A/N nsfw porning, but the first half is Deans back story, im not great at writing this kind of thing but it was at a point in the story when ot needed to happen so I tried.

"I'm not the poster boy for a model citizen either; I'm rebellious; sometimes over aggressive; and will stand up for family and what I believe to be right, which has got me into a lot of trouble over the years. They hate me, the big guys up there, ever since my Dad died under suspicious circumstances they've had their own personal vendetta against me. I know they somehow killed him, my Dad, because he died the moment he got to the truth of my mom dying, which they had a hand In her death as well. She was chosen to be in an forced experimental trail, (which they sometimes randomly select a citizen for) and half way through the trial she was found burning on the roof. Later when my Dad found this out, and wouldn't let it go, determined to make them pay for what they did to my mom, he just disappeared, never to be seen again. Ever since a toddler they have hated me, since I asked why? Instead of just saying yes sir. I missed out most of my education helping Dad with his crusade to find the truth and protecting sammy the best i could. Growing up so fast and missing most of my education, they put me in the worse jobs, it didn't help either that they hated me and were happy to see me their. I've almost starved more than once, eventually when I was barely old enough they decided the best job for some one of my skills (As they pick our jobs out for us, when we reach adult hood). They decided the best job for me would be a professional escort, I of course refused but they forced me anyway threatening me and when that didn't work threatening Sam, to ruin his future and put him in a trial like my Mom. So I relented, its better than being dead anyway, and at least I'm not starving. The only reason they still kept me around, not making me "Disappear like my Dad" because Bobby is the best scientist they ever had, and Sam was a up and coming tool for their machine, the brilliant one, who always obeyed, fit the profile of a fucking ideal citizen and without me they had no hope of him being the "ideal citizen". We never told Sam about Mom, Dad thought he was too young and made me promise not too. By the time Sam was old enough to know Dad was gone and I never had the heart to tell him, I suppose thats the reason why he they like him so much because he doesn't have a reason to disobey. Some days I had to steal to get by, getting caught and being punished more than once, though not all those scars they inflicted upon me are of the visible kind. But a few are, people getting a bit too rough" said Dean showing Cas the scars he had never shown anyone before, not even Sam knew about, a lot Sam didn't know, Dean always putting on a brave face, never letting him on to what the institute forced him to do. "So thats why, I guess I felt like I had to save you that day. I've been there I know what its like to be at the bottom, not in control of anything. That's why we have to get out from under their thumb, its okay if this disgusts you, I'll still get you out and I can just be your ticket out of here, or whatever you want from me" said Dean turning away from Cas.

"Dean" said Cas "Dean, look at me"

"Dean looked up but he didn't see revulsion or shock, he saw something else, love and under standing. We do what we have to Dean, I'm not here to judge you, I don't have the right. Even if I did, I wouldn't, you are a good man Dean, thats more than can be said for others. Now it was Dean's turn to almost tear up.

"Now can I kiss you? Asked Cas, Dean couldn't speak at that moment so he just nodded.

Cas kissed him till tears spilt, Cas pulled away, wiping tears, staring into his eyes. Castiel knew he would like to look into those eyes everyday and see that face for the rest of his life have Dean by his side forever to love and cherish "Dean I think I'm in love with you"

"What?" Said Dean shocked, that was unexpected, but not that unexpected after seeing the look Cas was giving him.

"I said I love you Dean Winchester, you and just you, flaws and all"

Dean brought Cas close to him resting his head on Cas's bare chest "I love you too" Dean said muffled by Cas's chest,"Past, doubt's and all"Dean ran his hands over Cas's nearby feathers curious, Cas shivered, "you like that do you" Cas nodded it felt good.

Dean ran his hands through Cas's feathers Cas becoming more aroused, giving kisses to Dean, between him rubbing his hands through his wings. Neither man nor angel noticed it at the time, but as Dean ran his hands through Cas's wings they were healing. The cuts on the arches closing over and becoming whole once again, feathers growing in, old burnt ones falling out till Cas's wings were gleaming and better than new. They didn't notice because Dean and Cas were making out passionately, taking each others clothes off desperately, the passion overtaking, pushing each other up against the wall, desperately fumbling, taking layers off, ripping with buttons, tearing clothes. Cas more successful took Dean's jeans off pushing them down sinking to his knees, sucking, working up a real rhythm until Dean cummed, climaxing, panting, clutching Cas. Dean Taking a breath to steady himself after a few minutes, brought cas off his knees making out him again, then sinking to his own knees returning the favour, till Cas also was the one who climaxed. Dean and Cas, collapsed, laying on the floor breathless, both of them relaxing, sinking to the floor, laying there soing nothing for a while, just holding hands and staring at each other lovingly, gathering energy then raiding the food supply. Cas was getting ready to leave, pulling on his Jeans. Dean took one look at Cas, a total mess, with the craziest sex hair and he decided he wasn't done with him just yet "Where do you think your going?" said Dean teasingly, using his sexy low voice, he had perfected over the years, that deove everyone wild "Out" said Cas, pausing hesitatingly, seeing what Dean was up to.

