I'm going to be super busy this weekend so I figured I would post chapter 9 a day early as this is the only time I'll really have to post anything, so here you go, I hope you enjoy it. Standard disclaimer, I don't own Glee or any of its characters.
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Quinn hadn't moved from her spot on the bathroom floor in over 4 hours, she was still in shock. The first light of the sun was just peaking in through her bedroom window. She had run out of tears early on but she couldn't move or think or do anything right now. Her entire being was consumed with just one thought, I'm pregnant and my life is over.
She would never get out of this town, the odds were against her from the beginning, but pregnant at sixteen pretty much cemented her place as a Lima loser for the rest of her life. She would be lucky to be able to go to the nearby community college let alone even a university in the state. Her social life was over, once this got out, she had pretty much guaranteed herself the reputation of school slut. Completely ignoring the fact that she had only ever had sex once, and that pretty much every other girl she knew was sexually active. It wouldn't matter, she was the one stupid enough to get knocked up. Suddenly a horrible realization comes to her mind, forget college, and getting out of this town, or her social standing, forget all of that other stuff, when her parents found out, and there was no way to hide it from them, she would be lucky to survive the experience.
The thought of her parents finding out brings up a fresh wave of panic in her. She feels like she can't breathe. Her mind is working a mile a minute as she envisions all of these nightmare scenarios of telling them. She tries to suck in more air, to try and calm herself down but it doesn't work. She begins to hyperventilate and she's starts to feel light headed. She can feel her heart pounding wildly in her chest and she covers her mouth with both hands to muffle a panicked scream, as her panic attack comes in full force.
She lays down on her side, pressed up against the cool outside of her tub as she curls up in on herself. "No, no, no, no." She whimpers through each breath. She needs to calm down and think this through, plan a course of action, but she can't. She can't calm down, and every second it gets worse and worse. The thoughts of what her parents will do to her when they find out she's pregnant are overwhelming. She squeezes her eyes shut as her vision begins to blur.
"…help." She manages to croak out, before she finally lets the darkness consume her and she loses consciousness.
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"Quinn." A hushed voice whispers.
Quinn just groans and ignores it, not ready to be awake yet, she was having the worst dream, and now that it was over she just wanted to rest.
"Quinn!" The voice whispers once again with more urgency, and she feel's herself being gently nudged.
"G'way." She groans.
"Quinn, Querida, you need to wake up, Britt is already packing your things, we're getting you out of here."
Quinn finally opens her eyes and looks up into the worried face of Santana. She slowly starts to sit up and Santana helps her. "What's going on?" She asks confused. "What are you doing here, why do I need to leave?"
"When you didn't show up for the morning workout B and I were a little concerned, we tried calling you but you didn't answer and when you didn't show up for school we were worried something bad had happened to you. So we came here to check on you and found you lying here on the floor." Santana's face hardens in anger. "We are getting you out of here and then we are taking you down to see B's dad, and you are going to tell him what happened to you. They don't get to hurt you again, ever."
Santana pulls a still dazed Quinn into her arms and holds her tightly. "I am so sorry Querida, I should have done something sooner, I should have gotten you out sooner, I am so so sorry. This won't happen again I promise."
"Wait, what? What time is it?" Quinn asks trying to get her brain to catch up. She missed school? What was happening?"
"It's a little after 12:30, now come on, B should be finished packing, but you'll want to help with that. We have to hurry though, we don't know how long your mom is going to be out."
Quinn tries to stand up but is very stiff and a little shaky so Santana has to assist her. "San, what are you talking about, why do I have to leave? I'm fine, everything is-" Quinn stops short, as last night comes rushing back to her, and it's a good thing that Santana is there because almost all of the strength in her legs left her and the other girl had to help her keep standing.
"Oh yeah, no, you're great, I can totally tell," Santana sneers. "I told you before, I wouldn't ever let you being hurt slide again, I wouldn't care how angry you got, or how much you begged me to leave it alone. You're not fine, people who are fine don't miss school like this. We fucking found you lying unconscious on the bathroom floor, you are about as far from fine as someone can get."
