A/N: I know it's a bit rubbish but I couldn't leave it where it was, please read and review :)

Blinding light. That was the first thing Brianna saw when she finally awoke. She considered the possibility that she was in Heaven, but people like her weren't the kind of people who would get there and she certainly didn't feel very heavenly or angelic. Her arm stung like the fires of Hell and she could feel each stitch with painful accuracy. Her tongue felt like sandpaper and what she thought had been blinding light was just a regular light bulb. It was all she could do to force a single word from her mouth and even then it sounded croaky and was barely audible 'Sam.'

She felt a weight lift from the bed as Sam's tear-stained face came into view. His hair was messy and he looked like he hadn't slept in a week. "Oh thank God." he breathed a sigh of relief "we were so worried about you!" He helped her to prop herself on the pillows that Mother Mary had left for her then tentatively lent forward to give her a hug and carefully enfolded her in his arms, treating her like some kind of porcelain doll so as not to harm her further. She buried her head in his shoulder, tears running down her pale cheeks. Stop crying, she told herself, you got yourself into this mess, you deserve all of this pain. Everyone hates you now, especially Dekka. Even Sam hates you and it's all your fault, just go and die. Brianna suddenly pushed Sam away from her, she wasn't strong enough to actually do it but she pressed her weak hands against his chest, Sam got the message and returned to his sitting position. She directed her gaze at the wall, doing all she could to avoid Sam's confused eyes. 'Bri? Have I done something wrong? Have I hurt you?'

No. You're the one that hurt him. 'No, it's just... I'm so sorry.' she said, her voice thick with emotion.

'Why would you be sorry?'

'For this. I got you involved in my problems and I should have kept it to myself. All I've done is hurt you and you've been so good to me.'

His expression softened yet more and his ocean-like eyes were flooded. 'You don't have to be sorry! Everyone has problems and this is yours, no one should judge you for it. Dekka knew you would react this way, she shouldn't have said it. I expected better of her. And although your cutting has upset me, I love you for who you are- you make me laugh and I enjoy spending time with you, it isn't everything about you. You're still such a wonderful, amazing girl.'

What?! 'So... You don't hate me?' she stuttered, unable to understand how she was a wonderful person. Wonderful people didn't end up slashing themselves half to death, that's what crazy people did.

'No! I will never hate you, Brianna.' he took her hand in his 'we're going to get through this together, I love you and I will do everything I can to help you get better.' and with that she collapsed into his strong arms, her body racked with sobs as he rubbed circles on her back, whispering soothing words that she didn't register but made her feel better anyway.