I Care. Please don't hate me. And please let me know if you have any ideas for the plot otherwise there's only going to be a few more chapters.


It had been over a month since Ciel's relapse. Sebastian had stayed by her side only leaving her when it was absolutely required of him. Ciel was working on getting better but she found that it was hard. Even though at night Sebastian laid by her side she found that she was consumed by the darkest parts of her mind. They filled her head with voices that were anything but kind and helpful to her.

Sebastian noticed this change in the young demoness that he had fallen so head over heels for. She seemed withdrawn at times and she would also talk to herself when she thought she was alone or that he wasn't paying attention. He was extremely worried but he knew she hadn't cut in a the little over a month since the last time. Sebastian knew that she wasn't going to heal overnight but he figured she would make some progress by now. He was determined not to give up. That wasn't his style of doing things and he knew that if he gave up on her she wouldn't heal but only get extremely worse in the end.

Ciel paced around nervously in her room sighing softly. She knew that Sebastian had to deal with those idiots but she didn't like being alone. When she was alone that is when those awful thoughts came out. Ciel was doing well resisting the urge to harm herself even though the urge was strong. She sat in her windowsill looking over the yellow orange of the setting sun. It was funny to her. While everything else would be preparing for the night by sleeping and other things of that nature she would be sitting there with her own personal darkness clouding her mind.

It didn't take much to see that Ciel was forming a mental block between her and anything on the outside of her mind. She barely let Sebastian in and to be honest it was the one thing that scarred the demon. He knew that this was bad and he hated seeing the love of his existence being like this. All Ciel wanted was to get over this but the thoughts in her head would not allow that and she wondered if she would ever be normal again.

Ciel got off the windowsill and started to pace around her room. She was fighting a mental war with herself the was very evenly matched and it seemed like there would be no winner in this war between mind and body. She collapsed onto her bed and closed her eyes. even if she couldn't sleep since she was a demon she could still lay on her bed with her eyes closed shut off from the world.

Sebastian came into the room and sat by her side stroking her hair gently. Her wide midnight blue eyes opened to look up in Sebastian's crimson red ones and bit her lip slightly. "Sebastian will I ever be normal again?" She asked him a frown apparent on her face. He frowned and hugged the young demoness to him and gently rocked back and forth. "Ciel you will be what you consider normal again. I don't doubt that and I truly believe that you will overcome this and and be okay again."

Ciel hugged him tightly burying her face into his chest and started to sob. She hated crying. It made her feel weak and worthless. Ciel had always felt like when she cried a little piece of her broke and she could never get it back because if she was weak enough to cry then she was to weak to get it back. But no matter how much she wanted to stop and regain her composure she just sat there sobbing Sebastian gently rubbing her back.

Sebastian didn't know what to do. He had never seen Ciel cry like this and the only thing he could try to do to help her was hold her while she cried and rock back and forth while rubbing her back. He wondered if she would ever be the way she was when he had first met her. That they would have to find out in time but until then they could only sit there and wonder what was going to happen to them as a couple and as the only ones that understood each other.