CHAPTER 9
I managed to hold it together the whole day. Until we got home, Jake, Josh and I. That's when I unravelled. Jake helped me change, and Josh set up some drinks at the table. I got so drunk I couldn't see straight and frankly, I didn't care.
Jake woke me the next morning, I was hungover. Damn. He sat with me, while I wallowed for a day, but then I had to move on , and I had to talk about us.
It was late, and he might be sleeping but I couldn't sleep with this nagging at me. I opened his door just a crack.
"Jake, you awake?"
"yeah" he answered.
"can I come in?"
"I guess"
"We need to talk ..." I trailed off
"I know."
"what's going on with us?, why one day are you so nice to me and the next , you avoid me like the plague?"
"I..I..." he stuttered.
"thanks, that was explanatory. Goodnight. " I joked. He smiled. So did I.
"I think..I think I might." he paused took a deep breath, and then continued.
"I might be falling in love with you, and I've never had that before. I don't know how to feel or how to act, or what to say."
I was shocked, now he wasn't the only one at a loss for words.
We sat in silence for what seemed and eternity. When I finally spoke, my voice was shaky, at best.
"how can you say that?" I asked him. The look on his face was pure shock.
"what do you mean?" he asked me, confused.
"you have hardly even talked to me, how can you say something like 'I think I'm falling in love with you', you don't even know me." the words cam out in a rush, and sounded harsher then I intended.
"you can leave now" he said simply.
"Jake, don't be like that. Let's talk."
"I have to get up early" was all he said, looking away from me. I turned to wake out of his room
"I'm sorry" I muttered. I was getting really good at pushing him away. I packed my things that night, and left first thing in the morning, without a word to Jake. I did call Josh and said good bye to him. He begged me to stay, telling me I was more fun then anyone he knew. I laughed and told him I had to get back to my life. He drove me to the airport, helped me get checked in, and then made me promise to come back and visit him. I promised.
