It's been a while, But I'm back
January 13th, That meant my due date was in less than one month.
Jasper left like an idiot for one week and then came back. He said that he wasn't ready for a confession like that and that I was going too fast. I know I may be going fast, but I'm sort of like a psychic and I can sense that he is the one I love and will love for a long time if not the rest of my life.
He stayed the from Monday to Thursday and left on the weekends to work out of town. Thankfully it wasn't akward between us. I didn't took back what I said because I know I feel it and he was honest enough to tell me that he was atleast attracted to me. He didn't love me, but he did care about me and his son. For now I'm just happy with meaning something to him, the future always works in my favor for some weird reason.
" Alice? "
" Yeah "
" Where's my black shirt? "
" Closet, Top drawer in the left "
Today was Thursday which meant he was leaving for work. I don't know why after he left and came back 7 days after with his ' I didn't mean to ' face I took him back so easily. Maybe Jason was to blame a little, or my hormones or my insecurities, Who knows. The point is I'm glad we can share a house.
We don't act like a couple, but we didn't act like just roommates either. He was sleeping in the Lavender room and I in the main one. For now we we're going to take it step by step which means no wedding until we are 100% sure it's what we want and what is best. Living together was also a experiment and it helped us see what the future may look like.
" Ok, I think I'm going now "
He kissed my cheek and my belly before taking his suitcase with him to his car. I stepped outside to watch him leave as I have been doing for the last 4 weeks. In those four weeks I also got a car. It was a blue 2007 Corolla that The Culens had given me. Apparently Jr. also my best friends fiancé was getting a new Volvo and he didn' need his car anymore, Since I needed to go to my check-ups and all you can put two an two together and figure I got the car.
Since being at home is boring when you have nothing to do, I decided to go visit Esme. The house was close by. In only 15 minutes I was there with the joyful Mrs. Cullen waiting for me outside.
" Alice!, Come in. I have so many things to show you "
She was not lying. Since I decided against a baby shower she had taken it in herself to get me presents for the baby and to Esme saying no was impossible.
" Look this little set I found it on the mall and I remembered you and little Jason, I bet he's going to be a musician someday "
That makes three, Bella had told me not long ago that the way he kicked had a rhythm to it. I ignored it but eventually noticed too. Esme had also commented about it. Who knows maybe it was in his blood. Jasper played guitar and could sing but he was very modest about it. It's still lovely to think about a little Jasper with a mini guitar and a cowboy hat singing around the house.
Singing around the house, It won't be too long before it happens. Carlisle had told me that the little Keith Urban was ready to pop out anytime. I was excited, yes I was probably not gonna get sleep and all, but holding him in my arms is more than enough for the lack of sleep. I hope he liked my music. I picked up the habit of singing everyday in the rocking chair.
After Esme showed me the unnecesary bunch of clothes and toys for the baby we went to the kitchen to prepare something to eat. I had gotten better at that too, I mean with a teacher like Esme who wouldn't.
Two hours later Carlisle walked through the front door just as dinner was finished. Although he looked tired he had the biggest smile on his face at the sight of his wife happily accomodating the table. He waved at me before gently placing a kiss in his wife's cheeks. They were so adorable. Not four minutes later Edward, Bella, Emmett and Rosalie entered the house.
Edward immediately came to me hugging me and asking to put his hands on my stomach to feel Jason. Bella was right behind him with a weird expression in her face. It was not obvious, but I know she was thinking how good of a father he will be someday. Hopefully that someday was soon I want someone to play with Jason and to play with myself.
" Tiny Alice! "
" Long time no see Hulk "
" Hey don't blame me because genetically you were supposed to be 5 inches taller "
" How are you doing Alice? "
Rosalie was not the type you will think of as friendly at the contrary of Emmett. I had not seen Emmett for 2 years until he came back 3 weeks ago. He had left when he was 19 to go to the University of North Carolina and we haven't seen him ever since. He wrote letters and send e-mails and photos but this was the first time he was visiting, and with his girlfriend at that.
Rosalie Hale. She was quite a beauty, Blond, Tall and with an admirable body however as much as her beauty was impressive, It was her personality that got me. She was really nice to me and gave me ideas for when the baby was born. I liked her and she liked me, and better yet she was so enthusiastic about a tiny life around.
" I'm very fine Rose, thanks "
" Enough with th chit-chat let's eat "
At the table things were mostly silent except the sound of forks and Emmett's annoying chewing. The food was delicious and thanks to Esme I had a few tricks to prepare mouthwatering healthy meals. Jason liked the food too as he was asking for more, Well not him me. Emmett was also repeating, for the third time.
" Emmett son could you lessen your excesive chewing "
And I thought I was the only one annoyed. When we finished I went to the living room with Bella and the guys. I was prohibited to do much movement after I finished eating, didn't settle with the baby. Em, had made a joke or two about Bella being so clumsy and Carlisle being a secret vampire. Edward was being his usual self, Bella was blushing at Emmett's jokes and Rosalie was laughing along with us.
At 7:06 I decided it was time to go home. Em and Rose asked to acompany me because they wanted to see the house which I of course accepted. Emmett had been to captivated with tha flat Plasma screen in the living room and the chips in the counter to see the rest of the house. Rose and I toured the house and headed outside for a while, sitting in the balcony.
" You know I envy you, I want to have one "
I stared in curiosity as her eyes dropped and a sad smile covered her face. Maybe Em had said not for now.
" Don't worry you'll have one "
She turned her face from me and took a long sigh. It was painful to her to talk about kids and I felt sorry for saying that so bluntly.
" I can't. Doctors told me since I was 20. Emmett wants one too, I hope that we get married some day and adopt one "
" Well you know that you can have a nephew for now "
As soon as I saw her smile I knew that things were going to be okay. Jasper and I have a healthy relationship. Esme and Carlisle are glad to be 'Grandparents' Edward is like a child in Christmas, Bella is nuts about having a nephew and Em and Rose were all smiles about him too. He was bringing so much happiness into our lives even if he wasn't planned or born.
I may not be able to give him all the luxury in the world, But No one can love him like I do and like we all do. I know that if I have to I will fight with teeth and nails to protect him because he was special.
Our little ray of light
Our Hope
