A/N: Hello Hello everyone! School is finally coming to an end. About 15 more days left. *Cheers* Close to the end of the year the teachers throw projects at you like crazy! From EVERY class!! So anyways, in short, soooooo sorry for the looooooong wait! Oh, and I am sure this chapter would leave everyone feeling happy and screaming like the true fangirls (or boys?) that you are! *wink*

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SUMMARY: "I was scared," He admitted. "But I want you to make love to me know."

Chapter: Kaname says it's important to love

Kaname woke with a start, taking in a fast breath and glancing around the room. Looking about, he found that he was still in the living room, and still hunched in a ball next to the sofa. The house was completely silent, and the air held somewhat of a chill. The furnace currently wasn't running, and the clock above his television was digital, so it didn't even tick-tock to break the silence. "I must have fallen asleep."

Thankfully, his erection had gone down long before, so his pants fit the way they should and he was without pain. Thinking on what had happened after he had flung himself away from Zero, he grimaced in the regret of hindsight. "Why did I go so fast when I knew that he's a virgin? Why did I try to push him into it? He made to get up, but found that his right arm was asleep, having been propped against the sofa's seat cushions for nearly three hours. Hissing as the pins and needles of an awakening limb jabbed at him, he sat a bit longer, wondering why Zero had suddenly wanted to stop. "What am I thinking?! Of course I know why he wanted to stop, I think."

"Perhaps he had been afraid of the pain?" Zero had made it obvious to him that he would be Kaname's first, which was good because Kaname knew he'd utterly hate whoever had been Zero's first had he not been a virgin. "But no, that's not it." Rubbing his right arm as he flexed his fingers, Kaname looked to the spot on the floor where Zero had knelt earlier, trying to placate his anger as the boy flinched in fear from his outburst. All he could think about was the reaction on Zero's face when Kaname had hollered at him to leave him alone.

"Wait a minute…"

Audibly cussing, which sounded more like a growling sneer than words, he closed his eyes to the room. Having found his answer, and cursing himself for it, Kaname slowly got up, mindful of his lower back, which now felt like it had been stomped on. He found his shirt and pulled it on angrily, feeling like the biggest jerk in the world. Walking to the bathroom down the hall, he made use of it, and then washed his hands, all the while thinking about what Zero was probably going through right now because of him.

Sure, he was desperate to get himself between those smooth thighs and wrap the boys legs around his hips, but…Zero's feelings were paramount to Kaname's own physical desires, however strong they were—and they were very strong. He was still amazed by how badly he had needed Zero right at that moment. His desire had been so powerful that it was no wonder Zero had mistaken it for aggression.

As he dried his hands, he felt something sinking down upon him, a sickening sensation that settled in his stomach. "He'll be leaving this house in a few weeks. Then he'll graduate sooner than either of us will expect, and sooner or later forget about me, about us, completely."

He wondered what exactly it was that he expected to happen between them. He knew that Zero would probably leave him there to go off to college and find a girl or boy better suited to his statues, one who didn't make him feel guilty the way he did. He wouldn't be able to follow Zero; getting a good tenure at a university was like trying to find the last existing dragon. And he wasn't getting any younger...or older. "I can't be with Zero."

His heart violently rejected that thought. Just thinking about losing Zero put a lump in his throat. Looking at the mirror over the bathroom sink, Kaname's mind worked frenziedly, trying to find the solution to his awful predicament. Though, nothing seemed to come. He knew he couldn't leave Zero but he also knew that Zero could leave him at any giving moment that he oh-so chose. Feeling a migraine coming on, he put the matter away for another time, needing to go to bed.

Shutting off the bathroom light, and then the light in the back room, he tiredly trudged upstairs, not knowing what to say if Zero were still awake. He stepped as quietly as he could through the upstairs hall and found that his bedroom door was wide open. Walking in, the half-moon night gave off enough light for him to see the outline of his body. Zero was lying on his left side in the middle of the bed, away from him. His shirt was back on, obviously, and his arm rose and sunk as his lungs slowly took in air.

