"You couldn't kiss who?"

Shitshitshitshitshitshit What should I say? What if I just say: "You, Pipes, I couldn't kiss you"

"Piper… have you heard about the bet that Carlin and I have?" Nicky asked, saving the moment for Alex.

"Bet? No, which one? And what does Alex have to do with it?" Piper asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Well, Carlin and I have a competition… we're trying to prove who can make out and/or have sex with more girls… and I tried to make our good friend Alex here enter the bet and she couldn't kiss some random girl because she's falling for-"

"I didn't want to enter the stupid bet" Alex said quickly, interrupting Nicky because she was sure that her friend was about to tell Piper everything.

And… she wasn't wrong when she said that she was falling in love. This thing that she felt was no longer a crush, she knew that she was starting to feel other things for her newest friend, and it scared her shitless, but she was also mesmerized by her whole existence.

"Alex! Who are you falling for? I want to know! I'm your friend after all, and I could help you!" Piper said excited to help her friend with such a task.

"No, I'm sure you can't help me, and I can't tell you right now, Pipes, I'm sorry."

"Oh, come on, Al, I won't tell anyone, really"

"Nu-uh, not right now, Piper, please" Alex said, turning around to reach for the iPod to put on some music again, for them to dance and forget the whole thing.

She chose What's up? by 4 Non Blondes,and as soon as the song started she told her friends: "We all know this one, right?! Let's sing!" Hoping that the issue at hand would be forgotten.

So the three of them started to sing at the top of her lungs, laughing again, and just enjoying the song, when Nicky told them that she was actually very cold and told them that she was going to her room to fetch a sweatshirt.

"You guys want me to bring you something?" Nicky asked, already walking towards the buildings.

"Nope, I've got it, thank you." Piper said laughing, while Alex just gaped at her like a moron.

Of course, the moment they were alone, Piper had to ask:

"Is it Nicky?"

"What?" Alex asked, knowing perfectly what Piper was talking about, but playing dumb.

"Nicky! Are you falling for her?!" Piper asked seriously.

"Why? Do you like her?" Alex dreaded the answer but she thought it was the best way to ask her friend this, because she have been noticing her behavior with Nicky.

"Me? Why would you ask that, Al? I'm not into girls… I think" Piper said, looking confused.

"You think? So you're not sure?" Alex asked, her mind betraying her.

Maybe I have a chance after all. Kiss her dumbass. NOW!

"Why do you ask if I like Nicky? I mean… have you noticed anything weird between us?" Piper widened her eyes, not because she was worried about liking Nicky and that anything showed, but because she was really curious about Alex, and for the past month she had been fantasizing with the brunette's lips.

She didn't have a crush, she was sure of that, but she really wanted to know how it felt to kiss a girl, and other (not so innocent) things, specifically with Alex, but she kept thinking over and over that it was not because she liked liked Alex, but because she was her friend.

And she's absolutely beautiful. But in a straight way, of course.

"To be honest, yes." Alex said painfully, starting to feel jealousy creeping inside of her chest.

Piper felt the air abandoning her lungs as she realized for a split second the emotion concealed in Alex's eyes.

Pain.

Realization hit her, all at once. Alex wasn't hitting on her to piss her off, that's what she made her think because she couldn't hide the way she looked at the blonde.

Heart pounding fast and loudly, shaking voice and constricted throat, Piper managed to say:

"It's not… it's not because of her, I think."

Could it be that she's talking about me? Alex felt a hole in her stomach and her lungs seemed incapable of keeping their shit together, for a bolt of electricity surged from beneath her brain and traveled down to all of her body, making it impossible to form any coherent thought.

"Assholes, have you noticed? It's Christmas Eve!" Nicky came out of nowhere yelling, happily.

Alex looked murderous. Fucking great timing, Nichols.

"Yeah, motherfuckers, Christmas Eve! And I'm really happy!"

"Who would have thought that you loved Christmas, I had you pegged for a Grinch, green and all." Piper laughed.

"Yeah, I am, but I just saw Lorna shouting at Carlin" Nicky said smiling from ear to ear.

Carlin! I'm such a fucking idiot… the girl she's talking about is fucking Dingo.

"Fuck her, I hate that motherfucker, I hope Morello realizes what she's doing, oh, but I'm really sorry, I won't speak ill of your girlfriend, Pipes." Alex said venomously, her words infected by a drunken, drugged haze of jealousy.

Piper started laughing heartily "Al, I know you hate her. Don't worry, you can say whatever you want, she's my friend, but she will never be my best friend, like you are."

There it is. Friendzoned.

Fuck.

