Hi there! I managed to upload this chapter on Christmas! Merry Christmas everyone! May joy and blissful days come to us. It was the longest chapter I had ever write for this story and I hope I didn't disappoint you. Thanks to Fujiyuki-san and lesmystiquestar-san for your review. I appreciate it so much. Now,Enjoy minna-san! I own nothing from this men. *sad*


Tezuka Kunimitsu had always been a serious boy.

He was born in a traditional family with a strict father and a stricter grandfather which made him became a too serious boy for his age. They put much expectations to him. Everyday he followed the schedule his grandfather arranged and did the workout his father planned. The only one who treated him as a little boy was his mother but it was rare chance to spoil the youngest Tezuka because of his attitude. His father and grandfather's influence were too much.

His father taught him how to be a boy who could protect the weakling,how to press his fear and changed it into his strength. His grandfather taught him how to think logically, "You'll find that it is easier to solve your problem with your brain than your heart." that what his grandfather always taught him,he also taught him how to never surrender to reach something he wanted,to be a resolved man. For them,feeling like sadness,pity,and desperation were not needed and so they should be thrown away. The feeling like love,affection and adoration were needed by the women only,as a truly man they shouldn't show their emotions easily. It was not manly.

The little Tezuka already knew how to put his emotions and feeling into boxes. The sadness,pitiful and embarrassment would be put in a box which would be thrown away. He would never thought about it anymore. He would learn from that experience. The feeling like happiness,pride and love would be kept in a better box which he would cherish when he remembered.

His mother tried to teach him that it was fine to play and showed his emotions when he felt it. She taught him to be more egoistic,to be more childish and to be more expressive. Tezuka didn't see any good in doing those. So he kept his father's and grandfather's dictation more into his head. His mother still loved him no matter what he did,though.

He also thought that people should be more guarded and keep walking in the line. They shouldn't do something unnecessarily. People shouldn't let their guard down.

So,when a little Fuji Syusuke entered his life,he threw Tezuka's world into chaos. He often made Tezuka questioning himself.

"What is this called?"

"The flower bed."

"What is this for?"

"It's used to plant the flower."

"Why did you put that plan into a pot?"

"It grows better when we separated it from the other."

Fuji looked around again. He squatted next to Tezuka who was busy planting his new plants. He wanted to finish it before dinner but Fuji made it became a difficult task. He didn't stop asking questions about the plants and everything else about them.

"Why did that tree so small?" Fuji pointed at a small tree in a pot.

Tezuka looked at the pointed tree. "It's called bonsai. People made it smaller so we can enjoy it better than the bigger one."

"Does the tree have a chibi fairy too? How do you make a small tree?" Fuji asked with a bright smile.

Tezuka thought about it for a moment and explained to Fuji how to cut and bend the branch and then how to take care of its leaves by looking at the branch and trunks. He even quoted his grandfather's technique. When he looked at the smaller boy again he was dissappeared from his position and was wondering next to the bonsai,with a scissors with him.

Tezuka managed to distract Fuji before he succeed cutting all of his grandfather's bonsai's branch which could cause a disaster. Fuji calmed down and started to ask 'why' again. Tezuka didn't mind it though,because being with Fuji was always fun.

It didn't take a long time before Fuji also helping him with gardening. Tezuka would dug a hole and Fuji would place a plant into the hole,Tezuka would close the hole and solidify it.

They worked in a harmony for the next hour. Then suddenly Fuji stopped working and sat on the ground.

"What's wrong? Are you sick?" Tezuka asked in a concern voice.

Fuji shook his head but he looked at the ground with his bangs closed his eyes.

"Fuji,what's wrong? Do you hurt yourself? I'll take some medicine,okay?"

"No. It's not. It's just.. Why don't you have cactus?"

"Cactus?" Tezuka decided to rest for awhile and sat next to Fuji.

"Un.. It's a nice plant,you know. It has many shapes. Mama bought me a book about cactus. I love it so much. We even went to the botanical garden. It was fun,you know. There were many shapes of cactus I don't know yet. There even a heart shaped cactus!"

Tezuka was amused by Fuji's antics. He was really a cute boy. Tezuka could spend his time watching the little Fuji speaking.