"He's asleep…"

Zero was lying on top of the bed covers, and the room was getting colder as the night wore on, so Kaname searched the other bedroom for a quilt. Bringing it back, he unfolded it and bunched it down around the boy's feet, hoping he wouldn't wake up. Then stripping down to his boxers and shirt, he carefully slid into the bed behind Zero, spooning against his back before pulling the quilt up to cover them. Laying his head on the pillow and draping his arm over Zero's side, he immediately felt his heart lighten as the fresh scent of his hair wafted to him.

Already exhausted, Kaname nuzzled his nose to the nape of Zero's neck and fell asleep.

---9:30 a.m., Sunday Morning---

Zero's head felt hazy, and his entire body was a little too warm. Sliding open his eyes, he could see that the bedroom was dimly lit. He heard the gentle patter of rain, and realized that it must be overcast outside, making their Sunday morning fresh and wet. Gathering his bearings, he could feel that a blanket was covering him from his feet to his chin, and that an arm was draped over his side.

"He's…sleeping with me, even after what I had done?"

He felt tears sting his eyes, but fought them as hard as he could. He had believed that Kaname would snub him and sleep elsewhere, so he had stayed in Kaname's bed since his scent was all over it. He had always loved his scent, and it made him feel calmer. The fact that Kaname cuddled up behind him instead of going to the Kain's bedroom, and even threw on a blanket to keep them both warm, made his heart swell uncomfortably, as if it would burst through his chest, or choke him…or both.

The arm over his side moved a bit, and he knew that Kaname would be waking up soon so he desperately tried to will his soon-to-be tears not to fall, breathing slowly.

Kaname took a deep breath, filling his nostrils with the clean scent of Zero's hair, and squinted one eye open. Glad that the room wasn't bright in the slightest, he opened his other eye, looking at the strands of silver hair in front of him. He felt like tightening his arm, pressing close behind Zero in an attempt to apologize with his body, but he didn't want to wake him.

That, however, is when he realized that he was indeed already awake. Zero sniffed as if crying, and pressed back against Kaname slightly.

"Zero" He whispered, his heart beating a little faster.

"Are you mad at me?" Zero asked. Kaname could feel Zero's arm move as he wiped at his face, probably removing the tears from his cheeks.

"No, I'm not mad at you…" He heard him sniff again. Finding one of Zero's hands, he wrapped his fingers around it and brought it to the younger's own chest. "Don't cry, Zero. It's not your fault." It only seemed to cause more tears, though, and a short sob jerked his body. Kaname felt Zero's other hand rested lightly on top of his own.

"Don't say that…it was at least partly my fault. I shouldn't have let it go on so long if I wasn't sure." Kaname pressed his lips to the back of his shoulder, thinking.

"I think it's something that I did that made you want to stop."

"Something you did?" Zero asked, his voice breathless and thin. Kaname paused for a second or two, trying to think of how to word it correctly.

"I wanted you so badly…that it probably felt like I was forcing you. I think I may have been for at least the last few seconds…" It was actually a little scary thinking that he might have forced him completely.

Zero was silent for a while, and Kaname wondered if Zero was going to say nothing in response. "Though, I wouldn't blame him.

"But you didn't," he said at last. "You didn't force me." Giving him a small laugh, Zero carried on, "And you're even apologizing for it." he sniffed again, letting out a fast breath. "I'll be prepared next time."

He could hear the smile in Zero's voice, but his heart sunk. "Here we go…"

"I don't think there should be a next time, Zero," he hedged, hoping that the younger didn't audibly sigh him relief. Zero did tense up, though, so he surged ahead. "You'll be moving out in at least a few weeks, and then you'll be off to college next fall. Maybe…maybe you should save yourself for someone your more exceptive of." It broke his heart—it really did! It practically disgusted him to even say such things, let alone even think those things in the first place. He pressed his forehead to the back of Zero's neck, tightly shutting his eyes.

"But…" He began, his fingers flexing in and around Kaname's hand. "I want you to be my first, Kana," He quietly said, feeling his face heat up. He felt lips against the back of his neck kissing him lovingly. When Kaname spoke, the air puffed out of his mouth, and he could feel his lips moving against his skin.

"Maybe it's for the best that you meet someone you can take home to your father," he said, saying the words that he had been thinking all along. Suddenly, Zero found it was hard to speak around the lump in his throat.

"I don't want anyone else!" he vehemently whispered, gripping Kaname's hand tightly. The pureblood squeezed closer to him, loving what the younger said but wishing he hadn't spoken those words.

