Chapter: Nine
Tittle: Zottie (Blue)
Author: Angee
Rating: R (lime for those of you who wanted one. guess who though? kidding)
Sujiro couldn't understand anything. His eight year old mind could not grasp the whole meaning of things. Why did he love his father so much and why didn't he ever question him? The simple answer was that ever since he could comprehend anything his uncle, Jet that is, had always told him about Spike. First Spike had been introduced as a friend of the family, but when he started asking about his father to his mother, who chose to make up something, Jet had stepped in. He knew it was wrong to go behind Faye's back and do this, but he also knew it was wrong for a child to grow up not knowing about his father.
What the child could not understand wasn't why he loved his father. It was why didn't his mother love him as well? Did his father do something so terrible that she always fought with him?
School had started and he found himself longing for a real family. He would watch the other kids and realized that the majority of them had both parents living at home together. They would do things together and Sujiro was jealous. Why was he so unfortunate?
Try as he might he couldn't see himself being happy with Sam and his mother together. It didn't feel right. It also didn't help that he admired his father so much. He wanted to be just like him, in the sense of fighting, flying, and negotiating. Not in the sense of how spike really was.
One day as he spent time with his father, he had asked him if he had a girlfriend just like his mommy had a boyfriend. Spike had told him no, but continued to tell him about the two other women he had been with. Spike for his part apologized to his son for not being there, for hurting his mother, and for continuing to hurt her.
Sujiro sighed and looked out of the window of the class room. How he wished he was flying just like the past few weeks before school had started. It was the only time he had really felt alive, given that he was still a child and had so much life ahead of him. But he was truly happy because he got to know his father a little better, and had not seen Sam that much.
Don't get him wrong, he doesn't hate Sam at all, but Sujiro was being territorial. Here comes this guy who makes his mother all googly and then in turn takes most of her time, not giving her enough time to be with him. He was happy that his mother was happy, but he would be happier if that man was his father.
Weekend at last and that meant one thing. His father was coming over. Sure enough as he sat on the porch on the still warm day Spike made his appearance.
Spike was glad to finally get away from work and be with his son. Even though he wished for the whole package..meaning Faye and Sujiro....he was still content in being just him and his son. They greeted each other and Spike proceeded to take him out. Faye never came out to say anything. She watched from the door. It had become a custom. If neither wanted to fight with each other infront of their son, then they would see as little of each other as possible.
She was busy with her own wedding anyways. Fuck spike to hell and back. But she couldn't stop the pain that stung at her heart. She could wish all the hurt she could on him, but in the end she also hurt herself. She couldn't do that anymore. After all he is the father of her child and he should be healthy and able to spend time with him.
God was this so hard. With being the owner of a hotel, a mother, a girlfriend, and a referee whenever her staff got into discussion, was really putting a lot of stress on her. She rubbed her temple to rid herself of the impending headache that was sure to come.
The only thing at the moment that seemed good was that her son was having the time of his life. With spike as a father or a lover for that matter you were guaranteed a good time. Ah how she missed those days. She slapped herself for thinking about him again. How many nights for the past two months had she been thinking about him? Too many her mind shouted back. Is this how love is supposed to be? Why can't it be simple and sweet? How can such a small word convey so much feelings and so much pain?
Faye stood from the chair in her kitchen and walked over to the window. It was getting dark soon. "I wonder where that fool took my kid" she decided not to dwell too much on it. If he decided to keep him for the weekend then he would be calling soon. She glanced at the clock "seven, soon summer will be over and then the days will get darker sooner. Might as well take a warm bath. Enjoy this time alone you have"
yeah. Time alone. Sam had to return to mars. His job was the only downside to their relationship. They talked about their plans and he agreed on transferring to a local hospital. She loved him or so she thought. He was going to give up everything to move to earth and be with her and her son. Life was looking good for faye.
But as they say good things never last....
She put on her robe and came out the bathroom.
Spike carried his sleepy son into the house. He never bothered with knocking, the house was opened for everyone. He had a talked to faye about that and she assured him that this was the nicest neighborhood their ever was. He simply shrugged and warned her that if anything happened to his son that he would kick her ass. That led to their thousand fight.
He walked up the stair and turned to the hallway. He found his son's door and opened it quietly. He walked in and set him on the bed. He put the sheet over the child and without questions leaned in and place a good night kiss on his son's forehead "good night son. I'll see you tomorrow" he was rewarded with "goodnight dad".