As the songs kept sounding and they kept joking and planning how they would convince Lorna to let Stella go, Alex felt sadder and sadder, starting to wonder why she was here with them. Regretting every single second she had spent with Piper, fucking falling in love with her.

"See you later guys, I'll go for a walk." Alex said casually. "Alone" she added when both of her friends started to get up to follow her.

"Don't wait for me. I'll see you later." And she turned around, without looking back, lighting a cigarette and walking apart.

"What did we do?" Piper asked, hurt and concerned.

"What did you do, blondie?" Nicky asked her amused by her reactions to Alex leaving.

"We were talking about her crush when you left and she asked me if I liked you, and I think she was jealous."

Nicky's eyes have never been so big. "Do you?"

"Come again?"

"Do you really like me?" Nicky asked seriously. She was in deep shit if Piper liked her.

"No, I told her that I was acting weird but not because of you." She was bright red, but unfazed because of the pot she'd smoked, she didn't care if Nicky found out, she just wanted to really think this through.

Nicky waggled her eyebrows playfully. "Too bad, I can show you so many things" she said laughing, relieved.

"That's the thing." Piper said, thinking hard.

"I do want to know… certain things, but –"

"You want her to teach you!" Nicky barked, laughing and twisting her tongue, biting it.

"Fuck… well, yes. I've- I've been fantasizing for a while now, but I'm pretty sure it is just curiosity, because I don't like her like her, or feel in love or anything, I'm sure she's my friend and I'm just curious."

"Well, blondie, curiosity killed the cat, and as much as I always want people to get off, I think that if you don't feel anything at all, you shouldn't make a move, because you'll break her heart. For real."

Piper started crying, out of the blue. One second before she was okay, but now she was crying like a baby. Not a perk of being intoxicated.

"I know. I figured it out hours ago, she tried to keep it hidden, but I saw it." Piper sobbed.

Nicky put an arm around her shoulder to try to comfort her. "Chapman, come on, it's okay. Don't fucking cry, I mean, if you don't say anything, she'll get over it. Eventually. So don't feel sad."

"I don't know, Nicky."

Why does it hurt so much that she decided to go? Am I just kidding myself?

"Of course you don't, asshole, because I think everything you just told me is bullshit."

Piper turned her head to look at Nicky, concerned and nervous. Could it be that I show something that I can't see?

"What do you mean, Nicky?"

"I mean that I think that this cat will die."


Alex was furious. Not because Piper didn't like her back, but because she was really close to blowing everything off because she stupidly thought for a moment that Piper might be talking about her.

She felt sick, but it had nothing to do with the substances they consumed. It was because all at once, in a particular second where she sat down, all the memories from her mother assaulted her. She thought about Christmas Eve at home. She and her mom would sing stupid Christmas carols (although Alex hated them) and drink hot cocoa. They never had fancy dinners because money was always short, but they were really happy just the two of them, talking or watching movies, listening to music until sunrise.

But now, here I am.

Alone.

Stoned.

In love.

Heartbroken.

Stop it, Alex, don't go there. Just get up and return to them, try to be happy with your friends. Don't be a selfish asshole.

Taking a deep breath and closing her eyes for a while, Alex stood up and started walking back to her friends.

Obviously, and because life's a cruel shit who likes to play tricks on people, because when she was getting closer to them, she had to watch Nicky putting her arm around Piper, and Piper acting nervous.

Fuck. I can't.

So she turned around and walked all the way to her room. Crying in silence.


Almost everyone was in the halls or in the dinner room, being Christmas Eve, they had permission to do anything they wanted (Clearly, not drinking or having drugs.)

Stella was trying to convince Lorna that she was indeed interested in her, that she was just flirty, that was who she was, according to her, but it was obvious that Stella was sick of Lorna, she simply wanted to hurt Nicky by having sex with her, before discarding her like an old toy.

Lorna was sure that she made a mistake, and that she needed to tell Nicky that she was sorry, but she was too proud to do it, so she just played along, waiting, hoping that Nicky would take the first step, although she knew deep down that the lion haired girl would cut her right arm first.

Lorna felt like she was out of place, in the dinner hall, talking with all these girls that had nothing in common with her. At the distance, she could see Boo, Tricia, Brooke, and the African-American girls, laughing and joking.

"You know, Stella. I'll be back, keep chatting with your friends. I'll go with mine." She said, proudly, walking straight to them.

"Yo, I'm telling you! There's no way she was serious about that shit!" The short, little girl she knew as Washington was yelling, when they all turned around to look at her.

"Hi, I was wondering if I could come and hang out with you? I'm kinda sick of that lot." Little Lorna pointed at Stella and her horrible friends.

They all started laughing and immediately told Lorna about the last hot gossip they heard about Professor Figueroa and Principal Caputo fucking in the theater.

