When we land in New York I'm totally mesmerized by the beauty of my new home. It's still day light so the city isn't alive with lights yet, I can't wait to see it tonight. I can't wait to see this beautiful city every night.

I should have figured Chris already had a car here. It's a white 2014 Audi with tinted windows so no one can see inside. The streets are full of people and it excites me since I'm from such a small town.

Chris finally pulls up in front of a large building that looks like it has at least thirty floors. I already know we live on the top floor. Chris pulls into the underground garage parking in an assigned spot. Getting out I inhale deeply, there are so many different smells I can't pin point what smell is what.

Chris, with Jaden in tow, wraps his arm around my waist, "You ready? I got a call saying everything is ready for us". I pick Jaden up as Chris leads us to the elevator.

Inside Chris punches in a code and the elevator moves up. "Unlike the rest of the floors in this building this elevator opens right up to our home".

Wow, fantsy. I put Jaden down only for him to cling to my leg. "So all our rooms are set up?", I ask as the elevator begins to slow down.

Chris laughs, "Of course, I wouldn't move somewhere and it not be ready for my arrival. Our rooms will be up stairs, guest bedrooms down stairs. A fully stocked kitchen with all the best appliances, a living room dinning room with the best view of the city at night. And we can see it all through wall windows".

The elevator finally stops with a ding and the doors open to a wall. I take Jaden's hand and step out to find a short hall leading to a door. Chris pulls out a key unlocking the door and gestures me inside.

I'm not sure what I was expecting. I mean yeah, I got a visual from Chris but actually seeing my home I had to stand there for a moment to take it all in.

I stand at the top of three steps that open to the living room. Going into the living room I see the dinning room off to the right and a coridoor that leads to the kitchen. To the left is a long hallway, on that wall is a fire place with a flat screen above it. A huge black U shaped couch in casing the space. "That hall is where the up stairs and down stairs bedrooms are. As soon as you walk into the hallway there's a stair case to your right", Chris explains.

I look around my home and smile. Jaden walks around the space then the wall window catches his attention and he slowly walks to it, not getting too close. I don't blame him, If there wasn't a faint glair on the glass from the sun light, you'd think there was nothing there. "I love it", I say as Chris wraps his arms around me.

"I'm glad. Susan, the maid, will be here in an hour to start dinner. She will do all the house work unless you or me says other wise. We will have a protective detail starting tomorrow when I go to work. When I get home we can talk about your schooling".

School, I forgot all about that conversation. I haven't thought about a school that sounds like me.

Should I go to Cornell or Columbia University. Maybe Union College or Barnard University. I just didn't know. Chris let me go then, "Let me show you our rooms".

I hold my hand out to Jaden and he quickly takes it. Chris picks him up and leads the way up stairs. The stairs curve to the upper floor and open to a wide hall way with two doors on the left and two on the right. Behind me is another wall window letting in natural light to the other wise dark stair case.

"Our room is the last door at the end on the left. This is Jaden's room". Chris opens the door to a toddler room decked in monkeys. I walk in totally surprised.

The walls are powdery blue with two pale green and yellow stripes running vertically around the room. Random baby monkeys dot the walls below and above the pale green and yellow stripes. The floors are dark mahogany unlike the hallway which is carpet. His chocolate crib sits off to the left away from the large window across from me. The wall across from the window sits his chocolate chess of drawers with his lotion and baby items on top. To my right is his closet and I open it to find it stocked with clothes.

I shake my head, the rest of his room is filled with toys, he even has a little book case next to a pale green arm chair with a monkey face on the back. Jaden begins pulling his toys out as I wrap my arms around Chris, "This was your idea wasn't it?", I ask looking up to him.

He smiles shyly as he looks everywhere but me, "I know you liked the monkey idea for him so I found the best baby room designer and told her what you like. This is the out come, she did a very good job". He finally looks at me touching my cheek, "Now we have to pick out a design for our baby. Any ideas?".

I smile at him as I think about it, "No, not at the moment but we have a while to figure it out".

He kisses me then reaches over turning on a baby monitor, "He'll have to get use to being left in rooms alone".

I shrug, it's not like he won't be occupied with all his new toys. I worried about the books though. Chris leads me back down stairs where I collapse on the couch. He leans over me smiling, "You look happy Mrs. Harrington. Am I responsible for that smile?".