"But..ne.. Mama didn't allow me to bring back a cactus." Fuji pouted.

"Why?"

"It could hurt Yuta. He was a little boy,you know. Yuta could be spiked by its thorns. So for now I can only read from the book. Mama said she was going to bring me there again..but she is always busy." Fuji exhaled.

"It's okay. Someday you'll have your own cactus and you can even open your own botanical garden."

Fuji's smile back onto his face. "Un.." Fuji nodded and then they started to work again.

That night Tezuka spent his night reading about cactus from his grandfather's book collection.

He bought a small,pretty cactus for Fuji's birthday present. It had soft thorns so it would be safe for both Fuji and his brother. Fuji was delighted by his cactus. For Tezuka,Fuji's smile was worth more than his world.

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Girls often confessed their undying love to him but he didn't find any interest in them although almost all of his friends were envying him.

Tezuka ignored them. Fuji is better. He is cute,delicate boy with a porcelain skin which always looks so soft and plump to be touched. It's not like Tezuka always touch it. Tezuka never,okay may be twice,thrice,forget it. He never missed his chance to touch Fuji.

When Tezuka entered the junior high,puberty hit him. It hit him hard.

His teacher taught them that it was normal to feel attracted by the opposite sex. Many of his friends talk about girls in their class,who was the prettiest,who was the sexiest,who was the cutest. Tezuka didn't see any cuteness or attractiveness from the opposite gender. His friends didn't believe in him when he answered no one was attractive enough for him. It's true that several female students were prettier or cuter than the rest but physical factors were ambiguous, just like how people thought about flowers. Some would love rose but the other would like lily more.

To put it simple,Tezuka would better being with Fuji than any girls around him. Fuji was a great boy,he was an independent boy,he had his own conviction,he would help people even if he would lost something in the end. As a young boy,Fuji had many knowledge about plants which always been an usual topic for their conversation. He even could make his grandfather laughed. Tezuka could spend all his day to point out Fuji's special quality.

Tezuka really did love to spend his days with Fuji. He loved—

—Fuji.

Was that wrong? Wasn't a boy supposed to love a girl?

Tezuka search for an answer from books but it didn't help much. He wanted to ask his teacher but he didn't manage to find a right way to ask. He couldn't ask anyone else. This feeling disturb him for a long time. Should he keep this feeling without knowing it was fine or not? Or should he forget it all?

This brought him into a little discussion with his mother. He was hesitated at the first but his mother encouraged him to tell her his problem. When he finally told her his preference,his mother was shocked. They didn't say anything just thinking in the silent. Tezuka waited for his mother's response till he thought she and his family would never aprroved his preference. He almost ashamed after that moment but his mother took his hand and told him that they would never abandoned their beloved son just because he was 'special'. They would still love him the same,a big relief for Tezuka.

Their conversation interrupted by Fuji's visit. Tezuka couldn't confess more than that to his mother cause by the little cute yet curious boy.

"Syuu-kun.. You are so cute,right Kunimitsu? I hope he is my son. You should treat him well as a little brother you don't have,Kunimitsu! Mama would be very glad if you both are brothers." His mother then left them to make dinner.

Brothers? Mother wants Fuji to be his brother? Can't Fuji become more than that? Can't he treat Fuji more than that? Is it wrong to love Fuji? Is his mother going to be mad at him if he love Fuji more than that?

Although his mother said it was fine but he could see a hint of sadness and disappointment in her eyes. Tezuka hurt her enough and he didn't want to make her and his family suffer more.

In the end Tezuka Kunimitsu decided that he would bury his feeling for Fuji since he knew they would never be able to own each other.

It would be the best. He would love Fuji as a brother would. He would help the little boy when nobody would. He would keep his distance but always been his side,like a brother so when Fuji found someone he loved and cherish he would dissappear into the darkness.

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A senior high school was really different from his previous junior high. Everyone was more mature and more responsible to their life. Tezuka really enjoyed it except a man called Atobe Keigo. He was a rude,narcissistic and good at nothing except his show off. That what Tezuka thought at the first but after some times he spent with the grey headed boy he knew that the boy also had his own problems.

