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The few first months went by slowly, but when Christmas break finally came around, I was actually thankful to go home. Alex still demanded kissing, at his leisure, which was basically any time we were next to each other. Addie and I were back on good terms, but the blonde haired someone never told anyone about Alex and I.
Now that I was home, I had time to think about what was happening with me… with my life. I lay in my bed, staying still, my eyes were emotionless. When you were thinking, I imagined that you didn't really make faces while you thought.
"Come on Lily, it's just kissing, it's not like I want to sleep with you," he paused, "well not yet anyways."
"No, I am not kissing you again, even when I do kiss you, you hurt me," I sobbed, on the floor of the room of requirement. "I don't want to be with you anymore."
"You're not thinking straight," he said, kneeling down to me.
"I am thinking perfectly fine, I don't want to be with you anymore… you hurt, you are a Slytherin, and you're a horrible person, you still make fun of me." My eyes didn't look up to his… they couldn't.
"It's all a part of the act, remember? You didn't want anyone knowing about us, we have to act normally, and I normally made fun of you," he said in an unwelcoming tone.
"You still make fun of me," I murmured, and something inside of him ticked off, something, he picked me up by the neck and held me up, my throat not getting enough air to breathe.
"Stop being a baby and grow up!" he shouted, inches away from my face, I tried gasping for air, but no air was getting to my lungs, I could feel my face reddening, my whole body shutting itself off…
"Oh my god!" he shouted, totally horrified, dropping me down to the ground, I collapsed, just focusing on inhaling and exhaling, not at which new swear word Alex could spit out, "I didn't do that."
"I'm through with you, this is exactly why I hate being involved with you, and besides, we aren't getting back at Mary Flint, if anything she's been telling me how I've gotten even fatter since I got to school." I gasped, finally staring at his face.
"…Well, she kind of does have a point…" I headed towards the door, but he jumped in front of it. "I didn't say that."
"Yes you did, and you meant it, you also meant to throttle me by the neck back there," I said, tears flowing down my cheeks, "I'm done with you, and our relationship, I'm breaking up with you."
He took my wrist but I screamed, "I am not going to be your victim anymore! Go find another girl who will let you hit her!"
Alex didn't respond to this, so I said, "Get help for your temper problem."
These words made him angry… really angry… but he just held on harder to my wrist, his hand fully wrapped around it. "Ow, stop it, I told you I'm not going to be pushed around by you and beaten."
"I don't beat you!" he shouted furiously.
I freed my wrist and lifted my shirt up to my lower ribs, showing black and blue marks, then I showed him what he had done when I had most recently refused to kiss him, the scar on the back of my neck, it had been cut deeply, having me make up a very big excuse as to what I was doing, Madam Pumpfry more than likely didn't believe me. "You fall down a lot," he said dismissively.
"I'M DUMPING YOU!" I screamed at the top of my lungs.
His hands jerked mine closer to him, so I accidentally fell towards him, but I caught myself. He pushed his face up against mine, and for the first time, he stuck his abnormally large tongue down my throat, as if to find out what I had previously eaten. When I felt his tongue coming back up my mouth, it came and went across my teeth slowly. He was licking my teeth, LICKING MY TEETH! My first instinct was to bite, and I took it, making a hard chomp onto his disgusting tongue that should have stayed in his own mouth. He let out a yelp, but he now wrapped his arms around me, leaving no room between our bodies with the exception being layers of clothing.
My waist was being crushed into him, as he continued to try to find the back of my throat. I had absolutely had enough, then, I don't know exactly what happened, but Alex was thrown to the opposite wall, and went crashing into the brick wall. I breathed heavily, had I just done magic without knowing it? I had done it before I could control it, but never after I had gotten Hogwarts could I do magic without a wand. I took this opportunity to run out the door, as fast as I could, for the fear of being attacked…
A knocking noise awoke me from my nightmare day dream that happened… I told them to come in, and the door opened to a cold Matthew, stuck his tongue down Mary Flint's throat, Perks. "Oh," I said, pulling down the sleeves of my sweater, "Hi."
"Not happy to see me?" He asked; a little too knowing.
