Hey guys, sorry it took so long. I've been kinda busy with school, and I've been sick for the past week, to top it all of. But here I am, with another chapter. I still can't seem to process it in my head. This story. It seems so.. ameture. lol. But I'm glad you guys still like it . That means a lot. And I hope you stick with it for the rest of all the story.. or something like that. lol. Yeah man. So. Yeah. I was reading past this point, and I read the end.. Yeah. So. I'm gonna do a bit of work on that... lol. But a few comments, and I'll put out some more. Enjoy. :)
Chapter 8
A single tear rolled down Jude's cheek. Slowly, Jude lifted her sleeve. Tommy gasped at what he saw. There on her arm, were cuts. So many cuts. Red ones proved newness, white ones showed a time lapse. "Jude..." he stared at her arm, his eyes glazing over. "Jude..." he said again. Another tear rolled down Jude's face. "Jude..." Jude began to get frustrated. "Don't you have anything you want to say to me besides Jude? I just told you one of my darkest secrets, dark in every way possible! Say something!" Jude screamed, crying hysterically. Tommy stayed calm. "Jude, you don't want me to say anything. Just cool it, okay?" he said, sternly. His voice sent shivers down Jude's spine. She never heard him talk like that; it scared her. "Tommy! Say something! I want you to say something!" Tommy clenched his teeth together, and the tears started to flow fluently. "You want me to tell you something, Jude!? Huh!? You want me to say what's really on my mind!?" He yelled. "Fine! What were you thinking!? What is wrong with you!? Seriously, Jude! How could you be so stupid, as to hurt yourself like that!?" He stopped and looked at Jude, who was crying hysterically, sitting on the coffee table, head in hands. Tommy's heart sank when he saw her. Another tear rolled down his cheek as he kneeled down beside her. "Oh, baby..." He said softly, grabbing her into a hug. He held her tight while she cried in his arms. After a few whispered, soothing words, and lots of stroking of the back, Jude was asleep. Tommy picked her up bridal style, and brought her to her room. Setting her gently down on the bed, Tommy climbed in beside her. He held her tight, and also cried himself to sleep.
"I'm so sorry, Tommy. I screwed up so bad." Jude whispered to a sleeping Tommy. "I don't know what I was thinking." A tear strolled down her face. She had woken up half an hour ago, and stared at Tommy as he slept. Sometimes she talked to him, like right now. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't mean to hurt anyone. I just...it was the one thing I could actually control. Finally pain that I could start and stop at the same time. It helped me cope through all the stress. When you experience that many deaths...you just...nothing scares you anymore. I guess I became fearless." Unnoticed, Tommy awoke. "I used to always want to be fearless. That way I could do anything, I could risk it all, and I wouldn't have to worry about anything. Now...now I don't want to be fearless Tommy! I want to be scared. I want to worry. Because if I have no fears...something bad could happen. Something...so bad. I...I can't do that. Not again." Jude cried silently before continuing. "When I moved here...I was so scared. Scared of getting close to anyone. Scared of letting people in...I saw what happened to everyone in my life. I didn't want that to happen to you. Or to Speed, or Wally, Kyle, or Kwest! I wouldn't be able to handle that! When I heard of the death of Speed's grandmother...I freaked. I can already hear the phone call about Speed. It's replaying over and over in my head." Jude put her head down on Tommy's chest. Slowly, a hand made it's way to her back, gently stroking it. Jude gasped. "I didn't know you were awake..." Tommy just nodded. Jude layed her head back down, and continued to feel Tommy's hand warmly roll up and down her back. She felt so safe there. With him. He was someone she could count on. Someone she could trust. And she liked it. "Tommy..." Tommy looked down at Jude, who was still staring straight ahead, at the wall. "Yeah, girl." Jude swallowed. "Can you promise me something?" Tommy looked at her with such great intensity, it scared even himself. "Of course...anything." Jude was silent for a moment. She licked her lips, and fiddled with her thumbs. "Can you promise me that no matter what happens...you'll always be here for me. No matter what goes on, I'll always have you to come to?" Jude looked up at Tommy, who stared down at her. They got lost in each other's eyes. "I promise." He whispered.
"Dude, you have no idea what this girl has been through man! Everyone she loved died. When she heard about your grandmother, she freaked out, said it was all her fault. I think she's cursed dude." Kwest laughed at his lame joke. Speed just stared ahead, listening to him over the phone. "Everyone she got close to died?" Nothing processed in his head. He couldn't believe this! Was Jude really cursed. Nah. Those aren't real...right? "Dude, personally I think she is cursed. I mean think about it, everyone she's gotten close to died...then your grandmother. Dude, that's just wack to me." Speed clenched the phone tightly. "Gotta go." With that, Speed hung up. Kwest looked at his phone confused. "Whatever..." he mumbled, to no one in particular.
"Jude," Tommy whispered, lightly shaking a sleeping Jude. "Hmmm..." she mumbled. Tommy smiled. She looked so peaceful sleeping. So serene. So beautiful..."Girl...I gotta go." Jude mumbled something incoherent, and pushed her head, further into Tommy's chest. He smiled. Lightly lifting her head, Tommy sat it on the pillow. He slowly got up, as to not wake Jude. He stood over her, staring down. Bending down, he kissed her cheek lightly. "Bye, girl." Tommy walked out of the house, out to his car, and drove off.
Okay, so.. there we go. Did you guys like it?! I hope so. :). Yeah.. so.. A few comments, and the next chapter will be out. Leave me some love.. please. lol. Thanks guys.