They didn't need a long time to be a friend although some of their friends thought they would never be friends. Atobe was a man with a big confidence and enjoyed to show it to everyone whereas Tezuka was a quiet one who believe people should keep themselves together. While Tezuka liked to do his works by himself,Atobe would gladly hand his works over to his friends because "Oresama is too good to do this kind of job!" which ended with extra works for Tezuka. In another chance,Tezuka wanted to finish his works as fast as possible but Atobe liked to procrastinate so they often handed the school's works with a glare from their teachers. Much toTezuka's delight.

Tezuka didn't know what possessed him to be with such a man yet he enjoyed their time together.

"Tezuka nii-chan! Let's meet at the Christmas's eve! I'll wait at the bench we always go together." Fuji popped right in front of his door.

"Aa.." Tezuka looked at Fuji's features of fluffy Fuji who donned in a big fashionable jacket,wrapped by a big scarfs altogether with an ear muffler -don't forget about the pinkish cheeks- for a moment but shook his feeling away. He then took off to catch his bus. Last night he stayed out late to fill the students council work and together with his tennis club. He almost late to his school also he had test at the first period.

His days filled with a busy activities and his sleep deprived days showed up its results.

"Why do we have to come to school and do this stupid students councils' job when we should already have our holiday,ahn?" Atobe slammed the paperwork on the table but Tezuka didn't take any attention to him.

"You can go home,Atobe. I'll continue it by myself."

"Oresama never leaves his works unfinished,hmph!" Tezuka looked unamused.

"Look! It's snowing,Tezuka!"

"I hope you have finished your works." Tezuka replied flatly.

"Ahn.. Oresama has finished his parts. It's you who work too slow." He snorted.

"You can go home,then. I'll lock the door when I go home later."

"You really don't get it,huh,Tezuka."

Tezuka sighed,this man surely liked to talk. He still needed to finish the final reports and wrote down the next year schedule. So much work.

"I still have much works,if you by chance have something to tell me then do tell. I don't have enough time to play your little game,Atobe."

"Still a man with strict rules."

"Atobe.." Tezuka growled.

"It's a good night,Ahn? Snowing and everything. People prefer to spend it with a beloved one,huh?"

Tezuka decided to ignore Atobe's rant and finish his works faster since Atobe lost his brain after did his works and Tezuka didn't have much time to hear it.

"...like you. Do you hear Oresama,Tezuka."

"Sorry. I didn't catch it."

"Oresama wants you to be his boyfriend,Tezuka."

"Atobe"

"It's been more than a half year now after entered this school. Oresama thought it would be another boring school but then Oresama met you. You should be glad that Oresama choose you,Tezuka."

"Are you drunk,by chance?"

"What a rude man! Oresama never need a drink to tell his feeling. So what do you say,Tezuka?"

Tezuka studied the rich boy and he showed a nervous smile unlike his usual narcissistic smirk. His cheeks also tinted by a blush. He was serious.

Tezuka never thought that the rich boy would confess to him. He was too proud to do that yet he did it. Tezuka really appreciated it,except his heart belonged to someone else. He couldn't accept this boy.

"I'm faltered but I'm sorry. I like someone else so we are better be friends,no more than that. Thank you,Atobe."

"Are you serious? You turned Oresama's confession down? There won't be another chance to win over Oresama for the next time,you know?" He looked confused and ashamed.

"I know." If Fuji didn't take a big part of his heart he would think about it.

Atobe stood from his chair and headed to the door. "Oresama.."

"Hn?"

"Oresama will wait and Oresama sure that you'll come to Oresama in the end."

"Aa.."

With that Atobe slammed the door close and left Tezuka with the works,alone.

"Tezuka-kun. Is Syusuke with you right now? He hasn't come home yet. I'm just making sure that he is fine."

Fuji!

When he arrived to the promised place Fuji was so pale and cold. He then collapsed on the snow. Tezuka got panic and guilty to make someone as important as Fuji to suffer. He put Fuji into his embrace and brought him home in the bridal style. He chanted 'I'm sorry' in each of his step,asking for a forgiveness from the God and from the little boy in his arms.

"He is still a little feverish but it is lower than the previous night." Fuji's mother informed him when he visited Fuji.

"I see. I'm sorry to make such a problem for you,Fuji-san."