"I don't think so" growled Dean in his sexily low voice again "I'm not quite done with you yet"

Dean walked up to Cas, pulling him back into the room, slamming the door, kissing him hard. Cas kissed back just as hard taking charge of the situation, taking Dean's clothes off, one layer at a time, slowing down, showing Dean they didn't need to rush this, they had all the time in the world. "This was diffrent than what he was used to but it felt nice" Dean thought. Cas trailed kisses, slow long lasting one's marking Dean as his own, "Dean was his and never going to belong to anyone ever again". Dean layed back, letting Cas do what ever he wanted, tensing a tiny bit, Cas felt it and he wasn't having any of that. He brought his mouth to, Dean's bringing all the energy and life back to him with that one kiss, installing passion back in him, showing him to trust, Cas wasnt going to hurt him. Cas took his time mapping Deans body out, finding the spots that most made him shiver. Cas done with the experimenting decided it was time, them both too hot and bothered to go on with this game any longer. Cas kissed Dean one final time on the mouth, climbing on top of him, grabbing some lubrication from Dean's tossed clothes,preparing. "It's okay Dean" he said as Dean tensed up once again, "I'm not going to hurt you or do anything you don't like" Dean relaxed then he slid in, Dean gasped "oh Cas" He started moving, working up a rhythm till Dean started begging for more,

" Cas, oh, Cas." He moaned "Harder Cas, faster Cas."

"Dean, Dean, Dean!" Cas practically screamed

"Cas!" Dean yelled out beating Cas in volume.

They orgasimed simultaneously

Cas pulled out, panting giving Dean one last kiss, tears started falling unwillingly from cas's eyes,as he came down from his high.

"Hey, whats wrong" asked Dean worried

It just, just that this is the first time that sex has actually felt like it meant something, that I don't feel like a piece of crap afterwards, that the one i'm sleeping with wont look at me with shame afterwards, that they wont deny it ever happened, I love you Dean,

"I love you too Cas, and this is the first time that sex has felt like it meant something too, that I don't feel dirty and used after" they lay down on the floor again, Dean just holding Cas, and Cas just holding Dean, not Caring they were lying on the filthy floor of a random supply closet. As time wore on, Dean started grinning ecstatically and kept glancing over at Cas if he would disappear at any given moment, Cas just grabbed his hand kissing his knuckles. Cas got up cleaning the stickiness as he put his clothes back on, Dean followed suit wincing a bit but smiling still at Cas all the while thinking that was the best sexual experience he had ever had.

Taking his hand in his again and walking out of the supply closet, they gave one last kiss walking down the dim hallway

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Dean and Cas came out of the closet smelling of sweat and sex, it was dark outside, the lights barely dim. Bobby and Sam were nowhere to be seen, "Bobby. Sam" Dean whispered worriedly "where are they" he asked Cas" Dean" Sam whispered from a doorway around the corner, "psst over here" he motioned with his hand. Dean and Cas walked slowly in the dark hallway, illimunated by lamps every so often. The doorway led to a small room where Bobby was asleep on a old camping bed "Where did you get to"

" Dean you'v been gone all night, we had to find somewhere to bunk for the night,

"All night" exclaimed Dean surprised, It was mid afternoon when they left Sam and Bobby, them not noticing the time passing in their sex crazed romance. "Why didn't you notify me that we've been gone this long" questioned Dean authoritatively

"Well Dean you seemed pretty busy, doing god knows what in that closet" implying he knew exactly what Dean was doing, as the door wasn't as soundproof as it should have been, and Sam and Bobby could hear moans and thumps coming from the room. They quickly moved realising what was going on figuring from the way Cas and Dean couldn't keep their hands off of each other earlier.

"Oh god!" Cried Dean blushing, "You heard that"

"Dean, I think the whole institute heard you" said Sam chuckling,

"Oh god" said Dean flushing even brighter, hiding his face.

Cas was chuckling as well

"Do you have no shame Cas" commented Dean

"Not really no" comented Cas "and either did you when you-"

"okay thats enough out of you" said Dean clamping his hand over Cas's mouth "C'mon you embarrassing teddy bear time for bed"

"Dean I'm not a bear, I'm an angel"

"Your adorable you know that" said Dean, lightly kissing him

Cas just gave Dean a confused look, Dean removed Cas's jacket dragging him down on the other camper bed snuggling up to Cas.

Dean Yawned "You should get some rest too" he told Sam falling asleep

"Night Dean" he told Dean asleep in Cas's arms, Cas lightly snoring.

"Yes everything was going to be just fine" Sam thought sinking down in the doorway keeping a look out but accidently falling asleep.