I wake up in a hospital room, the soft beeping the only background noise. Ah, alone. I can't help but feel a little pang in my chest at the feeling of nobody with concern for me being around. I notice my clothes hanging up in the corner, and quickly dash over to get my phone from my pocket. There's no burns on me, I got home! I'm home, I'm home! I open my phone up, and text Shizu-chan with a grin on my face.
"Greetings protozoan, your favorite flea is home~~" I send the message, knowing he'll get that it's the real me, not that incompetent fake. Except, he won't. Because he's a stupid protozoan. I laugh to myself, a slight pain in my chest. No, it's not from loneliness, I'm not that desperate! I smile at Shizuo's lack of response. Stupid monster. I kick at the floor in frustration, before going over to the window to catch up on my people watching.
Everyone, all my humans, they seem so dull and sluggish on this fine morning! I sigh, my temporary excitement draining, and drag myself back to the hospital bed.
"So, nobody cares about me... I have no friends!" I feel a pang in my chest again, and force loud, crazy laughter to come out. I feel my face getting wet, and scowl, reaching up to run a hand down my cheek. I freeze up, realizing that I'm crying like a little baby, tears streaming down my cheeks. Before I can stop myself, I'm sobbing and hiccupping hysterically.
"I-I don't w-wuh-wanna b-be alone!" I cry, shoulders heaving with sobs. It's disgusting and childish, I know, but I'm sobbing harder, my nose clogged up and runny.
"I-I'm s-suh-so lonely..." I start feeling worse than I've ever felt in my life, my head hurts, my body feels sensitive and frail, my chest hurts, too much, it hurts so much.. I start to speak to reprimand my own behavior, but my voice cracks, pitching up with my sadness.. I try to steady my hands, and grab my phone, trying to call Shinra as fast as I can.
"Hello?" He sounds so happy, and it brings a soft little smile to my lips, even through my tears.
"S-Shinra..!" My voice breaks, and if I was standing in front of him, I'd be throwing my arms around him with all my strength, "C-can you come and see me...? I'm in the hospital... I know you don't care, but it'd make me so happy if you came to see me..!" I know how pathetic I sound, but it's true, I would die happy if I found out these people even care a little.
"Izaya, why do you always want me to come to the hospital and see you?" He sounds a little... annoyed with me..? No, please, I'm so lonely, please..
"Please, Shinra.. I'm alone... I really don't wanna be alone anymore... P-please.." I say softly into the phone, before hanging up on him. I feel disgusting, and pathetic, for crawling to him and pleading for some semblance of a normal friendship! I am disgusting and pathetic though, so it's fitting.. Ugh, I'm a mess... What happened to the former me?! I'm a... a god... Fuck it, I'm not... Gods are appreciated and loved and worshipped and I'm just... A disgusting, unloved, lonely little human.
And is a friend really too much to ask from this world...?
I'll stop playing god, I'll be a kind person, I swear...
I just want love from this world...
I just want at least one of my humans to love and adore me as much as I love them.
-In the hospital in another world-
I wake up in a hospital room, my body sore and heavy. Shinra, Shizu-chan, Celty, my sisters, and Namie are standing at the foot of the bed.
"W-what h-happened..?" My head feels too heavy and painfully warm to function right..
"Izaya! Y-you're awake... Oh, thank god.." Shinra looks like he's been crying, and I see him wipe his eyes on the sleeve of his lab coat.
"Yes, but..." I sigh softly, "What happened to me..?"
"Y-you set your apartment on fire..." He answers solemnly, still sounding like he's gonna cry.
"I-I... Oh..." The other me must've done that to get home.. I feel bad for him, he could've stayed here and he could've been as happy as he wanted... It's so sad...
"I-I have to tell all of you something..." I begin softly. I go on to tell them why I was probably acting different the last week or so, and what happened in the other world..
"That's what happened? That explains why you kept snapping at everyone." Shizu-chan looks extra sympathetic towards me when I finish telling them my story.
"That explains so much..." Namie sighs,
[I'm so sorry that all that happened to you..] I struggle to read Celty's PDA screen, my vision blurry with my headache and lack of glasses.
I smile softly, missing the concern from everyone I hadn't received I hadn't received while I was in the other world. "Thank you all..."
"O-of course, Izaya! We all care deeply for you, and want to help you..!" Shinra reaches to hug me, but Celty and Shizu-chan hold him back.
"Jeez, careful, you'll hurt him, idiot!" Shizu-chan scolds, and I can't help but start laughing.
God, I missed them all so much. I feel so bad for the other me though, he's not going to be loved.. Like he really deserve.. Love and affection would make him such a nice person, I know it. I suddenly get what I know will be the best idea I'll ever have.
"Could all of you leave the room..? I have to make a call." I smile. The six of them leave, my sisters waving to me. I pick up the phone on the bedside, and dial the number of the other me's cellphone.
Soft crying answers me.
"Hello?" I say softly, putting on my genuinely kind tone when I hear him crying.
"W-who is this...?" His voice greets me, but it sounds like my own now..
"It's you. I'm gonna tell you, it's okay, don't worry, everything's gonna be okay for you.." I say kindly, like I'm comforting a lost child.
"B-b-but everyone here hates m-me..." I feel my heart shatter, and I wish I could comfort him, he sounds so lonely.
"Just show everyone that you can change. Be kind to them, show Shinra and Shizu-chan that you care about them, I promise it'll work~ I got Shizu-chan to like me in your world, so it's possible~" I smile, and pray that he'll listen to my advice.
"O-okay... It works..? The protozoan actually likes you?"
I laugh softly. "First of all, don't call him a protozoan~ Call him by his name. Shizuo. Not Shizu-chan, not brute, not protozoan."
"Alright... I'll try to change.." I hear him cheering up, and I forget that it's hurting to hold the phone in my bandaged and burned hands as I listen to him.
"Good! Everything will be okay, okay?" I smile softly, and hang up after my final positive words. Everyone comes back into my room.
"What was that about?" Shizuo raises an eyebrow.
"Oh, nothing," I smile,
"Just had to give a friend a little advice."
A/N: And this story is finished~ Wow, this is probably my favourite story I've written so far out of anything I've made. I closed off our Izaya's story a little bittersweet, because you can make one person's story end right, but not always other people's at the same time~ I'm so glad everyone enjoyed this story, and I'm sorry for writing shorter chapters near the end, but I'm glad you all liked it as much as you did! Thank you all~