Santana leads her out of the bathroom and sits her down on her bed and kneels before her. She can see out of the corner of her eye, Brittany throwing clothes into a backpack. Santana takes her hands in her own and holds them gently while looking her in the eye firmly.
"We are getting you out of here, you are going to tell B's dad everything that these bastards have done to you, starting with whatever they did last night."
"San, no-"
"After that, we're going to talk to my mom to see what legal actions you can take."
"No, San my parents didn't do anythi-"
"Bullshit!" Brittany interrupts her, moving over and sitting down next to her. "Don't tell me they haven't done anything to you, I saw that bruise on your arm, and whatever they did last night that has you so scared that you would actually try to lie to us will never happen again. If you won't save yourself, we will."
"B's right Quinn, we are-"
"I'm pregnant." Quinn interrupts and both of her friend's eyes widen in shock, their mouths drop, trying to process what their friend has just told them. "That's why I didn't show up this morning… or go… go to… to school… and… I… I..." Quinn breaks down again, as the emotions and fears she had last night resurface in full force.
Both Brittany and Santana move, in an instant Santana moving up next to the girl on the edge of the bed pulling her in and holding her, still confused about what's going on but needing to do something. Brittany hugs Quinn from behind and rests her head against Quinn's back as the girl sobs. Brittany gently runs a hand up and down Quinn's arm.
"My life is over!" Quinn muffled wail comes Santana's shoulder.
"No, no, Querida, no, no, that's not true."
"Yes it is! What… what am I going to do!?"
Santana and Brittany look at each other stricken, when they came here to grab Quinn they expected that things wouldn't be okay, but this was a situation so completely different than they were prepared to deal with. They had come here expecting to save their friend, but how could they save her from something like this.
The girls continue to hold their friend until her tears run out. Neither of them want to make things harder on her but they do have some questions. As far as they knew Quinn was still a virgin, they hadn't realized she had gone that far with Finn.
Santana is the one who finally decides to break the silence. "Quinn, when did you… you know?" She inwardly cringes, under less extreme circumstances she would have just asked 'So when did you and Frankenteen get your freak on?' Or something along those subtle lines. But for now she needs to proceed cautiously, her friend is in trouble right now, and she doesn't want to make it harder on the girl.
Quinn doesn't answer, she just sits there in silence. The cat is pretty much out of the bag, but she is still holding on to the hope that nobody has to find out that she slept with Puck. It's one thing to get pregnant because you got careless with your boyfriend, it's something completely different when you let the school man-whore get you drunk enough to sleep with him. Her mind is in a whirl-wind of thoughts and emotions, as she tries to consider what to say and do. She doesn't want to lie to her friends but she honestly doesn't know how she can tell them the truth. That after a single bad day, she let herself be manipulated into spreading her legs for the first guy that came along. That she had drunkenly thought that fooling around with Puck was a good way to get back at Finn for cheating on her. That despite their broken up status now, she had cheated on her boyfriend with her best friend's boyfriend. The guilt and shame had been bad enough, but now she had to deal with a life altering reminder of what she had done.
Quinn's thoughts are interrupted by Brittany who gently shakes her shoulder. She looks over at her fellow blond, with a dead look in her eye.
"You don't have to tell us if you don't want to Quinn. It's a very personal question, but if you ever need to, you know that we are right here for you."
"Thanks B." Quinn says quietly. "Listen Brittany, I'm really sorry about-"
"Completely forgotten, seriously, that's no big deal and in the end you did the right thing, that's all that counts. You have bigger things to worry about than that."
"Still I want you to know that I'm sorry."
Brittany just nods her head and then leans forward and places a kiss on Quinn's forehead. "Like I said, completely forgiven, but what about you, what can we do for you?"
Quinn lets out a sigh and her shoulders sag, "I have no idea."
"Sorry to bring this up, but when are you going to tell Finn?" Santana asks her friend gently.
Quinn stiffens up. "I don't… I don't know, I really don't want to think about this right now. I know I need to but, I just can't deal with this right now. Can we… I don't know, is there glee club today?"