I nod my head. I love my new home and I love him for putting this smile on my face. I reach up to pull him down on me, he kisses me and I'm lost. I wrap my legs around his waist holding him to me so he won't go anywhere, his fingers move my skirt up so he can play with my panties. I bite his lip as he pulls away, his green eyes on fire. I let go of his lip as he groans low in his throat making my lebido come back full fledged.

"I think we can be quick about it, what do you think baby?", he asks kissing down to my neck. I can't think, all I know is I want him right now and I don't have the patience for foreplay.

I push myself into his growing bulge making him gasp at the contact. He moves back a little to undo his belt and jeans then I feel him hot against me. We stare into each others eyes as he moves my panties aside and sinks into me oh so slowly. I have to bite my lip so I wouldn't cry out.

My eyes roll to the back of my head when he is deep inside me. My legs tighten around him as he balances himself on his hands. He doesn't move and it isn't because I wouldn't let him, he just didn't move.

It's been over twenty four hours since he's last been inside me and I miss it. I missed him like I have never missed anything before. Now that I think about it, I felt so empty and not the literal term but the feeling like something was missing and now I've finally found it. I can tell Chris feels the same way, I reach up to touch his face, his parted lips, his chin. Any part of his face my fingers can reach I'm touching it.

He pushes deeper into me making me gasp, he kisses my palm as he pulls out slowly then sinks back in. This isn't quick and I didn't care, I missed him. "More?", he mumbles before doing it again. I nod as he finally restes his body on mine giving me his full weight. "I'm sorry baby, I can't do fast right now. Bare with me".

I completely understand where he is coming from. I tighten my legs around his waist as he pulls out then slams back into me making me jolt forward. I'm so turned on you can hear it.

Chris continues to slowly make love to me. Speeding up ever so often only to slow down again. My fingers find their way under his shirt where they sink into his skin as he finally begin to pick up speed, he kisses me hard as our pelvis smacked together in a rush to sudate our craving for each other which I know will never be sated no matter how many times we make love.

"Oh baby, I'm almost there", he groans. I am too, I can almost taste it. I then push him off me and continue on to straddle him. Taking his shoulders I slowly sink back onto him, he rewards me with a growl as I begin moving. Can it be possible that this is the best way for me to show how much I want him. When he's deep inside me like this.

Opening my eyes I see his are already on me. I notice his eyes turn stormy gray in the throws of passion. And I'm responsible for that, they only turn stormy gray for me. Chris is my Christian Grey, not Damien. Only Chris can turn me on like this and make me feel like a sex goddess even though I'm really not that experienced. Chris takes my hips and begins assaulting my insides.

My orgasm hits me hard. I have to bite my lip so I won't scream. "Oh baby, that feels good", he groans pulling me against him as he pushes into me a couple more times before he finds his release. He pushes so deep inside me I'm convinced he's trying very hard to put a baby in me. I rest my head on his shoulder as I catch my breath.

"I can't promise you that I'll control my climaxes. It feels better when I'm balls deep inside you, maybe I'll pull out sometimes but this is my favorite place to be baby".

I chuckle shaking my head, "It's fine baby, I understand what you mean". We sit like this for a while. He doesn't even pull out of me, which doesn't bother me in the least. I almost fall asleep when something begins ringing. "What's that?", I ask sitting up.

Chris pulls out of me and moves me to the couch, "That would be the doorbell". I quickly get up to fix my clothes and look at the couch to make sure there isn't any spots. I don't think you can hide stuff like that on a black couch. Chris fixes himself as he goes to the front door just as the elevator buzzes it's arrival.

I join him just as the door opens revealing a lady that looks to be in her fifties. She steps in with a huge smile on her face, her hand out stretched to Chris, "Mr. Harrington it is a pleasure to meet you. Mrs. Harrington", she greets me. I don't bother correcting her. That will be my last name in a couple monthes.

She has such a warm smile I can't help but smile back at her, "Hi, it's very nice to meet you Susan", I say.

She moves into the apartment, "Your home is under ours. Complete with your own kitchen two bedrooms and bathrooms, you get there by the elevator. You are to report here every morning at six thirty on the dot and you may go home at nine. When my wife starts school you are to act as a Nanny while she's gone but you won't do heavy stuff. Me or her or his father, who will be living in this building also, will take him to doctors appointments and such things.

"You will make all three meals, dinner at seven. You will clean, do laundry, keep the place in tip top shape". I wasn't sure if she caught all that. I barely did.

