Writer's block sucks!
Chapter 9: No regrets
After my race with Jake -that i won, by the way- it is still quite early. So, i go back to the place where i was supposed to stay until all the guests left, and wait for someone to come pick me up.
Boring...
The hours pass and nothing.
The sun is about to set at any minute now.
It almost makes me go back by myself.
But i was still too afraid to accidentally come to face a human again.
So i wait.
And wait.
Until, finally, i hear footsteps approaching, and Emmett's scent fills my nostrils soon after.
"Took you long enough!" I complain, like a child. A pout on my annoyed face.
Em's loud laughter fills the woods before he even fully shows up in front of me.
"Sorry, little one. We had guests until about now." He say, apologetic. But, the easy going smile never leaves his face.
"How was it?" I ask. Jumping from the tree i was sitting on, and landing in front of him. "Did you really make that awful speech you were working on?"
"Hey, my speech was great, i don't know what you are talking about." He makes a face at me, pretending to be insulted, but i know him enough to bet he did the awful speech on propose. Knowing exactly that Edward would hate it.
"Right." I reply, note the sarcasm. "And, have they gone already?To the honeymoon?
"Yep. They left about 3 hours ago."
"Then why have i been standing in this dark forest alone for so long?" I grit between my teeth, suddenly feeling beyond pissed.
"Hey, it's not my fault. Those friends of yours know how to party. They left like 20 minutes ago. Probably only because the sun was rising." He answers, defending himself.
Remembering my friends from school is a bit painful. Especially knowing they were partying hard just a few weeks after my funeral.
I sigh, shaking my head to let those thoughts go, and focus solemnly on running the way back home.
Home. When had the Cullen's house become home to me?
Huh. I guess it is, isn't it? My home, now.
Running at full force, eager to get back, and leaving Emmett farly behind -i have to laugh at that, he was always so grumpy about my newborn skills beating his- i feel a sudden burst of energy coming from the place where i know our house it's located in. I stop, from where i was standing i couldn't yet see the house, because it was still a bit far, and the trees completely covered the view. But, i could distinctly feel the presence of unknow individuals at the residence. Four of it, to be more precisely, that i didn't recognise
And they were not human.
"Hey." Emmett close up on me, watching my facial expression with care. "Something wrong?"
"Who are they?" I ask, intrigued. A bit nervous too, i confess. The last time i met vampires that were not the Cullen's...well, things didn't work well for me.
"Oh! Back at the house? It's the Denali's. Remember? They were coming to the wedding." Emmett visibly relaxes, the same goofy grin taking place on his handsome face.
Oh.
"Of course. Edward mentioned he would invite them." I just wasn't expecting then to actually show up.
"How did you know though?" He ask, suddenly confused.
I frown, not quite following his line of thought. "What do you mean? I can obviously feel them."
"From here?" The confusion does not leave his face.
"Yes. Don't you?"
"No. It's too far. How can you do that? Do you smell them? You can sniff them from all the way here? My nose was never as good when i was a newborn."
"No, it's not that. It's hard to explain. It's like... i just can feel them."
The silence stratches around us, becoming awkward and almost suffocating. The only noise coming from the leaves on the trees, and the small animals hiding from the predators.
"Anyway, i am susprised they came. Weren't you on a break or something?" I joke, trying to change the weird mood.
"Yeah. We were surprised too. But, happy nonetheless." His cheeky grin lights up all of his cute face, and i can't help but to smile a little too.
"Why were they giving you the cold shoulder anyway? Carlisle never really told me." I ask, genuinely curious, wondering why the hell i've never asked that question before.
Why did the Denali suddenly cut ties with the Cullen's?
Why did they ignore us when Carlisle asked for help to defeat Victoria?
Weren't they supposed to be 'the biggest friends'?
"Well...they don't like the wolves." Emmett scratch the back of his head nervously.
"Netheir does you, but that didn't stop you from fighting along side them."
"Yes, well, their rift with the wolves are not just because they are...well, wolves."
"Then, what is it?"