She smiled at him with an assured smile,"It's okay. I know it was Syusuke who stubbornly asked you to meet him. I couldn't stop him and I know he would leave quietly and waited for you even if I prohibit it."

"I'm sorry."

"It's okay now. He will learn his lesson from this experience. Thank you,Tezuka-kun."

Fuji's mother left him and went to shop their daily needs so Tezuka volunteered to watch Fuji over.

"Fuji." Tezuka said and walked into the bedroom.

The room was dimmed and the boy was sleeping soundly on his bed. His face was little flushed from the fever and he muttered something in his sleep. Tezuka took the cloth on his head and rinse it with fresh water then placed it again on his head.

He took the study chair and sat next to the little boy. His guilt was eating his up. How could he forget about their appointment? What was Fuji's intention to wait in the middle of night? Tezuka tugged Fuji's hair and placed it behind Fuji's ear. Such a delicate boy.

"Baka." Tezuka murmured.

"Nii-chan.. I'm.. Sorry.. Nii-chan." Fuji said with tears flew from his closed eyes.

It was wrong. His feeling was wrong.

Tezuka felt his own tears dropped. How could Fuji think about people's forgiveness in his condition? Tezuka was the one who must asked for a forgiveness. He made Fuji collapsed and suffering so much. Fuji shouldn't do that,Tezuka didn't know what would happen if Fuji kept making Tezuka as his priority.

"Sorry.. Nii-chan.. I'm.."

Fuji was too precious. He couldn't damage their bond.

No. It's Wrong.

Wrong.

"I love you." Tezuka blurted

Tezuka was taken back by his action. What did he do? He didn't confess to Fuji,did he? He did but fortunately Fuji was unconscious to hear it.

Tezuka inclined his head towards the sick boy till his head hovered on the little boy. He stopped for a moment and he could feel Fuji's breath fanning his lips but then lowered his head until his lips touched the warm lips. He dragged his lipes to the corner of Fuji's lips and gave a little peck on to it. It was warmer than his own and softer. He kept his lips there for awhile to carve this moment in his memory for eternity. Let it be his own secret.

"I'm sorry. It's the last time. If my presence made you suffer so much then let me watch you from afar. Good bye,my love."

That night Fuji's fever went down while Tezuka caught a cold and had to bed rested for a week.

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Fuji's confession stopped his heartbeat but he suddenly remembered that Fuji would be never more than his brother. People always expected them to be brother and no one asked his opinion.

How could the fate so cruel to them? If they didn't meet a a childhood friend,could their story been different?

The face Fuji showed after his rejection almost made him kneeled, asked for forgiveness also asked him to be his boyfriend but he didn't do it. It's not fair to keep Fuji's hope so he rejected it although it teared his own heart too. He used his mother words about how they were brothers and nothing more. Because it was wrong and they were brothers. Brothers,he loathed that word. But still he convinced Fuji to accept it just as he did.

That day, his heart was broken eventhough he was the one who rejected the little boy. He prayed over and over for Fuji to find someone better than him and love him as Fuji deserved it.

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His separation from Fuji brought him closer to Atobe gradually. He didn't know how it started but suddenly he was in a relationship with the mentioned man. Atobe knew his feeling for Fuji and he still believed that oneday Tezuka would turn his love toward him,not Fuji.

He kept his relationship hidden and platonic. Yes,they were closer but they didn't held hand,didn't say the sweet words to each other,they date at Atobe's house,they even didn't have their first kiss yet after their first anniversary. Atobe was getting furious and Tezuka dodged all his advanced while pretending that nothing happened.

Atobe invited himself to his seventeenth birthday that day through his mother. He could be a devilish charming boy if he wanted to and his mother was trapped in his show. Tezuka wasn't interested in celebrating his birthday,moreover Fuji wouldn't be there. He knew he was a sly man,thinking another boy while having a boyfriend but he couldn't help it,Fuji had been the centre of his world for a long time.

His family weren't home when he arrived and Atobe walked casually into his house. As a good host,he made drinks and kept conversation flew. At the first they talked as usual, exchanging some jokes and sarcasms but the atmosphere changed suddenly when Tezuka mentioned his friend,Fuji. Atobe's face got darkened and suddenly they were kissing each other. Tezuka stopped him after a bruising kiss but he couldn't muster a will to stop him when he saw Atobe's distressed face.