"Yes sir, I will start on dinner now", she says moving toward the kitchen, "Is there anything you want me to fix?", she wonders.

"There will be a menu made for the week every sunday by us but tonight surprise us", Chris answers. She nods and disappears through the coridoor.

"Gosh your bossy", I mumble going back to the couch. He follows me picking up the remote to turn on the television. I sit down criss crossing my legs, Chris takes his place next to me and begins flipping through the channels.

He smerks propping his feet on the table in front of us, "It's the only way to make people listen baby". I roll my eyes as I look around my house again. This is really all mine, it's kind of hard to wrap my mind around that. I then realize he hasn't shown me our room, I guess he's leaving that for tonight. I look over to him feeling very exposed.

I'm not sure why I feel this way but I do and it scares me. Chris isn't anyone new, he is or he was my best friend in the entire world who knows me from the inside out, so why do I feel so vulnerable?.

WHEN I WOKE UP Friday morning I laid there staring out the window. I know Susan already got Jaden up and is making him breakfast, I can hear them in the kitchen through the baby monitor. I said she could get him up and have him in the kitchen while she's making breakfast but I'm going to do everything else.

Chris is already at work, which I heard him get up this morning. He kissed my shoulder when he woke up and then kissed my forehead before he left. I wanted an actual kiss but we've learned a simple kiss will turn into a lot more. I sit up looking around our room. It is the best room in the house in my opinion.

It's a large space sort of like the living room dinning room. A bit smaller. There's another wall window looking over a different part of the city. There's a fully stocked double walk in closet. Of course I have the bigger part of the closet, the bathroom is my other favorite feature. It has a floor hot tub and a shower with a bench in it.

I hear the elevator ring announcing someone is coming up. I figure it's Jason the security for the house so I don't bother moving. A couple minutes later I hear voices over the baby monitor and it isn't Jason's. I throw the cover's off and reach for my robe. At Chris's earlier request we don't wear night clothes to bed. Tying my robe I hurry down the stairs and round the corner to find Troy standing in my living room. He has Jaden and he is looking around the place like he's never been in a home.

"Troy", is all I can say.

His eyes find me, "Hey, I just got in. Chris said you'll show me my apartment".

I could have sworn Troy was supposed to come in tomorrow morning. "Um sure. Want some breakfast? I think Susan is just about finished".

Troy joins me for breakfast. Then I take a shower while Troy washes Jaden off. By eleven thirty we are all back in the living room. Jason finally makes an appearance and is standing near the door looking like a brut. I smile at him as we leave the apartment.

Chris showed me Troy's place yesterday and it doesn't look like ours at all. It is one floor with three bedrooms and two bathrooms. It is still pretty spacious but not like my home. Troy is on the twenty eighth floor at the end of the hall so his living room has a window wall. Not all apartments have them. Coming up to his door I hand him the keys.

"You don't have to go out furniture shopping. Everything you need is already right here".

He opens the door and steps inside l. I follow looking around the space again. I saw Jaden's room and it doesn't look like the one at home. Instead of the monkey theme it's Winnie The Pooh. I thought that was equally cute but Jaden is my little monkey.

I let Troy look around on his own while I sit in the living room looking out over the city. When he finally comes back and sits beside me I look at him. "So what do you think?".

He nods as he continues to look around, "It's cool. I like Jaden's room".

I smile, "I do too. Do you want to go out?. I found this park. It's not central park though".

He shrugs getting up from the couch, "Sure let's go".

I go home for Jaden's stroller then met them outside. We walk in silence as I lead the way to the park. Chris and I found this park a couple days ago and I liked how quiet it was so I continue to bring Jaden here.

As we walk I keep sneaking peeks at Troy who seems to be lost in his own head. I wonder what he is thinking about, my silent question is answered a second later. "So you and Chris huh?".

I shrug as I slow down, "I don't have very much to do with it. Before I was born my mom made a deal with his parents for us to be married after my twentieth birthday and so the wedding is June fourth in Italy".

Troy nods as he takes a seat on a bench, "So you guys are getting married next year?".

I shake my head no, "This year".

He shoots me a look, "In three month's?"

"We have to have a baby soon and the only way it'll be legit for him is if we're married with a child on the way. Oh and it has to be a boy".

Troy looks at Jaden and I know the question in his head, "The baby has to be his".

He is quiet which makes me feel like I'm dealing with Damien all over again. I don't continue to explain my situation, ever since we broke up he's been this sort of caring person towards me. I can talk to him about my issues but in the end that's just what they are. My issues that he listens to because I'm the mother of his only child and he wants to be friends.