Santana and Brittany look at her strangely. "Yeah, but are you sure you want to go… I mean, you have a lot to think about, are you sure you want to go." Santana asks.
"I'm sure, I need a distraction. I don't feel like dealing with coach today, and I can't be here right now, tomorrow, I'll be responsible, today I just don't want to care."
"Sure Q." Brittany says soothingly while casting a worried glance at Santana.
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When the three girls arrived at the school Quinn couldn't help but smile. Her two friends had basically formed rank around her and were putting out such fierce, angry vibes that even people at the end of the hallway were rushing to get out of their way. It was completely sweet, but at this point unnecessary. Still it was nice to know that her friends were going to stick by her in this.
She reaches over and quickly squeezes Santana's hand and the girl just nods to her in confirmation. She then does the same to Brittany who looks to her and smiles sweetly before turning her attention back to the student body as if she's checking the crowd for snipers.
When they finally reach the choir room, they are early for glee and the only person in there is Rachel, who is by the piano doing vocal warm-ups.
"Me, me, me, me, me, me, me."
"Me, me, me, me, me ,me, me."
"Mai, mai, mai, mai, mai, mai, mai, mai."
"Mu, mu, mu, mu, mu, mu, mu, mu."
"Me, me, me, me, me, me-"
"How very like you Berry, me, me, me." Santana snarks, interrupting the girl.
"Oh!" Rachel squeaks, startled, before turning angrily towards the Latina. "I'll have you know that this is a tried and true vocal exercise that has worked very well for me for years now, and that I am no more selfish than anybody else in this club, thank you very much." She then turns dismissively from Santana, who actually eyes her with a little more respect than before, before smiling at Quinn.
"I am so glad that you decided to continue on with glee club. Mr. Schuester is done with his whole "Acafella's" thing and will be devoting his full time to glee club once more. All we need to do now is recruit the last three members of the club and then we'll be ready to compete, it is all very exciting."
Rachel finally turns her attention to Brittany. "Brittany, I've been working on this non-stop since the whole Taylor Swift medley fiasco thing and I wanted to get your thoughts on it."
Brittany turns to Quinn asking for her permission, not wanting to leave her friend if she needs her. "I'm good B, you can go help Berry with her thing."
Rachel eyes them curiously, wondering what's going on with Quinn, but doesn't says anything and it's basically driven from her mind when Brittany and her reach the piano and start to go over her music.
Santana and Quinn take a seat over in the corner and listen to the two other girls work for a while. When Santana is sure that it's safe she leans over and whispers to Quinn. "Q, I know you don't want to talk about it or even think about it right now, but this is huge. Why didn't you come to me sooner?"
"I just found out I was pregnant last night, San, there wasn't any time to tell you."
"No, not about that, I'm talking about… you know… sex." Santana stumbles out, still trying to be tactful for Quinn's sake. "I thought you wanted to wait, I know how important to you that was, plus with everything that the Jolly Green Giant pulled on you, I'm pretty shocked that you gave it up for him. I guess I just want to know why you didn't come to me, I mean I know it's personal, but we don't keep secrets from each other… or at least we didn't used to."
"San…I'm not exactly proud of what happened, it was a huge mistake and I have hated myself ever since, I was having a bad day, and it was a moment of weakness, if I could take it back I would. I was just hoping that if I didn't talk about it, just ignored it then I could pretend that it never happened." A tear falls from Quinn's eye. "I guess that's not an option anymore."
"That bad huh?" Santana jokes trying to lighten the mood a bit.
Quinn can't help but let out a laugh. "Yeah… yeah it was that bad."
"So when are you going to tell Finn that he's going to be a dad?"
Quinn had no idea what to do about Finn and was thankfully saved from answering when the choir room door opened and the rest of the club began to file in.
Finn makes his way over to Quinn smiling and takes the other seat next to her, he ignores the glare that Santana is sending him, he's pretty used to it by now, she has never been overly fond of him, although it does seem a little bit angrier than usual. He reaches over to take Quinn's hand and is shocked and a little hurt when she yanks it away from him, and places her hands in her lap, and avoids looking at him.