"You'll understand eventually," he roughly expressed, finding it difficult to keep his own emotions in check. "You'll meet someone much better than me in college, and be glad that we decided not to have sex." Somehow, Zero highly doubted that.

"I don't care about what might happen in college!" He threw over his shoulder, a little louder but still speaking quietly. Hell, he wasn't even sure if he wanted to go to college anymore, he wanted to make his father proud of him and the only way to do that was to go to a hunters school."I care about what happens now! I don't want to be student and teacher again!"

"I don't think we can be anything else," he quietly said, hardening his heart for what Zero would say to him. He knew that the conversation would only flare into an argument, probably with the end result that he'd get a slap across the face.

"Then what have we been doing for the past few months?" He asked, losing a bit more control as the pillow dampened beneath his wet cheek.

"Living in a dream, perhaps," he supplied, breathing heavily against the back of his neck as a choking sensation gripped his throat. He didn't think it was possible for hearts to break, but now knew why the saying existed, his own heart was slowly shattering into small, crystal pieces, and he could practically feel it with each uneasy breath he took.

"It's not a dream!" Zero angrily denied. Keeping a tight grip on the purebloods hand with his left one, Zero flopped over onto his right side, making the bed dip a little. Once turned over, he slid his left arm around Kaname's body, looking him in the eye and holding tightly. The pain in his face was evident, and Zero knew that his own reflected it.

"Neither of us wants this!" He pleaded, still trying to hold back tears and knowing that his eyes were probably red. "And I don't care what my father says! He doesn't control my life anymore!" Kaname's hand settled against Zero's back, and his eyes searched the younger's face, hoping that he wasn't deluded like he thought he must be.

"And after graduation, then what?" he ask, letting the seriousness of their situation darken his countenance. "Are you going to stay in Tokyo? Skip College and work at a fast food place perhaps?" This gave Zero pause, as it was something he definitely didn't want to submit himself to. "You see what I mean? You want to go somewhere new, and I would only tie you to where you are now. Not much of a choice in this city, Zero, as to what your future will be."

"You're not getting away that easy."

"The difference is that I can do anything I set my mind to!" he said, holding him tighter. His tears weren't slowing down very much, but he was feeling a new resolve. No one was going to tell him what he could and couldn't do anymore. "They can forget about it!" Taking in a deep breath, he fixed his lilac gaze with dark chocolate, letting out the one reason why he couldn't stop seeing him, "I love you! I love you so much it hurts! I love you Kaname."

Kaname visibly flinched with shock and surprise, his mouth open and his eyes widening. He couldn't make any thoughts come together, let alone words, so the effect was that he made half-words for a good ten seconds, trying to gather his wits again.

"You…" he finally said, fisting his hand in Zero's shirt. "Oh, God, Zero…" "You love me?" He was almost certain that he had heard him wrong and h kind of felt like an idiot for repeating those words. But there couldn't possibly be a way that he meant it.

"I love you terribly," Zero sighed, pressing ever closer.

Late at night, when he couldn't sleep and felt Zero's heartbeat against him, he'd imagine that he had said it, that his feelings were reciprocated the way he wanted them to be. Then his mind would wander too far, fantasizing impossible things. To keep his heart intact, he kept his feelings to himself so that he could continue with his impossible dreams for as long as he had Zero. But now, Zero had confessed his love blindly, not fearing his rejection if he said it but fearing his rejection if he didn't say it. But damn, Kaname had to admit…

"I love you too," he admitted, his voice harsh and grating. But all the same, Zero gave him a watery smile, setting his forehead against Kaname's as they both shut their eyes. "Kaname…I knew he did. I could see it. Whenever he looks at me, it's always there, always reflecting in his eyes. We'll think of something, Kana. I promise you that."

Zero actually hadn't thought of what they would have to do after he graduated. His mind was still young and thought in more short-term ways. Next May seemed incredibly far away, even though he had already sent in six college applications and looked at several hunter schools on a special website. It was in his mind now and he planned to ponder it until a solution came.

"But…I'll wait until another day to worry about it."

Flexing his left thigh muscle, he lifted that limb, letting it slide along the underside of the blanket as he draped it over Kaname's right hip.

