I heard his voice and froze. It was him. After all these years, I finally got to see him. I feared the moment of facing him. He didn't look at me either. Our hands touched by accident and I felt like my skin was burning.
''Two of us here… How appropriate… Suckers for tragic love stories…''
''Brandon…''
''What? It's true… We are… ''
''It's not like that…''
''Tell me, was it at least worth it…?''
''What?''
''Getting adopted? Did you have the family you dreamed of… Did it feel ok growing up there and maturing in OUR mothers' warm presence and embrace…''
Teaers started rolling down my face….
''No… It was not like that…''
''Why?''
''I left soon after you..''
''Why?''
'' I couldn't stay there…''
''Why? I gave my best to say away Callie… I stayed away so you could have a normal life and a family… Me leaving gave you a family…''
''A laugh escaped me…''
''Oh, yes, you gave me family… You can't imagine what you gave me…''
''Are you being sarcastic now?'
''No, I am not…''
''What are you saying then?''
''I am saying… I can't do this now…''
I got up to leave and he came after me…
''Callie, finish what you wanted to say…''
''Why did you leave? I needed you so much….''
''I had to leave… I could never see you as my sister… I loved you Callie. How can you say that someone you love is your sibling?! You were just fine…with it all… You said nothing…''
''My father just died… I had no other option. It was either them or fostercare again…''
''FINE! You did what was best for Callie and I did what was best for Brandon…. You stayed and I left… But then you left too… Why?''
''I had to go….''
''Why?''
''Because I couldn't stand living there without you… Are you happy?!''
''No, and neither are you…''
''How do you know? Maybe I am…''
''I know you Callie… Never forget that…''
There was moment of silence so fragile and weird. He ended it with very bad suggestion…
''I need a drink…''
''Make it two…''
We went to his hotel bar and had few too much. As the level of the grew, our guards were falling. I told him I was a doctor and he looked proud of me. He told me he expected I would go into some social service or something related to children from the foster care.
''And what about you?''
''I am a music producer… I live and LA and I came here for some work…''
''You don't play anymore?''
''I haven't done it in a long time…''
''Why?''
He looked sad…
''I lost it Callie…''
''It will come back to you… It always does…''
''I haven't played and written anything in years. Last thing I did was a song on an album for Peter Small and that's all…''
Peter Small was pretty ok singer, but cute so he was very loved by the young girls…
''Was it good?''
''A ballad… Not many people know it… He is more into fast beats and stuff like that…''
''I believe it's amazing… You always could write a good song…''
''Just when I was inspired…''
I drank my drink in one sip and sked for more. Waiter came to us and said that the bar will close soon. We paid and got up. We were pretty drunk…
''I never saw you this drunk Jacobs…''
''Oh, we are back to that?''
''We apparently never moved from that…''
''You never saw me drunk because I don't drink…''
''Could fool me…''
'' Ha!''
''Let's get your drunken ass out of here…''
We got to the lobby and stood in front of the elevator.
He pulled me to him and kissed me. We were kissing and when elevator came, he pulled me in with him. I couldn't stop kissing him… Every rational part of me was screaming and telling me to get away, but I couldn't… I waited for this for thirteen years… Thirteen years later, I was back in bed with only man I ever wanted and who was off limits for so many reasons. I woke up in unfamiliar bed with major headache and familiar arm around me… I didn't dare to move… I was frightened.
''I know you are awake Callie…''
''How?''
''Your breathing changed…''
''Oh…''
He kissed my neck and my shoulder…
''Good morning gorgeous…''
I smiled… I missed those three words in the morning… I turned to face him…
''Good morning to you too…''
''How is your head?''
''Exploding…''
''Mine too… BUT they say there is one thing to cure it….''
''And what is that?''
I knew he was insinuating sex but I wanted to tease him…
''Food… Get your mind out of the gutter…''
''Oh… Food…''
'We can try your way too doctor…''
''I am sure we can..''
He kissed me and for some time his way was out of our minds. Being in bed with him again was…unexpected and fun…
We were cuddled up in bed and he was stroaking my back…
''You make me feel young again…''
''We are young…''
''Yes, we are… But you make me feel like all the things didn't happen… Like in that motel room we would sneak to when we were kids…''
''I loved when we did that…''
''Me too… I know that these expensive Egyptian cotton sheets can put to shame all of the motel ones, but…''
''I get it… You loved it…''
''No, I loved you and being there with you….''
''I loved it too…''
I looked at my phone. It was two in the afternoon and I had to go….
''I must go. I have a meeting at the hospital…''
''Will I see you again?''
''Tonight?''
''Sure… Where?''
''Here?''
''Ok…''
I got dressed and he kissed me good bye.
''Have a good day…''
''You too…''
My meeting went ok… They were sad I was leaving and they said I am always welcome to come back. I thanked them, but we knew I would not go back any time soon. I talked to school and they were sending transcripts to Lena. They were sorry we were moving and they told me to say hi to Michael and that he will be missed very much. I even packed some of the things from the house and at eight I was back at Brandon's hotel room and bed. We didn't bother to go out. It would be waste of time. He was leaving in the morning and we wanted to take advantage of the time we had. I loved making love to him. I forgot the feeling of someone close… I forgot how it feels to want and be wanted and I got it back… Brandon gave me back that part of me that was missing. I haven't been a woman in years. I was mom and doctor, but I was not anyone's woman and lover. And I missed that… I missed being in his arms.
''I love you Callie…''
''I love you too…''
He smiled…
''I missed hearing that…''
''And I miss saying it…''
At midnight he said he wanted to eat burgers… I remembered one time we went for burgers after spending most of the afternoon in the motel.
''You are so lame Foster…''
''And you love it…''
I went to the restroom to get dressed and take shower and he got dressed in the room. There was knock on the door and he opened them.
''Jennifer, what are you doing here?''
''What question is that? I am your wife… ''
''Why did you come?''
''I wanted some time alone with you… We never have time to be together at home…''
I opened the door and saw him with another woman. I was a bit shocked…
''This is Callie…''
''Oh, my God! Your sister! I can't believe we meet finally… I am Jennifer, Brandon's wife…''
I felt like someone kicked me in the gut… I had to leave the room as soon ass possible… I had to go…
''Nice to meet you too… I have to go…''
He tried to follow me..
''Callie…!''
''NO! I have to go… Leave me alone… Don't ever talk to me again!''
I walked out of the hotel and got into the cab. When I got home, I finally could cry and fall apart….