"Hey Quinn, what's-"
"You're in my seat." Finn is interrupted by Brittany who is glaring at him. He gazes at her, dumbfounded by what he could have possibly done to make her angry, Brittany was never angry with anyone.
"Hey what's going on, why are you all mad at me?"
"What's wrong Finnept, is that you are in B's seat, so move." Santana snaps at him.
"No way, what the hell is your problem?"
"Please go Finn." Quinn speaks up quietly, not looking at him. "You're causing a scene."
Finn looks around and notices the rest of the glee club is watching them curiously. "Fine, whatever." Finn says angrily as he grabs his stuff and moves down to an empty seat between Rachel and Kurt.
Brittany takes the seat next to Quinn and affectionately rubs her shoulder.
"What the fuck are you all looking at?" Santana sneers at the rest of the club, who were still watching the trio. "Are your lives so pathetic that you have to watch us, look away fools."
The rest of the club quickly turns away except for Rachel who watches on with concern for a few moments longer before finally tearing her gaze away from the trio when Mr. Schuester walks into the room, beaming.
"Alright guys, welcome to glee club. I'm glad to see all of you here because I have a couple of announcements. First of all, I would like to apologize, I abandoned you guys when you needed me and I left you hanging, I heard about what disaster hiring Dakota Stanley was and I apologize for not being here to watch out for you. But I heard you didn't need it and you guys handled things just fine. Especially you Quinn." He turns his gaze onto her, a look of pride on his face. "You stepped up and helped remind everyone that we're a team, so thank you. We can all learn from your example."
Quinn turns red before speaking up. "Mr. Schuester, about that I-"
"You should have been there!" Brittany interrupts quickly. "She totally put that guy in his place. It was awesome."
"I completely agree, Quinn saved the day," Rachel throws in and then looks Quinn in the eyes. "You really were a hero to this club that day." The rest of the glee club throws in their agreements after that.
Quinn is touched by both Brittany and Rachel jumping in for her and so all she does is nod to them in gratitude.
"I wish I could have seen it, you really stepped up Quinn, so thank you." Mr. Shcuester then turns his attention away from Quinn and back to the rest of the club.
"Now the second order of business. We need more people, so to that end-"
Quinn stops paying attention at this point and leans back in her chair, and stares at the ceiling. There are so many things to consider and now that she's here she realizes what a bad idea it was to show up today. She is in no condition to be singing and dancing and pretending that everything is okay. And now she feels guilty for treating Finn so badly. She just can't have him touching her right now, especially when she just doesn't know what to do about him. Does she tell him the truth, that she slept with his best friend and is now pregnant with his child, or could she lie to him, tell him it's his? And as always gnawing at the back of her mind, her parents, what does she do about them?
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Glee passes in a blur, there was some sort of drama going on with Tina getting a solo over Rachel, but Quinn honestly didn't care enough to pay it any attention. She had finally come to a decision about Finn and was determined to go through with it, no matter the cost.
"Santana, Brittany, I need to talk to Finn for a moment, can you guys wait up?"
"Sure Q."
"We'll be right here."
She nervously makes her way over to the boy, unable to look him in the eye. "We need to talk." She turns to Rachel who is right next to him. "Alone please."
Once Rachel leaves and the rest of the choir room is empty save for Santana and Brittany who are waiting at the door she finally turns and looks at the boy.
"What's going on Quinn, why are you so mad at me, whatever I did I'm sorry." The boy says sincerely.
"Finn, I…" it's on the tip of her tongue to tell him, to tell him that she's pregnant with his child. "I… I'm pre… No, no, I can't do this…. I'm sorry Finn."
He looks at her puzzled. "Quinn what's going on, what can't you do, please tell me." He asks her gently taking her hand in his own.
Quinn takes a deep breath and resolves herself to go through with this, pulling her hand away as she says. "I'm breaking up with you."
