Chapter 8

Author's not I still don't own Twilight but wish I did and as per usual beta by Mimi (myagrace)

I shall tell you now that this one is gonna be changing POV's more so then the other ones because of what this chapter deals with. I wanted it told from both Jasper's and Bella's POV's. Sorry in advance if this is going to bug you but it needed to be done this way

On with the story

BPOV

Days turned into weeks, weeks into months and before I knew it, it was the last week in November and the school was littered with posters for the winter ball that was happening in the second week of December.

I had fallen into a routine since coming here, I go to school, cook for Charlie and myself, every other day I'm at the Cullens house getting help with my French and the other days I was hanging out with Angela. Every Saturday would be date night or day with Jasper. I was having so much fun getting to know him and being around him. He was such a sweet, fun loving guy and he really took into consideration what I have to say or what I wanted to do on date night. Also, two Sundays out of the month was spent in La Push hanging out will everyone down there.

That first Monday that Jasper and I went to school as an official couple was an eventful one. I was right that Lauren and Jessica would be the ones to start all of the trouble. Lauren, because I was the new girl and I landed the only hot single guy in that school and Jessica, because she had tried to get Jasper to notice her before I came. Angela was happy for me and in turn I was happy for her, because she and Ben had gotten together. Of course there hook-up was less gossiped about. Mike typically was pissed that I chose Jasper over him and he was pissed at Jasper, because he knew that all of the women fawn over him and it got on his last nerve. But I didn't really care what anyone thought or said it was like I had a shield of sorts. Everything that was negative and was directed towards me, just bounced off like a ball hitting a wall.

I didn't like dances but I knew that if Jasper asked me to go, that I would say yes to him. I had Mike, and two guys named Eric and Tyler ask me to the dance even though they knew that I was Jasper's girlfriend. I mean how stupid are they to think that I would go with one of them when I'm clearly with Jasper. And even if I wasn't dating someone, I so wouldn't pick them if they were the last guys on earth.

I wasn't sure where Jasper was taking me for our date today but he did tell me that he needs to tell me something and when he told me that I could hear the nervousness in his voice. There was a lot going threw my head about what can have Jasper so nervous. Is it that he's fallen in love with me and that he is unsure if I feel the same way for him? Is it that he no longer wants to be my boyfriend because he realized that I wasn't what he was looking for or was it that dream girl had finally come for him, and he wanted to be single so that he could be with her?

All of those and more thoughts were going through my head when the doorbell rang and I knew that it was Jasper here to tell me whatever it was that he wanted to tell me. I made my way downstairs, thankful that Charlie had gone fishing already, and plastered a fake smile on my face so that Jasper wouldn't know how stressed out over what he was about to tell me I was. I opened the door and said

"Hi Jasper" in the most cheerful voice I could muster.

"Hi darlin."

"So where are we going?"
"Well I wanted to take you to our cliff to talk."
"Sure Jazz just let me put my shoes on."

"Are you alright darlin?"
"Oh yeah, Jazz, I'm fine."

I put my shoes on and then we went to his truck and proceeded to make our way to our cliff. We didn't talk much and I guessed that whatever he wanted to tell me shouldn't be done while driving. We got to the base of our cliff and then walked up it. As soon as we got to the top, I saw that there was already a blanket sitting there which I was glad about because it was kinda cold up this high. We sat down and I waited for Jasper to start talking.

JPOV

I knew that now was the time to tell Bella the truth about all of us because it wouldn't be long till Peter and Char would be here. And I wanted her to know before that fucker of a brother of mine tells her. I wanted her to hear it from me and not someone else. Ali had told me that she saw Bella taking it well if it comes from me, and no one else. I took in an unneeded deep breath and said,

"Darlin there is something that you don't know about me and my family and I want you to know before our relationship goes any further. Because I don't want our relationship to be built on lies and I don't want someone else tellin ya about us."
"What is it Jasper?"
"I'll tell ya but I want your promise that you will wait to hear all of it before making any decisions, asking questions or regretfully running away from me."

"I promise cowboy, now what do you need to tell me?"