"What are you…" he began, his stomach muscles automatically convulsing. Zero brought his face close, hovering his lips over the mouth that he wanted to kiss until he died.

"Make love to me," he firmly whispered, feeling Kaname try to pull away.

"But you didn't want me to," he said, thinking of the fright that had been in his voice last night.

"That was then, but this is now," he achingly said. Only holding him closer, Zero crushed his chest against his, molding his pelvis as close to him as he could. "I want you laying over me, inside me, Kaname." His eyes fluttered shut, and he pulled on Kaname with his leg, inviting him to roll onto him. Kaname resisted, even though Zero could most certainly feel his member rapidly increasing in size. "Please…please make love to me."

"Zero," he gruffly warned, sounding close to a growl.

In the fog that he had just created, he realized that he was still clothed, and slid his other arm underneath Kaname's head to wrap around him as he tugged his own pajama bottoms off with his left hand. Kaname could tell what he was doing beneath the quilt, and tried to think of what he should do now. "I thought he wanted me to tell him that we shouldn't. I thought that's what he wanted after being scared of me last night."

"Take your clothes off, Kaname," he whispered to him, kicking his legs beneath the blanket to get his underwear and pajama bottoms off of his ankles.

"Didn't you want me to say that we didn't have to make love?" he asked, not yet convinced but sorely tempted to rub the erection now trying to escape from his boxers.

"I was scared," he admitted, breathing shallowly as he fisted his hand in the cloth of Kaname's boxers and jerked them downward. "But I want you to make love to me now, before I change my mind." Kaname inhaled sharply, feeling his phallus jump free of his boxers as they were shoved down to his knees. It prodded against Zero's bare belly, and he couldn't help but groan.

"Your first time will hurt…you know that, right?" he said, feeling himself capitulate. Zero softly moaned, half from relief that Kaname was finally going to take his virginity and half from the excited expectation of having him deep within his body.

"Of course." he breathlessly whispered, pressing a quick, soft kiss to his parted lips. The bed jostled a bit as Kaname kicked his boxers off, which landed in a soft heap on the floor next to the bed. "I just want you inside m—" he was cut off as Kaname pressed a lustful kiss to his lips, stifling anything else he might have said. Though, Zero was a little intimidated by the insistent prodding of the male organ beneath the quilt, he was mostly aroused by its presence. It felt right, but so very sinful.

Feeling Kaname's hand on his bare bottom, Zero's heart skipped a beat, and he moaned into his warm, wet mouth as Kaname pulled him against his pelvis. Zero wanted to touch the same place on his body as well, but could only bring himself to grasp his upward-facing hip. He could feel the protrusion of Kaname's hipbone beneath a generous layer of muscle, but it was his skin that suddenly fascinated him. Once Zero's fingers touched the taut, supple surface, he only wanted to find more, so he rubbed his hand up and down Kaname's side, venturing underneath his shirt and halfway down his thigh.

Abruptly pushing Zero onto his back, which earned a soft gasp from his lips, Kaname stole another quick, wet kiss before sitting back onto his knees and ankles. His arousal lied over his lower abdomen, begging for his attention, but Zero merely sat up to pull Kaname's shirt over his head, letting it fall onto the bed beside them. Kaname slid his hands to the bends in Zero's knees, pulling them up until the younger's feet were flat on the mattress. Then both leaning forward, their lips met again, a bit more lewdly than before. The pureblood sensuously slid his tongue between Zero's lips, slowly drawing it out as he sucked his bottom lip and then plunging in again. He felt Zero's hands on his chest and neck, and heard small noises emanating from the back of his throat. Rubbing gently along the insides of his thighs, he would have smiled at the way those muscles convulsed underneath his fingers, but the boy's mouth kept him pleasurable preoccupied.

When a painful twinge of sexual need jabbed his loins, Kaname broke off their kiss, leaning back a little as he caught his breath. Zero licked his own lower lip, finding that it was somewhat swollen, and looked down between them. Kaname, distracted as he leaned far to his left, didn't notice his divergence of attention. Kaname yanked open the drawer of the nightstand, searching for the lube he had purchased yesterday. Once his fingers found it, he brought it back over, and Zero blushed shyly as he watched him flick open the little cap. This was the first time Zero was actually happy to be a vampire because vampires didn't get STD'S, meaning, no need for condoms.