He turned the light off and closed his son's door. He took in a deep breath and decided to let faye know that he was back. He walked over to her room and found the door open. He couldn't help but look. She was watching herself in her floor length mirror. Probably trying to find some kind of flaw, not that he saw any. He crept into the room and she turned around quickly pulling the robe closed much to his disappointment "you're back"
He nodded "he's asleep and in bed tucked in" she shrugged and turned back to the mirror, she began to comb her hair "he had a lot of fun I take it?" he walked closer to her and stood behind her. She could see his goofy smile and wanted to smack from him face "well are you going to answer me?" he slumped his shoulders and looked to the side. He was ignoring her. Oh was she pissed.
Spike would do anything to see that spark of anger in her eyes. He loved the way they shined "you ass, if you are not going to answer me then just leave"
He instead moved closer and wrapped his arms around her. She stiffened and tried to pry herself away from his strong arms. She stiffened again when she felt his lips kiss the back of her neck "what...are..you..doing?" she asked breathlessly.
He turned her around but kept her in the embrace of his arms "spike stop this" he leaned down and kissed the side of her neck. Her resolve was breaking so fast. He trailed down her neck and kissed the top of her breasts. She shivered. His touch always doing things to her.
What happened next she could not understand. But there they were both naked and moving with each other. No words were being said. Just carnal sounds. Fingertips upon fingertips. Lips upon lips. His erection within her. Her breast pressed against his chest. And the heavenly moon shining upon the flushed lovers.
He had driven her to a blissful high five times that night. God how she had missed that. But why is it that you never think about the consequences of your actions before you do them? Why do they come after the fact and hit you full hard with guilt?
He laid on his back looking at the ceiling and she rested on her side her back to him. A single tear ran down her cheek. She had betrayed Sam. She had cheated on him with her so called ex-lover, enemy. That hurt and guilt eating away at her mind.
Spike didn't know what to say. What had possessed him? Well the fact that he was in love with her was one reason, the other being her lack of clothes. Hormone driven can make men do crazy things. But he knew that she was regretting this when he was not. Taking a deep breath he decided to break the eerie silence "Faye there is something you need to know. I already told Sujiro"
She didn't say anything. He never liked talking to people and not being able to see their faces. He moved on the bed and she felt herself being turned on her back. Spike looked down at her and she looked up at him "Faye" he said softly. It pained him to know that she was regretting their experience. But who was he to judge her, when he had it all and threw it away for another woman.
She wiped away some tears "what?" she snapped. He put a hand to her cheek and caressed it lovingly, she in turn slapped his hand away "this never happened Spigeal" she stood up from the bed and pulled the sheets to cover her body from him, not that it would do much.
Spike was frustrated, but he had to tell her what he had come to discuss with her earlier "Faye, my company is expanding and I'm afraid that I'll be gone for two months. I told sujiro that I would call as much as I can"
"Figures, your life is too busy now even for your own son" she tightened the sheets. Why was he telling her? If he told sujiro that was enough.
"That's not true. I wouldn't go if I didn't have to faye. But I'm the owner and we are opening a new branch on Saturn" (a/n okay so on the anime we are not told what other planets besides Venus, Mars and earth are currently civilized....I'm going to say that they all are and that I'm using Saturn. Okay?)
She put a hand to her bangs and brushed them away "whatever"
"Look I want to give my son everything that I didn't have. Stop being such a cranky bitch faye" that did it. She marched up to him and slapped him "I'll be as cranky as I want. I don't care what you do with your life or your fucking business. I can provide for Sujiro just fine I have been doing it for eight years. Where were you? In bed with your pretty wife? In bed with some slut?"
Spike let his emotions run wild in his eyes. Anger being the strongest one. In one move he had her pinned under him on the bed "I was busy trying to run a fucking company that was on the brink of extinction, my bed was never occupied by any woman, not even my god damned wife. She was too busy fucking her friend"
Faye laughed "see. Karma really is a bitch. Like they say what goes around comes around. And in your case that was double, because not only did Angela cheat on your ass, now I'm going to marry the best man in the world and you'll be part of the past, just like you made me part of your past"
She began to struggle but he kept a firm grip on her "I'll never be part of the past Faye. You were never part of my past. That was one problem Angela and I had constantly. You always came to bed with us" that was odd. What exactly did that mean?
