Hi again, guys. I know I haven't posted much, and I guess it's kinda pointless to make promises. I have received lots of private messages asking me to continue, and, well, I'm continuing. I'm sorry it took so long.
Hope you enjoy.


"Why is Gajeel taking so long? What the heck is he doing with Lucy?" Natsu thought, impatiently. He didn't like the fact that Gajeel was taking that much time with, even though he was the one who saved her. He couldn't complain much, after all, he didn't even notice Lucy's absence for those two months. He would be the last one to complain because of that.
Angrier than never, Natsu kicked the door and got in without saying a word. A vein popped on his forehead when he saw the empty bed and the window open, the white curtains swinging with the wind. You could see the dark clouds up ahead. It was about to rain.
Typical scene of a drama movie.
"Calm down", he said to himself, taking a deep breath before following that hedious iron smell.
But he couldn't calm down. He couldn't stop thinking about Gajeel being with Lucy. An unconscious Lucy.
"My Lucy" He thought, censoring himself. She wasn't his. Lucy was nobody's, and most definitely, wasn't Natsu's. Because he ignored her. Neglected her.
Forgot about her.
Lucy couldn't be called his. He had lost that right.


Lucy was picturing the image of Gajeel cooking. A cuddling rabbit drawn on his apron, his eyes concentrated, his hands…
Wow, wow, wait. Why was she thinking about that? Why was she imagining those things? She tried to reprehend herself for those thoughts, but she couldn't let herself stop thinking about him. His image, his laugh, his smile could not leave her mind. And the problem is, she didn't know why.
Maybe it had something to do with the fact that she didn't remember anything from those past few weeks.
Lucy was so concentrated on those thoughts, trying to find out what happened, that when Natsu jumped on her window, she almost didn't notice. She got a little scared. She said his name. They stared at each other. Natsu was happy that she was awake, but, mostly, a little scared. He didn't know what to say to her. He wanted to apologize for not being there for her, but what good would that do? He didn't want to admit that he forgot about her.
"Lucy" He said. "Are you okay? You vanished from the nursery, I got worried" Natsu said, kneeling on her bed, close enough to her to make her feel his heat. The heat that was part of her daily life, that she once loved, now, bothered.
Lucy's eyes looked at her hand. She stroke her left thumb on her fairy mark. She didn't want to look at him. It hurt deeply. And she did know why. He forgot about her, she knew that. He didn't come, Gajeel said that. Why would he, he was so busy with Lisanna he didn't have the time to talk to his best friend. "Lucy", he called her again. She didn't look at him. He wanted to ask, what changed in those two months? But somehow, he felt like he didn't want to know the answer. Not now, anyway. He wasn't ready for that. "Why didn't you tell me you went to a mission? I could have gone with you"
Lucy didn't want to respond. She had those words in her mind for some time now, and just thinking about them, make her wanted to cry. A tear fell down her cheek.
"Why won't you answer me?" He asked, a little impatient. Suddenly, a picture showed up in his mind. A photo of a white girl with white hair and contagious smile. "Is it because of Lisanna?"
No, he didn't just say that. How could he possibly think it was her? Did he really just blamed someone else for his mistakes?
"Is it? If you want, I can stop…"
He couldn't finnish. Lucy interrupted him. She was angry and now, tears fell down her face while she talked angry at him.
"It wasn't her fault" She said. She was pissed. She couldn't hold the tears anymore. "She wasn't the one who forgot about me"
Natsu was speechless. She noticed? She noticed he wasn't there for her, that he forgot about her? He didn't know anything else to say, except her name. Lucy was trying to say "it was your fault" without those words exactly. And Natsu got that. He understood it right away.
"And don't you dare say that I didn't call you on that mission because I did. I tried. God knows how much I tried. But you couldn't step away from her" Up until that moment he didn't notice. It wasn't that Lisanna was always there, he was the one who couldn't step away. And then, he thought about all those times she tried to talk to him and couldn't. He felt like crying, but swallow the knot that formed in his throat. He hated himself to know that he was the reason for Lucy's tears.
"You don't know how much it hurt. How much it still does. Everytime I look at you, I…" She couldn't finnish her sentence. She turned her face away from him, she didn't want him to see those tears. "Please, leave"
Sad, disgusted with himself, angry at what he did, Natsu just looked the other way and jumped again from her window. He wanted to say something, but he couldn't. He wasnt allowed to do that. Not after the sadness he brought to her.
"I'm sorry", he thought to himself again, trying to avoid the tears. But he knew now, that it was too late for apologies.