Hello! And welcome back to for the latest instalment of The Hole In her Heart, which is a story mostly about friendship and family relationships!
Chapter Nine: Falling
Bella Swan was still disbelieving. She had spent a long six months practically alone and now to be surrounded by six people that Bella had longed to be with. Bella Swan still couldn't imagine a good reason why the Cullens would still want her, a plain and ordinary human.
Unless they only yearned to hurt her.
Bella Swan had considered the possibility while her friend (or was she), Alice drove her home. After all, the theory made sense.
"I'll see you tomorrow?" Bella couldn't help but notice the little bit of anxiety in her midget friend's voice.
Bella shrugged. She was still uncertain about Alice and the rest of the family due to the off chance that they would all leave her again. Who could deny that Bella Swan would only fall apart again, only this time worst than before? Bella didn't know if she could trust.
Bella Swan was glad that her father, Charlie was not home. She had no clue how to explain the extra colour in her cheeks and the slight brightness in her eyes.
Bella Swan was tired from having a crazy and emotionally exhausting day. She had gone from numb with depression, to absolute shock, devastation, wistfulness and subtle suspicion. On top of everything, Bella was perplexed and couldn't be sure what everything meant.
One thing Bella could identify, she needed her former boyfriend, the centre of her existence. His return was the only thing that could make these hectic events seems real. She needed Edward. Badly. He was the only being that would repair the gaping wound in Bella's heart and piece tormented fragments back together.
Bella entered her bedroom. She had intended to walk over to her window and peer into the drifting night but she never got there. A corner of loose floorboard got caught beneath her clumsy foot and Bella Swan fell with a small crash onto the floor.
Bella Swan closed her eyes in annoyance before getting up. She glanced at the ground. And gasped.
Beneath the wood that had been forced away, was an array of objects. A variety of colours shapes and sizes. Curious, but with a feeling of dread locked in her heart, Bella knelt down for a closer look. Once again, she gasped.
She was looking at a photo frame, pictures of the most gorgeous guy that ever existed, two plane tickets and a CD. Bella Swan recognised them immediately. They were her final presents, the things that Edward had taken from her.
Here was the proof she was unwanted.
Here was the evidence that Bella Swan was worthless. Laid out for all to see.
If Edward still cared for her, he never would have stolen such emotionally symbolic items and ditched them beneath a lonely floorboard. Bella Swan's knees buckled to the floor, a fresh cascade of tears were flowing; she blinked rapidly, trying in vain to rid the dewy moisture.
Bella Swan was falling.
Falling into the dark abyss where nobody could save her.
Falling.
Alice Cullen was half relieved. And the other half of her brain was on edge. Despite her mate's calming effects, Alice couldn't shake off the sinister feeling that something was wrong. It was only natural that Alice Cullen would get a vision soon, either confirming or dismissing her qualms.
She did.
Alice's husband, Jasper held the pixie during her minute of oblivion.
What had Alice seen? Or, more importantly, what had she expected to see? If Alice had anticipated a smiling content Bella, she was greatly mistaken.
The vision...
The vision of a shaking, fragile teenager had pulled painfully at Alice's heartstrings. It was her own fault that Alice's friend had to deal with this pain in the first place. All Alice needed to do was take a glance into Bella's future, make sure she would cope; but, Alice had neglected her duty as a sister. As a friend.
"No!" Alice moaned. "Bella."
Alice did not notice Jasper trying to soothe her desolation.
Guilty and desperate, Alice Cullen jumped out of her husband's clutched. She knew her emotion were probably in turmoil. Before anyone could utter another word, Alice was running back to Forks, returning to Bella.
As she turned into the street, Alice heard a distinct yet subdued set of sobs. Bella, Alice had no question.
As Bella's father was not home, Alice bounded inside via an opened window before rushing to the upstairs bedroom. Here, the sounds of crying only got louder and Alice almost wished that she could shed a tear herself. Tentatively, Alice opened the bedroom door and kneeled beside the shaking figure.
"He didn't love me." Alice's heart broke at Bella's distraught choked out voice. "Edwardwould have never have dumped this stuff here if he did.
Alice Cullen gasped as she took in the contents strewn across the floor. They were the presents Alice's family had given Bella last September. She felt a surge of unexpected anger. Her foolish brother, Edward; how had he dared to do such a thing?
"I'm sorry" Alice whispered breathlessly as she enclosed her arms in comfort around Bella. "I'm sorry."
Silently, Alice Cullen vowed to try even harder to find her idiot brother.
Esme Cullen thought she knew the definition of torture. She thought that losing her young son, all those years ago was the crux of pain. Esme was mistaken.
Her son, Edward was who knew where and not answering any of her calls. On the other hand, her daughter, Bella was hurting from long months of isolation. Esme thought she understood agonies but seeing Alice and Rosalie looking incredibly guilt wrecked made her want to simply break down and cry.
Esme's family was hurting and in turn Esme Cullen was throbbing on the inside.
What type of 'loving' mother abandoned her child?
It was a recurring question, asked again, again and again. But Esme could not find any answers that could possibly justify the horrors of her actions.
If there was any way for Esme Cullen to correct the grave errors of the last six months, she would jump to take the opportunity.
Yes, Esme would.
So, what do you think? Was it good, bad or horrible? I will be showing Edward in the next chapter. Please review! I want to know what all you guys think and where do you think this is going?