"Why did you stop me,Tezuka? You told me that you would try,didn't you?" Atobe said in a shaking voice which made Tezuka felt culpable and pitied the man in front of him.

"Aa.. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'll try." Tezuka tilted his head and placed his lips onto Atobe's which accepted by the rich boy eagerly. They started making out on Tezuka's sofa with Atobe on top of Tezuka. Tezuka tried his best to forget and kept his attention to the boy on him instead. Yet,it was Fuji's hair he wanted to touch,Fuji's skin he wanted to feel and Fuji's lips he wanted to kiss. The thought of Fuji brought his body into an arousal. Their blazers were tossed aside together with their ties. Atobe kept touching him when Tezuka did too.

A gasp from a familiar voice woke him from his imagination. Tezuka was startled to see Fuji stood in his livingroom with a pale face. Tezuka didn't hear what Atobe and Fuji talked about,he wasn't aware of his condition since he placed his attention into the little boy only. It had been a long time since last he saw Fuji and the little boy surely grew into a sweetheart. He stood and asked Fuji what he needed.

Do you miss me?

Fuji suddenly dashed out of his house and he started to follow him bit Atobe's hand stopped him. "Let him go Tezuka. It is for the best. Isn't this what you wanted?"

Tezuka looked at the closed door and cursed himself. "Aa.."

Tezuka concluded that Fuji and him had to talk about his newfound relationship. He came over Fuji's place but little boy always found a way to slipped away from his hands.

Fuji,forgive me.

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His depatured to Germany was intentionally planned. Tezuka thought his anxiety to Fuji would change if they were separated and maybe someday they would be best friend again just like before. He didn't want to disappoint his family and Atobe,too.

The night of his depature celebration,he finally could talk to Fuji. He was taller now although his head didn't reach his chin yet. His sandy brown hair was at the chin length which suit him well. Fuji looked so sad and pale,he tried to give his best smile but he failed miserably.

He had to stop his hands from reaching out the little boy. They talked about his schooling abroad with Atobe and Fuji cut their conversation saying he had works to do. Tezuka reached out and hugged him.

This is for the last time. Only this once.

I'm sorry.

They separated that night. It's time to move on. Or so he thought.

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Living in Germany did give him a new perspective his constantly busy life kept him distracted from Fuji. He promised him to send a post card so when weekend came by he would sit in front of his table and started to write.

To Fuji.

Each week passed and he kept sending a post card to his little boy. He always asked how was the boy been,wrote about his life here and sometimes joke about the people he met.

Did you miss me?

Because I do miss you,so much that it hurt.

There was no reply from the little boy.

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His relationship with Atobe ran down the hill after the incident at his house. They did try to make this relationship work but their own feelings were overwhelming,Atobe with his nagging about how Tezuka didn't try his best while Tezuka with his hesitant behavior toward Atobe. He realized that he couldn't build a relationship from a pity and guilty yet,Atobe didn't want to understand. He kept Tezuka in his reach although Tezuka already kept his distance. Atobe still wanted them to be boyfriends while Tezuka thought it was the best for them to be friends.

Atobe was not satisfied and started to bring his one night stand boy or girlfriend. He always showed Tezuka how people worshipped Atobe and Tezuka should be glad that Oresama chose him.

A photo in a frame was sent to him from one of his boys or girlfriends,Tezuka didn't know which one. It was Atobe's photo taken from his bed,a very naked Atobe. Tezuka felt hurt,how could their relationship change so much?

Atobe confronted him one day saying he was tired of waiting him. Tezuka admitted it at the last,their relationship couldn't be more than friends. Tezuka would never be able to forget Fuji.

"If we met before you met him,would you love me more?" Atobe bowed and whispered sadly.

Could he?

"I don't think so. I'm sorry doing this to you but I think this is for the best. We should continue our life well. You are a great man who deserve someone better than me. Good bye,Atobe."

That day he moved out of Atobe's castle and lived alone,a quiet and peaceful life. Of course,together with a stack of postcard.