"No, I'm just surprised that you remembered me," I said quietly, "Since you've been ignoring me for most of the year, you know."
Matt disregarded this and took a look around my room, "I should have known that your room looked like this," he said, looking at all of the books that were aligned on the shelves, "how many of these have you actually read?" he asked curiously, glancing at the hundreds of books that covered up all of my walls.
"All of them," I told him simply, as his jaw dropped, "What?" I asked.
"It's just a lot of reading to do, not very many people are this into reading" he told me, glancing around at all of my books, picking one specifically out of the others. He smiled and said, "You were carrying this book when we first met," he had picked up "Saving Sarah Jane," I had reread that book countless times, I couldn't figure out why until now. "How do you remember that?" I asked curiously.
"I don't know, it just kind of sticks out in my mind, you know, it isn't every day where a girl falls onto your lap." He said, laughing.
"True," I mumbled, looking at my feet, he took the hint and came over to me, sitting up on my bed. He motioned for me to sit up too, so I did, he wrapped one of his arms around the back of my waist and said, "But it also isn't every day where you find a pretty girl in a bookshop, is it?"
"Why, did you meet Mary in a bookshop?" I asked icily.
He just gave a quick nervous laugh, "Funny, but no, the only girl that I met in a bookshop, was you." He told me, "And I just wanted to know what was been happening"
I looked towards his eyes and spoke quietly, "What about me, I'm not important."
He brought my chin up to his eyes and said, "Yes you are, without you, I don't know where I would be right now."
"Probably still a popular Ravenclaw that forgot about his geeky friends a while ago to go snog Mary Flint," I said, "How is she by the way, Mattie Poo, that is what she called you, wasn't it?"
He didn't answer very quickly, but he asked, "Is there something going on between you and Alex Harper?"
"…" I looked guiltily at my multicolored socks, "Not by choice."
Matt went quiet and said numbly, "What do you mean by that?"
"I mean, if I don't stay with him… well, he won't be happy, and he'll take it out on… well, uhhh, me." I told him very quietly, nervous of how he would react.
"What do you mean by 'He'll take it out on you'" Matt asked, being quite serious this time.
"He'll hurt me if I don't stay with him… I've tried breaking up with him several times… but well, he just beats me until I take it back." I murmured, determinately not looking into his eyes, "I don't think that I can stand up to him again…"
My eyes finally met Matt's who looked absolutely distraught. "Why didn't you tell me about this before?"
"I thought that I could handle him myself," I knew that honesty would be best in this situation, "I didn't want to bother anybody with my stupid little problems."
"Lily, do you know how serious this is?" he asked me.
I didn't answer, but that was the stupidest question that was ever aimed my way, I knew the seriousness of how this was going. After a few minutes of silence he asked, "What has he done so far?"
I lifted up my shirt to my ribs and showed him the black and blue marks where he had kicked me continuously until I had finally caved in, "First time," I said quietly, then I showed him the scar on my neck, "Second time," then I rolled up my sleeves to reveal several black and blue marks scattered on my skin, "Third," I told him about Alex choking me, "Fourth," then I told him that I had actually gotten one of my ribs cracked by him, having to explain to Madam Pumpfry all of my scars and bruises, but making up tales that she didn't believe. "He's also controlling how much and what I eat because he doesn't want me to get even fatter than I already am." I murmured, pulling down my sweater and the sleeves.
He stared at me, "You have to tell an adult about this."
"No," I said shortly, "He'll come after me then and that time, it'll be worse, he broke skin just because I wouldn't kiss him. Thrown me up against a wall, forced me to kiss him and made my lip bleed from biting it too hard…"
"If you don't have him stop, then he'll keep on pulling this and then he'll do things that you don't want him to do." Matt said seriously, "Next time he might kill you."
Something inside me, just clicked off, turning toward Matt and placing my head onto his shoulder. I wrapped both of my arms around his waist and I held him tight, while the tears came down silently, I felt his other arm wrap itself around me. Words really couldn't describe the emotions that coursed through my body all at once, but anger was not one of them. "I don't know what to do anymore," I mumbled into his shirt.
