Meredith is now almost eight months pregnant and on bed rest. She hasn't returned to the trailer since that night. She tries not to think about him and no one even dares to mention him around her. She has tried to call him, but she can't. She is too scared. Everyone helped her decorate the nursery. It is decorated in ferryboats and stars. The furniture is all mahogany and the colors are mainly indigo blue, bright yellow, and silver. She made sure that there was some part of Derek in this room.
Her stomach...well, her stomach is huge. She gets up at all hours of the night to go to the bathroom because one of them is always kicking her bladder. They are her reason to live right now. They have gotten her through the last three months. They cause her to think about the future instead of dwelling on the past. Their future...not hers. She doesn't like to think about her future too much...not unless it's in relation to her children. She still often wonders how she is going to take care of two newborn babies. She knows that everyone is going to be there. Well, not everyone. He's not. She feels the tears start to well up in her eyes and she decides to quickly focus her attention on something else.
She looks down at the blanket she is attempting to knit. It is indigo blue. For her son. She is also knitting a silver blanket for her daughter. It keeps her occupied while her roommates are at work. She is also watching television, but her attention is focused mainly on her knitting.
She stands up and heads to the kitchen. She stubs her toe on one of George's shoes.
Meredith: Damn it! Damn it, George.
She bends dow to pick up the shoe, but she can't. Her large belly prevents her. She feels the tears begin to run down her face. She picks up the phone and dials George's number.
(The cell phone conversation)
George: Hello?
Meredith: Damn it, George, why do you have to leave your damn shoes lying everywhere?
George: Are you okay, Meredith?
Meredith: No, I'm not okay. I stubbed my damn toe on your damn shoe!
George begins to feel flustered.
George: I...I...I'm sorry.
Meredith: That doesn't help my toe, does it George?
George: No...I..
Meredith: No. It doesn't. I can't even bend down to pick the damn shoe up. You know why George?
George knows why but is too scared to say it.
Meredith: Because of my big fat belly. I am a fat whale who can't even pick up a shoe off of the floor!
Meredith is now crying hysterically.
Meredith: I am big, fat, and ugly and nobody wants me. I am horny, George. I am horny and I can't have sex because I don't have anyone to have sex with. The asshole who knocked me up, with twins nonetheless, well who knows where the hell that prick is...I need for you to pick up after yourself George, because I can't be your mother too. Damn it!
Meredith hangs up on George and George continues to stare at the phone, dumbstruck. Izzie notices the look on George's face.
Izzie: Meredith?
George just nods.
Izzie: Give her a break. She has been on bed rest for a week. She is going crazy.
George: Yeah.
(Scene switches back to Meredith)
Meredith waddles into the kitchen. She's looking through the cabinets when she feels a pain in her abdomen. She grabs her stomach in pain.
Meredith: No. It's too early. No.
Meredith continues to search through the cabinets for food. She finds some crackers and sits down at the bar. She nibbles on the crackers and drinks some juice, hoping that she doesn't have another contraction.
It has now been ten minutes since her first pain and Meredith is beginning to think that she is in the clear. She starts walking towards the living room when she feels another contraction.
Meredith: Shit!
Meredith picks up the phone and dials a taxi.She is alone. Of course she is alone when this starts to happen. Karma. Damn mother freaking karma. Such a freaking bitch. She has the taxi take her to Seattle Grace Hospital. She steps out of the taxi and walks through the front doors of the hospital. Right now her contractions are about twelve minutes apart. Oh God. She is about to give birth. Maybe they can stop the labor. Oh God, let them be able to stop the labor. She is not ready for this.
She walks in the front doors and Bailey sees her and walks up to her.
Bailey: Grey, what the hell are you doing here? You are suppose to be on bed rest.
Before Meredith can speak she feels another contraction, this one stronger than the last one. She grabs her stomach and places a hand on the counter. Bailey looks at her.
Bailey: Oh my God, you are in labor, aren't you?
Meredith just nods as she tries to breathe through the contraction.
Bailey (yelling): I need someone to get me a wheelchair and page Dr. Montgomery! STAT!
Just then Izzie spots Meredith and runs over to her and Bailey.
Izzie: Meredith?? Are you okay? It was just a shoe...you didn't need to come down here...
Bailey: Stevens! She is in labor, you fool.
Izzie's mouth falls agape.
Izzie: But...it's early.
Meredith: I know. It's too early. Oh my God. This is my fault. It is too early.
Addison walks up and begins to walk next to Meredith as Izzie pushes the wheelchair.
Addison: This is not your fault. How far apart are the contractions?
Meredith: About twelve minutes...and they are getting stronger.
Addison: Okay. Once we get upstairs I will do a quick exam and I can try to stop the labor. Even if I can't you are far enough along that everything should be okay.
Meredith: It's too early.
Meredith begins to cry.
Addison stops Izzie from pushing the wheelchair and kneels down in front of Meredith.
Addison: Meredith, Look at me.
Meredith looks at Addison.
Addison: Your children are in good hands. This is not abnormal for twins. Everything will be fine. I promise.
Meredith: Thank you.
Addison smiles warmly at her and stands back up. They resume their movement towards the OB/GYN floor.
Once they reach her room, Addison does the exam.
Addison: Okay, Meredith you are only at two centimeters. I can try to stop the labor from progressing if you want me too, but I think that both boy and girl are developed enough to be delivered today.
Meredith now has tears running down her face.