And just like that, she felt home again, like she belonged, it turned out that Washington, Jefferson, Hayes, Watson and even Warren were cool, they were loud and weird, but they were fun and they didn't discriminate her like she thought they would.

"Hey Boo? Have you seen Nicky?" Lorna asked boldly.

"Yeah, she's outside, smoking her shit" Boo said happily, she was talking, for some reason to Tricia and Tiffany.

Funny how Christmas really brings people together.

Lorna was walking towards the place where she knew Nicky smoked, and she noticed that Alex was missing and that Piper looked really weird, and Nicky was annoyed.

She cleared her throat and quietly said: "Nicky?"

Nicky almost hurt her neck, turning her head faster that she thought she was capable of. She quickly stood up and with shaking legs took a step closer to her former lover.

"I'll just go, Nick. Talk. I'll try to see if I can do anything with my little problem." Piper said, defeated and left the two of them to talk.

"Okay, but trust me, blondie. Better act now. She's probably beating herself on and on about it."

"Thanks. Good Luck. Bye Lorna."

The smaller girl just nodded, trying to start a decent conversation with Nicky after all this time.

"Girlfriend let you come and talk with me?" Nicky asked sarcastically.

"Fucking shut up. She doesn't know. And I don't care right now."

Nicky was starting to feel her stomach do pleasant twists and she was dying to kiss Morello right then but something told her that this was not what she came for.

"I just realized that I don't fit with her, that I don't feel okay, it was a stupid thing to do, and I really miss my friends."

Ah, there it is. Acceptance and Denial at the same time.

"I really miss you, Nicky. All of you." Lorna hugged her tightly.

"You're killing me, Lorna." Nicky said trying not to cry.

"Why? Because you're so tough and I'm hugging you?"

"Yes… that's why." Nicky said with a flat tone.

"But hey, I'm happy that you decided to come and talk to me, you know we all missed you too. At least I can say that I have missed you a lot. And you can't even imagine."

"I know, Nicky. I love you so much guys. You're my family."

"Can you let go now? And, you're shaking, let's get inside, here." Nicky said while taking off her jacket and giving it to Lorna, putting her arm around her waist to walk inside.

Someday she'll be mine.


Piper literally ran all the way to her room. She was sure that Alex would be there, and if she wasn't, she was going to look for her, because she had to tell her.

She decided, halfway to her room, that she was much of a coward, so she returned to where she left Nicky and Lorna to drink something to give her the courage to do what she was about to do, but she would never find out if it would have worked out or not because while she was standing like an idiot in the middle of the hallway, someone grabbed her from behind and covered her mouth.

She was dragged to an empty classroom and when she finally was released, she was surprised to see it was Alex, smiling at her.

"Al, I was- I need to tell you something."

"Shh. Don't say a word. Not now, please. You can tell me whatever you want later" the brunette whispered.

"What are we doing? And why are we whispering?" Piper whispered too.

"I don't want us to be heard, classrooms aren't allowed."

"What are you planning to –"

Piper had to close her eyes and tried her best to stay on her feet because she couldn't finish her sentence, for there was a soft, pink pair of lips covering hers.

And it was a thousand times better than she had been fantasizing, hell, she didn't even imagine that she would feel her chest ignite as if it was about to explode, or that she would feel so lightheaded, drunk again, but oh, so very different than being drunk on alcohol.

She was intoxicated, from the very beginning, her lungs screaming for air, but she would not dare break that kiss, she was purely and totally enraptured.

She never in a million lives, imagined that she would feel a tingly sensation and wetness between her legs. She wasn't even familiar with that, but it was absolutely amazing.

Alex tried to consciously think about Piper kissing her back, but she was so thrilled, so intoxicated that she just let herself get lost, her mind void of everything, just filled with Piper's essence. She felt home. Beyond adjectives or words to describe this heavenly sensation.

Alex broke the kiss.

Neither said anything.

They stared at each other for several seconds, and Alex tried to convince herself mentally, that she had to let Piper know that it was just a one time thing, that she was not going to bother her, and that she was going to still be her friend, she just wanted to kiss her, at least one time.

But that was impossible, because that "Just one kiss" was more than enough. It made every emotion and feeling Alex had, real. She fucked everything up.

"What was it? What were you going to tell me? Just tell me, before I can talk to you about what just happened." Alex said without looking at her.

Piper was surprisingly silent. She was breathing heavily and discovered how it felt to be turned on, really turned on. So she clearly wasn't thinking when she put her arms around Alex's neck and began kissing her like there was no tomorrow.

Lips moving faster every second, a gentle bit of lip by Piper, and tongues battling for dominance. Both of them were lying on the floor before they could even register what was happening.

