i sit here and cry while i listen to music designed to cheer me up. secretly i think it has the opposite effect it wanted through me. i want to drown out my suffering with this music that tries to make me smile. all i hear is a bunch of jumbled notes that some idiot strung together and added words to. this isn't fair, you shouldn't have left me here while you're off having the time of your life. come back to me please. i don't think i can live without you much longer. it hurts too much and it isn't right! isn't not right for me to go crazy about this. i only wanted to be with you and look how that's turned out for me. i really hope you come back soon. you have no idea what i've gone through without you here. all i ever here is your voice and i am positive you're haunting my secretly. do you know how long it's taken me to get used to the things you do to my mentality? it's not healthy for me to be this obsessed with you because i can't live without you controlling my thoughts. if you have to be alive, then at least pretend to love me for one night and i will never bother you again for as long as we both live. although you might rip a part of me out and stomp all over it. would you be able to live through that and still see me alive?