"You can't let him continue to do this," he told me, and I knew he was right, but how was it possible?
"I don't have any other choice," I murmured, "There isn't anything that I can do."
I felt his hand go to my hair and stroking it soothingly, "Shhh, we'll figure something out, we will."
We stayed like this until I stopped crying, which took several minutes, but when I had stopped crying, I held onto him tightly. Turning my head towards his, I came up to his ear and whispered, "I'm really glad you came."
"I am too," he whispered. He loosened his grip on me, and reminded me, "In first year, you gave me an option to do something, and I'd really like to take that opportunity now."
Before I could remember, he tilted his head slightly to the right and leaned in to me, his lips were soft, and something that I had never felt before coursed through me. There is just something about Matthew Perks that makes me feel this way. It's an unexplainable feeling really, because no words can do this feeling justice.
Then, to my astonished horror, the door flew open, making Matt jump, causing him to fall off of my bed. Al was standing in the middle of my doorway, "Did the thought ever occur to you that you should knock?!" I said loudly.
Al smirked and yelled down the hall, "Mum, Dad, Lily had a boy in her room with her door closed!"
No one was coming up the stairs, which was a great sign, "So?" Called my mum.
"Soo… they were snogging! Your little innocent Lily was actually snogging a boy!" I heard footsteps now come up the stairs, a little rushed, so I opened up my window and ushered Matt to me, "I'm not jumping that far down!"
"Fine, I'll go first" I mumbled, and I climbed out the window, hanging by the side of the window then the short fall didn't hurt as much, thank god for snow, otherwise my bum would hurt a whole lot more than it does. Matt came down right after I did, landing right next to me, I had him run with me to our tree house. Yes, it wasn't my best idea, but it meant that Matt could stay longer. We were both out of breath when we finally got to the top of the tree house. "That was close," I muttered.
"Yeah" he said, smiling.
"God, when I get my hands on Al, he will surely regret it." I said, "I mean he ruins everything good in my life…"
Matt looked at me and said, "Yeah, it was pretty good."
We both laughed, for a while and we lay down on the wooden floor. "So what are you going to do for the rest of the vacation?" I asked him quietly.
"…Just, you know…" he said, and yes, I did know, unfortunately.
"Hanging out with Mary Flint?" I asked.
"No, actually, I'm spending it with my family, but we're going to America this winter, my mom tells me that I need to see my other relatives but I really don't like them, they're really annoying… my cousins that is" I perked up a little as he said it, but then, I realized why he wasn't happy about it, that means that he wouldn't be visiting at all this winter break.
"Oh, yeah… Well, can't you visit one time?" I asked hopefully.
"We won't be coming back until the day right before the train leaves" he told me.
I looked at his dirty blonde hair and asked, "So when do you have to leave?"
"Tomorrow" he murmured, getting on his side and playing with my hair.
"Then we'll just have to make the most of tonight," I told him, a smile placed onto my lips. "Won't we?"
His smile showing, he said, "I guess we will."
The rest of the night we made snowmen, had a quiet snowball fight, and we went back up to the tree when we couldn't see anything but the silhouette of the other person. We sat in the pure darkness of the tree house. His arm securely around me, so that I wouldn't freeze, my arms were wrapped around his waist, with my head gently resting on his chest. We just sat in the silence, watching out the window that showed the sun slowly coming up the horizon, "I didn't want this to end." He whispered.
"I know, this feels like the only real thing in my life right now… you and me I mean." I told him, and I could feel him smiling.
The sun ascended higher into the sky, before he spoke again, "What are we going to do about Alex?"
He knew exactly how to ruin a perfect moment didn't he. He could make and destroy them. I cuddled into him more and let out a soft, "I don't know."
"We have to do something about him, I don't want to see you get hurt, ever again," he told me, pushing my hair out of my face. "I can't stand to see you this miserable… it kills me inside to see you like this."
"It doesn't feel any better when you're the one it's happening to," I mumbled.