When Zero's warm hand wrapped around his swollen member, Kaname's fingers faltered in purring out some of the lube into his hand, and the air rushed out of his lungs. Zero pulled on him gently, feeling him swell even larger in his grasp as Kaname simply sat there with his eyes shut and a very small tint on his cheekbones.

"I hope it's not too big for me," Zero breathlessly wondered aloud as he watched his size increase. Kaname's hand fisted around the small bottle in his palm, and he reached down between them to firmly grasp Zero's member in his palm. Kaname bit down on his lower lip and stifling a long groan, he could feel that Zero was already leaking and damp, though he knew he could make him even harder then he already was. Pulling up gently, he listened with cotton-stuffed ears as Zero softly sighed, tightening his grip around him. Kaname forced his eyes open, looking down at his tightly clenched eyes and his parted lips. Licking his own lips, he leaned down to brush his cheek against his, bringing his mouth close to Zero's ear. It was difficult to speak without sounding like he had bronchitis.

"Do you want to come before I go in? I doubt you'll be able to after…" he implied, moving his thumb in circles over the pearly head of Zero's sex. Zero pressed his cheek against him, rubbing the tip of Kaname's engorged limb with the pad of his thumb.

"Put it in…please," he whispered, wishing that he had more eloquent words coming to mind. He felt him shudder all the same, though.

"Lie back," he said. His voice was breathless and deep. Zero released him from his fingers, letting his head hit the pillow, and watched as Kaname hurriedly purred the lubrication from its bottle into his awaiting hand. Feeling his face heat up, Zero hid his embarrassed smile behind the back of his hand. He loved how his heart pounded, and loved that his handsome partner was flushed with his own excitement as well. Staring as he rubbed the lubrication down his hard length, Zero felt his heart immediately start thumping with the anticipation of his first time.

Kaname was finding it difficult to keep his hands from shaking. He wanted to tease him first, but found himself extremely close to orgasm already. Looking down at him, he saw him push his shirt up to his collarbone, and inspected his young but defined chest for a few seconds. Finding a good opportunity to calm himself down, he immediately went for the pliant nubs of flesh, drawing the right peak into his mouth a little feverishly and heavily rubbing the other with the pad of his thumb.

"Mmmph…" Zero half gasped half moaned and let his eyes close, hearing nothing but the soft patter of rain and the liquid smack of his mouth over his nipples. A shiver ran from his right nipple to his belly, sizzling along his nerves and making his gasp. He felt him shift his weight onto his left elbow as he bestowed his attention on his left nipple and fondled the other with his right hand. The same hot shivers streaked through his torso, and he was somewhat embarrassed by the noises he began making every time one hit him.

"You're so beautiful," he gruffly said into his chest, suckling the peaks and turning them rosy. The compliment made his heart turn over, and though he wasn't aware of it, his slightly aroused fangs were starting to leave red marks on his skin. All he cared about, though, was that he continued with whatever was making his skin tingle the way it was.

Panting as if he had just ran to the end of the world and back, Kaname turned his attention to tasting the skin on his soon-to-be lover's elegant neck, all the while realizing that he wasn't calming down in the slightest. Zero craned his head back, offering him more room. Holding his weight on his right elbow now, he reached down between them and took hold of his arousal, rubbing the tip of it over the puckered entrance below Zero's testis's that he was so tempted to plunge into. He smiled against his neck when Zero gasped, arching into him. He was trying to prepare him for when he entered his body, getting him used to the idea of having him there. His heart was in his throat, though, because he was extremely impatient to simply bury himself between those silky legs and ram his way to orgasm.

Though, the room had felt cold before, he now was of the opinion that it was stifling inside, even though the quilt now only covered his calves. Zero was of a similar opinion, and wondered why he was breathing so hard when he hadn't moved more than a foot in the past ten hours. When he began to rub his phallus against the sensitive area on his body, it only made the room hotter and only made him shorter of breath. Zero didn't know what to say…there weren't many words he could use in his current situation, and he was too embarrassed to say any of them. He did know that his heart couldn't take much more, and struggled for words to form in his mind.