I took another unneeded breath and began.

"Bella…I really don't know how to tell ya this darlin so I'm just gonna tell ya straight. My family and I are not related nor are we adoptive in the sense that you think by Carlisle and Esme. We are a coven of vampires. We don't drink the blood of humans, but animals. I am the second oldest vampire; Carlisle being the first. Rose and Em, Edward and Ali, and Carlisle and Esme are all mates. That means that when they saw each other their souls knew that it had found their other half and they will do anythin for their mate. I was, up until very recently, unmated. But I don't want you to think that I was only datin ya till my mate came along, because darlin, you are my mate. That is why when we first touched there was a shock that went threw our bodies. It was our soul's recognizing each other and becomin one. It's also why when we are apart we feel very lonely and there is this pull to be together."

I just sat there lettin her take all of that information in; I didn't want to look at her to see what her emotions were sayin on her face. And I tried my hardest to block them because if she was gettin ready to run, I didn't want to feel it for the rest of my days on earth. This wouldn't be long, because I would have someone kill me or I would walk in to the pyre myself, because if she rejected me, then I wouldn't want to go on livin.

It had been a whole ten minutes and Bella had yet to say or do anythin. She was still sittin beside me, because I could still hear her heart beat and her calm breathin. Five more minutes passed and still nothin from her. I tested her emotions to make sure that she didn't go into shock and I found that she didn't. I then tuned her emotions out again. I had my legs stretched out in front of me and I sat facin the water when all of a sudden I felt Bella crawl into my lap and curl herself into me. If I wasn't a vampire, with super hearin, I would have missed her whisper "My mate".

BPOV

To say that I was shocked at what Jazz had just revealed would be the understatement of the century. Never in my wildest dreams would I ever have believed that there were actually real vampires, that I had stumbled across a coven of them and actually become the girlfriend… no wait… mate, of the second oldest vampire in said coven. It wasn't all that hard to believe I guess because I knew that there was something different… not human, about them but it didn't matter to me. To me they were just like the rest of us but just dealt a different hand of poker. And to be honest, outside of the boys of La Push and Angela, they were the nicest people that lived in this tiny town.

I knew that poor Jasper was probably worried that I was about to either run or go into shock but there were still things that I wanted to think over, even thought it didn't bother me. For instance, I know, finally what the hell that damn shock was. I had wanted to tell Jazz but was afraid that he would think I was a loony and I didn't want my first boyfriend to think of me that way. To know that the whole, 'as soon as you find your other half' thing was true, was not as bad as I thought it would be. Because it meant that I was able to be with the right person who knew me, and I didn't have to go through the shit of finding someone that got me.

There were a lot of other questions that I needed to ask Jasper, but at this moment, all I want to be is closer to him. The way that he was sitting gave me access to be able to sit on his lap. Now knowing that he was a vampire, I knew that I wouldn't be too heavy for him, not that I weigh much anyway. So I moved and crawled into his lap. I guess Jazz was scared about my reaction to the news because he didn't even notice me moving. Only after I called him my mate- which to be completely honest sounded so great coming from my lips, did he wrap his arms around me, and held me as tight to his body as my fragile human body could be pressed.

We sat like that for awhile not talking or moving just enjoying being in each others arms. But the time came where the questions that I wanted to know wouldn't stop eating at me, to be asked. I sighed and then said,

"Jazz I have some questions for you."
"Alright darlin. Do you want to talk here or somewhere else?"
"Here is fine."

"O.k. so what is it that you would like to know?"
I sat in thought for a minute trying to figure out what question I wanted to ask first.

"How old are you?"
"166."
"When were you born?"
"1845."
"How old were you when you were turned?"
"I was 20."

"How did you get turned?"
"Well, now is not the time to tell ya the whole story. That is best saved for another time."

"O.k. then what were you before you were turned?"
"I was the youngest Major in the Texas Calvary, all with out havin seen any real battles."
"Who turned you; male or female?"
"Female, but that will also be told at a latter time."
"What were you doing in the civil war when you got turned?"
"All your questions darlin are based on the story that I've yet to tell ya."