Piper wasn't sure of what she was supposed to do, but she knew she needed contact, so she took Alex's right hand in hers, without breaking the kiss and taking it to the part of her body that demanded attention.

Alex smiled into the kiss. She was too far gone to think about the consequences of this particular action between the two. She began touching lightly Piper's center through the fabric of her panties and her pants, drawing painfully slow circles.

Piper moaned. Loud. And it was music to Alex's ears, she discovered that just that simple and primal sound a human being can make, was enough to take her to the edge.

Piper suddenly stopped.

"We have a room." She said panting and with hooded eyes.

"Really? Now?" Alex said almost hysterical, trying to find the humor in this.

"Yes, please." Piper ventured and licked the shell of her ear.

"You're making this impossible. Let's go! Like now!" Alex stood up at record speed and helped Piper get up.

It was almost time for everyone to start getting ready for breakfast, and although it wasn't as early as it would have been on a class day, they still had to hurry up.

They arrived to their room and thank god it was empty, so they entered and locked the door.

Alex couldn't wait any longer, so she threw Piper into her own bed and climbed on top of her, claiming her lips again.

Alex poured her heart in every action because she felt that it was a "once in a lifetime" chance, so she kissed Piper passionately, with abandon, playing with her tongue, exploring every inch she could.

She made Piper open her legs a little bit and put her right in the middle, barely making contact with Piper's center.

Light pressure. Moan.

More kisses, desperate this time.

Alex made Piper sit down and took off her sweatshirt and her shirt all at once, without even asking for permission. The sight in front of her was powerfully alluring. Even with her bra on, Piper's breasts looked incredible and all Alex wanted to do was suck those nipples she could make out standing proudly even through the fabric.

She retreated and started undressing, while Piper focused on taking off her tennis shoes and her socks.

When Alex was almost naked in front of her (bra and panties on) Piper pulled her on top of her again, desperately seeking skin to skin contact.

It was pure bliss, and she felt so aroused that she moaned into Alex's ear.

Alex didn't even ask it was okay, but she took off Piper's pants and could practically smell the blonde's arousal through her panties, but looking into Piper's big darkened-blue eyes and her expression of pure lust was more than enough of a reassurance for her to continue.

So she kissed her fiercely and suddenly kneaded her left breast, making the Piper scream in pleasure, which made Alex moan in a low, raspy voice.

She let go of Piper's lips and started kissing her neck, nibbling and sucking on every spot she found that was particularly sensitive.

Piper, yet again, desperate for release, took Alex's hand from her breast and guided it inside her pink panties, trembling with anticipation.

Alex positioned her lips right above Piper's right ear and breathed: "You're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen." And without warning she put her index finger right on top of Piper's clit.

Eyes rolling to the back of her head. Back left the mattress.

Piper had been with boys before, but no boy had ever done this. Alex was making circles on Piper's clit with just the right amount of pressure, driving Piper crazy.

Piper looked down to Alex's toned body and she swore that she felt arousal gushing out of her at the sight. Her breasts looked mouth watering on her black laced bra and she suddenly felt the need to touch the brunette.

So she took her hand to Alex's breast and kneaded it a bit, relishing in the glorious sensation, but it didn't last long, because the brunette stopped all contact she had and took both of her arms to the top of her head and pinned them with her left hand.

She leaned down to kiss the blonde again and devoured her, while taking her hand to her core.

Maddening, slow circles.

Mind blowing kisses.

Piper stated to feel her legs and abdomen tickle and go numb for a while, right before she felt trails of fire rippling through her body.

Vision fading to black.

Fire pooling low in her abdomen.

Alex stopped kissing her and just stared at her, admiring the blonde beauty as she came undone. Going still for a split second and then shattering into a million pieces, trembling uncontrollably while she reached her orgasm.

Mouth agape.

Back arched.

Loud moans.

"Al-" and she couldn't breathe properly because it was the most intense sensation she had ever experienced.

Alex kept rubbing her clit, slowly and with almost no pressure, until Piper came down from her high, and the brunette was starting to feel anxious because she didn't know what to do next.

The spell was broken. Time was up.

But luckily for both of them, there was a loud knock on the door, followed by Tifanny's annoyed voice.

"Hey! Open, up. We need to be ready for breakfast."

So they started dressing as fast as they could, Piper with shaking legs, managed to put her clothes on and threw herself on her bed, while Alex opened the door.

She was never happier to see Tifanny.


A/N: I'm really sorry for the *rude* amount of time I made you wait. I hope you're still interested in this story, I just had a lot going on.

I finally graduated!

And I really had a major writer's block, which I hope had ended.

I hope you liked this chapter.

I love you all, and thank you for reading.