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Tezuka decided to go back to Japan and work there because it was closer to his family and his friends,he also didn't want to meet Atobe in the near future and the last was because it would be easier to meet Fuji.

He took a small vacation and went to his parents' house at Kanagawa. He expected to meet Fuji there yet he found that Fuji and his family moved back to Chiba and no,his mother didn't know or rather couldn't tell him where they live. He asked his mother at least five times a day about Fuji's whereabouts yet his mother kept her mouth shut. In the end he realized that his mother was told to keep silent about Fuji and his family. Tezuka went blank,he lost all of his connection with Fuji and he had to move to Tokyo immediately while not knowing Fuji's information,he could be anywhere in this world and Tezuka didn't know where to start with.

Before his departured,his mother forced him to admit his problem to her and finally realized that Fuji was his son's love and it was her fault so Tezuka couldn't get his happiness. She gave him Fuji's address and it gave Tezuka a big hope to find his love.

One month later he went to the address and the wanted man was no where to be seen. Fuji once again slipped away from him.

Tezuka was delighted when he saw Fuji at the interior office. His annoyance about his ruined house was replaced by a big smile -although subtle- when he saw the slender man.

Fuji had changed so much,his hair was longer now, he tied it with a red ribbon and placed it on his left shoulder. His features were sharpened although he still looked feminine,his cheeks bones were finer with a pointed nose,his lips looked plump and kissable rose pink,and his height..Still a little man,indeed. His head still hadn't reached Tezuka's chin. It was his voice which made Tezuka swayed. It was not heavy toned like himself but a light and soft voice,like a fine tuned flute. He loved all of Fuji.

Fuji looked uneasy when he saw him and Tezuka knew he would flew away at the first chance he saw so Tezuka made sure that Fuji always been his side. For Tezuka wouldn't let this chance slipped from his hand anymore. His mistakes made him suffer so did Fuji,his family and Atobe. This time he would fight for Fuji eventhough his family disapproved,eventhough he had to fight the world and eventhough the world end now. He would fight till Fuji became his.

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"I want a different color for my wall."

"Okay. Which is?"

"Blue." just like your eyes.

Fuji noted his request down. "Sure."

"I want to add a comfortable place to read and place a quite big table next to the window. I hope you can find a comfortable reading chair,preferably a set with the table."

Fuji didn't ask anything unrelated to his job,had he asked Tezuka would gladly answered. The chair and its table would be his present for Fuji. The slender man could spend his time reading his magazine or talked to his cactus there,while Tezuka was doing his job at his desk.

Fuji chuckled. "Sure."

"Anything else?"

"Nothing more."

"If that's all,we will start tomorrow. Is that fine?"

"Hn.."

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Tezuka's confession was true,he meant it but when he saw Fuji's reaction it made him cowered and convincing that he needed Fuji's need to chase one of his fans away. He didn't have any choice,he didn't want to ruin his brittle relationship with Fuji. He had to restraint himself to make a move on Fuji.

His client's daughter was an easy case,he knew how to get rid her easily but he wanted Fuji to help him,Fuji to care like before and monopolize all of Fuji for himself.

That night Fuji appeared and didn't let him down.

When he sat next to him all of his senses were attracted to the smaller man,his voice,his smell and his heat. His blue eyes were so mesmerizing. Tezuka couldn't move his eyes away from him. All he wanted to do was pulling Fuji into his embrace and kissed him senseless.

His thought moved into the dangerous area so he cleared his throat to hide his embarrassment.

When Kenzaki-san went home,Fuji teased him,"Really,Tezuka. I don't know you lose your 'woman repellent' magic now. I never see a desperate Tezuka before." He chuckled.

The answers were no and yes. No,he hadn't lose his repellent magic yet but he was truly desperate in his need of Fuji,so yes for his second statement.

Tezuka brought Fuji back to his home and served him omurice for dinner. They could had it at any restaurant there but he needed Fuji for himself that he couldn't stop himself to touch Fuji whenever he found it fits just like when they were younger.

Fuji's skin was still as smooth as before which lead him into a pervert (he never thought about something trivia as this before and it scared him now) and he wondered if his lips as soft as his skin too.

His curiosity was answered that night,too.