He doesn't really give advice and if he does its not helpful. I reach over to let Jaden out of his stroller so he can walk around, he is such a little explorer.

As I watch him, Troy finally says something, "What is going to happen with Jaden?".

I shrug, "He's going to grow up".

"With a rich step father and a rich half brother or sister. He's not going to belong in this family your trying to make. I mean is Chris going to adopt a black child because of his black mother?".

I frown not seeing it that way. Jaden belongs with me where ever I go. "No, Chris isn't going to adopt Jaden, he's your son and I don't think that should change because I'm with someone else. I think Jaden will grow up happy and healthy because he's surrounded by people who love him, not because of what's in our bank accounts. He needs both of us because we are his parents and he deserves to be raised by both of us like his brother or sister is going to be raised by me and Chris.

It's not Chris's business what we do with him just like it won't be your business what we do with our kids. We'll be one big happy family if you go along with it".

He grew quiet again. I guess this was bothering him, but it shouldn't. He's the one who didn't want to be with me anymore.

After the park we don't talk about this subject anymore. I'm not sure if I laid some doubts to rest or not but he doesn't say anything. I tell him his week with Jaden can start Sunday since Jaden has already been with me an entire week. I think this arrangement can work.

We spend the day together and it feels nice, it's like old times. He makes me laugh and he acts stupid and makes fun of me if I do or say something silly. We're sitting in front of the wall window playing with Jaden when Chris comes home. When the door bell goes off Troy frowns as he looks around. I laugh, "It's the door bell sort of. It let's us know someone is coming up".

He nods his head as he leans back on his hands. A few minutes later Chris comes through the door loosening his tie. He has on my favorite suit, black with a soft green shirt and dark green and black tie.

He stops on top of the steps when he sees us, "Troy, welcome to New York", he greets coming in. He walks over to me so he can kiss my forehead, "Mom wants you to call her", he tells me before he goes upstairs to change.

I pull my phone out to dial her number. "Gabby, hi. How was the move?".

I get up and follow Chris upstairs. He is just removing his pants when I walk in. I sit criss cross on the bed as I watch him move around the room in only his boxers. "It was great, I love the apartment".

She laughs, "That's great, I can't wait to visit. Now I already talked to Chris and he said you want a white wedding with light green and royal blue as your colors. Will your dress be all white?".

"Yes, I figured I would wear something royal blue", I explaine.

I can hear her writing, "Alright. I will be there in a couple weeks with your mom, aunts, Nanny and Alexis. Will you have bridesmaid's? a maid of honor?".

I hadn't thought about that but then I don't need to, "Alexis is going to be my maid of honor and Victoria, Troy's sister, is going to be a bridesmaid along with Riley and I think that's it".

There was another pause as she writes that down. "What about Ariah? Would you like her to be one too?".

Oh my gosh, I forgot all about Ariah. She's Chris's cousin and we grew up together but not as close as Chris and I had. "Yes, I would love Ariah to be a bridesmaid".

"Great. We will all be there in a couple weeks. I'm so excited, talk to you soon". I hang up with her as Chris sits next to me.

I wrap my arms around him as he kisses me, god I missed him. I pull away so I can see his face and I can't help but smile at him. He smiles back shaking his head, "What?".

I don't answer him. The conversation I had with Troy pops in my head about Jaden belonging with me and Chris but Chris not having anything to do with his up bringing. "Troy thinks Jaden will be the odd one out once we start a family"

Chris frowns pulling away from me, "What? no, Jaden is apart of this family just like our kids. He's like a son to me, I explained this to you. Didn't you explain it to him?".

I look down a little sad to admit I didn't tell him that, "No, I told him you wouldn't interfere with Jaden's up bringing like he won't interfere with our kids. I was trying to keep it fair".

Chris stands up, "What do you mean I can't help you raise Jaden? I thought we're in this together. We all help with the kids no matter who the parents are".

I don't know what to say. He continues to leave me speechless at every turn. He rolls his eyes and goes into the closet to put on his clothes. I groan falling back on the bed. I am such an idiot. I guess I was trying to reassure Troy as his place as Jaden's father. I can't say I don't understand where Chris is coming from but, Troy is going to be there for the rest of our lives. Why not share the title of "father", it would probably be a lot less stress on me and the kids.

I am such an idiot.