"Well why do you want to wait to tell me?"
"Because I know that I've put a lot on you now and also my upbringin wasn't like my sibling's."
"Jasper, I want to know all of you and I won't run anywhere, or judge you any differently after what you need to tell me."
"Are you sure that you can handle it?"
"Yes Jazz, please tell me so that I can have all of my questions about you answered."
"Alright darlin but just remember it's not a pretty story."

JPOV

I didn't want to tell her this story yet but all of the questions that she was askin about me was so far centered around my becomin a vampire, so I guess now was better then later.

"Well as I said darlin I was a Major in the civil war and I was riding back to Galveston after helping to evacuate more of the women and children from town before those damn Yankees got there and there was unneeded deaths in the town. It was night time and I happen to come across three of the most beautiful women that I've ever seen at the time. Now, bein the good southern gentleman that my mama and daddy raised me to be, I dismounted my horse and went to see if I could aide them in anyway. The one in the middle, Maria, was the one that bit me. I burned for what I was later told was three days, and all that time I was wishin for death. Once I woke up, Maria told me what I had become and said that humans were on this earth for only one thing, and that was to be our food source. I didn't want to drink from humans, but Maria wouldn't let me 'starve' and force fed me the blood. Soon though, I was huntin humans on my own. We had come to realize that I was an empath, it means that I can effect and control others emotions. Maria was pleased and made me her second in command, and my job was to train all of the newborns and destroy the ones that after a year had lost there strength."

I tested Bella's emotions and I found not an ounce of fear comin from her. What I did feel shocked me, it was pride, love and a boiling hatred.

"Why did she want all of these newborns trained?"

"She wanted to start a war inside of a war. She wanted ample feedin grounds without the fear of retaliation from other vampires."

"Was she successful?"

"For a time yes, because after awhile I just shut myself down. Because as well as bein able to control emotions, I was hit with other's emotions as well, this meant that I could feel everythin that my prey was feelin."

"You said for a time, what changed?"
"Peter."
"Peter?"
"I turned him and he became my best friend as well as my right hand man."
"Will you tell me about him?"
"Sure darlin seein as how you will… that is if you still want me after hearin about my past… be meetin him and his mate soon."
"Of course I still want you Jasper, the past is the past. It can't be changed. Besides even if it could, I wouldn't want you to change your past seeing as how all the hell that that bitch put you through made you strong and the person that you are today, sitting here with me."
"Thank ya darlin."

I kissed her head.

"Welcome cowboy. Now tell me about this mystery man, Peter."

I just chuckled.

"I was out huntin one night when I came across him. He was walkin home whistlin some tune when I came up to him. He wasn't afraid of me or my red eyes and he acted as if I was meant to find him that night and turn him. When he woke up we found out that he had the gift of knowing shit. So Maria made him my right hand man. One day as we were killin the newborns that had no gifts and had lost there strength, was the day that I set into motion my escape from Maria. Of course I didn't know it at the time. Peter's emotions were goin crazy all day and it was startin to get on my last nerve. I told him to leave and that I would finish up in the clearnin but he told me no with a shit ton of conviction behind that little two letter word. I wondered what the fuck was up with him and I soon had my own answer. I called out the second to last vampire that was due to die that day… or whatever it is that we do, it was a female that I turned, named Charlotte. As soon as she came into the clearnin that was when Peter yelled for her to run and keep runnin and that he would be right behind her. He finally showed me the one emotion that he had been hidin from me, love. And it was all directed at Charlotte. It seems that they were mates and that they were hidin it, because mated pairs would be killed whether they had gifts or not. Because Maria though that mated pairs were a liability. I could have gone after them but at that point in my life, I didn't care what happened any more. Maria was pissed that I let them go but she didn't do anythin to me, because she was afraid of me."
"So how did letting them go get you away from Maria?"
"Well darlin, you see five years later, I was out takin a walk when Peter came out from hidin from behind a bush to talk to me. He told me all about the life that he and Char were now leadin. There was no war, no fightin over our prey, and we could feed when ever we wanted. So I went back into the compound and took what I wanted with me, which was my civil war uniform and some old letters that were in my pockets from my family, and left, never lookin back."