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Tezuka had never been jealous before,not to Atobe's lovers,not to his friends' pretty girlfriend,not to his competitors winning in their most difficult cases yet he was so jealous of Fuji's and his friends relation. They were so close,it may be closer than his relationship with Fuji before. Fuji always looked so happy and excited when talking about this man.

Did Fuji love him? More than his love to Tezuka? Were they lover?

No,they weren't because Fuji never talked about it. Or did he cover his relationship up? This feeling made him had a bad migraine at daylight and insomnia at night.

Fuji's words about his friends yet not lovers relationship between him and that man miraculously relieved him from his migraine and finally he could sleep well that night.

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"Yo! Tezuka. Oresama has an important matter to talk."

"Atobe." He answered flatly.

Tezuka was on his way to meet Fuji and to spend his precious weekend with a precious person but this man sudden appearance rang an alarm inside his head. Atobe was rarely associated with a good news for him,at least not after their separation.

"Well? Would you allow Oresama go in or we will just stand here all day long?" Atobe said in his usual voice.

Tezuka looked at Atobe with suspicious eyes ,"I don't have time this moment. Please meet me at my office tomorrow morning."

"It's an urgent matter and I do need your advice."

"It's my day off,Atobe."

"Oresama thought you won't refuse a difficult case? Oresama needs your advice now since Oresama will fly to New York to settle this matter. Oresama believes in your opinion."

"Ten minutes." Tezuka walked into his house with Atobe right behind him.

Apparently,ten minutes for Tezuka was different from Atobe. Atobe spent almost two hours talking,cursing and barking about his investment which faced problems. Tezuka tried to explain and found the solutions as best as he could but the complaining man wasn't bugged. He wasn't satisfied with Tezuka's solutions and demanded another one so two hours were spent with rounds of discussion (complaining and reasoning).

Tezuka glanced at his clock for the nth time and realized how late he was and he didn't want Fuji to wait any longer.

"I think that's all I can do for you. If you need any help please contact me through my office,my private time is off of the limit."

"What? Oresama still has many things to say! What's the matter anyway? It's your day off,isn't it?"

"I have an appointment."

"With whom? A king? A queen? Are they more important than Oresama?"

"Aa.. You can contact me if you find any problems tomorrow." Tezuka walked Atobe to his door and locked it.

"Well then.." He stepped away from his door.

"Tezuka,I.." Atobe stepped nearer to Tezuka but tripped on his foot which ended with his mouth on Tezuka's.

They ended with an awkward position but Atobe seemed enjoying himself. Tezuka pushed Atobe away but before his action succeed,Fuji saw them. It was his worst nightmare. He could see Fuji's sadness and disappointment. Tezuka heart soared with delight since Fuji looked so sad,he wouldn't be so sad if he didn't have any feeling for him,would he?

Although three of them met in a misunderstanding but he wanted to clear his intention to both of men. One was who would never got his heart and one who had his heart yet he denied it before.

Atobe dissappeared after his words to him but Tezuka vowed to ended it for eternally so the rich man wouldn't disturb them in the future unless he promised to behave.

Tezuka didn't let this chance go away,he confessed to Fuji at that moment too and was rejected.

He laughed in a cynicism.

First when he fell in love and Fuji confessed,he denied him. Now,after his resolution and confessed to Fuji,he was rejected.

"I'm sorry but you are too late. Eleven years to be exact. I just don't understand.."

He knew it wouldn't be easy to win over Fuji's heart. The damage had been made and their hearts wouldn't be same as before.

Fuji then rushed from his house,leaving him alone with his thoughts. Tezuka frown at Fuji's response,if the younger man truly hate him,he wouldn't said that right? Did he misinterpreted Fuji's intention? A person won't tell something to hurt someone else unless he was hurted too. If Fuji was hurted by his closeness with Atobe,could he keep his hope that Fuji still care?

Tezuka smiled. If he was eleven years too late then he only neeeded to cover up the lost years. He wouldn't let this chance away like before,he would do his best to woo Fuji and get their happy ending.

"Yuda sezu ni ikou,Fuji."


I'm sorry for the cliffhanger,again! *sorry BusyDoin'Nothin-san* I love to make people curious. *slap*

But at least we know how Tezuka actually felt,ne? Can you feel it? Can you? Review please !