Then, I saw my dad at the doorway of the tree house, staring at us, I scrambled to my feet, but Matt was picked up by the hood of his sweatshirt, my dad's hand clutching it tightly, taking him out of the tree house without any words. I tried to keep up with my dad and Matt, "Dad, what are you doing?" I asked him continuously, but my dad would not reply, but I swore that I could see flames coming out of his ears.
He dragged Matt into the house and Matt landed with a thud on the ground, "Ginerva, get down here!" I had never heard my dad use my mom's actual name, never in my life had anyone call her that besides grandma when mum accidentally dropped something.
Mum was down in the main entrance within seconds of being called down, her brown eyes trying to get the basics of what was wrong, "Harry, it's really early, don't yell so loudly."
"Lily was all snuggled up with this boy-" he pointed vaguely towards Matt, who had gotten up. "-in the tree house! God only knows what they could have been doing in there before I got there!"
My eyes widened, "Dad, that isn't what happened! Matt just-"
"He's a hormonal teenage boy Lillian, you can't trust their judgment; I was one of them once." He told me, my mother was coming down a few more steps, watching his movement.
"How would you know?! You don't know him at all!" I screamed, it didn't mean to come out so loud, but it had.
"I don't need to know him Lily, now go upstairs and I will take care of him," My dad told me seriously, I felt my mom's hands come onto my arms.
"No." I said, not moving a muscle.
"Lily, do as I say" he ordered.
"I won't do it!" My voice rising higher, making my dad turn around to me.
"Lily, go upstairs, now"
"No!"
"Ginny, take her upstairs."
My mom guided me upstairs, but we stayed right by the stairs, so that we could listen in. "Stay away from my daughter, you hear? She doesn't need any distractions, especially any boys coming in and messing her up!" I heard him yell. Matt didn't say anything but he might have made a gesture, "Good, then we're on the same page." He said a little less boss-like. "Now I don't want to see you with my daughter, ever again."
The tears started coming down my cheeks, "Yes sir" I heard Matt mumble.
My mom started to turn me towards my room, but I heard my dad say, "I think you should leave now."
I tore away from my mom's grasp and started to run down the stairs, but I was mid way down the stairs, when I saw him halfway out the door, "Please don't go!"
Matt turned back to stare at my tear soaked face, my bottom lip trembled "I can't do this alone!"
"Lily go back upstairs, he knows what he's doing" My dad told me, but I wasn't listening, "You can't make him stay away from me!" I yelled.
"Lily, its fine," Matt muttered to his shoes, but the tears flowed down my cheeks, "No it's not! You can't keep me away from him; I won't let you do this!"
I went down the rest of the stairs, and grabbed onto Matt, hugging his waist, I whispered "I can't let you go, I love you."
His eyes widened but my parents didn't hear me, my dad grabbed onto my waist and pulled me back, having me accidentally let go of Matt. I tried grabbing for him again but my dad pulled me back just far enough so that I couldn't reach him.
"You need to leave, now." My dad said over my head.
With one last fleeting look Matt closed the door, he didn't let go of me just yet, but he turned me around, and started to get mad, "Lily, what were you doing with a boy in the morning alone, you are only fourteen!"
"We weren't doing anything!" I stomped my foot down. "I swear dad, we weren't doing anything!"
"It didn't look like nothing" he fought back, but this was when I wished my dad would really act like a dad and not The Head Auror Official.
"Why won't you listen to me?"
"You're fourteen! You don't need to be having-" it seemed to literally kill him inside to say the next few words, "sex with guys, that's all they want from you Lily."
"I WASN'T!" I shouted, through the corner of my eye I saw a drowsy Al and James emerge from the staircase. "You raised me better than that!"
He took a low deep breath and I got him to release his grip off of me, "When are you going to treat me like a daughter instead of one of your trainees? I'm glad I'm not in Teddy's position because he has to deal with you every day!" The words just slipped out of my mouth, the horror on my father's face made my stomach churn. "I hate you for this, and I will never forgive you!"
Both Al and James knew that I was dead serious, but they didn't know what it was all about, without even being told to, I went into my room, locked the door shut, and started crying into my pillow. A life without Matthew Perks is an incomplete life.
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