"Uhhn…Kaname," he began, gasping when he found his right nipple again and stimulated it, as well as the tiny pucker between his thighs. "Now, please…please," he sighed out of breath, biting his lower lip when a throb of pleasure fanned out from his lower abdomen where Kaname grazed his member with his hand and the insisting probing of the purebloods throbbing sex. He could hear a small noise from his lower hand, the sound of thick liquid suctioned between two surfaces.

"I can tell…you're close," he paused, gasping for air as he fought to keep some of his control. "I want you to climax now, since it's your first time. Come on, Zero…" he whispered, bringing his flushed face above his. Zero's eyes were shut, eyebrows knitted and his mouth was open slightly as he pulled in air. He felt Zero's right arm wrap around his torso, and watched as he licked his dry lips. "Come for me," he urged, rubbing himself against him in circles.

"Kana…" Zero felt the outside world shrink. He could no longer hear the rain, nor the liquid sound from below. All that existed was the wonderful rubbing, his heartbeats and fast breaths, and the sound of his voice, sexily bringing him to orgasm.

"Come for me, Zero," he gritted out, fighting his own climax. "I have to be inside you… This time, I'll be inside of you." Kaname could feel him bucking his hips very slightly, but not quite enough to be profound. "That's it…"

"Mmmph!" He heavily pressed his nails into his side, clenching his jaw and moaning behind his closed lips. He was desperately trying to reach what he had obtained with him those few times before, wishing he could buck his hips a little harder, a little higher, without dislodging the stimulus that was doing a wonderful job of driving his crazy. The situation was exciting him enough to bring him extremely close, but the last mile was always the hardest.

"Right there…almost there," Kaname whispered, watching his face tense up as Zero raised his hips a little higher. Kaname rubbed faster, needing him to finish, wanting it with his whole body that Zero found pleasure that morning.

"Yes," she gritted out in a high voice, fisting his hand in the bed covers next to his right hip. "Almost…oh, God, almost…" "Kana…unnh…mmph!" he didn't know that his cheeks were red, that his body was creating a film of semen, and that his muscles were all tense—all he could feel was his body pressed against his, and the exquisite friction. He couldn't smell the scent of sex in the room, or the wet smell of rain outside—all he could smell was the heady scent that distinguished his one and only pureblood lover. He couldn't hear the muted squeaks of the bed, or the patter of rain—all he could hear was Kaname's voice, his ragged breathing, and his own.

Feeling tears of strain and emotion gathering behind his eyelids, Zero forced his eyes open, looking into the cloudy gaze of his lover. From where he lay, he could see the faint light of day casting a gray sheen to his skin, but it couldn't erase the blush from his cheeks. Gasping in air, he felt his nails dig further into his skin, and the rush of blood and sensation as it slowly but firmly pushed its way down his body, like a pair of oiled hands that moved down his torso, making a sure path to the point of pressure between his thighs. A small, high noise choked his throat, but he held his gaze, watching Kaname watching him as pleasure raked through his body uncontrollable.

"God, Zero…" he uttered gutturally. "So beautiful…" He couldn't remember even fantasizing something this erotic. Watching Zero was humbling. But more than that, it was stimulating, and as Zero lowered his hips to the bed, Kaname unrelentingly followed him, rubbing the head of his erection against Zero's own leaking member. Zero finally let his eyes close, trying to catch his breath, but realizing exactly what was about to happen. Kaname didn't dare ask him if he was sure…because if he said 'no' to him, he felt like he might have a heart attack, or an aneurysm, or both. But still, either way, he would stop if Zero didn't want to anymore. He dropped his gaze to his chest again, surprised to find that they were spotted with angry red lines where his teeth dragged and the hot red blotches were he sucked too hard. He internally grimaced, but promised himself that he'd be more careful next time.

"I can't wait any longer…"

"Not even for a second."

Lowering himself further down and spreading Zero's legs wider apart, he pushed forward, watching his face for any signs of discomfort, pinching his lower lip between his teeth as the head of his phallus cleared the first ring of tight muscles inside his body. "I can't breathe…"

"Kaname…mmm…" Zero sighed, still enjoying himself, though it wouldn't be for much longer. "Deeper…you can go deeper…"

He set his left elbow on the bed again, lying fully over him. Zero's other arm came around his shoulders, and his feet must have left the mattress as he brought his knees a bit closer to his stomach, because he suddenly had more room to spread the stance of his knees for support. Having adjusted, he pushed a little deeper, reveling in the tight, slick grip of the body beneath him.