"But what about Maria, didn't she come after all of you?"
"At the time that I left no, because she was to busy with another vampire, if you know what I mean, and the others were too afraid of me to confront me, they never got near my room."
"Is she dead?"
"Not that I or Peter have heard."
"So she could come back at any time and try to kill you or take you from me?"
"If she comes back darlin, I won't be goin anywhere with her or leavin you, because I would kill her before she even had a chance to do anything."
"Do you think that she would ever come back?"
"It's hard to say, darlin."

"If I ever get my hands on that bitch, I'll kill her for what she has done to you and Peter and Char."
"You'll have to be a vampire for that to happen darlin."
"Don't worry, I will be."
"So you want to be turned then, darlin?"
"Of course I do. I don't want my mate to look like the eternal stud while I'm looking like a little old lady."

I had to laugh when she called me a stud but then I stopped because she had yet to see my scars.

"I'm no stud, darlin."
"Well that's because your not a woman. Believe me, you are so a stud, cowboy."
"No darlin, what I mean is that I'm ugly."
"Are you deaf, didn't you just hear what I said?"
"I have scars all over my body."
"What?"
"You being a human you won't be able to see them that well but my arms and chest are covered in bite marks from other vampires."

She gasped when she heard that and I felt sadness leaking out of her in droves. I was about to get up and leave when she held onto my arm and said,

"Where are you going, cowboy?"
"I felt the sadness comin from you, over me not bein perfect and I was goin to leave instead of you havin to leave. I understand darlin that you don't want to with a marred freak."

"JASPER WHITLOCK SIT YOUR FUCKING ASS DOWN."

I just looked at her when she said that and sat down.

"Now the reason that you felt sadness coming from me is because I was sad that you were hurt. I never ever want to see you hurt."
"Oh darlin, I'm sorry for the way that I reacted to your emotions."
"It's alright, cowboy. You didn't know and I guess that you had to feel lots of different emotions coming from people when they find out about your scars."
"Yeah I have."
"But another thing that you should realize is that I am your mate and NOTHING that you will ever tell me will make me think differently about you."

"Thank you, darlin. I should already know that it's true but some times it's just hard."
"I understand Jazz, but you need to talk to me first and not plan on leaving me because I don't think that I would be able to survive without you in my life now."
"I know I wouldn't ever be able to, darlin."

She leaned in and kissed me. I didn't let the kiss go on for to long because I had a feeling that she had more questions and I was right because as I pulled away she asked her next question

"So how is it that you came to be with the Cullens?
"Well I stayed with Peter and Char for about five years after I left Maria. I was still feedin from humans and it was makin my depression go deeper and deeper. I knew that I was projectin it onto them and it wasn't fair. So I decided to leave them with promises of keepin in touch. I was in Philadelphia and I was just gettin used to bein out in the day. It was pourin rain and I remember from my human days that no matter how refreshin it was, humans didn't stand in it. So I ducked into a dinner. My eyes were a muddy red not the bright red that they are when I fed. It was there that I met Alice. As soon as I walked in, she jumped down from the stool that she was sittin on and came right over to me. I knew that she would be a good friend to me, but nothin else. We went to a hotel room where her mate, Edward was waitin. I was afraid that he was goin to attack me, but I didn't feel any aggression comin from him. They told me all about the Cullens and how they live off the blood of animals, and I left with them. So the rest is history, as the say."
"I'm glad that Alice was able to help you with your depression."
"So am I. I will be forever thankful to her and the rest of the Cullens for helpin me."

"So then you waited for me to come."
"Right, fifty years I've been waitin for ya darlin."
"It's seems unfair that you had to wait that long for me."

"I don't mind because I get to have ya now."
"For the rest of forever."
"Sounds good to me darlin."

"Me too."

Author's note: Thanks everyone for reading and reviewing. I hope you liked this chapter. *waves* until next time