"I came to your bed? I think being in mars for so long has really fucked up your brain"
"No Faye, you have fucked up my brain. All I did while I was with her was think of you, she hated that I for a long time so did I because I thought you were with another. I hate it when Sam touches you. Your are mine faye and I'm yours"
The laughing began and he was confused. He poured his heart out and she laughs. Of course she would laugh. The irony of it all. She always wanted him to tell her this things while they were together but he didn't and found another, now that she has found another he wants to pull this shit on her. As if it wasn't bad enough that they had sex just a few minutes ago if not a half hour.
To stop the laughing he claimed her lips in the most fervent kiss ever imagined. The kiss was so breathtaking literally that when he parted she was panting. He smirked having succeeded in stopping. Faye glared at him, how dare he? But deep down she enjoyed it so much "get off of me Spigeal"
that only provoked him more. Before she knew it he had taken the sheet away from her body and began to pleasure her in more ways that one. He took her erected nipple into his mouth and lapped at it and bit on it. She fought the moan that was caught on her throat, but that failed. His free hand then began to knead that other breast. She again fought with her body, it didn't respond to her, it responded to him.
Without taking his mouth away from her breasts he used his hands to raise her legs so that the knees were pointing to the ceiling. This allowed him a better position for both him and his member that was throbbing with excitement. He purposely placed the tip at her nub and she jerked her hips. Having realized that she was asking for more he sheathed himself into her "I love you so much faye" he had whispered against her skin.
Deep inside her head she heard him. She acknowledged him, but right now her body was asking for more carnal expression not words.
They had done it three times that night. Having fought twice between that. When they were done she asked him to leave and he did. As he walked to the door he paused "Faye I did love you and I still do" with that he closed the door to her bed room.
It was almost morning, she dropped to her knees and cried her heart out "I can't believe I let him do this to me. I let myself do this. Why? Oh god I never meant to cheat on Sam. I have to tell him, I can't start a new life with him with lies. But I don't want to lose him. He gives me so much security and love I don't want to lose that because of that asshole"
It would be another week before she saw Sam. All that time her guilt was eating her away. How she desperately wanted to talk to him and tell him the truth. But another part of her doubted. Maybe not telling him would be alright. It was Wednesday and Sam was coming back for two days. This was her chance at telling him. But when he got there two things happened.
First she lost her nerve and backed out of telling him, and secondly the moment he stepped through her door he scooped her up and walked up to her room and proceeded to make love to her. After that it was becoming increasingly hard to tell him.
Days turned to weeks. Two weeks and still she said nothing. Spike had called a few times and she could tell he was smirking. That arrogant ass. He asked her if she had told sam about their especial night and she would bring up something else.
Another week. People around her began to notice how differently she was acting. Always on edge and stuttering most of the time. If Sam came into her office she would ramble about the strangest things. He was beginning to worry and she could tell he was.
"Faye sweetheart what's wrong?" he had asked her one day out of the blue.
She took a deep breath and sat down "Sam I can't keep lying to you. Something happened and it may ruin our wedding plans" that really made him nervous "what Faye? What is it?" he stood up from his seat and knelt infront of hers taking her hands
"It has to do with Spike" Sam smiled "he can't ruin our plans Faye. I know that he loves you as much or even more than I do, but we are together now and he backed off a long time ago" faye put a hand to his cheek "you are the sweetest thing I have ever come across, but I was the one that ruined our plans. Spike just happened to be part of it"
"You? Faye the only way for you to ruin this would be if you told me that you didn't want to marry me. Is that what you want to tell me?" she shook her head. How incredible was this guy? Was he for real?
"Sam" she paused and took a deep breath "Spike and I slept together about three weeks ago" he just knelt there. Not quite believing what she was telling him. Was this for real. Did she just confessed to cheating on him, with her ex-lover?
Abruptly he stood up and walked over to the door "Samuel" he turned around and she could see the hurt in his eyes and the anger "please forgive me"
"Forgive you? I could have easily forgiven you if you had told me that you loved him and not me. I could have easily forgiven you if you said that it was unfair for us to be together knowing that you still had feeling for him. But to forgive you for cheating on me weeks before our wedding? No faye. There are things that I can't forget about. Right now all I see is you beneath him making love. I can't deal with this right now"
She ran up to him and took his arm "please, I don't want to lose you please don't leave me" he pulled his arm away "Faye I can't. This hurts it hurts too much" god he was choking on his tears "the one thing that I feared the most was that you two would get back together, but I never imagined that you would sleep with him while still with me"
She shook her head as if trying to take away the nightmare "Sam, Spike is my past I swear. You are my present and my future. I need you so much, I love you please" he opened the door "I need time to think faye, but I don't believe that there is another chance for us. I'm sorry but this is just too much to bare right now" with that he left her office and her life.