"Like that?" he whispered, inwardly wincing when it sounded a little high and breathless. He watched Zero move his head to the right a little, softly moaning.

"Yeah," he replied in just as soft a tone, though a little shakier than normal.

Once he reached half mast that technically protected his virginity, Kaname felt his heart climb up into his throat. Zero knew it was time, too, and Kaname felt him tensing in anxiety and preparation. Without saying anything, since nothing seemed appropriate enough in his mind, Kaname firmly and quickly bucked into him, making a noise similar to a demon growl or a howl, which startled even him. His ears did pick up Zero's startled gasp, and he certainly felt the younger's hands clutching his shoulder blades. Feeling the base of his own arousal butt against Zero's body, he brokenly groaned, lowering his head to his shoulder and hiding his face in the crook of Zero's neck.

It hurt…Zero knew it would hurt, but…not the way in which it would. It wasn't like cutting your finger or getting kicked in the shin. It was an intense pressure, a hard pinch that ended with a rip. It wasn't the worst pain in the world, not by far, but it certainly wasn't ignorable. Hearing the cry that Kaname couldn't contain and then his satisfied groan as he completely sheathed himself inside his body, Zero felt so happy despite his discomfort that he smiled, a real charming smile. "I can live with this for another few minutes…" It was a one-time pain, a sacrifice that was one of the few gifts an uke or a woman could truly give to someone else. Thinking this, he crossed his ankles behind Kaname, forcing himself to rock slightly. He felt Kaname stiffen a little, and he quickly took over, gently moving over him.

"Zero," he sighed, gripping the comforter as if he wanted to tear it into shreds. He was finally inside him, making love to him, and his heart could barely take it. For about a minute, he simply rocked over him, hoping that he wasn't creating much pain. His knuckles were white from the effort, though.

"You…you can go faster, Kana," he whispered in his ear, half from the fact that he didn't want him to drag it out since it hurt, and half from guessing that he was probably dying to go more quickly.

"Oh, God…" he grunted, pulling out about halfway and pressing back in as fast as he dared. Hearing a thump, he realized that he had bumped Zero's head against the headboard. Zero half-laughed, finding it funny. Kaname frowned, feeling a bit stupid, and tugged him a few inches down the mattress, away from the headboard. Raising his head, he looked down into Zero's half-lidded eyes, which had a bit of a smile left in them. Holding that eye contact, he began again, pulling back completely and sinking in again. He watched the smile fade from his face, but his body only encouraged him, bringing him back with his legs whenever he pulled out.

The feeling was surreal and yet as real as it could get. Having come down from the high where he had brought him, Zero could feel every chafing movement he made, and hear the sound of it as well, but knowing that he was making love for the first time, that Kaname was his first, and hopefully his only…it seemed like a dream, and it only made him want to hold the pureblood tighter. "It's not a dream!"

He knew it was only a few seconds away, and he somehow wanted to prolong the rise to climax a little longer, even though his body screamed for it. He realized, though, that his young lover was only waiting for him to finish, so he sped up, hitting his pelvis hard against his. He saw Zero's jaw clench, but it didn't really register with him. His gaze was hazing over with red, and the room was incredibly hot. "Faster…"

"Zero…" he groaned out, feeling the friction finally sparking into a fire. "Faster…" Zero's arms tightened around him, and his legs bumped against his backside, hanging in the air as Kaname pumped himself into him relentlessly. All the blood in his body was in frenzy, making him feel like he was on a roller-coaster. Sweat was rolling down his neck and back. He let out an agonized groan, feeling his head droop down. "Harder…"

Zero watched him in fascination, wondering if he'd feel just as disconnected as Kaname looked to be once they made love again. All Kaname centered on was Zero and the scalding resistance their union created. Zero's lower back was starting to protest a bit, and his rum was mildly burning with pain and friction, but he didn't dare stop him—he wanted to watch him, to see the expression that his face would make. He hadn't realized it before, but he had never seen it. Kaname's breathing was so ragged, and watching him moving above him, rocking him back with him. He couldn't say anything, nope, not a single encouraging word came to mind. He only waited for Kaname to cry out, to freeze above him and let the passion pass over him.