"It's...Laurent."
If my heart was still beating, i belive it would have stopped just now. I was repulsed and a little afraid just by hearing his name.
"What about that loser?" I inquire, a part of me already knowing the answer but not really seeing it clearly.
"He was Irina's mate."
Shit.
Can life get more complicated?
I shouldn't have asked.
I am pretty sure, i will regret making that question.
Probably soon.
"Fuck." I mutter, a silent huff leaves my mouth.
"I know right?"
Images of Laurent's last 'living' moments flash through my mind quickly. I don't feel any kind of remorse. No guilt at all. I don't regret doing it, but i always had the feeling that killing the bastard was going to have consequences in the future.
"Are you alright?"
It's definitely coming back to bite my ass. Soon.
"Hm, yeah. I just, need some air." It was such a mundane thing to say, i almost believed he would call me on my bullshit.
He didn't said anything else, but i could see the confusion in his eyes. "Okay."
It took 20 minutes for Carlisle to come see me. Not that i was counting. But it's like one of those vampire things, we have an sort of a intern clock inside us.
"Hello." He greets me carefully. I can feel the worry coming from him without even having to look at his face. He was an open book to me.
"Hi." I turn around to fully face him, and the same warm feeling that i always have when i look into his eyes fills me once again.
"Is everything alright, my love?" He comes closer then, taking my hand in his. The worried look in his eyes intact.
"Yes. Of course." I lie, giving him a fake sweet smile. But he does not buy it, of course not, i am an open book to him too.
"What is it? I know your last experience with other vampires was not good but, i promise you, the Denali are friends." Oh. Of course that was what he thought it was bothering me, i've never actually told him what happened with Laurent. I didn't even told Bella about it. It's not a topic that ever came in a conversation.
"That's not it." I reply, sighing softly. Mentally preparing myself to say the words.
"Then what is it?"
"It's her... Irina."
He lokks even more confused now, if that's possible. "What? I don't understand."
"The wolves are not the only ones to blame for Laurent's death. It was me. I killed her mate." There, i said it.
Still no regrets though...
"What?" Shocked is an expression i've barely seen in Carlisle's face before. I guess i've really surprised him this time.
"Sam was the one to bite his head off, of course. But, the revenge, the ending of his life. It was me. I was the one that burned him to ashes. I was the one that watched the life leave his eyes and it was me who his last words were aimed to."
Surprise is still visible on his face, but he looks much more confused now. As if finally understanding what was bothering me. It is not the fact that I killed Laurent, but that i unintencionally hurt Irina in the process.
And we all know what happened the last time a female vampire wanted revenge against the murderer of her mate.
"My love, i had no idea." He is still trying to understand everything. "You never told me." A hint of accusation in his tone annoys me for a second.
"There is a lot of things you've never told me, Carlisle." I remember him, not being able to hide the slight anger on my voice.
He looks down, chastised. Then, after a minute breathe's through his nose loudly. "Let's not worry about this right know, okay?" He tries to change the mood by adding a little smile on his pretty face.
"But, she might..."
"Shh...love, Irina is not even here right now. She didn't attend the wedding with the rest of her family." He pulls me closet when i visibly relax at hearing that. "Even so, she is an old friend. I'm sure everything is going to alright in the end.
"Oh. If you say so..."
I let him pull me into his hard chest, and enjoy beeing in his arms for a moment. But my mind was running wild with worries and questions.
What if she is planning an revenge against the pack?
What if the others only came to spy on us and report to her?
Why do i have the feeling that Irina is going to be a problem soon?
My sixth sense is telling me something big is coming.
And this time i don't intend to sit down and wait to find out what it is.
Notes:
1. This chapter marks the end of the first act.
2. I'm so sorry about the late update.
I don't have a good excuse for it, so i won't waste your time trying to make you understand it. For that i can only apologize.
3. I have another account on AO3 which is the one I use the most, so check there for updates.
: I know i used to update once a week before, but from now on it will probably be once a month(i hope). Sorry...
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