How she hated herself, how she wanted to kill spike. But she knew she should have stopped it, she had the power and didn't. Why? Because deep down she wanted spike, wanted to feel him on top of her, inside of her, near her. That need was the downfall of her relationship with Sam now.
"Oh god what have I done"
A simple color could change the life of a person. That simple color didn't change the life of one person, it changed the life of four people. Faye, Spike, Sam, and of course her son. Faye wanted to get rid of that color and never think about it again, but of course that wasn't the case.
How lovely the color blue could be. How relaxing and beautiful. Blue like the sky, blue like the sea, blue like the music that could make your heart sing. But blue to Faye was both a dream and a reality. A dream that she dreamt about after the birth of her son, and a reality of what was to come in the next few months. (Shit that rhymed...go me)
Blue. The damned fucking stick turned blue.
Sarah held faye as she cried, both out of sadness and happiness.
Faye threw the stick into the trash can in the bathroom and held Sarah tighter "why me?"
Sarah smiled, but it wasn't a smile of happiness. Her best friend, her cupid, was a devastated mess right now "it will be okay. Jet, Ed and myself are here for you Faye..sshhhh now" she stroked her hair.
"I need to talk to Sam"
Sarah pulled away "and Spike"
Faye clenched her fists "No! Not him. I can't talk to him. I know Sam is the one"
Sarah didn't want to upset her more than what she was already "alright. Why don't we go make you some tea and then we can have a nice chat" faye as if she were a child nodded and held onto Sarah's hand.
A simple color, and now a simple call. A simple call indeed. Faye held her breath as she heard the rings. How many times did she called him? Too many her mind responded. (Time has passed since the color incident and now here is the call incident. Following me so far?)
She growled and was about to hang up again. When she heard the familiar voice "Listen asshole. This is the fifth time you've called and you won't answer me. I'll trace your call and have the police arrest you"
"Um Sam it's me" he stopped and she could hear him take a deep breath
"Faye. You sound terrible. Have you been crying again?" she giggled. He was always so worried.
"Sam I have to see you. Please. It's been two months now. Why can't you just talk to me? There is something very important that I have to tell you"
Sam took another deep breath "alright I'll come over. I can tell that this is important. See you tomorrow then"
"yes. Thank you". They hung up and she turned to the smiling Sarah. "All done. I was so nervous"
Sarah took a sip of her drink "well done Faye. Now if you don't mind I would like to get home to my husband" faye smiled and walked over to Sarah and patted the small swelling of her stomach "I still can't believe that jet is going to be a real father. Six months ago you two were going crazy about your wedding plans, and now here you are four months pregnant and happier than ever"
Sarah could tell that there was a sadness in Faye's tone. Faye retracted her hand from her friend's stomach and put it to her own "it's been a while since I remember what it felt like to carry a child. I guess I need to brush up on the art again"
Sarah laughed sincerely and patted Faye's flat stomach "soon this little one will grow and you wont be able to hide it from the world"
Faye nodded "I know, you better go I don't want Jet telling me that you need to take it easy and shit"
"Are you going to tell jet?"
"Will you please tell him for me. If I told him he would give me that look that says 'told you so' and I hate it" Sarah laughed again and both women hugged. Soon Faye was home alone.
She really missed her son. She hated school for that reason. She couldn't spend as much time as she needed with him "man I feel like shit. This is one thing I hate. The fucking morning sickness. Damn you"
A/N...well I read a few of your reviews and I must say that I'm so flattered. Anyways I can't believe that some of you read my mind. Hopefully this chapter is something you all will enjoy. I liked it a lot for some damned fucking reason. You tell me what you think. Thanks to all of the reviews the really make my day. Oh...I think that Sujiro is so cute. I mean come on the little kid just wants his dad to be there for him. He doesn't hate sam, but he doesn't like him for his mom either. Think of it as something to do with the saying "the call of the blood" of course Sujiro is going to pick his dad because of all the wonderful things that Jet told him. Besides Spike has been a great dad in my opinion considering that he hates kids. Ne?