Meredith: I'm not ready. I'm..I can't do this. I can't do this. Oh my God. I can't do this.
Addison: Yes you can, Meredith. You are strong. They need you to be strong for them. You can do this.
Meredith just nods. Addison leaves the room and Izzie, George, and Cristina enter. George is holding a video camera.
Izzie: Are you sure about this, Meredith?
Meredith: Yes. I want you to record it. If he can't be here, I want him to be able to watch it later.
Izzie: You know, you could call him...
Meredith sends Izzie a death glare.
Izzie: Okay, just saying..
Meredith sighs.
Meredith: I know...hand me my phone.
Izzie: Are you sure about this?
Meredith: Hand me my damn phone, Izzie?
Just then another contraction hits Meredith and she grips the side of the bed. She squeezes her eyes closed and she tries to breathe through the contraction.
Izzie: It's okay Meredith, I'm here. You can squeeze my hand.
Meredith just shakes her off and grabs the cellphone out of her hand. As soon as the contraction is over, Meredith dials a familiar number. She inhales deeply before pressing send.
You can do this Meredith. He is the father of your children. He deserves to know. He deserves to know that he is about to be a father, hopefully soon. Because if I have to go through this shit for too long...
Meredith: I can't do this.
Izzie: Yes, you can. Just press send.
Meredith: NO I CAN'T!
Meredith throws the cellphone against the wall, shattering it into pieces. Izzie just stares at her in shock. George puts the camera down.
Meredith looks at him.
Meredith: No, George. I want you to film it all. I want him to be able to watch it and it be like he was here. Only he's not here. I am here. All alone. I can't do this. I can't do this without him. Why did he have to leave me. Oh God. I can't do this. I need him. Oh my God.
She feels another contraction. This one more intense than the last ones. She screams out in pain and grabs onto the rail of the bed. Izzie moves to comfort her.
Meredith: Don't touch me.
Izzie: But Meredith...
Meredith: NO! I need him, Izzie. I need him. I can't do this. I...I can't...he...I need him...Oh God...
Meredith is now sobbing.
Izzie: Do you want me to call him?
Meredith: NO! He...he doesn't love me...I...he wouldn't have left if he doesn't love me...oh God...he said it was because he loves me...but...oh God...I can't...I need him...I need him so bad...
Meredith begins to sob even harder and against all protests Izzie climbs up in the bed behind Meredith. Meredith falls back against Izzie and begins to sob into her chest. Izzie runs her hands through Meredith's hair. Just then Cristina runs through the door.
Meredith looks at her.
Meredith: I...I thought you were in surgery...
Cristina (breathless): I was...but...my person...is giving birth...to my mini people...so...I ran here...damn...
Meredith can't help but smile.
Meredith: You are getting soft.
Cristina: Shut up.
She looks around the room and sees the broken cell phone.
Cristina: What the hell happened?
Izzie: She tried to call Derek.
Cristina arches her eyebrows.
Meredith: Bad idea.
Cristina: I'll say.
Just then Meredith feels another contraction. She grips the side of the bed as she tries to breathe through it. Izzie is rubbing her back and Cristina brings a wet towell to wipe her forehead that is breaking out in a sweat.
Meredith: Shit...shit...ouch...damn him...and his...stupid...boy...penis..
Just then Burke walks in.
Burke: How's it going, Grey?
Meredith: I hate penises.
Burke: Okay, then.
Burke turns around and leaves.
Izzie: I think you scared him.
Cristina: Good. I don't want him getting ideas.
They all laugh.
Meredith's labor lasts for twelve long hours. She refuses drugs up until about the eighth hour, when she can no longer take the pain and is so worn out from the contractions. George tapes the whole thing.
On November 12th, at 5:45am Meredith Grey gives birth to a healthy baby boy and a healthy baby girl. She names the girl Madeline Elizabeth Shepherd and she names the boy Derek Michael Shepherd, II. All of her friends think that she is crazy, but she doesn't care. She has always wanted to name her first born son after his father. She is holding the twins after they have been checked out by Addison and they have all been cleaned up.
She looks down into their bright blue eyes and is immediately in love with them. They have full heads of dark hair. It is the first thing Addison saw while she was delivering them and she couldn't help but think how much like their father they already are.
Meredith: I love you both so much. Mommy loves you so much and so does your daddy. I promise. I will tell him about you soon. You guys deserve to have both a mommy and a daddy, yes you do.
All of her friends watch this interaction and George records it. Izzie has a tear running down her face.
Meredith: George, bring the camera closer so Madeline and Derek Michael, Jr. can say hello to their daddy for the first time.
George brings the camera around to Meredith's side and focuses the lens on the two babies that clearly are the progeny of their mother and father. The babies open their eyes and the bright blue pools are accompanies by their mom's green seas as they look into the lens. The last image before the camera dies is of the three of them as a family looking into the lens of the camera.
Meredith feels true happiness for the first time since he left. She still doesn't feel complete. She still wants him. She still misses him. She still needs him. She still loves him. But now, now her world revolves around the two tiny creatures that she is holding in her hands and they, they make the pain bearable. They are so much like him. They are so much like him that her heart aches for him, but she hopes that by loving them and taking care of them, she hopes that by doing these things, that he will eventually come back. He will come back and make her little family complete.

Sorry about the formatting of these last chapters...but I lost the files on my computer and I'm having to get them from someplace else and I don't have the time to go through the reformat everything...so yeah...

-Marci