Life in a new world
I've hesitated committing suicide for the longest time. I couldn't even remember the last time I tried…it have been just right after I met Kurogane. Do you ever ask yourself "What would happen if I didn't meet them?" I sure do. "Would I be dead?" "Would I have met someone else?"… "What would have happened?". I think that all the time. Sure it's something you would see in a movie or read in a book but face it, everyone thinks that way. I would, and still, think "What would have happened if I didn't go to college?" "What would happen if I didn't meet Kurogane?" "What if that didn't happen?".
X~X
That morning was different. Kurogane woke up before me, got ready before me, ate before me and got to class before me. In the middle of the class he got a text. I never seen the text but he showed it to the professor and he let him go. I tried to sneak out of class, so that I could fallow Kurogane, by saying "I need to pee" but the professor didn't let me go, because he probably knew I was sneaking out. As soon as class was done I booked it to our room.
"Kuroganeeeee~" I bursted threw the door like a way too happy child. I looked over to his bed and seen him sitting on his bed. After about five seconds later I realized something. There was a luggage case on his bed and all his belongings where out of the room. I looked around and put my hands on my hips.
"Remodelling or what?" I asked, leaning forward.
"No"
"Going on a trip?" I leaned forward again.
"No"
"Ummm…getting rid of your stuff?" and I leaned forward once again.
"No"
"Then what?" and again I leaned ever so forward.
He paused then said.
"I'm leaving *Ottawa" At that point I fell over onto my face.
"What!" I lifted my upper body off the ground with my hands but let my lower body limp on the ground.
Then he got up and looked down at me "I said I'm leaving" I think I was too shocked to say anything until he picked up his luggage and headed towards the door. I scrambled to my feet and grabbed his shoulders and turned him around.
"Why?" My voice was chocked like I was going to cry. Boys weren't supposed to cry everyone told you that. Boys who cried were pussies.
"Because that text you sent to everyone" He didn't look at me.
"What? I don't understand?" I shook my head.
"You sent that message to everyone I had on my phone right?" then he looked at me. "Yeah" was my only answer though.
"You sent it to one of my father's close clients who sent it to his friends who were going to give my family more money and invest in us but they despise of people who drink because their close friend was killed by a drunk driver and one of the deals we had was that none of us drink. So you sent a message to him saying "Bring lots of alcohol" then they told my father they wouldn't invest in us anymore and my father got pissed at me and told me to come home…" He pushed me off of him "There you go".
I couldn't say or do anything.
"Goodbye" The door closed slowly behind him. I collapsed to my knees and starred at the ground. Kurogane was my friend, whether I was a friend to him or not, he was still my friend. I never had a friend. I had people who I pretended where my friends, never someone like him. No one to get pissed at, no one to laugh your ass of with and no one who protected me. He was my friend and I loved him.
:O oh yes you know what the next chapter is!
So I might get to go ride Zero this Saturday! Yay!
This is my depression story so after this one is done I might make a sequel! What should I name it?
~Windy
