"Clarke, what the fuck happened last night?"

Clarke sits up staring at Lexa with an open mouth. When Lexa keeps looking at her for an answer Clarke clenches her jaw.

"You don't remember?" She says clearly pissed. "You can't be fucking serious, Lexa." She groans in frustration and climbs out of bed. Anger starts to rise in her whole body, she can't help hit the mattress with her hand.

"Clarke I don't remember anything… I just know I had this fight with Costia and then I wanted to go outside to look for you. How did everything end up like this?" Lexa panics.

"Lexa, you never came looking for me! You showed up long after the party ended at my doorstep!" Clarke gets up angry and quickly puts on her clothes.

"Wait, I did this?" Lexa feels her heart stop beating at the realization that she went looking for Clarke and probably started everything.

"Yes, you did! You wanted it!" Clarke clenches her fist.

"No, that can't be true. I would never cheat on Costia." Lexa tries to convince mostly herself.

"That's far from what you've told me last night." Tears well up in the blonde's eyes. "You told me you love me… "

Lexa closes her eyes desperately trying to remember what she did. She sits down on the bed and puts her head in her hands.

"What did I do?" The girl in now very close to crying. Clarke kneels down in front of her friend.

"Lexa please tell me that you meant what you said… "She can see the desperation in Clarke's eyes. Do I mean it?

"Clarke… I don't know anything right now." Hurt can be seen on Clarke's face before it turns to anger. All of the sudden she stands up fully and slaps Lexa across the face. Hard.

"Fuck you, Lexa!" The blonde storms out of the room. After taking a moment to comprehend what just happened, Lexa runs after her friend in pants and bra.

"Clarke!" She shouts as she speeds down the hallway. She jumps down the stairs into the kitchen and to her shock finds Raven sitting on the counter. Fuck my life. What is she doing here?

Raven stares at her half naked friend with an open mouth. She just witnessed a crying Clarke rushing into the bathroom and soon after Lexa falls down the stairs without a shirt on. Damn, this is going to be a good story.

"Looking for Clarke?" Raven raises her eyebrow at Lexa as she bites into an apple.

"Where is she?" The taller brunette looks to the floor ashamed of herself.

"Bathroom. But I really don't think she wants to see you right now." Raven smirks enjoying the view in front of her. Not bad. She thinks to herself.

Lexa rushes to the bathroom and lightly knocks on the door and calls Clarke's name.

"Leave me! I don't want to see you, Lexa!"

"Clarke… "

"Please just go away. You've done enough." She hears sobs escape her friend's mouth.

"Clarke… I'm so sorry that happened. I wasn't myself last night- "Lexa is cut off as the door swings open with force. She expected Clarke to listen to what she has to say but instead the blonde pushes her away with a force Lexa has never seen before.

"GO!" She screams one last time before heading back upstairs to her room. "Here's your fucking shirt! Happy new year, Lexa!"

Lexa catches her shirt as the girl throws it directly at her face. The brunette can feel herself getting emotional and decides to leave as fast as possible. She walks passed Raven without another word and runs out of Clarke's house. Not having any money for a cab she starts walking towards her old house which now solely belongs to Anya. After about 40 minutes she finally arrives at the front door.

"Lexa! Where the fuck did you run off?" It was Costia who opened the door after she rang the bell. She looks at her girlfriend and feels a rush of guilt overcome her.

"Uh I…" She can't form a coherent sentence afraid to say something that might hurt Costia.

"I was so worried. Why did you just leave?" Costia lets Lexa enter her home and accompanies her into the living room to the couch.

"What do you mean I left? I kind of… don't remember anything." Costia takes her hand seeing that her girlfriend is scared of something.

"You fainted at the party shortly after midnight." Fainted? What?

"I don't remember anything after midnight." Lexa is still confused.

"Anya and I got you home and put you into bed. We're thinking you had too much to drink."

"When did I leave?"

"I don't know. I woke up around four and you were gone. Where did you go?" Lexa can't bring herself to tell her the truth.

"I woke up on the bench in the park next to the school." She knows she shouldn't lie but she can't tell her what really happened. Not yet.

"Gosh… Lexa never do that again. I was so worried." Costia leans forward to kiss Lexa's lips. Normally she would melt at the feeling of Costia's lips on hers but this time she felt nothing. What is wrong with you Lexa?

Costia deepens the kiss and leans heavily against Lexa. Lexa heats the situation up by pushing Costia down on the couch. She positions herself between Costia's legs but feels nothing. Suddenly an image pops up before her eyes.

"Lexa…" Costia moans but Lexa hears another voice. Clarke's.

"No!" Lexa jumps off of Clarke… Costia… Clarke? It's Costia. The blonde hair turns black and Lexa can finally see Costia again. Only Costia.

"What's wrong?" Lexa can see that Costia is concerned.

"I… am tired. I don't have enough energy for that." Her girlfriend looks a bit disappointed but nods anyway.

"Ok go rest, sleep well. I love you."

"I love you too." I do love her, right?

Laying in the bed Lexa can't keep her mind from wandering off to Clarke. She feels guilty for hurting her and even more for not being able to remember what she was thinking when she did what she did. Do I love Clarke? No? I don't think so. Or maybe I like her a little bit. I don't know!

Suddenly a thought hit her. I went to sleep. I got up. I walked away. I woke up. I don't remember anything. She was in a similar situation once. She realizes that can only mean one thing.

I sleepwalked again.