She can hear a gasp come from Brittany and Santana curse in the background. She had originally planned to tell him that the child was his, but how could she force someone into this. Finn made his mistakes but he didn't deserve this, he deserved his chance to get out of this town, to make something of his life, a chance that she no longer had. She wasn't in love with him, but she did love him, and she did care about him and she had no right to trap him in this.
"What!? Why!? Quinn what's going on, why are you doing this, is it me, did I do something wrong!? Why are you breaking up with me!?" The boy sounds like he is near tears, and the confusion in his voice cuts her.
"I'm pregnant." She tells him, her voice barely above a whisper.
"What?" He gasps out breathless. "You… you're… pregnant?"
She nods her head.
"Is, is it mine, am I going to be a dad?" His voice cracks at the thought and he looks so scared right now that Quinn knew she made the right choice here.
"No, you're not the father, so I'm breaking up with you."
Finn's look of fear and anxiety quickly morphs into anger and he starts to shake with rage. "You cheated on me! What the hell is the matter with you!? How long has this been going on for, I mean how many guys have you been with?!"
"Finn I-" She tries to calm the yelling boy.
"Don't you think about anyone but yourself, did you ever even care about me at all!? Seriously, how could you do this to me-"
SLAP!
Finn holds a hand tentatively up to his face and gingerly touches the already forming pink hand print that is beginning to appear on his face. Quinn who had been feeling extremely guilty and remorseful up until this point was now only pissed. She had expected him to be angry, she had expected him to be hurt and to yell, but when he asked how she could do this to him, all of her pent up rage at his own actions and her situation came to bear.
"How could I do this to you?" She whispers harshly, her voice as cold as ice. "How could I do this to you!?" She yells. "What about you Finn, how many girls have you been with since we got together!?"
"I… I don't-" He stammers out.
"You… you… don't… don't, what Finn?" She mocks him cruelly. "Don't know what I'm talking about? Don't know what I mean? Or maybe you just don't know how many. How many girls have you been with, besides Berry I mean?"
The look of shock on his face causes her to sneer. "Oh you didn't think I knew about that did you, you thought you got away with it? Well tell me Finn, since that first day in the auditorium, how many times have you gone off with her or any other girl!?"
Quinn begins to shake with emotion. "How could I do this to you!? YOU CHEATED ON ME FIRST! YOU BROKE MY HEART, YOU LIED TO ME FIRST, AND WHEN I WAS EMOTIONALLY VULNERABLE, I WAS STUPID ENOUGH TO LET SOME LOSER FUCK ME BECAUSE ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS GET OVER YOUR BETRAYAL!"
Quinn takes a shuttering, deep, breath and Finn is looking at her, his eyes wide with fear and guilt. "How could I do this to you? You cheated on me first, I made one mistake and now my life is over, I'm going to lose everything, I will never get out of here and the entire school is going to talk about me behind my back, it doesn't matter what the circumstances were, or that it was one mistake that I have regretted and hated myself for from the moment it happened, that won't matter to anyone. They're going to call me a slut and a hypocrite and everything else they can think of. You and I both cheated on each other but I'm the one who gets to be the social pariah."
Quinn scoffs in disbelief, her voice cracking as she continues to speak. "But you, you get to skate away from this scot free, you don't have to face any consequences for your actions. And you, you'll have a whole line of girls all waiting to comfort the now single, but still popular, quarter back over his cheating bitch of an ex-girlfriend. My life is over but you still have yours, but yeah, no Finn, how could I do this to you?"
Quinn can't keep her emotions in check any longer and starts to cry. "Go to hell." She whispers before turning and leaving the room as quickly as her feet will carry her.
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A.N. So this chapter is very interesting to me and also very important to me because this chapter has the idea that sparked this story, which is, what if Quinn had made a different choice when she found out that she was pregnant, what if she had told Finn the truth right from the get go? The idea bounced around in my head for a while until it finally became this story. I'm sure it has been done before, but I haven't personally seen it and so I wanted to give the idea a try. Although if you do know of other stories let me know, I would be interested in seeing what they did. I hope you guys have enjoyed the story so far and the next chapter will be up on Friday.