"There it is…oohh…so close." Kaname clenched his teeth, fisted his hands, and pounded against Zero, feeling a long harsh cry crescendo from inside his own throat and hiss past his teeth. Never in his life had he ever felt so good like he was now. An actual growl came out, and he unconsciously whipped his head up, giving one last shove into the tight body beneath him. His heart clenched, and his legs straightened.

"Uhn Zerrro!" he gasped out, a rough and deep utterance of his name. Zero's mouth fell slightly open, seeing the ecstasy crossing his face. He looked to be temporarily somewhere else, and he couldn't wait until he could go there with him someday soon. He gasped in air, having been holding it for about three seconds, and groaned again, even louder this time. He felt Kaname relax slightly, but his hips almost involuntarily bucked into him again, and he moaned again for the third time. Watching him…was humbling. "I love him so much."

Kaname wondered if he was going to black out for a second or two. He was absolutely certain that this was the best sex of his life. Moreover, it was Zero's first time, meaning it could only get better. He felt his thighs and biceps shaking, having a hard time holding himself up as his orgasm cursed through him in rapid tides. His heartbeat was in his ears, and the air was frozen in his lungs despite the incredible temperature of his body. He was almost hoping that he stopped climaxing soon because he was in danger of simply dropping onto him in exhaustion, which wasn't exactly a nice thing to do. However, the sensations eventually started dying away, and his breathing was slowing down.

When he finally relaxed over him gently settling his weight on him, Zero felt him tremble as he laid his head on his shoulder. He huffed against the younger's neck, trying to catch his breath. Zero stared at the ceiling and placed his feet back on the mattress, squeezing his thighs against his hips. An odd smirk curved his lips, showing a few teeth. He tried to suppress it, thinking that it might look odd to whatever ghosts were in the room, but only got his lips closed as he soothingly rubbed his lover's back.

"Wow," Kaname breathlessly whispered, bringing the grin right back to Zero's face. He silently agreed with him, pressing his cheek to his forehead.

That was all that was said for a solid five minutes. Both lovers mindlessly basked in the muted light of an overcast day, thinking of neither the future nor the past. Though Kaname did remove himself from Zero's body right after his short, but succinct comment, they didn't move either.

It was when Zero's stomach rumbled that Kaname chuckled softly and made to get up.

"I suppose we should clean up," he said, lifting his head. Zero smiled at him, looking at his face. He suddenly looked younger, more boyish and vulnerable. Perhaps it was just his imagination, but he looked like he had just regained several years of his life back.

"I'll even make you some pancakes," he continued, gingerly sitting back. Zero winced as he moved, taking it a little slowly since it seemed that walking might be a chore for the next couple of hours and the fact the Kaname's cum had burned like hell when he climaxed wasn't helping the situation either.

"Sounds perfect to me," he agreed, sitting up. "Sex then pancakes…" Laughing to himself, Zero felt his heart flutter inside his chest. "I hope it's always like this."

THE END!!

No I'm totally joking XD there is still plenty more to go. So anyways what do you guys think?

Oh and before I forget, I want this story to seem as real as possible, you know? I want it to seem like it can most definitely happen in real life (well besides the whole vampire part). And yes, sometimes boys also have a hard time during their first just like women. They sometimes don't orgasm at all and find the whole experience painful like some women do as well. It's not because the dominate partner is doing anything wrong but because of how the body reacts to something new and foreign to it. And what do we do when we are exposed to something foreign??? We learn to adapt to it ^^ so Zero will most definitely get used to it so don't worry!!

Until next time everyone (which will NOT be a long time from know!)

HeHe I can practically feel everyone rolling their eyes saying, "Yeah right stallion!! You're going to take sooo long to update just like last time so shut up with your broken promises!!

Ahh XD *goes to my corner and try to find my happy place* FOREGIVE MEEEE!

P.S I totally didn't read over this at all so sorry for any mistakes. Yeah, I was lazy but at least I got the chapter up ne? NE??? Oh, and a lot of people have been asking me why I keep writing she at Zero's parts. It's because this story is very old and it's a story that I typed up when I was like in 7th grade for a project of mine. I just changed the characters and added more detail…and sex….so yea. Zero's character was originally a girl. Happy? Satisfied???

^stallion14^